Hi Everybody 🙂

Hi CriticalMass 🙂
Yes, the cats are hoarders!
They hate to ever let anything go.
Example, I got them a big new scratch post that they all love and they pout because I removed their small ratty worn out scratch post.
Please take care not to over exert yourself while sorting the storage unit.
It is getting hot now and you must keep hydrated.
Skipping meals & snacks does terrible things to the blood sugars and that causes your body to become stressed.
Treat the sorting project like a job.
Take several breaks and have a lunch hour. (((HUGS)))

Hi Porter 🙂
How's the moving out going?

Hi Subclinical 🙂
You can go to a store at the mall!
That's great. WTG! 🙂
Have a WONDERFUL time when your kids are there for the visit! 😀

Hi Tatoulia 🙂
Thank You (((HUGS)))
Wishing you a good solid night's sleep.

Spent today removing everything from 3 kitchen cupboards, washing the cupboards, rinsing the dishes and putting the things back in.
Can't hardly believe how much dust gets into the cupboards, but it does.
Maybe tomorrow I will do the cabinets and/or drawers.
Also watered the grass and sprayed bug spray on some plants that have bugs.

Good Morning 🙂

Hi Subclinical 🙂
Pie? What kind?
My rhubarb has been calling to me to bake a pie. ;D

Hi Tatoulia 🙂
I would love to dine at a farm-to-table restaurant.
Especially this time of year with so many yummy things growing. 😀

8:35 here now.
I have done some more bug spraying outside.
Cats have had their can food breakfast.
Today I plan to finish up deep cleaning kitchen cabinets & drawers.
I have already done 3 cabinets and still have two more to do, the under the sink one and the one where I keep big pots & roasting pans.
There are three regular size drawers and three very narrow ones.
Looking forward to finishing up. What I have done so far has made me a much happier person. ;D

Another delightful day at the storage unit *sarcasm*. Nah, it wasn't that bad, it's just that I'm feeling some burnout with it. I did get some good things done.

I took the church garage sale donations - they've been riding around with me anyway - and finished getting them stickered, and decided just to leave them out there and pick them up on another time close to the date they'll start accepting donations (June 5th). Three boxes' worth, and I may find more to add.

Worked on getting those ceramic bunnies all out where I could assess them. Didn't get all of them repacked, but hopefully now that I know what I'm dealing with, on another run I can finally wrap up that task. Also put some quilting project bags in a tub neatly, and miscellaneous other stuff.

I'm starting to think about estimating for the move. The delays with rain and so on have put me behind in one sense, but in another way it's a good thing, because I think my estimating will be more accurate. I counted how many shelving units are in the current storage, thus getting an idea how many will fit. Hoping that before the move to the new unit, I'll be able to replace old rickety narrow units with sturdy, deeper-shelved ones.

I'd like at some point to move stuff to the center so that my helpers will be able to move the good shelves out and take them to the new place, along with whatever units I purchase. Then I'll remove the ones I want to get rid of. We'll set up at the new place and then the tubs and stuff can be taken and placed where they go on or by the shelf units.

This is still a ways off, but for so many years it has been completely unthinkable that I could even be making such concrete plans.

However - it's been a struggle here lately. I'm just tired of having this dominate my life, I guess. Physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually... Tillie, I can so relate to your panic, and I sure hope you are feeling better. {{hugs}} The stress over my hoard has me ragged out. I started to feel panicky riding in the car with my roommate tonight. And I knew it was just because my brain was so fried. I felt okay asking her to pull over, and it didn't last. She is very understanding about my "quirks."

Well, next week whatever mild weather days we have I'm going to work on the stuff, but I'm also going to try to get to some sort of stopping point - and then assess whether I want to attempt to move the unit during the summer months, or wait until fall. If it's not ghastly hot, and I feel reasonably prepared, and the helpers are available, I may go ahead. If I feel a strong uncertainty, that would be my signal that it's just not time yet. And I'll pray about it all, 'cause that's what I do.

It's okay. The glitches and the tiredness and whatever else will pass. Next Saturday I hope to go to a Steampunk festival and just have fun and forget all these obsessive thoughts for awhile. And I hope maybe even before then I can find a little time to do some artwork. I've resented how much time and energy the decluttering has taken when I just want to do creative stuff and feel the endorphins. I'm all about balance in life, but life doesn't always get the memo - it sends rainy days, gasoline money worries, etc. - things that if I didn't have to fuss with, I'd have had this project done by now. Okay, I'll quit griping. Those ups and downs again. Hope that by next time I post there'll be more ups than downs. Over and out.

Hello everybody! I'm doing a quick laundry before I have to start getting ready for the graduation ceremony for our friend.

Tillie, I aspire to having a schedule for cleaning and washing cabinets. For now, I am going to keep moving forward. In whatever ways I can.

CM thank you for the nice long post. I feel your struggles. You are doing a great job with everything. I'm glad you have a festival to go to-you do need to find some balance. WTG on the church sale items! You are doing a great job with the storage place. You are working through a lot of tough decisions, tough emotions, etc. and you are inspiring me.

I will see what I can do this AM before the graduation. I need to do maintenance on the bedroom if I'm to have that wonderful feeling of walking into a clean bedroom.

Hi Anony
Hi CM
Hi TAT
Hi Tillie
Hi SubC

Yes my wife is terminally I'll.
Diagnosed 3 years ago with colon cancer.
She had it removed and chemo.
Last fall we had a terrible fight, I left and was told she had stage 4 liver cancer so I came back home. She had the lower half of her lived removed , but she is still jaundiced. Last month she was diagnosed with anger in the lining of intestines.
And that is very troubling, no doctor is will to operate or treatment being offered. She's in a great deal of pain. She's not ready to go to hospices. But will go to moms, instead where her step dad is a practicing RN.

She wanted to help me geyser up in my next place , to help our daughter get into the high school where most of her friends are going. It's an art charter school. The back up is she has two aunts that want her in their families. They couldn't be more different.
I've downgraded as much as I can to match my income to my housing and car expenses. Hopefully I'll be just fine while waiting to the $650 a month that social security will provide my for my daughter.
My plan was to find a transition home . Something that I afford alone while waiting for the benefit, but once the benefit comes , basically pays the rent.
I got lucky , in the amount of time we had to go d a place , I got one that accommodates all three of us. ,even more comfortably than the old house.

We've live with window air-conditioners for 18 years. Now moving to an air conditioned home.

And to address the hoarding issue.
Even though it has a large ,slightly damp basement.
For containing 90 tubs . I had over 200 tubs and various larger objects of clutter. It was all in piles.
After watching you tube about hoarding tips and decluttering videos .

I came away with the understand that I need to spend time with the hoard, in advance of a move.
I did this and got help from well wishers.
Those willing to help my wife. I organized a cleaning party , a Chili party the day before the super bowl . I had 3 teams AM , noon, PM
We went room by room , and cleared everything including carpet, we painted, replaced carpets, and moved furniture. I another team taking unsorted clutter I tubs to a second storage unit.

Over the next few months we sorted the clutter in the tubs , labeling ,photographing and creating usable friendly shelves.

I knew we would move at this time. End of May. At the completion of my daughter's 8th grade middle school. Her last day of school is the 25th our last day in home is the 24th.
But we had trouble with the home owner and the property manager both. And we're only given 20 day notice. We hoping to stay the summer. But now we're out.

Basically I had two weeks vacation coming from work. I have the option to cash it out.
So I cashed out 9 days which help me gain the security deposit. And luckily I get five checks in one month, so borrowed money from a relative for 1 month so I could pool more than enough to move.

My wife was struggling with utilities until I pointed out the amount that she is behind on the. winter natural gas bill will be the same as the deposit . So the remaining balance and deposit will cancel eachother.

We're , bundling the TV internet, and I'm forcing to eliminate smart phone.
Wife will go on her mother cell phone plan.

Daughter and I will go on home phone. And tablets.

Wife's disability is 2100 a month.
She's agreed to pay $500 a month once she goes to hospice care at her moms. That will be more than enough to get by on till the end.
She is reluctant to leave her daughter, and I'm OK with staying as long she wants. I was the main caregiver to my dad when he passed 20 years ago. I know what and how thing will go.

I was telling a friend at work about the situation.
And asked where he had been , I hadn't seen him for a few days. He said his wife died of heart attack. While we were working. And no o e knew how to reach him, he didn't get to say good bye.

So on one hand , my suffers , but on The othet she's had three years to help raise our daughter.
I'm not a doctor of course , so I don't know how much longer she has. But on the 24th of May.
We will be In High school phase. Which is what my wife has been getting up every morning for her daughter to go to a school of art.
Well done , my wife ,well done.

I've been working the other angle, and buying one instrument a year, for her to try and master. And for 3 years she's been in Glee.

Whatever lable we could put on our marriage.
We are basically just parents. And somewhat relateble to Tillie's arrangement of coexistence.
But she's helping me become stable from middle school to high school if she can. 1 week to go. And the ducks are in a row.

If that's not right Tillie then I apologize.

Hello, all! ~♡~
Ive been having weird,scary back pain that has now moved into my legs & hips. I did get a good bit done on that corner cupboard, so that feels good!
As bad as i am about procrastinating, it really does seem like a constant stream of obstacles is always a big part of it. And its never a standard problem. Its always something totally bizarre or unusual. Im gonna blame the planets for a minute(ha ha). Joan? You understand astrology, dont you? This is what im dealing with. I have a combust Sun-Venus, and Virgo rising. My property purchase chart has the Sun and Moon intercepted in Virgo! Now how in blazes am i suppose to deal with that? And i have a retrograde Taurus Mars! ha ha ....ok, enough blaming the planets...but still....ha ha ~☆~☆~☆~

I remember something about living life without regretting your economies. I do not regret the decision to buy a large 60" tv for each bedroom , and 1 in the living room. I started a few years ago buying 1 a year. Donated all the tubes. My wife's eyes are failing her. But the screen is large and she says it's the one thing she sees well. Plus it acts like a night lite .
I imagine in the future we will get some vitamin D from them. And grow seedlings plants near them .

It's been in the mid 80s and the this house is usually within 4° of the outside temp. In summer.
All house GA e an issue or two. But I'll be glad to get out of this one.

Hello, all! ~♡~
Ive been having weird,scary back pain that has now moved into my legs & hips. I did get a good bit done on that corner cupboard, so that feels good!
As bad as i am about procrastinating, it really does seem like a constant stream of obstacles is always a big part of it. And its never a standard problem. Its always something totally bizarre or unusual. Im gonna blame the planets for a minute(ha ha). Joan? You understand astrology, dont you? This is what im dealing with. I have a combust Sun-Venus, and Virgo rising. My property purchase chart has the Sun and Moon intercepted in Virgo! Now how in blazes am i suppose to deal with that? And i have a retrograde Taurus Mars! ha ha ....ok, enough blaming the planets...but still....ha ha ~☆~☆~☆~

Today's music.

Riders on the storm.
I drove all night
Emotions
It's alright.
Hooked on a feelin

Something from the gaithers
I want to ride my bicycle.
Flight of the bumblebee
Lady in red
Ela Fitzgerald
Saturday in the park
Strut
Lola falana
Change , man in the mirror
Will you know my name
The belario
The dancing queen
Whip it!
I killed the sheriff
Muskrat love
Theme song from squad 51
Hello from the other side.
Us and them
Blade runner love scene.
Art school girlfriend
I want candy
Cannon ball
Forget paris

Hi everyone!

Tatoulia, I'm sorry you had a sad ending with your brother yesterday. Thank you for telling me about him. I'm glad for you both that he is in a better phase.

Did you get your laundry done? I hope you get to enjoy your clean bedroom fix. 🙂

Tillie, I've never thought about being able to go to the mall as a good thing. You made me laugh. It's like a useless superpower "I can go to the mall!"

My kitty hoards unpleasant furry lumps in my garage. I would prefer old scratching posts! He does usually come back to eat his "treasures" if I don't carry them out with a shovel right away.

CM, it's important to take breaks and shift your focus to something that feeds your soul! Otherwise the weight of it all will grind you down. Remember it's a marathon, not a sprint. And have a great time at your festival!

I think three boxes to donate sounds like a good dent! And I'm glad you found all of your bunnies.

Anonymoniker, yay for progress on the cupboard! I don't understand astrology at all, but I do know a little about back pain. Please be careful!

I spent most of today "churning". Shifting things around in the basement and moving things to other rooms. If you remember, my house is under renovation, and dh had to remove a piece of air duct, run a plumbing line, cut an existing plumbing line, tie into it, and put the duct back. All while moving a ladder around and working above my hoard. Happily nothing got wet or damaged including dh. I even managed well enough that he didn't get angry at me - which is rare on these occasions - the hoard must be better! (Or dh had a visit from the patience fairy)

There are now three piles back in the guest room, but one is going to school with me on Wednesday, one is a few things for my kids to say yes or no to, and one is a new goodwill pile. I plan for all of them to be moved out by Friday.

I found two books to part with, which is great because books are very hard for me. Only in the last year, as part of the dehoarding process, did I reach the point where all the books can be on shelves. As far as I know, for the first time in my life. Definitely in over 40 years. I remember packing piles of books from my room for our move when I was 7.

I also spent some time on the dining porch and all of the papers are off the floor (I am using three of the six chairs for sorting). Can't see the table, but the floor is clear. I am also caught up retroactively on the paper purging, and good on the milk.

I have two large boxes of non recyclable containers in my car to take to the lady at the food bank tomorrow, and when dh asked what I was doing and I told him, he decided we should have take out again from the place that was the source of all the take out containers I am getting rid of. It has been months.
Overall a good day.

Good morning everyone!

Porter, thank you for sharing your story. I'm sorry that your daughter is going to lose her mother, but it sounds like you both have done an amazing job to create a supportive environment for her. It's good that she will have aunts that love her if there are things she wants to talk to a woman about.

You got rid of 110 bins? Wow!

Tatoulia, are the Christmas things in the current piece of furniture? I see the problem there.

Tillie, I hope the zombie apocalypse is over.

Hi Anony, did you finish your corner?

Yesterday turned out to be exhausting just getting through it. Fixed breakfasts, packed lunches, did basic chores and kept up with milk then off to school. (I teach part time - it's not a regular school, it's a support program for homeschoolers) the year is winding down and there are so many extra things that need to be done, plus yesterday had more than it's usual share of glitches.

Dropped recycling and trash, handed a cake pan off to my son in law, picked up a library book for dd, and went to the grocery store. The grocery store went really well in spite of my being exhausted. I did buy 4 bags of snacks in bags that will become garbage, but the bags are large enough that I can use them as trash bags instead of recyclable plastic grocery bags. And I remembered to ask for paper bags which the food bank needs.

Came home and pulled off dinner and evening chores, but my kitchen is a mess and I didn't touch papers or the guest room. I went to bed at 9:30 without setting my alarm, thinking that I would sleep until dh got up and do chores a little later today since I am home until 4. Woke up at 5:30 anyway, but feel more rested. A few more 8 hour nights would be good!

Great work, SubC!

After graduation I visited with mom and then came home and napped. I work from home tomorrow so will catch up on laundry. Got sheets changed this AM.

I will now make sure all dishes are in dishwasher before going to bed. Just tired today, I'm afraid.

Hey everyone!

Very full from a business dinner. Cannot wait to crawl into bed!

Furniture I'm getting rid of is a clutter magnet but no drawers for storag. Just always piled with stuff. I do want to get rid of--hopefully this summer.

So full right now. Will ttyl! Keep up the good work!

Hi everyone, Tillie, Porter, Tat, SubC, CM. I enjoy reading your posts. It is usually too hard for me to post things. I just get through my days.

Anony, good to hear from you. Sorry to hear about your back pain. Yes, as you surmised, I know a thing or two about astrology. However, I have not studied Western astrology. The systems I am most familiar with are Vedic (Indian) astrology, called Jyotish, and ancient Egyptian astrology. The ancient astrolgy is encoded into the playing cards. It is a system with which I resonate.

Cats are hoarders! Great! Tillie et al, you are very observant about that. I like to stare down cats that are lounging about.

Things have been OK lately, but no decluttering to report at this time. Take care, everyone.

Warning - LONG post - sorry!

Read back through a lot of posts . . .

Tillie, I get a mental picture of the cats protesting your pulling up the catmint - are they hoarders too? LOL! As my clutter club lady says, "They make more." Tell that to the kitties. It might reassure them. 😉

Porter, good for you for letting your rational mind keep your emotions from leading you into a bad choice with the sister-in-law. It's hard being disciplined on top of having so much work to do and stress, but keeping busy and marking your successes as you are doing leads ultimately to peace, I think. We can all learn from previous generations' mistakes as you did, commit to not making them ourselves, and if we do there's hope for humanity.

Joan, I know what you mean about the mental health system. My cousin suffered through so much - and the meds ruined her kidneys. She didn't want to have dialysis and she died two or three years ago in her 50s. I think she just wanted the struggle to be over. She was a brilliant and talented artist before the mental illness hit hard in her teens. But she had some symptoms even as a child that no one knew what to do about that long ago. May she rest in peace. I was thinking of going into a career in the field, but I was dealing with my own stuff and it was kind of triggering being around it, wishing to help people more, feeling like the "system" was broken, praying I never got stuck in it beyond the point of no return. So in the end I decided that career wasn't for me.

SubC - that's great about the people who can use your containers. I totally get what you mean about how when you make a plan and then plan your day around it, and it gets canceled, it can really throw you. I don't deal well with disappointment in general. Also - very wise of your daughter and son-in-law not to get entangled in student loans. I did, and they will haunt me to my grave unless I win the lottery. . . learn from my fail, I tell people.

Oh, and in answer to your question - it's just the storage unit that's getting moved in the immediate future. I rent a room/house share with a friend. I'm on fixed income, Social Security disability, and a slew of vehicle repairs drained the last of my reserves over the last couple of years. So I'm working on building some back. It's really slow, but I'm learning to pinch a penny till it begs for mercy!

Eventually I want to have a place of my own again. I wish it could be a house, but that'd take a miracle with my income and credit rating. Low income housing in my town tends toward the ghetto-scary. There are a few places for seniors, and I just turned 55, so I don't know if that's a possibility at some point. My hesitation with those is they have a lot of rules and I'm not your conventional renter. I have pet rabbits and would like to have a cat or two, for starters. It's going to be tricky finding the right place. But I defer those decisions because I have plenty on my plate.

Dealing with my hoard and clutter is the best thing I can do right now, today, to pave the way for a brighter future. Hoping at some point I'll find the right place, and my hoard will be pared down and I can just move into the new residence and eliminate a storage unit altogether. My roommate's house is not that big and I went from my parents' 3 br with basement house that got foreclosed, to apartments or friends' houses these last few years.

So I feel I need the storage unit even after I get rid of superfluous things, to store family memorabilia and my familiar carefully selected cookware, my books, art equipment, and so on until I set up housekeeping again. I'm not storing furniture; I don't even want much furniture. At first I was stubbornly holding onto my excess smaller things, but I've had a series of spiritual epiphanies that have enabled me to become not only willing, but enthusiastic, about downsizing. I've gotten rid of a lot of "stash" fabric and yarn, and much paper/magazines and knickknacks. I hope to have a place eventually that I have conceived as "Artsy Minimalist" in decor. It will be like an art studio/residence combined. I've started a Pinterest board for it.

Weather has sure slowed me down in getting the storage dealt with these two months. The rainstorms in my immediate area the last few days weren't as bad as predicted, but tonight there's one that they had thought might be severe. It seems to be less intense than predicted, unless something new develops overnight. In any case, I hope for no damage to my van. I'm going to look into some kind of hail protection blanket, since I have no garage and my van's so old, not insured comprehensive, and I have no money to replace a windshield. Tired of getting nervous when they predict hail. So far have been blessed we haven't gotten any, but in Kansas one never bets against the house.

The process of decluttering since my last post has certainly had its ups and downs for many reasons. I got a few new boxes (these are cardboard but smaller than the cardboard boxes I've been working on eliminating. These will just fit down inside plastic tubs. So I don't consider that reneging on my commitment to eliminate crummy old cardboard boxes full of papers and junk.

At the unit, I pulled out the biggest old box of ceramic bunnies, and three smaller boxes, sat down and went to work sorting. Also discovered a collection of frogs I'd forgotten about. Those had been pared down once, so not much to do but repack them in a small box marked "Frogs." The bunnies I started separating to donate a few more of for my bunny club's door prizes. And other items I found, old toys and such, I set aside for my church's garage sale in June.

I packed two of the smaller cardboard boxes and taped them up. What was left was very tiny bunnies that I wanted to wrap in tissue but I was out of tissue. By then it was getting late, and I needed to get home. So I decided I'd lay these bunnies carefully in a flat box to bring home and wrap at my leisure during the predicted rainstorm days.

That's when it began to fall apart. I'd been out there with minimal food and hydration. I try to see to these needs, but I guess I need to start taking a cooler with extra water and snacks. So I was getting irritable. Then a gust of wind knocked a lid onto the mini bunnies before I could pack them, breaking one. 🙁 And then, I discovered two things - another fairly substantial sized box marked "Ceramic Bunnies," and through the side of a clear plastic tub, a bunch of fragile items including a couple of . . . you guessed it - ceramic bunny planters. And some memory stuff from my parents, several of those being fragile pieces.

The plastic tub in question was one that the social worker and I had done initially, a couple of months ago, when she was putting me onto the concept of getting rid of cardboard boxes and when I thought the moving from one storage unit to a closer one was going to be able to happen this spring. Now I'm not so sure if it will - I'll explain in another post.

Anyway, OCD person that I am, I decided that these ceramic bunnies too are going to be accounted for and packed in boxes before the move to another unit. This is because as I've said before, I don't want to be all jittery when there are helpers, and I don't want any helpers feeling guilty (or worse yet, having me get upset with them) if something does get broken. And in the process I can find a few more I don't want to keep.

So all of a sudden I had a bazillion new mental processes going on: I'll need more boxes, don't worry about the broken bunny it can be glued, better get these strewn out ones packed, I can separate the church donations from the other donations at home, and more. So I tossed my bag of trash and shut the unit, got in my van and off I went.

It was a warm day, I was hot, grubby, and irritable. I don't like to buy fast food and drinks if I feel I can make it home and not have to spend those pennies I'm pinching. But that drive was tiring and I got angry when I saw people not pulling over for an ambulance, and I was pretty frayed by the time I pulled onto our street.

And then it happened that I got home right at the same time as my roommate with all these things on my mind, and I confess I was pretty grumpy when she was trying to tell me about her day because I felt like my mind was trying to grasp everything and thoughts were slipping away, with the low blood sugar, dehydration, ADD, and just too much to do at once. And then I went out to the van to assess what to bring in, and discovered I had brought a freakin' SPIDER home with me! It proceeded to retreat in among the stuff in the van; I never could get close to kill it. I pray it stays hidden until it dies . . .

Finished up that day spreading a number of the items out on the lawn, and sitting in a chair with my boxes completing the sorting as the sun went down. Didn't care if the neighbors thought I was nuts. Still wanted to do more, but had to quit when the light was fading - and I was so tired I could barely move anyway, and I just HAD to eat and rehydrate.

That was Monday. Tuesday and yesterday I was busy with other things. Today was the first calmer day with no set agenda, and I sure have felt a lot better. Finally a chance to regroup - I still haven't done all the sorting, but I'm not as driven. Too tired to be driven! I took a nap this afternoon. It was lovely. Tomorrow maybe I can finish the sorting. There's more rain predicted. But if I time it right I can get the stuff indoors.

Like I said, ups and downs.

Hey,Joan? Im glad youre doing well!
Vedic astrology seems scary accurate, to me! ...i guess that sounds weird?! It doesnt try to constantly make bad things seem 'positive' like western astrology does. Its much bolder & more specific. Anyway, the sign Virgo is about cleaning & organizing in western astrology. That is a majorly challenged sign for me as well as my property!
My back is MUCH BETTER NOW!!! I am sooo relieved! That was awful! It really got me thinking about becoming incapacitated & staying stuck in filth...what a nightmare...

Warning. Creative outlet is raw and far out there today.

Had more Eureka thoughts about
Flying bicycle.
Using sailing tech on how to block airflow and then force the flow into more or less force.

I know its a vague concept. But I'm putting four technologies into one concept. And a fifth Into crash suits instead of seat belts.
Basically if it's top speed is nearly the same of skydiving it'll be much safer than hurtling toward the ground striped into heavy machinery.

There will need to be 20 years of tweaking and I wo t be around to see it .
But my concept is a not a automobiles replacement, rather a single riders choice to fly a light weight commute vehicle. That is a marriage of bicycle and hovercraft. They seperate the hover craft can float for 1 hour. And bicycles have a range of 100 miles on pedalless hydrogen. The bike is oft the shelf tech already in existence.
The concept is the hover craft just hovers.
But bicycles wheels are converted into forward motion by using the bicycle wheels that have fan technology
So when you may longer fly , you park the hover craft, snap off the bike, and ride the rest of the way on a zero pollution bike.

The concept is that the path of flight near cities
One way lanes. Crating a foot path. Covered by a inexpensive tunnel. The flyers and the walkers ,and bikers separated by the tunnel. So that crash landings dont land on people or property .

However the draw is equals the bicycle tech.
Hydrogen powered bicycles have a range of 100 miles at 40mph. I'm just changing the wheels.
The rotar blades are inside the wheels . I stead of spokes. Dropping heavy mechanical parts buy using the human strength for steering. The hover craft is automated. You just set the height , and the hover craft simply hover that high. But the the propeller blades inside the bike wheels steer the direction. Of the hover craft. I imagine it will. E like the getting on the bike backwards and using the free wheel to to steer like the rear fan on a helicopter. For stabilizer

Then the chain wheel will drive the propulsion.
My adhd keeps this like a puzzle in my mind.
And simply cannot wait to get the move over and start building components on the 3d printer.
My vision is it look less like a car and more like a flying life jacket. Molded into the shape of flying saucer hover craft. With tear shape crash capsule. . It always sounds bizzare until I say put the Harley Davidson sticker on it.
Then it's like the coolest thing ever. The flying Harley hover cycle . Runs on hydrogen.

We all pee out enough hydrogen to fly 5 miles a day. No drilling, no treaties, no trade route transportation. It's a game changer.
I imagine using wind and solar to extract the hydrogen From our pee. Is that's needed. It wouldn't be long the flying Harley could go to your markets unmanned . And retrieve your items without the weight of the human. To steer it. And get the weight of human in items .

Add in other transit techs like flying 10 miles to a subway station. Where all the loading and unloading occurs and the. It rides the train. To the take off spot. And returns to your home.

So the hoarding angle will be we would keep our supplies near cities in storage units. And when needed we retrieve objects from the units.
A simple bar code system allows leeks to enter units load and unload the items.

.what this does.
So much money is devoted to road infrastructures.
But hover bikes would need so much less time and mass to maintain. Not to mention . No one can charge you for peeing. It's up to you if you want to extract the hydrogen.

in the air tonight
purple rain
imagine
November rain
symphony of destruction
super Nova
black hole sun
thunderstruck
hell's bells
pink so what
oh no he's got to go Godzilla
heavy metal. by Sammy Hagar
every breath you take
we didn't start the fire
from this moment on
sweet child of mine
with or without you
electric avenue
everything's gonna be alright
everyone wants to rule the world
bohimien rhapsody
stone cold
iron man

today was hot, I got 9hrs at work, and as git home and felt the slightest fall from conciseness my wife invited me to lunch, I know better than to let her eat alone.
everything was fine and we got the call from the property manager , that 430 pm we can sign lease and get keys.
I'm happy but wish it was earlier. however I'm very pleased to move into something that fits my situation so well and is in my price range.

I just love queso and salsa, I brought half home, and fell like a rock into water, woke up in the sun on the couch, it was 87 on the in home thermostat. I took a cool shower put on the playlist , and wife came home with more food from Olive Garden. I've ate like a king.
I've loaded up the electronic drums into my car, and all the speakers and supporting equipment. deflated an air mattress.

have all windows open. and am now just resting . borrowed $300 from my brother and used it to reserve a $19 truck from uhaul. through Sunday at midnight.

I took Wednesday off prior to or move out date make the final exit.

my plan is to get at the low hanging fruit. that helps to clear the moving space , but in organized ways.
and then the biggest objects of each room that can't fit in our vehicles.
then the big TVs. and start with moving the structures into the basement.
by the end of the day Friday I hope to have all beds at the new place and in the air-conditioning.

wife is handling all utilities, property management gave us 30 days to put it all in our names which helps to move out with properties having full power. and yet enough time for deposits to kick back balance payoffs.

I've grown a full beard,
I thought I would be in the freezer dept permanently, but I'm back in my old positions.
my experience was to see everything coming and learn the differences between new and extended staff. adjust accordingly. when they use me elsewhere they lose expediency.
putting two newbies in my old spot and still doesn't match my experience. it's very silly job
basically getting boxes unstuck in an antiquated conveyor system. the maintenance man is scamming the company by not adjusting guard heights , I've reported it until I was blue in the face, and no longer care, because it's my job security . if he did his job , I would be out of a job. if it were not for the company trying screw out us out pay and passing problems back to the staff. I would try harder to fix it myself. but they cut my hours , no way I help them cut them more and make the job more intense for others in my absence.
I used to get 50 hrs a week. now 38.

so as soon as I get settled. into new home, I'm starting the uber career.
but just to cover car expenses.
basically 2 fares before and after work.
and from 12 to 4 am on Friday and Saturday nights.
and no alcohol of any kind during months I'm employed by uber.

forgive the only about me post as this was pre-written in another app.
I thinking you all often. hoping you are all well.

Hey,Joan? Im glad youre doing well!
Vedic astrology seems scary accurate, to me! ...i guess that sounds weird?! It doesnt try to constantly make bad things seem 'positive' like western astrology does. Its much bolder & more specific. Anyway, the sign Virgo is about cleaning & organizing in western astrology. That is a majorly challenged sign for me as well as my property!
My back is MUCH BETTER NOW!!! I am sooo relieved! That was awful! It really got me thinking about becoming incapacitated & staying stuck in filth...what a nightmare...

Hi everyone!

Porter and CriticalMass, I love the long posts! I am getting to know everyone.

Porter I am ver excited for you about your move! So close! You work nights? That must be hard with your daughter. When my kids were little dh was on shifts for a while and that was always hard. Maybe it would have been easier if it had been consistent.

Growing a beard and no alcohol are both thrifty. 🙂

CM, I find I need to watch my hydration a lot more than I did when I was younger! And take more breaks.

It's great that you are making progress. I am a collector of many things also. I have an "assorted" ceramic animal collection that is all tiny, and then the ceramic cats... I had all the little animals together in a case, where I almost never looked at them, but recently I put two on my kitchen windowsill next to a plant and they make me happy every day. Now I am thinking I should get some kind of padded box with dividers and just put a few out at a time.

Tatoulia, what would happen to the clutter if you got rid of the furniture? Would you clean it up and stop accumulating it? That would be good, right?

I still have not gotten to the papers. I am also falling behind on the milk again. Too much to do! Yesterday I planted 11 baby trees that had been slowly dying on my porch (11 did die, 9 more need to be planted.). I am trying to learn not to bite off more than I can chew, but it is so hard. Today I teach and then I have to set up for a show for my students at a local studio. Home late.

One area where I am working on manageable quantities is at the food bank. We get day old bread to give out. The bread comes in many times a week, and it is Ruth's job to sort and display it. I've been helping her. Before we open, we go through the shelves and toss all the moldy bread into discard boxes. These boxes go to food bank volunteers to feed chickens and pigs. Because I have chickens and bring in eggs sometimes, Ruth is always pushing me to take bread. I am very happy to have the bread because it cuts feed expenses, but I can very easily succumb to taking too much.

Also, at the end of the day we toss the oldest bread and the varieties we have way too much of that rarely get chosen into discard boxes. The rarely chosen breads are often ones that I really like, and they are now "two day old" bread (two days past sell by date). So I don't feed those to my chickens when I get them, I feed them to me. I have to resist the urge to fill my freezer with bread - "they make more!"

Yesterday before I left I made a rule that for every loaf I kept from the chickens I would take one out of the freezer and give it to them. I didn't follow it, but I put one in the freezer and took one out. However, I kept a couple of bags of rolls in the fridge to make sandwiches for dh and dd. But I had almost used up the rolls from last week. I should give the rest of that bag to the chickens....

I have to be careful about the rolls, because dh gets mad that i feed him "day old bread" which I think is stupid. I go to the grocery store on Wednesdays. I go to the food bank on Thursdays and Mondays. So the bread from the food bank on Thursday is one day older than buying fresh bread at the grocery store, and the bread on Monday is three days fresher!

Good morning everyone! Good to hear from you Joan & Anony. Just do what you can physically--Hoping for a peaceful and healthy summer for all of us.

I am working from home today and hope to stay focused so I can get a lot of work done and take a few short breaks to work on my house. I have a lot to do this week--more than usual so I need to be vigilant and focused. No time for distractions.

Have a great day, everyone!

CM--enjoyed reading your post--I haven't read anyone else's just yet. CM you are making great progress--the ups and downs are natural. It's good that you've recognized that you can ease the ups and downs by making sure you have some extra waters and snacks on hands. I definitely weather the storms better when I'm properly hydrated. With my mother, I note she gets very blue when she hasn't eaten enough so I try to keep laughing cow cheese wedges in her fridge to give her a little boost throughout the day.

You are making great progress! I am so proud of you!! I hope to apply some of your strength to my own situation this weekend. Week has been hectic and I have a hectic weekend coming up but I can do it--with your help and encouragement!

Everyone, have a good day! Tillie I'm thinking of you and the kitties and hope you get some nice outdoors time today!

You are correct about Jyotish, Anony.

If you give me the month and day of your birth, I will give you your cards in Egyptian astrology. In that system, usually no extensive calculations are needed.

Hi Everybody 🙂

Well, as I have admitted here before
I have "issues" with going places and being around a lot of people.
The other night as I was preparing to go to bed
he came in and informed me that he had a Dr. appointment in Reno the next morning and I would have to drive him home.
He knew about this appointment weeks ago but didn't bother to tell me.
I can drive the 150+ miles round trip and I can maneuver the traffic there
but I need time to mentally prepare myself to do this.
Anyways, I had a complete and total break down.
He ended up having to call someone else to take him.
I have been recuperating and getting myself back to "normal" or what I consider functional.

Reno and the city of Sparks (which is attached to Reno)are large cities with lots of people and crazy rush hour traffic 24 hours a day.
Carson City (Nevada state capital) is just as bad any more too
and it's just as far away.

Hi Joan!

Well I have succeeded in dusting my bedroom and washing the mirrors. Will vacuum now so I can feel better about things. The more I do, the less stressed I'll feel about that mounting pile of things I must accomplish.

Tillie, I am so sorry to hear this. I'm glad he found an alternative but feel so badly about how much it took out of you. Please rest and enjoy the quiet if you can. I'm so, so sorry.

SubC, I too enjoy the long posts. I'm not good about replying to each person but I read them and get s lot out of them.

Today I have a charity walk followed by taking my brother out. He held up pretty well when I told him we couldn't do first thing in the AM the way he wants.

I slept well last night. It was cool out and I had my windows open and ceiling fan on. It was heavenly.

I'm doing a quick load of laundry--things I can hang in the shower to dry--and will get ready to go now. I don't have time to change my sheets before I leave but I will make my bed. Believe it or not, I make my bed every single day. And even at my worst, I changed my sheets once a week. Now to get back on a vacuuming schedule!

Good Morning Everybody 🙂

Hi Tatoulia 🙂
WTG! for doing the things that will help reduce your stress levels. (((hugs)))

Hi Joan 🙂
Happy to hear from you. 😀

Hi Subclinical 🙂
WTG! for all your sorting and shuffling and finding things that can be moved out.

Hi Anonymoniker 🙂
YEA!!!! for feeling better (((hugs)))
So true, we must think about whatever the future holds for us and that one day we may not be able to do as much as we can do today.

Hi CriticalMass 🙂
I want you to not have this hanging over your head draining your strength and monopolizing your time.
You are doing GREAT!
Getting plans straight in your mind and sorting and repacking the delicates. (((HUGS)))

Hi Porter 🙂
Please let us know how things are going with your move out & in whenever you get a chance.

Took yesterday off from life.
He was gone all day so the cats and I had the place all to ourselves. 🙂
Got outside by 8:00am this morning and watered all the plants, sprayed some wasps and hosed off the front porch and walkway.
Need to cook some food, real type food today so I will have something real to eat whenever I get hungry.
Otherwise I just kinda sorta snack and don't have a "real" meal. LOL 😀

I will be your friend forever, Tillie.

Note: I've been having trouble posting since I updated my Firefox browser - unless it's not that. Has anyone else had difficulty the last week or so?

Semi-quick update on me, but I want to go back and read everyone's posts.

I've been going out to the storage unit and working on the sunny days. And guess what - we have more rain days predicted this week! Tomorrow night severe storms predicted. Pray that they aren't bad.

I always worry about my van getting hail (or blown away in a tornado). It's so old I only carry liability on it...I'd be up a creek without it. I'm phobic of public transportation (and our system's not that good) and also of walking or biking out of sight of my own street. I feel that need of a protective "shell" that my vehicle provides. And as a woman I've had too many creepy encounters in certain parts of this town to feel safe from crime on bike or foot, either, even if the phobia didn't already preclude those options.

The van also currently houses those of my possessions that can't fit in the house but that I need close by. Including only copies of writing manuscripts I need to scan into the computer, my good doll clothes/quilting fabrics, and misc. When I move to the closer storage unit, those will go there, and my van will be open and roomy again. But a lot needs to happen for the move to take place.

Along that line, as I said, I've been going out to the current unit. It keeps me busy and that's why I haven't posted here. Each day I intend to. Other things in life also - Mother's Day get together, pet sitting so my roommate could travel to see her mother, etc. Busy, tiring days.

That one day last week - Thursday or Friday maybe, I lose track - I did really well with a couple boxes of papers but then discovered about six hidden ones. Then Friday and/or Saturday, tackling those, good progress. Yesterday I'd have taken a day off but then I saw the weather forecast so decided to go while I could. But I had one large box of very assorted stuff and it was really jumbled and a b**** to deal with. I only got through about 1/3 of it. If I find it's driving me nuts, I may just repack it into one smaller box and go ahead and let it be moved to the new unit. Maybe letting it sit just a short while longer I can come at it fresh and do better. I don't want to get bogged down.

There remain a few more goals I'd like to make progress on before the move. I want to go through the ceramic bunny collection - my largest collection. I think I can pare it down, and pack the keepers in small boxes instead of one ungainly large box. Some artwork I haven't gone through - maybe some of those old canvases can just go bye-bye, unless I want to reuse them. Just get a general idea what's in that corner where they are.

Stuffed animals - if I can bear to part with any of them before the move, that'd be great. Greeting cards - I shudder to think, but if I could corral them together at least. All of the above are, of course, the things I'll be dealing with in more depth from the new unit.

And a few small clusters of loose stuff here and there that need to be bagged and just thrown into tubs for transport; they can be integrated into their proper places in the new unit.

In the paper sorting I have been doing the last few days, I've run across some of the more emotionally charged stuff - things that remind me of my late parents, of guys I went out with, of my breakdown that led to dropping out of grad school. But I think I'm stronger, thanks be to God, and I can look at that stuff and yeah, it tugs my heartstrings but I have hope for the future now, which is a powerful weapon against the way such things used to drag me down.

It's still a lot of work getting to where I want to get, though - so wish me luck! 😉 With all the rain delays, and the heat of summer rapidly approaching, I'm not sure if I'll meet the goal of making the transfer to the other unit before it gets beastly hot. Or being tempted to wait until fall. I defer that decision till I get through some of the stuff described above. It may be that when I feel ready to move I'll be like, damn the heat, full speed ahead. We have our clutter club this week and I'll see my social worker there; I'll give her an update, and maybe she can see it from an objective perspective. I know right now I feel too close to the whole thing to think very clearly.

I brought in 6 new pieces of paper today, so I need to get rid of seven. But I am worn out. I left the papers on the kitchen table - hopefully tomorrow I will deal with them and any new ones and purge two extra.

I took the pile to goodwill. It pretty much filled the back of my Ford Escape. Loosely though. I saved (besides the previous list) two books, a picture frame, a curtain rod I intend to reinstall after she moves out, and a bear. A big bear. I Just can't let the bear go.

While at goodwill I bought an two piece outfit. This is a good thing however. It is currently in the dryer. The top will go back to goodwill and the skirt will replace my current too long and a little too big red skirt - which will also go to goodwill. Plus a skirt that is so much too big I almost lost it last weekend, but I have accepted that I will not get around to taking it in, and it is one size past my "but I need something pretty to wear in my fat stage so I don't get depressed" size.

The guest room bed has a sweater drying rack (in use) and the bear on it. There are 4 piles on the floor that I think I can knock off at a one a day rate. I have 10 days before ds comes and have not addressed the dining porch.

That's exactly what I've been doing.
I found one , and bought it for $60

Wouldn't you know it, mother in law disapproves.
She worked as receptionist at a appliance repair man in rural area. She says they cause and is the reason her daughter is sick. Ugh!

I bought it anyway , I tried to avoid the did issuing but mother in laws true colors couldn't contain herself. And blasted away.

I said its more likely what she was eating on the plates than how they were washed. She pointed to mold around the liner. I'm like. Hey, I'm more concerned with mold growing in unwashed dishes.

Not to mention. , I got rid of plastics, and China.
Only Pyrex glass bowls and pie plates. That way I. An see through the plates and use a green scratch pads to Scrub anything visible.

She just scoffs and says she will never at at our house. I just roll my eyes. I use bleach I. 1 cap full to a gallon and spray on After washing. Do dry and kill, I use anti bacterial soaps. And RE rinse and two Apr t before serving. I don't even wash the flatware anymore . I only use plastic disposable forks and spoons. So they are just tossed out , $4 a month.

It's when they cook. They don't clean as they go.
They don't like my fish and fasting approach. O they fix messy foods and demand since I didn't cook it I should Clean. Its a catch 22.

But I dont care anymore.
I will be using the dishwasher if I wash pots and pans. Rather than soaking them in the sink .
And then wash them by hand. When I put away and rinse before serving.

I know bleach is toxic. I use correctly. Just the cap on the bottle, in one gallon of water. Other wise I'm poising my environments. But use straight bleach on toilet bowls. And use rubber gloves.

And sinks and showers I scrub by hand and spray the bleach water on And air dry.

I hear what she's saying , but feel like she wants me to do it here way or no way. I've offered for to take over the chore herself. So she have the standard met, and she does on Days she's here.
But she wants me to do it her way when she's not and she's sometimes gone for ten days or more.
.
I just keep paper and foam plates available if anyone isn't happy with my glass and scratch pads.

They were so mad when I threw out the plastics.
I think that may have been a factor , she's was always nuking plastic containers in the microwave.
And eating straight from the microwave.

I try to earn my opinions by looking up information of the internet, with a grain of salt. But I know half of world microwave ovens are banned. So I use them with caution .
Like I turn on
For example
I turn on the stove ,and put a pot with a tiny amount of water in it . Then microwave the rest of the water in a glass . Then pour the water in the pot. It makes stove top steaming very fast.

Mostly I use frozen vegetables due to salts in canned foods.

So heating up the stove takes longer. I use the microwave to heat water much faster than waiting boil. Usually in 2 minutes I can have a pot of boiling water. And that's what I use to sterilize dishes that were once dried and stuck on foods.

But I cant get the woman to listen.
She may have time to wash dishes. In the clean as she goes method. When I cook , I do clean as I go.
But 3-5 days a week I get pots pans and bowls with dried and burnt foods In half way filling the sink.
So half is soaked and half is just a burnt and stuck on mess.

So I just don't care anymore.
The portable dishwasher is my way. Until someone else wants to do it their way first.
Not to mention. Everything's else I do. Cut grass, porches, toilets,sinks, refidgerators, microwave.,tables and counters, under couches and beds , cars , trash , and vacuuming. I even adjust the thermostats, manage air-con, ceiling fans , smoke detectors and pay bills.

I MEAN. GAWLEE, dishwashers are designed to steam sterilize . My dishwasher leaked . And she came one time when I was being invaded by ants. .
In the very room where cookie baking wife spills alot of sugar. MIL sees this and says I'll never eat at your house again.

You know what I was thinking. Right ?

BA-BYE!

Still this argument exists.

I read the below post after writing, Tillie.
I understand . I've been unhappy a long time and have similar issues. I have wanted to leave many times, but it would moving away from my daughter.
Last year I was hit with a frying pan. The argument that led to it was ridiculous on her part and I was a jackass, I was gone two days when my mom told.be my wife was at the cancer center. I went to see if we're true. 20 days later they removed half her liver. She begged me to come back because she can't do it alone. But she gets mad and unreasonable.
And yet I still sign a new lease with her.

I wish I knew how to be happy with her. I wish I knew .