Hi everyone,

Skimmed through your posts, and I'll be back asap to catch up better. Lately I've just been working on adjusting my sleep schedule now that I am more convinced going to bed earlier benefits my ability to be productive.

But it has been an up and down thing, with occasional unintended backsliding. Also, and I have no idea why, the daytimes here lately seem to FLY by and I can't seem to balance some computer time, prayer time, rest time if needed, other productivity time, etc. before the day is suddenly winding down.

And there's always the additional complication of living with another person and having to fit my agenda around that reality. You'd think in five plus years it would get easier; it hasn't.

Her working from home may play a small role, yet before, I remember there was still this interruption in my continuity around the time she would return home from work. So it's probably about the same. There are benefits to her being home, too - she is less stressed. And we can do some fun things.

It's just all so different from how I'd hoped my life would go, in so many ways and going way back to when I was first out on my own... adulting is way harder than I thought it would be.

Thinking still about whether I could train into something and be able to get off disability and make a living and be independent. And avoid the pitfalls of anxiety and excess stress.

I watched two blue jays pull apart a neighbor's window box today. They don't have any flowers in it. I was sitting at my dining room table and just watched them.

Bf came over and gave me the NYTimes magazine so I did the crossword. Finished it in one sitting (rare). Didn't love it but that's fine. Last week's was an A+ even though it was harder.

So there was a march in Boston today and I marched. It was nice and peaceful and large. I saw a bunch of my neighbors who were watching it. Now I'm showered to get all the COVID19 off of me.

Cm you are doing a great job with your approach for your roommate's thyroid treatment. Go easy on yourself!

My cleaners come in Wednesday so I'd like to spend some time Tuesday shredding papers.

I'm laying down peacefully right now. And the my little buddy is on her freshly washed cotton tablecloth. I ended up doing three loads of laundry.

I'm hungry but don't feel like cooking. I had thought we were going to run errands today but then the protest was going to keep us from being able to travel in a car. So I joined ?em.

I did a good deal of work work today. I'll feel better facing tmr knowing that I got some work done over the weekend. Still a heavy load.

Good Morning Everyone
"Clink!"

Hi Tatoulia
YEA! for having a good visit with your Friend. 😀

That's so wonderful you found that GrandPad.
Too many devices are just impossible to see and work the teeny buttons.

Good luck getting all the recycling & trash out.
That's a very rewarding job with immediate visual results.

Hope you are staying in out of the heat.
Do you still have some juice bars?

Last night I did 2 loads of laundry and have already brought it in, folded and put it away.
Still 100+ daily but it's also been humid from the clouds that build up every evening.
Yesterday I made more ice cubes, enough to fill a gallon size baggie.
Been going through a lot of ice daily here. ;D

Good Afternoon Everybody

Hi CriticalMass
Another thing that is really bogging down people's computers these days is that so many people are at home all the time.
Working online, playing computer games, streaming Netflix or just surfing the web.

Yes, make no big plans until Roommate is out of her radiation quarantine.
I remember living with Steven's was very time consuming for me with logistics and him trying to break the rules.

WAY TO GO! storing the DVDs better.
Little fixes like that make things much easier.
Good luck with your little bedroom organizing plans.

Hi Tatoulia
Thanks 😀

WTG! getting Miss Kitty's winter things washed and stored away.
I recently put a white cotton sheet on the rocking chair and both the cats just love it.
Scooter is napping there right now.

Glad today you have better weather.
No more walks when it's too hot and humid.
Hope you feel better real soon (((HUG)))

Lucky you having a thunderstorm.
YEA! for showering without cat help! ;D

Warmer inside now but I still want my socks on.
The wind is very robust, knocking branches off the trees.
Saw an Oriole this morning. Impossible to miss seeing that bright orange bird.

Good morning! Bracing for the scorching weather!

laundry is in its bag and ready to be picked up. I just brewed my coffee and I'm about to pour a cup. I have yoga at noon.

I have a few chores on my list today. I have to get as much garbage and recycling out as possible. I've been saving packing materials and now that the box is safely in the hands of the post office, I can recycle the rest.

Mom is enjoying her GrandPad. She calls me all the time but not too much.

Okay, what are you doing today?

Hi all

Another hot day here. Both my roommate and I said about an hour ago we weren't going to take naps. Shortly thereafter she went into her room, and I was getting sleepy. So in a few minutes I'm going to take a nap too. LOL.

I thought of a place I could stack some small tubs of DVDs in my room that I had piled awkwardly, so I did that. It's a relief, because where they'd been stacked was blocking access to the art shelves I'd been happy about getting organized a few months ago.

Think I'll work on another area where office supplies are kept - things aren't efficient because some items are shoved back more out of reach than they need to be. It'll be an easy fix and I'll be glad to have done it.

Little things, that don't consume vast amounts of energy in the hot weather, but that hopefully will constitute small successes and encourage me to tackle the more challenging areas of my room.

Tillie, I confess I'm terrible about not shutting down my computer till I'm forced to. It's this frenzied brain of mine that wants to open so many tabs and also mutitasks between research online and writing I do in the word processing, and/or graphics and photoshopping or art. Plus still just trying to organize the file directories and things in this new-to-me laptop.

I did check when this Dell model came out - 2011. Not much newer than my dearly departed Toshiba. It was considered a "mobile workstation" not just a laptop, and was supposedly quite a powerful machine for its time. Refurbished, I wish I'd asked more questions as to whether there were upgrades done before these are sold and what those were. I may still be able to find out more about that.

The thing is, I used to be able to get away with this style of computing on Windows for years up till just the last few months or so on the Toshiba, when the motherboard was failing. So I don't know. The Linux operating system is hard to know what questions to ask about when you're a newbie to it, because there are so many different ways to customize it I guess. Users who know their way around amaze me. Even with newbie questions I read on help boards, the answers - sometimes the questions themselves as well - go right over my head! I need Linux Kindergarten.

But it's behaving itself better today, so yay.

SubC, you hit the nail on the head about the executive functioning. And I sure hope you're recovered okay from the panic attack. Sometimes they come when the stress is letting up, just like a person will get sick after a long time of stress. That holding on, then finally not holding on anymore to health, because the energy is depleted. It will return.

My roommate's treatment approacheth, and I've realized that to survive the logistics of that with my sanity and hers intact, I should be very low key re goals till the end of the month. Otherwise I'm just going to obsess about what I'm being thwarted in getting done, and start to feel grumpy about it. This is not the time. Realizing that wasn't thrilling but it will be helpful. I'll lower the bar to 1" off the ground if that's what it takes.

Tillie, I'm glad you got a cool day in there. What a relief. Our heat is supposed to break a little by Tuesday.

Tatoulia, sending you a big hug and bunnies send wiggle nose twitches to cheer you.

Iced tea clinks, and now I will shut the computer down completely so it can stay happy. 😀

A quick hello before going to bed. Was good to visit with my friend today. She was cat sitting so it was great.
Dangerous heat for tomorrow. I,l just stay in and stay safe. Have all I need, although I should take a quick peek at kitty's food level.

Good Morning Everybody

Hi CriticalMass
So many pretty pink flowers. 😀

Hi Subclinical
Hope you all have gotten some rest (((HUG)))

Hi Tatoulia 🙂

Very quiet & cool morning.
Mostly Finches out there enjoying the Catmint (Catnip) seeds.
I let it grow tall and go to seed just for them.

No real plans for today.
The cats all have plans, mostly just sleep and eat.
Was able to finally find all my genealogy websites online that the computer update deleted from my favorites.

Hi Tatoulia
When it comes to being generous it is what we do, our actions alone, that count.
If the recipient of our generosity is being disingenuous
well, that's on their soul/karma.

You are doing amazing with your budgeting and working on paying off that debt!
Even if it takes longer than 8 months you are still way ahead of the payment schedule.

So sorry that happened to your vein.
Could you please have them do the other arm to give that vein more time to heal.

You really did have a busy day today.
WAY TO GO!

So happy you are able to actually be with your Mom again.
Too bad little Sister probably wouldn't enjoy a car ride too. ;D

Enjoyed being outside this evening watering stuff.
Cowgirl Kitty helped me.
When she's here Scooter can't come outside because he is mean to her but Twinkles isn't mean to her.
She is terrified by the sight of Jack and will run away hissing.
Jack just ignores her.

Great work getting the heavy drape washed up and returned! Nice to hear about your grandparents' house SubC and your daughter's shower! Great work working through your panic attack.

I am not feeling like myself and having a tough time. Yesterday I went for a walk with BF. Very difficult because of the terrible humidity and wearing the mask. Today is more of my weather.

We had very loud and scary thunder and lightning during the afternoon. Kitty didn't come out for a very long time. I was even able to shower in peace.

I'm doing work work today. I'm just so bored.

I just checked downstairs and since the washer was empty, I put in kitty's bed and blanket. Then I can put those away til the fall. This time of year she needs a pillow case or a table cloth. Cotton.

This will help relieve some of my stress.

What a lovely sight that must've been, Tillie! All those quails.

I do need to be mindful of my pocketbook, which may bring the laundry to a close. I am paying over 3X the monthly amount in my small loan. I'm trying to see if I can get rid of it in eight months. Ambitious and aggressive. If I don't meet this goal, I'm fine. Right now I make in excess of the monthly payment via automatic withdrawal every time I get paid. So that's over twice the speed. Then I sneak in extra bits and bobs whenever I can.

So I'll continue with the laundry service for the summer and make decisions in the Fall.

Tillie I'm going to be doing platelets in the future instead of blood donation. The woman at Red Cross cheerfully told me I'd be eligible for platelets by Monday. This after the bloody mess and fainting. My arm was still bleeding when I got home and was oozing a surprising amount when I woke up today. Instead I've scheduled the last Friday in August, which I believe coincides with the end of being able to take one charity day a week. So after that when I want to do platelets I'll have to do on weekends. Normally we get one charity day a year, which I save for soup kitchen work.

Mom enjoyed the ride. We just drove around and around. Honestly Tillie I did more today then I've done in the last three weeks added up. After dropping off mom, BF and I were putting finishing touches on the birthday box when I said, you know what, I'll drive to PO now. And when I got back I walked home from the garage and decided to go to Whole Foods and the hardware store.

I really should've done a second or third load of laundry but I didn't feel like it. I've hung up my laundry, I've cleaned the dishes out of the sink and I've told my poor old cat that I love her.

OH! I stopped by goodwill but the donation trailer was closed. There was some woman who sort of flagged me down and wanted up see what I had. She said she'd been in a fire. I don't know if she was scamming or not but she didn't offer a ton of details the way that most scammers do. So we went through my stuff and I was so grateful for the things she took. I had only the top sheet to my nice white sheets and so I got her number and I'll meet up with her next weekend to give her the bottom sheet. They are beautiful cotton sheets but they are sateen and I'm strictly a percale girl. She said she also likes white sheets and I showed her that they are clean and nothing to fear and she said, I can see how clean they are. So I was driving off when I realized I have a Macy's gift card for a kind of high amount and I stopped the car and gave it to her. I don't know if it's a scam but I did what I wanted to do.

Love you Tillie.

Good Morning Everyone

Hi Subclinical
Your Grandparents home sounds lovely.
Wonderful memories to have of the times you and your Cousin stayed there. 😀

I try to do my best to keep Steven's squalor and clutter out of this very tiny house.
But the rest of the property is completely a mess.
People think I am the hoarder/squalorer and that the inside is as terrible as what they can see from the outside and have been very cruel to me.
The latest attacks have been someone calling and saying they are from the homeowner's association demanding to know the condition of the inside of the house.
There is no homeowner's association out here, I just hang up without saying anything.

The cats & I are very cold today.
Had to get out the little space heater just to thaw us out.

I am ecstatic! that you got to take Mom out for a drive!!!
How wonderful for the both of you ((((HUG))))

So, the laundry service must not be too high priced that you will still use it for linens for now and still do clothes at home.
We know you are being mindful of your budget and financial goals.

A clean and careful Friend who lives alone would have a safe house to social distance in.
Safer than the grocery store.
Hope you go and enjoy being company. 🙂

Have fun with the test paints.
Make sure to look at them in different light (natural and artificial) all through the day and night.
That's how I found the perfect paint.
Some times of the day some shades looked good but looked "muddy" and unappealing at different times of day or night.
The one I chose stayed lovely in all the different light.

Just a little after 6pm here...
Soon I will venture out and water some stuff.
It's only 97F in the shade out there now but the sun is still too intense.

The Quail live here year round.
They like to spend the night in that evergreen right outside my window.
Their Babies this year are all female and Daddy is very proud and protective of all his girls.
One year I had a flock of about 100 Quail traipsing through my yard every day.
It was awesome. 😀

I think the only place I have ever lived in my life that had 0% squalor ever was when I lived with my grandparents at their house in a beach town in the summers. My grandmother would have people come in for a week before school got out and deep clean, repair, paint... then my cousin and I would show up with our suitcases. We had a little room that just fit two twin beds, a nightstand, and a laundry basket. You had to sit on my bed to open half the sliding closet door because there wasn't room to stand between the bed and the closet - even for a kid. We had a little hanging room and we each had a shelf and the rest of the closet was full of games and extra dishes. There was a lamp and a radio on the night stand and some art things and cards in the drawer. Just outside the bedroom door was a floor to ceiling bookshelf full of books. the bedroom door and bathroom door were across from each other but not quite at the end of the hall to allow for the bookshelf. We each had a round mirror that looked like a ship's wheel, and we would hang things on the spokes over the summer. Now I have a few of the games and the lamp and my mirror and dd2 has my cousin's mirror.

Hello everyone!

Oh I bet the baby is precious. You were very thoughtful to let the other grandmother have her time alone. I dinhope you rested up! What a wonderful, magical grandmother you will be!!!

Tillie I love quail. Such beautiful birds.

I took mom out today! I took her for a ride! She got in the car and I let her take her mask off. I kept mine on, with the windows and sunroof cracked, and AC blasting. She really hadn't been out if the house since her fall, which was in February, I think.

Afterward I finished boxing up my friend's daughter's birthday gifts, and took them to the main PO. and I also went to Whoke Goods yo get some vegan spanikopita. And I went to the hardware store to buy a small can of primer and some small brushes so I can try out the three paint samples I have.

I'm showered and home. I just put in a load of delicates. I'm not really doing laundry these days. The new washer is fantastic, I have to admit. But I've loaded up my towels and sheets for pickup on Monday. For now, I'll just go clothes. They do a nice job and it saves me time and focus. I lose too much focus when I'm working and watching the laundry. Well see how long I'll do this. I'm hoping in the fall to get back to doing it myself. But for now, I need a break.

So that's what's going on here. I am supposed to go for a walk with a friend up where she lives (leafy suburb) abs tomorrow is the start of a heat wave. She told me to come up anyway, she's just cleaned her house and we can socially distance while enjoying an iced tea. She lives alone and is extremely careful and cautious so I'm up for it. BF agreed that it's safe to visit this friend.

Thanks Subclinical

((((HUGS))))
PTSD from online school.
Maybe changing the table around or putting a table cloth and center piece on it would help erase the memory.

YEA! for the Baby shower!
Happy she has all those goodies. 😀
I remember how fun it was to constantly look at the baby things I received and think about the future.

WTG! for getting some more tomatoes in the ground!
Yep, weeds 🙁
There are always more weeds to get.

I washed dishes and wiped up things,
it's all back to zero degrees of squalor.

Hi Subclinical
None of us here are worrying one wit that you won't have that beautiful boy eating enough in a day or two.

What fun getting to know all his little mannerisms as he becomes aware.

(((((HUGS)))))

Please do take a nap and rest up.
You have been through a lot too. 😉

So relieved she has her Mom with her at this time.

Glad your drape is done!

The shower was nice. Dd got so many goodies!

It was kind of fun to see where everyone called in from.

But I had a panic attack 15 minutes before it was supposed to start. I think it was because I set it up on my classroom table. I am still not past the online school stress.

Hot here. I did manage to sneak out and plant 4 more tomatoes before it got too bad this morning. No weeding though - and it needs to be done.

The kitties like a fresh dish!

Baby is darling. He's a lazy eater and wants to sleep too much, so we are struggling with that, but he is doing ok.

I am back at my house for a short time because the other grandmother is coming to visit this afternoon and has to stay socially distant and wear a mask because her husband is a minister and their church has resumed it's normal activities. So it seemed polite not to have me around. I slept over last night and will again tonight. Trying to let the new parents get some rest.

I'll probably take a nap while I'm home.

Good Afternoon

Would be such a lovely coolish day if the wind was not RAGING.

The drape smells so fresh and good!
Glad that chore is over & done with.
One more thing crossed off my To-Do list.

Did a wash load of rags.
Still need to wash dishes.
Made a lettuce tomato & avocado salad and made Italian dressing.

Twinkles went out and was found under the sage bushes getting more brick-a-brack imbedded into his fur.

I accidently took a short nap.

OK
The drape is washed and out on the clothesline.

I dread cleaning this drape because it is so large and very heavy.
It is fully lined with that insulating blackout material.
But it's so pretty and only cost me 5.00 and had no snags until I brought it into a house full of cats.
The insulating blackout material is very nice to have year round.

Got all the hardware and bit of wall all washed and ready to rehang the drape.

Good Morning Everybody

Cool overcast morning, morning low 40 degrees, high today only upper 70s.
Extremely high fire danger later today when the winds pick up.
Tomorrow's low will be 35 degrees with a high in the 50s.

Plan for today is to wash the livingroom area drape.
Then all drapes & curtains will have been done.
Should also wash dishes.
There are only a few, rinsed and stacked neatly beside the sink.
I am tired.

Good Morning
"Clink!" ice tea toast.

The Quail family woke me up just at sunup having a major discussion right outside the open window in the evergreen tree.
Was able to get back to sleep once they quieted down again.
Scooter was extra rambunctious last night at bedtime, annoying Twinkles and me.
He kept attacking my feet under the sheet.
I hate that cause he uses his claws.

Haven't made any plans yet for today.
I do have to respray bug barrier around the doors because there have been spiders wandering in this week.

Good morning, coffee clinks.

DD's online baby shower is today.

It's supposed to get hot early, so I don't know if I'll get any outside work done.

Yesterday I got all the remains of school out of the den. Now I need to clean the dining porch (Which is also covered in school remains) so that I can start putting the furniture back in place.

I did not play in the creek. The creek is running high and muddy. Not safe.

Tatoulia, the charity wasn't dd's idea. It was her boss. She has a great boss. Her company is not as community focused as yours, but they treat their people really well.

I don't feel like I am accomplishing very much, but I am trying. I am also resting a lot. My body and mind are tired.

My cousin posted a thing about executive function and all the ways the current situation taxes it. It was meant for teachers to help kids - who are still developing executive function, but since those of us who hoard tend to have weaknesses in that area, it applies. Basically, if you are making any progress at all, even not buying markers, that is good. Because just dealing with life right now uses up so much of our capacity.

Good Evening Everyone

Hi Tatoulia
So very sorry that happened (((HUGS)))
Glad you spent time near BF working the puzzle.

So HAPPY Mom is using her GrandPad!
"Happy Dance" 😀

WTG! getting litter.
Something Miss Kitty appreciates you doing for her. 😉

Today I washed dishes & wiped up kitchen.
Vacuumed the carpet.
Did cat related stuff & swept too.
Watered stuff.

How come, why is it that just as soon as I have all the cat dishes washed some cat immediately starts demanding can food?
Do they have an issue with me having ALL dishes finally clean and put away?

Well I walked the mile to Red Cross and it felt good. They had trouble with the needle and someone had to keep holding my arm and moving the needle and I started to faint. Not good but I walked most of the way home. Took the subway one stop to go visit BF. I haven't seen him since Tuesday, I think, although truthfully it could've been Sunday. Do I sat with him and worked on a crossword and eventually had to come home.

Mom seems to be enjoying her GrandPad. We video chatted again tonight. No glimpse of the kitty.

Speaking of kitty's, I couldn't clean the box today due to no litter. I have the litter now so should go change it.

Good Evening Everybody

Hi Tatoulia
That looks like a lovely place to visit your Mom.
Very happy for you (((HUG)))

WAY TO GO! for getting your charitable donation money matched!
Glad they have rectified that oversight.

Hope BF's worries resolve themselves in the most positive ways possible.
These are such hard times with so many unknown answers.

YEA! for laundry!
We aren't worried that you won't get back to sorting and organizing.
It's been one heck of a whirlwind week.

I think one way to help eradicate racism is for young people to make and share a meal together.
Helps them see that we are ALL the same.
We eat, we make plans, we can work together.
Breaking bread together is a good way to bring people together.
This is what we did to relate to other young people who thought differently about Native Americans.
I see you are hungry so I happily give you half of what I have to eat.

Hi CriticalMass
Very happy Bunny Boy only had a tiny touch of a belly ache! 😀

Glad Roommate is able to do things again and had a nice walk with her Dog.

I find dresses are cooler to wear in hot temperatures.
No waist band and cool breezes blow up your skirt. 😉

Do you remove temporary browsing history and cookies?
Those will slow down & make any computer "boggy".

WTG! for laundry and scratching off some other things from your list.

Glad you had a good Dr. visit and have the new meds.

Season 4 episode 29 "Dark Shadows, the beginning".

When I was leaving WallyWorld yesterday there was a tall African American man standing guard at the door.
It was obvious that he was a hired security guard even though he wore no uniform.
We smiled to each other as I passed and he wished me a good day. I told him to stay healthy, he said he would.
He was probably wondering why WallyWorld hired him for this location.
So few people here, the kind that smile & say hello to strangers.

Also, at the end of my road sitting beside the irrigation canal was a Mallard Duck.
He was so pretty!

Hello everyone! Great to read your posts! Tillie, I bet you looked beautiful in your dress and hat! How nice to see (and hug) your friend.

SubC and CM, I am in awe of how much you are able to get done despite feeling sad or anxious! Good work! Your daughter is terrific-getting those penalties and donating them!!! Fantastic thought process!

I have only been working, nothing much else. I saw mom from the patio and I think I posted her picture. She is so sweet.

I have figured out why I'm so behind at work. On the days I used to go in (Tuesdays and Fridays), I stayed late, usually til 7 or 8. Now I finish each day at five except for Fridays, because Happy Hour starts at 3

Our company issued a very thoughtful email on the death of George Floyd and has put its money where its mouth is with a pledge of $50,000 each year for at least the next four years to a charity. I forget which one but in the vein of social justice. Other initiatives are also taking place. I mentioned that my donation to the NAACP Empowerment Fund wasn't eligible for a match and the CEO forwarded it to the head of our charitable foundation so she rectified that immediately. In an odd twist of fate, the person who heads up our foundation is the last person I hugged. So long ago. First week of March.

One of my close friends had testified before the legislature about being the parent of African American boys (she is Black, her late husband was white) and she told our CEO about this and he called her for more information and hence the announcement from the board. It took them only a few hours.

We can, from now through Labor Day, take one day a week to help fight racism. I'm pumped. I am deeply involved with my neighbors and I'm glad I'll be able to do more to support them on a community basis rather than just on a personal level.

I have not a lot to show for myself here. I did change my sheets yesterday and I did one load of laundry today. Now that everyone's home full time, I do find that doing laundry in the afternoon makes more sense.

Not a lot to report here. BF seems worried.

What an exciting time for you Subclinical! 😀

YEA! for washing the Dog!
Such an important milestone for you today (((((HUG)))))

Hi Tatoulia
Make sure to drink the juice and perhaps eat a cookie.

I have the hose out slowly watering stuff.
I just sit in the house and time it then go out every few hours and move the hose.
Makes me feel like I am busy doing something. 😀

A hot, slow paced, but otherwise okay day here. Last night roommate's bunny boy started having his tummy trouble again, so I was getting medicine into him and planning on sleeping on the couch to be able to check on him in the night. Then he started nibbling hay. Was fine by morning.

I did sleep on the couch, but didn't keep track of the time too well and it was 2:00 a.m. all of a sudden and I was still on my tablet. Ooops... so a little tired today from less sleep and the heat. It's in the upper 90s here. Tuesday they say it will only be in the 80s. Hope they're right.

Glad you had an enjoyable shopping trip, Tillie. I can picture those cute kiddos. 🙂 And you in your dress and hat feeling confident - that's fantastic. I sometimes think about wearing casual dresses for everyday - it might feel good in a way. I haven't for a long time, so if I did, I'd need to get used to it!

Right now, though, I'm in my shorts, tank top, and flip flops. My roommate got up and walked the dog in the morning, which she switches to doing when the weather gets hot. She is off post-op restriction now, so I don't have to go unless I want to. She said they had a nice walk of over a mile.

I remember when worry dolls were popular in the late 80s-early 90s. It's a good idea, putting worries on something and then letting go of it. Post-it notes could also work.

Are you enjoying "Dark Shadows: The Beginning?"? We are up in the 60s episode number-wise. Only time for 1-4 episodes a night, usually 2 or 3. Still, we're a quarter of the way back to where the Barnabas Collins episodes begin at 200-something.

My computer is still having problems being laggy. Today it even has had moments of being slow when I type. I am hoping to research what might help. Need to see when this model was issued, that would be a starting point. The computer shop is open since people are working from home.

SubC, that's a great idea your daughter's company had about donating the safety fines. I'd have liked to see the look on the sub's face, LOL.

Tillie, that's so cool about your dad wiring the space shuttle launch panels. You honestly could write a book about your life. I'd read it!

Did a couple small-medium laundry loads.

Scratched off some finished items from the household To-Do list, some of which were joint projects with roommate and others just my stuff. I rewrote the remaining items onto a fresh list, and I'm also putting a few of my decluttering in my room to-do items in a list on my phone app. Those are the ongoing decluttering things or ideas for rearranging in my room, is why they're temporarily separate from the other list. Should be quick projects then I'll delete them as I go.

The protests aren't making me feel panicky as much - I hope it's obvious in what you know about me that I'm a behind-the-scenes type. I would rather pray and talk to people quietly and support those who I think are doing something positive, than go out in public in big crowds not knowing what might happen. I was bullied in school and physical confrontation scares the crap out of me. I suppose I have PTSD from it.

Anyhow, my baseline anxiety level has lowered to tolerable. What I was experiencing when I wanted to buy all the colored markers and maybe several dolls the other day, that feeling is now going away. I know. I'm a nut with sometimes poor coping skills, and I don't mean to make light of the bigger issues. I feel them very deeply. And sometimes I desire to escape, and I feel guilty because I CAN escape and a lot of folks can't. I just was in a rather frantic state of mind.

I haven't taken the evening xanax dose yesterday or today, which I had been doing in the extraordinary circumstance. Yesterday I did have that Zoom appointment with my doctor, which I had kind of dreaded but it went reasonably well. I set up the laptop in the bunny pen, and she asked to see my bunnies so I held them up. And she is agreeable to another step down of that side effect laden antidepressant which I've been eager to ditch if I possibly can - slowly. The pharmacy is processing the order for lower dose pills.

Hope Twinkles enjoys his spa treatment.

I won't tell anyone about your illegal liquor bottle upcycling, SubC. ROTFL!

Hi Tatoulia!