Ok cleaners are at mom's, then they come here. Then I shower and nap.

Trying to hang in here. Stress levels high.

Ok the hazmat waste people came and took the needle containers. What a relief. Only one box required so $75. Thank goodness. I was starting to panic that it would be $225. Very smooth process. I may still pass across another needle receptacle but such is life.

My cleaners will clean her apt at 1. They are going there first, then my apt. I am very excited.

Was a nervous wreck yesterday. Doing better today.

My sister wrote me to say how lucky the family is to have me. Just once I'd like the acknowledgement that I am unlucky. Sorry to be negative.

Thank you both so much and Ms. Kitty too (((HUG))) 😀

I watch these cute animal videos on Youtube on the tv through the Roku.
The other day there were two goats playing and butting heads and they had pretty colored foam pool noodles fastened on their horns.
That way they could play and nobody would get hurt.
It was very cute and made me think of Subclinical.

After I rested up a bit this afternoon I ran the vacuum, scooped litter boxes and swept the floors.
It was a good day. 🙂

You did it!!!! Congratulations!!! I am so proud of you!!! Kitty is proud too!!!

Tillie,

I only gave a minute, but I am so very very proud of you!
And happy for you!

Yay Tillie!

Good Afternoon Everyone

I DID IT!!! 😀

Shortest distance to the credit union is by turning left out on the dangerous highway, I did it!
At the credit union the notary notarized my will and advance directives.
They were all very friendly and helpful.

Then drove into downtown and found a parking space near the courthouse.
Went in, passed through the metal detector while my purse was x-rayed, nice lady officer called me "Darlin".
The court clerk was great, happy and friendly.
Now my will is on file at the courthouse so nobody can quibble that the copy isn't legitimate.

Then drove to the office business and had copies made, one copy of the will and advance directives for me & one for Nate.
The lady there was very helpful and nice.

Then drove to the pony express (post office) and asked the nice clerk about mailing envelopes.
Got the envelope.
Now I just need to write Nate a little note and then mail him his copies.
So, one more trip to the post office this week.

Came home, ate lunch.
Been resting.

I DID IT!!!
And it feels so very good. ;D

Good Morning Everyone

Hi Subclinical
Thank you 😀

YEA! a table at the Spring sale!
Have fun swimming today.

8am. Drinking tea.
Don't need to rush since most all the places to visit today don't even open till 10am.
High anxiety but I won't allow that to stop me. 😉

Tatoulia and Tillie, you are both being amazing!

CM, did you get to the gym? My mom says it's never too late 😉. Today is a swim day for me.

Much to do this morning and have to leave early to go by the pottery studio and sign up for a table for the spring sale.

Thank you Tatoulia
Yes, I feel very good/relieved that I have made these efforts to take direction with my life/death.

I believe that animal and human spirits are eternal and what we have felt/loved in this life we will remember even after.

Makes me smile thinking of BF and the kitty. 🙂
From what you described, your Mom's place would have made anybody feel uncomfortable and anxious.
WAY TO GO!!!! for you doing what you are doing and especially for hiring help!

YEA! for getting trash/recycling out!
Badger has the free time to chew on your heels to help you get those papers shredded. 😉

Tillie, I am so proud of you! Taking charge of your life (and afterlife). Your gramma would be so proud of you. I'm sorry about the sad anniversary. I don't know what you believe or don't believe, but I hope you'll see her again.

We took care of mom's groceries tonight but can tell Bf loves that new cat. He also loves how mom's place is shaping up and he's much more willing to just drop by now.

All garbage and recycling out. I didn't shred papers but I did get a good walk in today.

CM, SubC, Tess, Dazed... everyone and anyone...stop by when you can.

Good Afternoon Everyone

Hi CriticalMass
Hope Badger got you to the gym.
Remember Badger has a Tardis so it's no problem for him to get around. 😉

Hi Tatoulia
WAY TO GO!
Decluttering and delegating tasks!
FANTASTIC! that you are managing your savings that way and taking care of number 1 first.
Good plan taking that bag of "keep" home. 😉

My Granma has been dead 35 years today. 🙁
Seems the older I get the more I miss her.

Did a bunch of food prep/cooking. Kitchen is a mess but I just ate and am taking a short rest before I get to it.
Plan is tomorrow I will see the notary at the bank.
Then go to the courthouse to have a copy of my will documented.
Then go to the office supply place and make copies so I can send copies to Nate.
Then to the post office to get a mailing envelope.
Whew!!!
That's a lot of running around.
I have cold feet but I WILL do this!
Yes I will. 😉

I have released the badger!

Just got back from mom's. Emptied the chest. Took the top off and broke the lock. I had wanted to put it in my car and put it out back tonight for free pickup but nixed the idea and will have the place charge me a disposal fee. I'm doing all I can right now.

I did take my bonus from Friday and immediately put it into a savings account not tied to my checking or other savings account. I need to find a way to take care of me and not everyone else. I need to find out what day they are paying our annual bonuses (something separate). It used to be the first week in March but they've changed it, I think. I'll have to figure it out.

I threw out a few things that she didn't see me do. And it killed her to have me trash her Burberry coat, which I would've gladly had drycleaned and would've loved to have for myself, but it's too far gone. She probably got that fifty years ago in London. I couldn't even donate it. But she wore it forever and a day. I wish it had been good enough for me to wear.

I let her keep way too much. I also just stacked everything and told her that she and her aide are going to have to figure it out. I'm delegating.

Oh boy she's a pain in the buttinsky. But such is life.

I'm home. I have a bag to taje from her house for me to "keep" but in truth, I'm donating.

Tatoulia, can we share the Badger? Or find a sibling. I need him or her to get me all the way to the gym. I have almost everything in the van ready to go.

Will report back afterward for accountability.

Thanks,

CM

Dazed I'm sorry you couldn't access the group. YES call the 800 number and they will help you! I've even spoken to Corey himself a few times! Very dedicated!

When I first came on here I spent a lot of time reading the posts. Very helpful! So please do all and know we can help out!

Sometimes starting out means getting a trash bag and filling it with trash. For me, I like to make my bed. We all have different methods but one goal. Also, stay hydrated and eat as well as you possibly can. Move forward! We are here!

Tillie that must've been great to catch up with Nate! And yay for getting your affairs in order. Last year, when I made a new will, it felt so good. Now I know BF will inherit everything and if not him, then one of my closest girlfriends. And it's a relief and a weight off of my shoulders.

I'm doing laundry and I'm so excited. Then I'll quickly run some errands but not too many as I think we'll be running errands later.

I have not made any paperwork progress. Where is the badger??!!!????

Oh, SubC, we can't put needles in the trash here anymore. The rule changed in 2013, I think. I'm just grateful mom no longer needs insulin so this will be one big expense then done.

I wasn't able to access the online support group. I want to join you all because I need help desperately. I am trying to access this from my phone, and the box just doesn't appear.

I'm going to call the 800# for the hosts of this board, and see if they can help me.

I did read some posts yesterday, and they helped me to the degree that I know I'm not alone. That in itself is inspiring and gives me hope.

Good Morning Everyone

Hi Dazed
Hope you found what you were looking for. 🙂

Hi Tatoulia
WAY TO GO! for all you have been getting done at your Mom's!!! 😀
Yes, Never mix pineapple with cranberry juice! 😉
BF is right, something she hasn't seen in ages, doesn't need, is not important and she doesn't even remember owning it can be snuck out.
Just keep reassuring her that if she ever needs something (like those syringes) they can be obtained in less than 20 minutes. (((hug)))

Hi, Subclinical
Wishing you good luck finding that paper quickly.
Please be kind to yourself.
When negative voices start up in your head firmly state positive affirmations to yourself to drown the negative out. (((HUGS)))
WOW! she's getting an apartment!
YEA! Now you will have some more empty space! ;D

In a little bit I will go out and hang laundry on the clothesline.
Have a plan to cook a veggie, beef and rice dish later today.
Then clean the kitchen, again.
Had a long telephone conversation yesterday with Nate!!!
I called to get some info from him and inform him & Mrs. Nate that I am preparing my advance directives and will.
Once they are finalized and notarized and the will has been entered down at the courthouse I will send them copies of everything.
Then I can stop fretting about "what if" something happens and I don't have my affairs all in order. 😀

Good morning! I'll take the badger today, if that's ok.

I need to shred papers from my closet. It's absolutely ridiculous that I keep putting that off.

I will also work at mom's today. I need to clear out her hope chest and disassemble it. BF reminded me to just sneak out stuff I need to sneak out.

I'm doing laundry. I haven't find any all weekend. That's not like me. But I've been taking good care of mom so I guess that counts. I was exhausted yesterday from going out Saturday. We kept joking about my hangover (I don't drink) and how I really shouldn't have mixed pineapple juice with cranberry juice. So reckless!

I know I have more posts to catch up on. But for now I'll have some coffee and start shredding. I owe it to myself.

Good morning.

I am going to need that frog today.

My list of all the ways I am failing started before my feet hit the floor.

Also I lost something small, important, and paper. Now I can't take the recycling until I find it or go through each individual piece.

Dd2 was here yesterday. She is signing a lease on an apartment by herself in March and will need some furniture. Also, I told her she will need to take or pack up all of her belongings. At minimum there is a bookshelf currently loaded with books going. And she needs her microwave. These things will make space in the little porch bedroom that has become a storage room.

Dazed, I hope you got that to work for you! And we are here. Not professionals but definitely people working through boards and in the case of Tillie, someone who lives with a hoarder. I got my house under control a while back and now am working on my mom's. I say house but they are apartments. I now have cleaning ladies every other week, so I don't have to clean.

There are lots of ways to get started. We can help you! It is something you can do and we are here anytime.

I still have more stuff to let go and I am working on it. I've stopped the influx of stuff. And that's been great. I used to buy multiples and whatever was on sale. I felt I needed to have things on hand in cAse anyone ever needed it. Now I leave those things at the store, where they belong.

We can do this! So I hope you'll feel free to join us. Good group here. Changed my life.

Ok, dazed, I clicked that box, then I clicked the little log in box that came up and logged in, and then I could see the chat - which is happening right now. Good luck!

Dazed, I don't know. I get my support here on the boards.

The "offline" box is higher up and brighter red than the other one - which just says "online support group" in caps.

I cleaned one stall today and moved the bucks out of the kidding stall. Mr. kitty caught a rat. We are trying to get ready for the baby goats.

Tatoulia, I'm glad you and bf are good again, and that your mom's aides are working out. Good luck with the chair! I cap the needles, screw them into a plastic container, and throw them in the regular trash when the container is full. I used to give them to a nurse friend for biohazard collection, but she said I didn't need to if they weren't infectious, just protect the trash guys.

I got some pottery done today too.

But then I decided to turn my brain off and watch a few videos. I think it was a good choice.

On my device, the red box indicates that it is offline. Do you have to register via email to chat here with the online group that has already started?

Dazed, on my screen there is a red box to the right and up a bit that says "online support group" if you click that it takes you to a login for the Sunday night chat..

Hi Tatoulia.

Thank you for your kind words. I have been navigating this board a bit and trying to find out some info.

I'm doing this from my phone so it's very difficult.

Where in the board is the part where professional come on at 8pm Sundays?

Hi Dazed and welcome! I've never done the chat feature so I'm not sure how it works. We are here for you!!! You can do this and we can help you through.

I am so behind in reading! But Tillie I am thrilled with your paperwork and benefits progress! WTG! That makes sense that SSA won't make you go that far for benefits. Great work!

I am exhausted beyond belief today, even though I slept til 11:30. We celebrated Valentine's Day last night and we were out very late. So I'm tired, tired, tired. He sent me roses at work on Friday even though we'd agreed no more flowers because kitty eats them. We have worked through it and I feel very strong once again.

We got mom's new tv table In today. I got the chair removed and I took the small table to goodwill. We still have to take apart the hope chest.

I've hired a company to come get her buckets and buckets of needles from back when she took insulin. I was assessing the needles and I was asking her where else she might have any and she mentioned that she was saving two unused ones. I told her I'd already put them in the bin, and reassured her that if she ever needs meds again intravenously, they will send her new needles. The poor thing. So hard to let go.

This is very expensive for me to get her organized but I have to do it. She seems so much happier these days and I am grateful for it.

I'm sorry I'm not caught up on posts.

I have to get the chair out of my apt and over to hers. I am so grateful she has her morning aide and it is going so well.

Hi. Subclinical told me to check here. I need to find help. I am overwhelmed. I can't even say the H word.
Do the professionals come on still at 8pm Eastern?

Good Morning Everyone

Hi Subclinical
Baby goats due this week!!!
OK, you take care of yourself too.
Rest when you can, don't stay cold for too long.

I agree, February is hard.
Shopping for baby furniture is hard too with all of the researching safety things to consider and recalls on some models.

Wishing you a victorious day! 😀

Fell asleep early last night and managed to sleep in this morning.
It's a gray cloudy day with a slight chance of sprinkles.
No set plans for today, will just play it by ear.

Hey! Now we have a frog and a badger!

CM, you will get the things done that need to be done. February is very hard. Last night we went "shopping" (not buying yet) for car seats, strollers, and cribs with the kids and then out to dinner, and we all agreed that February is hard.

I have been really pushing myself. Keeping up with lesson plans and making a point to do pottery stuff this week.

Yesterday I felt Annie's (the goat) baby(s) move and was very happy that at least one goat is bred. I haven't been able to tell. Then I came inside, checked my breeding book, and realized that those babies are due this week! I am not ready! I also looked back over the years and realized that Annie has never had a baby survive to adulthood, so I am guessing she has some kind of genetic issue going on, and I am worried about getting attached.

But, soon there will be lots of milk!

Tillie, get lots of rest. You deserve it!

Off to conquer my day....