tatoulia,

Oh thank you. For the message help.lol

I got kittens here. So sweet!

Are you coming to the meeting?

Yay for the kittens, Becky! I do not go to the meetings. I hope you find some support there; everyone on here is very supportive.

Yay for the kittens, Becky! I do not go to the meetings. I hope you find some support there; everyone on here is very supportive.

Good morning.

The exhaustion has set in. I am struggling to wake up enough to drink my coffee so I can do the things.

Camp was better for me yesterday as far as interest because I ran the main project. It was labor intensive though. Today the other teacher (my boss) is running the projects. I think that will be fine too because I have less concern about process. I am pretty good at following instructions and I am pretty good at being in charge. I am apparently less good at being partly in charge of someone else's vision.

For next week my boss has hired a second assistant and I will be the only teacher. The second assistant has lots of ideas but no classroom management skills. (She helped out today) she works well with the kids, but only one at a time. Next week has less clay work and is less in my wheelhouse.

Yesterday was mostly exhausting because it was very full. Morning chores and a few attempts at keeping the house together, leave at 8, camp prep from 9-10, camp from 9-12:30 plus stuff ran into 15 minutes of my lunch, back from lunch to help set up at 1:10, camp 1:30-4, clean up and planning discussion to 4:30 - over to Bean's house for play and dinner, class I'm raking 6:30-9, home at 10, an hour of chores, shower, bed.

Today I just come straight home from camp and try to do some house/farm things.

Also, the ac in my car is not working again - so, definitely has a leak. Can't fix it until after camp. Temps in the 90s. No ac at camp either - the heat doesn't help with the tired.

Ok, coffee is kicking in, gotta get to work.

Good morning.

The exhaustion has set in. I am struggling to wake up enough to drink my coffee so I can do the things.

Camp was better for me yesterday as far as interest because I ran the main project. It was labor intensive though. Today the other teacher (my boss) is running the projects. I think that will be fine too because I have less concern about process. I am pretty good at following instructions and I am pretty good at being in charge. I am apparently less good at being partly in charge of someone else's vision.

For next week my boss has hired a second assistant and I will be the only teacher. The second assistant has lots of ideas but no classroom management skills. (She helped out today) she works well with the kids, but only one at a time. Next week has less clay work and is less in my wheelhouse.

Yesterday was mostly exhausting because it was very full. Morning chores and a few attempts at keeping the house together, leave at 8, camp prep from 9-10, camp from 9-12:30 plus stuff ran into 15 minutes of my lunch, back from lunch to help set up at 1:10, camp 1:30-4, clean up and planning discussion to 4:30 - over to Bean's house for play and dinner, class I'm raking 6:30-9, home at 10, an hour of chores, shower, bed.

Today I just come straight home from camp and try to do some house/farm things.

Also, the ac in my car is not working again - so, definitely has a leak. Can't fix it until after camp. Temps in the 90s. No ac at camp either - the heat doesn't help with the tired.

Ok, coffee is kicking in, gotta get to work.

tatoulia,

Oh thank you. For the message help.lol

I got kittens here. So sweet!

Are you coming to the meeting?

I am so sorry, Lila. What a terrible loss. SubC is correct. Listen to her.

I am so sorry, Lila. What a terrible loss. SubC is correct. Listen to her.

Hi Lila,

So sorry for your sad news!

It would send anyone into tears.
Go slow,and take care of yourself.

Thank you,For the welcome.

Becky

Hi Lila,

So sorry for your sad news!

It would send anyone into tears.
Go slow,and take care of yourself.

Thank you,For the welcome.

Becky

Hi there,

Thank you for the welcome.

Been needing support for this for so long

Getting alot done. I attended my first meeting,

And chat support. But now feel even more

Overwhelmed. of coarse over worked myself
Again. I think the denial is breaking.

I feel shocky. Is that common?

How are you?

Becky

Hi there,

Thank you for the welcome.

Been needing support for this for so long

Getting alot done. I attended my first meeting,

And chat support. But now feel even more

Overwhelmed. of coarse over worked myself
Again. I think the denial is breaking.

I feel shocky. Is that common?

How are you?

Becky

Hi Becky! Glad you are getting acclimated! When you start your replies, where it says Name, put in your own name, not the person you are replying to. I know it's a bit confusing but you'll get the hang of it.

Have been working from home today. Cleaners come tomorrow.

Poor kitty is sound asleep. She sleeps more and more. A little like me.

Hi Becky! Glad you are getting acclimated! When you start your replies, where it says Name, put in your own name, not the person you are replying to. I know it's a bit confusing but you'll get the hang of it.

Have been working from home today. Cleaners come tomorrow.

Poor kitty is sound asleep. She sleeps more and more. A little like me.

hi Becky, you had me wondering for a minute there, when did I write that? ha. But saw you are new and am happy you are here. I'm sorry about your son. It is so hard, we love them so much.

hi Becky, you had me wondering for a minute there, when did I write that? ha. But saw you are new and am happy you are here. I'm sorry about your son. It is so hard, we love them so much.

Do any of you get paralyzed by emotion? Like if something upsets you, it seems impossible to do ANYTHING? I have really wanted a day to stay home and clean and sort, but something awful happened this morning - a close friend of my son's passed away. He won't be home until later tonight and I just have a sick feeling and pit in my stomach, not knowing if someone told him or he found out on social media or if I have to tell him. I can't call him so have to wait. It is so upsetting.

After sitting here crying and wandering and doing a lot of nothing all day I finally thought, this is not helping anything. I am upset but mainly it is HIS loss not mine. So I walked the dog.

Then finally I forced myself to start cleaning the kitchen. Just now I unloaded and loaded the dishwasher, which is running. I washed ALL of the dirty dishes and sort of washed out the sink. That is all I have the energy for.

If only I could stand to drink a Red Bull or something, I could probably get a lot more cleaning done. Coffee doesn't cut it. How am I ever going to get caught up if all I can do in one day is the dishes?? Help.

Do any of you get paralyzed by emotion? Like if something upsets you, it seems impossible to do ANYTHING? I have really wanted a day to stay home and clean and sort, but something awful happened this morning - a close friend of my son's passed away. He won't be home until later tonight and I just have a sick feeling and pit in my stomach, not knowing if someone told him or he found out on social media or if I have to tell him. I can't call him so have to wait. It is so upsetting.

After sitting here crying and wandering and doing a lot of nothing all day I finally thought, this is not helping anything. I am upset but mainly it is HIS loss not mine. So I walked the dog.

Then finally I forced myself to start cleaning the kitchen. Just now I unloaded and loaded the dishwasher, which is running. I washed ALL of the dirty dishes and sort of washed out the sink. That is all I have the energy for.

If only I could stand to drink a Red Bull or something, I could probably get a lot more cleaning done. Coffee doesn't cut it. How am I ever going to get caught up if all I can do in one day is the dishes?? Help.

Lila, be gentle with yourself. Some days the dishes are all you can do.

Lila, be gentle with yourself. Some days the dishes are all you can do.

Hi Becky! I think you meant to respond to Lila and instead you accidentally posted as Lila. I used to make the same mistake.

We are glad you are here!

Road, I'm pleased you have been following the healthier diet. I don't cook with salt and don't even like it, so I bet I would love that lemongrass chicken salad!

SubC good to hear about camp! That's so nice that you met up with your husband for dinner on the way home!

Spent the day with BF and some friends. My house is a disaster so I'm going to work on it now, We walked about seven miles today, which was good.

I'm doing a load of laundry (my favorite thing to do, Becky). We are glad you are here, Becky.

Hi there. I just joined.
I sure get these struggles
With your teen. My son had a severe bipolar.
I lost him at age 6 yrs

He is 19 yrs now,we are in contact.
I am being cautious.

I love him so much. Yet the years
Of this illness is still fresh in my
Mind.

I would love support as I go
Forward with the mess in my home.

Got all supplies for Vesuvius method.

So happy to not be alone with this
Process.

Hugs,Becky

Hi there. I just joined.
I sure get these struggles
With your teen. My son had a severe bipolar.
I lost him at age 6 yrs

He is 19 yrs now,we are in contact.
I am being cautious.

I love him so much. Yet the years
Of this illness is still fresh in my
Mind.

I would love support as I go
Forward with the mess in my home.

Got all supplies for Vesuvius method.

So happy to not be alone with this
Process.

Hugs,Becky

Hi guys!

I lost all the time again.

Oof.

Negotiation with school district is almost over. Extremely frustrating and stressful but got a better result than we had, but not as good as we hoped.

We tried to do a 5-day eeg with my son but we only got a 12-hour and a 17-hour... the little sucker kept ripping off the electrodes in the middle of the night. Who can blame him poor guy.

We had Father's Day at my brothers last night. We actually collaborated. He bought the burgers and beans and chips. I bought the plates' cups, napkins, all the fixings and a few salads. Mom made some strawberry shortcake. Between us all we got it done and the dads didn't have to lift a finger which was nice. My bro is keeping up with the cleaning and looks like he's making some incremental progress. The odor and pet hair is still kind of off the charts but the main thing is he s trying and we have been able to keep getting together as a family. We will keep alternating and that will help each of us keep up with the cleaning. And I can indirectly teach my brother some basics of cooking and entertaining... I am not fancy and he is truly a novice so it will be really basic.

My niece got off her feeding tube and out of the. Hospital into an inpatient treatment place. We kept my nephew for a few days which was really fun.

This week we start the bulk of summer activities... summer school 4 mornings a week and a Rec activity almost every day so my son will love that.

I just made a low sodium lemongrass chicken salad. It needed..... SALT! Lol. No, it's good. Actually yesterday was the first burger I've eaten since April which is amazing! I've learned I can live without it which is great. Still, I've been getting sloppier so I'm hitting the "reset" to try to keep on target.

That's my update. I'm gonna go back and catch up on your posts...

Hi guys!

I lost all the time again.

Oof.

Negotiation with school district is almost over. Extremely frustrating and stressful but got a better result than we had, but not as good as we hoped.

We tried to do a 5-day eeg with my son but we only got a 12-hour and a 17-hour... the little sucker kept ripping off the electrodes in the middle of the night. Who can blame him poor guy.

We had Father's Day at my brothers last night. We actually collaborated. He bought the burgers and beans and chips. I bought the plates' cups, napkins, all the fixings and a few salads. Mom made some strawberry shortcake. Between us all we got it done and the dads didn't have to lift a finger which was nice. My bro is keeping up with the cleaning and looks like he's making some incremental progress. The odor and pet hair is still kind of off the charts but the main thing is he s trying and we have been able to keep getting together as a family. We will keep alternating and that will help each of us keep up with the cleaning. And I can indirectly teach my brother some basics of cooking and entertaining... I am not fancy and he is truly a novice so it will be really basic.

My niece got off her feeding tube and out of the. Hospital into an inpatient treatment place. We kept my nephew for a few days which was really fun.

This week we start the bulk of summer activities... summer school 4 mornings a week and a Rec activity almost every day so my son will love that.

I just made a low sodium lemongrass chicken salad. It needed..... SALT! Lol. No, it's good. Actually yesterday was the first burger I've eaten since April which is amazing! I've learned I can live without it which is great. Still, I've been getting sloppier so I'm hitting the "reset" to try to keep on target.

That's my update. I'm gonna go back and catch up on your posts...

Hi Becky! Welcome!
What is the veduvioys method?

Road good news on your niece!
I was afraid it would go like that with your din though. I don't know how they can expect him to keep those on.

Glad you and your brother are still encouraging each other.

Camp was good? I did not come home exhausted. I did get bored. The way it is structured there is down time for me during active periods - not official breaks, just time when literally the kids do not need me and there is nothing to do, but I am supposed to be standing there in case somebody asks for help. I tried filling them by wandering around the room giving positive feedback and asking the kids about their projects. All the plans are done for the whole week. It is nice to have coworkers I can talk to during the day and plan with. There is a "staff meeting" on the back loading dock that I get to go to with adult beverage service after camp on Friday.

I am tired now, but Dh and I met on our ways home for dinner and I had to go back out for feed.

Chores and not too late to bed I hope,

Hi Becky! Welcome!
What is the veduvioys method?

Road good news on your niece!
I was afraid it would go like that with your din though. I don't know how they can expect him to keep those on.

Glad you and your brother are still encouraging each other.

Camp was good? I did not come home exhausted. I did get bored. The way it is structured there is down time for me during active periods - not official breaks, just time when literally the kids do not need me and there is nothing to do, but I am supposed to be standing there in case somebody asks for help. I tried filling them by wandering around the room giving positive feedback and asking the kids about their projects. All the plans are done for the whole week. It is nice to have coworkers I can talk to during the day and plan with. There is a "staff meeting" on the back loading dock that I get to go to with adult beverage service after camp on Friday.

I am tired now, but Dh and I met on our ways home for dinner and I had to go back out for feed.

Chores and not too late to bed I hope,

Hi Becky! I think you meant to respond to Lila and instead you accidentally posted as Lila. I used to make the same mistake.

We are glad you are here!

Road, I'm pleased you have been following the healthier diet. I don't cook with salt and don't even like it, so I bet I would love that lemongrass chicken salad!

SubC good to hear about camp! That's so nice that you met up with your husband for dinner on the way home!

Spent the day with BF and some friends. My house is a disaster so I'm going to work on it now, We walked about seven miles today, which was good.

I'm doing a load of laundry (my favorite thing to do, Becky). We are glad you are here, Becky.

hi guys,

I enjoyed reading all your posts today, and when someone said something about camp, I thought, "oh, I forgot to sign up for the group camp-out for church in 2 weeks" and I really have been planning to go. I love the woods and the people. But, I think really I need to stay home. Maybe. I need a few days off and that is likely my only chance. Although, teen has become volitile again and things have been getting destroyed, and that really puts me in a mental pit. Looking at the broken stuff, cracked cabinets, holes in walls, busted doors, and now cracked car interior, it all just makes me feel hopeless and worthless. No point in fixing it when autism still reigns. I don't have the $$ to keep fixing. So I live in disarray and there are reminders all around me of the angry rages and sadness I have to live with.

Anyway... this weekend I did find homes for almost all my clothing that was stacked and piled. A few things in the donate box, some in a drawer I made room in, some hung up, a couple things getting returned. I even decided to return a purse I bought. I need a new purse, but it has sat here not getting used because I am not sure if I like it. So back it goes. I have a new purse I bought YEARS ago in my closet I can use until I find one I really like.

hi guys,

I enjoyed reading all your posts today, and when someone said something about camp, I thought, "oh, I forgot to sign up for the group camp-out for church in 2 weeks" and I really have been planning to go. I love the woods and the people. But, I think really I need to stay home. Maybe. I need a few days off and that is likely my only chance. Although, teen has become volitile again and things have been getting destroyed, and that really puts me in a mental pit. Looking at the broken stuff, cracked cabinets, holes in walls, busted doors, and now cracked car interior, it all just makes me feel hopeless and worthless. No point in fixing it when autism still reigns. I don't have the $$ to keep fixing. So I live in disarray and there are reminders all around me of the angry rages and sadness I have to live with.

Anyway... this weekend I did find homes for almost all my clothing that was stacked and piled. A few things in the donate box, some in a drawer I made room in, some hung up, a couple things getting returned. I even decided to return a purse I bought. I need a new purse, but it has sat here not getting used because I am not sure if I like it. So back it goes. I have a new purse I bought YEARS ago in my closet I can use until I find one I really like.