I can understand that. Sometimes my anxiety makes me sick the day after the event. I get it.

Four hours included drilling through wall from outside, bringing fiber optics in, mounting things on wall, going to two different "relay stations" (my words, not his) a few blocks away, etc, activation, etc. not all of the hours were in the house, thankfully. He got a little chatty at the end and he was losing my attention. All around the best experience I could ask for (even though I don't recall asking for this).

Hallway was easy to put back. I'll work on house tonight and over the weekend. All around a very good way to work on my goals.

I wish LR were here to know that the Dreaded Closet is safe.

That's an awful long time to have a repair man working in the closet!

Hope that's done & never needs to be worked on ever again.

Good idea to get the shingles jab on a Friday to have the weekend to get over any adverse reactions.

Living room being a mess is alright because the closets are a work in progress.

One clean out I did for some people, I started on a closet that was tightly packed to the gills.
I had everything removed from the closet and it completely filled the livingroom.
Then we began the keep/toss/donate or put it in another area of the house work.

My plan for tomorrow is to go grocery shopping in the morning.
This morning I woke up at 4am with a belly ache so didn't go shopping.
Think I was just worried about going where strange people are and getting my jab. ;p

Good job getting your jab! I generally like to have done at the office. They haven't announced the day yet. I also need my shingles shot. I will call CVS and see if I can get it on Friday. A lot of people have been getting reactions so my dr suggested I get on a Friday. I'll see if one of the fifty million cvs stores by my office has it and I'll pop in on Friday.

The screen to my window isn't replaced yet. It needs some repairs so I'll repair it before putting back. All I've done so far is I put the hallway back together. Living room is a mess. I'll do that over my long weekend.

ThNk you for getting me through this today. Even kitty came out after a while. Four hours in total.

So glad the man is so nice! 😀

Wonderful that two closets are being tackled.
It's been a long time coming.

YEA! for having good new knives and putting them to good use.

Yes, make Mom something all Autumnal.
Makes the cold & rainy days fun.

Got my flu jab.
YEA!!! ME!

Scheduled to be between 5:00pm to 8:00pm.
I was done and back in the car at 5:05pm.
Now I'll just stay away from sickly contagious people for the next two weeks.

Oh boy best to only know the free flu shot room.

He's almost done. Very kind man. We had to tear out the stuff from the other closet and I'm psyched! Now I'll be dealing with that closet too. So I'm excited because I'll have to deal with it. And there's a long weekend ahead of me!

The apple crumble sounds delicious. I should make something for my mom. She'd appreciate that. I made myself a feta and cucumber sandwich today. It was tasty and I used one of my new knives and I used my new peeler. Pretty sweet

Ok the guy is activating my account. I cannot wait for this to be over. Again I hit the jackpot with this guy.

Good Afternoon Everyone

And a pic of the reflecting pond!
The closet looks like a normal every day closet!!!
WAY TO GO!!!
Glad the nice understanding man is there and this will all be over with soon.
((((HUG)))) you will survive this intrusion.

I have been thinking lately about my delicious pea soup that I make in cold weather.
And this apple crumble I make with peanut butter, cinnamon and brown sugar.
So many delicious cold weather dishes to make and eat now.

The notice says the free flu shots will be given in the "Lake Tahoe Room" so I called and asked where that room is at the hospital.
The woman seemed surprised that I am not at all familiar with the hospital.
It's Banner and they kill a lot of innocent people so if it weren't for the flu shot I would never go there.

He knows I'm trying not to die so it's going very well.

He is very nice. Makes everything seem easy and not a problem. I'm dying inside.

Phone guy is here. He's very calm and nice. I'm a bit freaked out but trying not to show it.

Delicious foods, Tillie! WTG two cats getting along! I hear you, third cat.

Closet ready and I posted a picture. I took down table in hallway so the worker has space to maneuver. A little worried that dining room closet will be implicated and that closet is not ready. I'll take it as it comes.

I had corn chowder for dinner last night and it was yummy with Challah. So tasty. I can't remember if I told you but yesterday I brought in greens, feta and raisins to make a salad at work. We get fresh fruit at work at the beginning of each month so I cut up an apple. So tasty. Delicious lunch.

We are expected giant rains here.

Forgot to add...
Twinkles and Jack were both laying around in the garden this morning about a yard away from each other and they were both relaxed and happy, enjoying each other's company.

Scooter still has a big HISSY fit whenever he sees Jack and screams very mean cat insults at him too.

YEA! Great shopping "at home" and now having a lovely new green coat to wear!

Leaving that door open will allow your brain to accept that that closet is no longer some place to fear and dread.

I made scalloped potatoes, Brussel sprouts and added some diced sweet onion to a frozen pepperoni pizza and cooked that too.
Have the sink scoured and all set up & ready to wash dishes after I take a break.

Tillie I wore my dark green trench coat today. It's great!!!

What are you cooking??

It hadn't occurred to me to leave the door open.

Good Morning Everyone

Hi Tatoulia
A reflecting pool to walk around and reflect, how lovely.

Suggestion...
Leave that closet door open until it loses all negativity completely.
Plus we would like to see a pic of the closet all clear & clean. 😉

Today I have no idea what I am doing.
Need to figure out what I want to eat then cook it.
Going to be a very warm day today then much cooler the rest of the week.

Have things for the cleaners folded in a bag. Got garbage out last night, need to get ready for work. Seems to be a cool, rainy fall day. YAY!

I didn't pick up mom's dishes last night. As I was walking, I ran into a friend. She said she almost called me to see if I was walking in the mall. So we walked a bit together. Once I got home, I had to get ready for my class today. I'm not going to push myself to do it over three sessions. I'm good with the four sessions. Class is small, with only two people physically in the room and the rest on the phone.

The city was beautiful last night. I'll post a picture.

I'm going to open the closet this AM so I can train myself not to fear it. I'll have to sweep or vacuum the floor tonight. The shelf was remarkably clear. So I can tell that LR and I worked on it, so many years ago.

Ok off to work. What are you doing today??!!??

Correct WICKS not socks!!!

Ty Tillie. I feel so good about reclaiming that closet!! I went to mom's and brought her a clean coffee cup and I cleaned the stinky litter box. Bf met me at a coffee shop while I had a sweet potato sandwich.

I'm now walking around the reflecting pool at the Christian Science Center. So peaceful.

I need to get home and change my own kitty box then off to bed.

Yes my whole apartment feels lighter. I took the two spring coats to the cleaners. I really want to be able to wear them this coming spring. I hold the power.

FANTASTIC! Tatoulia
So many very nice coats going out at the perfect time too.
They will all surely be appreciated this Autumn and Winter.

WTG! Miss Kitty doing an inspection.

I'm actually relieved that this closet is finally getting crossed off your To-Do list.
It weighed too much to be constantly carried around on your mind.

Wowie!!! Left hand turn onto the highway!!!! Excellent job!

Yay for the correct socks!! Excellent.

2d batch of coats also very nice. Very pleased. Have some folded and ready for the cleaning fairies and have the rest hanging til the dampness is gone.

Cat walked into the closet, did a survey, came back out. I will be able to use it for coats this year and I'm really happy. So happy.

Almost there. Not exactly but super close.

Heading to mom's to clean new kitty box but do not be fooled, I'm dying inside.

That pouty face seems to be servicing you very well.

Keep up the GREAT job you have been doing.

It will be so nice and quiet there once this closet is sorted out and no longer haunting you.
(((HUG)))

Good Afternoon Everybody

YEA!!! WTG!!! Tatoulia!!!
You are slaying the beast!!! ;D

Hi CriticalMass (((((HUG))))) back
YEA! that the furnace is done & ready to keep you warm this Winter.

Hi Subclinical
YUM!!! apple cake!
Fingers crossed DH's company didn't screw him over too badly. (((HUG)))

YEA! ME! I made a left hand turn out onto the highway!
Credit union is not far from where I got on the highway so I was brave and did it!!!
Went by the thrift shop, bought nothing.
Filled my water bottles.
Then I stopped by the hardware store and bought some mouse repellant.
Last year I complained their wicks for kerosene lamps were the wrong size, too big.
They got in the proper size wicks so I bought two!

First batch of coats came out great! The deep red trench is in a bag for the cleaners. The short brown jacket I will either wear or give to the cleaners. I'm on the fence about the dark green trench. It fits well. So I'll percolate on that for a few days. It's a good length to wear to work and it's a London Fog so it might be good for Fall. Frankly I didn't remember owning either of these coats. It's slowly coming back. I think one I bought st Macy's to wear home one night when I was cold. Ten years ago.

The other batch is in the dryer. Yes they probably shouldn't go in the dryer but this is where I am right now. I'm also washing the clothes that I used while cleaning the closet. Oh and I found a pretty red dress that the cleaners will love, do I washed that up too.

Pouting.

Good work getting the furnace stuff done! Good feeling. SubC I am sorry to hear that there are some changes to your husband's retirement plan at work. That is never a good thing.

SubC I took the bag of the other coats up to my car and put in the trunk. I will make a much-needed trip to goodwill on Saturday. I too couldn't bring myself to put in the garbage I took the recycling out and put in the bin.

The three coats in the dryer look very nice. I just put the dryer on for a bit longer.

Cm I am like a performer who seems really extroverted but shuts down when alone. So I am up and bright and cheery when in public. At home I am very quiet. I tend to go to things alone because I don't like to be ON all the time. If I am quiet at work, I do get a lot of whether I'm feeling okay. The CEO praises me for always being so cheerful and up and kind and I've told him a few times that there are days when it's more effort than anyone would imagine.

I too have resting b\}€# face except I like people to know that my b/)€£ face never rests, it is always ready for battle.

I'm going to shower now. Not done with the closet but I need to shower.

Tatoulia, I had to smile when you said that about a sour look on your face. It's an inside joke between my roommate and me. We are both introverts, and introverts are often said to have Resting B!+€h Face, etc. A couple of bosses ago she had one that was a real piece of work. That boss told my roommate she had "a sour look on her face." Introverts also get asked if we're feeling well, when we're simply pensive or preoccupied. Meh.

Sending you courage to deal with the scary closet. And you know all of us here, we get it.

Tillie, thanks for words of encouragement. I have to parcel out tasks according to mental energy and sometimes physical energy. It beats pushing too hard and crashing.

Hello to SubC in your busy life too.

I'm still frustrated, though maybe if I salvage some of the afternoon I'll be less so. The furnace fall stuff is done.

{{{ Group Hug }}} because sounds like we could all use one.

Tatoulia,

You can do it.

I see you pouting.

I imagine the badger growling and tugging at your socks.

I hope you will take the coats to goodwill - they will take anything, really. They recycle fabric.- but just get them out.

Cm, I hope you are finding done clarity and peace.

I have all my lesson plans done except Wednesday. Wednesday will be fast because it is basically "keep doing what you have been doing." (Finishing projects)

But it is dark today and I am down. So many good things in my life and still...

Dh got some bad news at work today. They made some changes that throw a wrench in our retirement plan. I'm sure we will talk about it tonight.

I made applecake.

I can only do this if you imagine the sour look on my face.

Second load of coats in washer. Have two for drycleaners. Not sure of what I will do with bag of remaining coats. I may just put in garbage tonight. Threw out all bags in the closet. Shopping bags. Put in recycling. Found an old Furla leather purse to donate. Also have an old coach bag that I'll have to decide what to do with. I bought it in 1990 after returning home from Europe. I was midway through grad school. Came home with a serious intestinal parasite yet had enough $$ leftover to buy an expensive bag. I might give to the cleaners.

I found a coat I'd been wondering what happened to it. Will take two coats to drycleaners. I have 6months to fit into them before giving to my cleaners.

I am unhappy but I am doing it. But please, everyone, can you picture me pouting?

Ps I watched an episode of hoarders last night to help me out. And it was a big help. For me. The lady in the episode was truly too far gone. They made it livable but it seemed doomed. And sad. Family was terribly upset and the woman was just so sick. Sad episode. But it helped me. If Cory and the Dr and the family could try, I can deal with my one last frontier of filth and fright.

Cm I echo Tillie's remarks. Wishing you some peace and some order. Tillie that's a good idea to break up your errands. I frequently do so too, sometimes due to the amount I can carry and other times to ensure I am walking enough.

Weird weather today. It feels perfect. Warm and breezy. But it reminds me of tornado weather. When I was a kid, living in the Midwest, I could feel a particular type of "beautiful weather " and I'd know there would be a tornado watch before the day was out.

I have entered the closet. I don't want to say too much about it. Tillie May recall and I know that LR would recall my Dreaded Closet. I can't say more about it. It's the one I pretend doesn't exist because I am afraid of it. I'm not being cute. I hate that closet. I have taken out six coats. Three are in the washer. They will be donated, hopefully to my cleaning ladies. The other three are in a big plastic bag. They will go to goodwill or I will wash them or I will freak out and put them out back tonight. I also found a complete set of hot rollers. Probably from 20 years ago.
I am unhappy in the closet. But I've started. And this is huge.

Good Morning Everybody

Hi CriticalMass
So sorry you have a heavy and troubled soul ((((HUGS))))
Wishing you inner peace and acceptance.
Good luck remembering and juggling all those things that need doing.

Hi Tatoulia
Badger is laughing at your feeble restrictions.

NEIGHbor, that's funny! 😀
Good luck getting the garbage out and the closet ready for repairmen.

So much to do this week...
With my limited stamina, I decided to try going into town several times since I can't do it all in one day trip.
Plan today to go to bank and get some cash and fill some water bottles.
Wednesday I will go get my free flu shot.
Then one day I will grocery shop.
I get so exhausted and sore doing just grocery shopping and spend the rest of the day and the next day just recuperating.
Now that it's cooler, going into town can be more laid back and not rushed.

Sagebrush blooms in the Fall. It's all in bloom around the house and the bees are loving it.
It's so pungent and it makes my eyes water, nose stuffy and coughing.

I'm here, sorta.

This past few days wiped me out physically and mentally.

Weather changes, and more forecasted, though rain is finished for the time being. Ragweed allergy lingered but may be departing.

The delayed autumn season has rudely shoved aside the summer that overstayed its welcome. Leaving us humans to scramble to deal with the need to winterize.

My mental exhaustion was partly from having to think quickly with the lady I sit with, depending on her memory functioning at any given moment. More often her mind is slipping gears, and her speech harder to understand, and if I don't follow her she becomes irritable. Sometimes if I find mariachi music on Youtube and get her singing, it shifts her in a better direction.

Roommate's car needed new battery and some doohickey replaced. Mechanic's daughter had just been the victim of a freak accident where shards from a dropped glass flew up into her eye. She will be seen by specialist tomorrow and have surgery this week. Unknown whether they can save the eye and her sight.

Roommate is buying parts to attempt again to make her DIY greenhouse functional. The one that I had a meltdown of frustration with in winter 2017. It's understood that I'm going to pretty much observe from a distance unless there's an easy task I can help with. I just hope she's sure about this and that it works out for her.

Furnace to be cleaned tomorrow. All these THINGS that have to be fitted in and juggled when I've been thinking I was finally going to get a week to regroup, get my bearings, possibly even accomplish something? What a dreamer I am. Bleh.

I know God is hearing my prayers about the things that trouble me; I just have to wait on the answers. Did a fair amount of crying today, both venting and the kind one does when one's heart is trying to put pieces together and gaining insights even while there is pain.

Took a nap late.

Boy kitty has wanted to sleep with me these cooler nights. I love it.

So. Many. Things. To remember and to do and to think about.