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What are you doing today 2023

Posted: 16 January 2023 - 03:49 PM
Lila, if I won the lottery I'd pay for Cory and some of his team to come help you through the process! 😉 I think what we all kind of have to do, especially if we don't have a lot of disposable income, and perhaps are self conscious about letting someone else see (that would be me for sure), is gradually learn to be our own life coach.

Learn the principles in the abstract, as if we're someone else (so we can be detached from the emotions and able to take in the information with our prefrontal cortex rather than with our primitive brain that makes us anxious and depressed). Then, still in the rational mind and with compassion, begin to impart the knowledge and give the support to our bewildered and sometimes discouraged self as one would to a friend.

It's easier to do once you get the hang of it a little. My explanation sounds more clunky and mechanical than I intend. I actually like the decluttering books myself - these days I don't read that many new ones because it begins to get repetitive, although once in awhile there is a gem. If I find (or remember) anything good from a book, I'll make a point to share a brief summary here. I've found that certain one liners or little mnemonic lists are useful. That way you wouldn't need to read the whole book but might be able to get some benefit from it.

In my own little world right now, my big accomplishment is that I deep cleaned the bunny cages and litterboxes, a task that has been overdue. The weather here today was very good for January, and I'd had this planned, and I stuck to my intention and saw it through.

Doing pretty well on my minimal-buying thing. I think that's the best wording for it. And really there's been very little of the "not 100% necessary" - mainly at the grocery store, which at least means it will be eaten (slowly, because I don't want to overdo!). So not like a bunch of bric a brac or excess art supplies, books, etc., or my usual temptations. Clothes are definitely not a temptation now until my weight gets down some. Which I would like to get some newer-to-me jeans at the Goodwill as my current ones are getting worn. But it may be that I hold off and spring comes and I won't need to shop for long pants until the fall, by which time I better be thinner.

Hope to move forward this week in several areas, including exercise. Oh, and yesterday I had just a few more quilting magazines to flip through, got that done and they are out in my van to be dropped off. A few other things including recycling are in there as well.

I'm doing better on driving, after feeling more agoraphobic the last quarter of 2022 due to stress overload. Still have much to conquer in that battle but the few small wins are refreshing and encouraging. 🙂
Posted: 16 January 2023 - 03:27 PM
I'm actually doing stuff today! I had a second cup of tea, which I think helped. I've been packing up Christmas stuff, just made and ate a salad, and I'm folding last night's laundry.

All in all, pretty good. Going to put the music back on (I was reading a book while eating) and continue on. I also need to get recycling etc out tonight.

Oh! I bought something terribly overpriced at Christmas and it turned out to be a royal disappointment. So rather than look at it and think about the money I wasted, I'm going to package it up and donate it. I cannot let bad feelings clutter up my home. I don't need a home of bad decisions or foolish money spending stay here to remind me.
Posted: 16 January 2023 - 11:17 AM
Good work, SubC!

I'm having a cup of tea. I did finally shower last night. I'm going to put on some music and out those Christmas things away!
Posted: 15 January 2023 - 07:46 PM
Made my stretch goal!
Cleaned up the evaluation stuff and a little extra.
Had dinner and played with Bean.

Now Bean is washed, brushed, read to and tucked in bed.

I need to do my chores.

My cousin im'd me. 🙂
Posted: 15 January 2023 - 02:21 PM
Hello everyone!

Slept hard and late again. Woke up from a very detailed dream involving my mom's family and stuff and my cousin who has always been my "big sister". Thinking it over after I woke up made me cry a little. I tried to call my cousin but she never answers her phone.

Doing evaluations again. I recycled some paper. I have finished my base goal and am two short of my midrange goal. I may make at least some progress toward the stretch goal today. Otoh, house is a mess and Bean is coming in two hours..
Posted: 15 January 2023 - 12:22 PM
Hello everyone!

Good work, SubC! I have moved my Christmas stuff to the dining table and will pack up today. Won't take long. I'll put on music and get that done.

Lila, when I first stopped buying random stuff, I would shop on line, put in my cart, then slowly remove the stuff from my cart and delete it all. You can tell by looking and experience how cheaply the clothes are made and how the fabrics are going to be hot and sticky. The stuff in your home was purchased when things were made better and with better fabrics. So give it a whirl! Shop those piles at home!

I liked Subc's thoughts re the shoes not working out in the end due to age. So see what you can do. I like your plan!

My issue was never clothes. I have never been a clothes horse I buy the most expensive well made clothes I can and have very few. It's the way my mother had us do things and it stuck. Now to lose another 20 so those beautiful three dresses I bought in March of 2020 will fit! Some I didn't wear because of the pandemic! Would be a thrill to wear one for this year's March birthday!

This isn't an easy thing but I stopped buying off of Amazon about four to five years ago. Listen, I love my kindle and get my ebooks there. I have Amazon prime for the video and my brother uses it to buy his things. I am fortunate to have easy access in the city to things that I want and I have the lifestyle to support buying local and at a higher price. I know the luxury of this and I do not judge people who buy from Amazon. I am so unhappy with the quality of goods and I have always enjoyed second hand stuff.

My goal today is to put away Christmas stuff. Yes it's 120P and I'm having my first cup of tea.
Posted: 14 January 2023 - 08:27 PM
I have spent the whole day doing evaluations.

Chores twice
3 meals
Two loads of laundry
One load of dishes
One trip with firewood
Keep the fire going
A couple of short Internet breaks

And evaluations. In the last 12 hours.

Now I am having a glass of wine.

Lila, I can give you this on the shoes - I have kept "just in case" shoes so long that the rubber/plastic on them aged and broke within the first few times of wearing. You are a kind and generous person. You will be so sad if that happens - you will still have no shoes and the person who could have used them when they were still good didn't get any shoes either.

Not ordering any more clothes off Amazon is huge. Huge! Good for you! I am super proud of you if you can do it. I am proud of you just for trying. Free your energy! Save gas! Save money!

I hope you had fun with acorn and tot!
Posted: 14 January 2023 - 06:12 PM
Thank you Tatoulia. It brought tears to my eyes, reading what you said. I tend to feel the same, overwhelming panic I had 30 years ago when I had no money to get what I needed. I look at the stuff and just about come unglued thinking of giving it up. In fact, I keep ordering clothes off of amazon and then returning them. It is taking up a lot of my time to buy those clothes, get them, try them on, hate them, pack them back up and drive to the store to return them. And this, when I have so many clothes piled on my furniture, packed in tubs and boxes, filling every dresser and all my closet space. So I'll tell you what. I will promise not to buy anymore amazon clothes. If I have a real NEED for something, I will go to a real store, try things on and buy it. Since I hate doing that, there is no way I will do it unless I NEED it. I have 3 items I can return so I will pack those up and return them and not order anymore.

As scared as I am about the shoes, I will lean into your words and try. Last year I had more shoes... maybe some of you remember me sorting them, trying them on, walking in them, then giving away 2 or 3 pairs. I still have more. I do feel like I have to try them all on again and walk in them but I will promise to pick the ONE pair of those "extra sneaker pile" sneakers to keep and donate all the rest. Even though some are new. I have had them over a decade. Sigh.

I am going to TRY to do more of this. I think maybe a key for me is to throw the donate stuff into the back of my car and donate it right away before I start having second thoughts.

I pried myself off the couch when houseguest got home, and put a dessert (from a box) in the oven, cleared the table and wiped it off. Houseguest left to run an errand so I am back on the couch. Will start cooking together when she gets back.

What are the rest of you doing today?
Posted: 14 January 2023 - 05:34 PM
Thank you both for telling me more! Very good visuals for me.

Lila, and I'm not being flippant, you do not need the just in case things. You dint. You can have one and a backup but not six. I have not needed one thing that I have gotten rid of. i may have thought of a purpose for something I got rid of, but that is not the same as needing it. I could've used it for XYZ but now that it's gone, I'm good. Clearing out the clutter has taught me that I need so much less than I thought. And open space comforts me.

The fact that I could use it someday doesn't make up for the 10 or 20 years that I hung onto the thing and did not use. It doesn't.

I understand your reluctance given you history and know that I am making this promise to you. You do not need those things. You don't. I will hold your hand, I have been thought this so I now the feeling. The Justin case stuff can go. We are living now, not later.

Sending love and hoping you can read the love in my tone of voice.
Posted: 14 January 2023 - 05:03 PM
Interesting. I have a real physical inertia problem as well. I often think, ' a body at rest tends to stay at rest' sums up my life. I think and decide and then just... don't move. Maybe if the doorbell rings, or my houseguest walks in and asks me to do something, it might trigger me to get up. Or it might not. I have said "no thanks" to very nice invitations from friends and family, like 'will you play a game with me?' and then later I regret it so much that I cry. I often drink coffee/caffeine to try and force myself out of the inertia. It works less often than it used to. A side note, two of my kids are on the spectrum.

I have so much to do and I struggle to get any of it done. But, tonight Tot and Acorn and parents are coming for dinner, so I have to clean off the table and make dinner. But I sit here at 3:00 thinking, ugh. And not moving. I just drank a half cup of coffee to see if that helps. But I feel like an actual rock on the ground. How the heck can a rock get up and move?

Anyway, when houseguest arrives back from the store they will want to help me cook and prep, and that will be my 'push' to get up off this couch and start clearing the table and cooking.

I wish there was a written guide to digging out of the clutter. I know there are books, but I don't have any desire to read books. I want a list. Do this first, do that next. I want a promise from someone that if I get rid of all the 'just-in-case' things I've saved, I won't suffer from not having them. I want to have enough money that those things don't matter anymore. Having 6 pairs of sneakers that I never wear 'just-in-case' I am so broke I cannot afford shoes (which has happened, and really with my very part time job and very limited income, is a possibility) is no fun and is actually clutter in my bedroom that drains me terribly. I saw a 'reel' online the other day that said your bedroom is a reflection of what is going on in your mind. In which case, wow, is my mind a complete wreck... disorganized, tons of stuff I can't use, not enough things I need, can't find anything. Yep, that's my mind.
Posted: 14 January 2023 - 01:19 PM
Tatoulia, There is an actual physical inertia that is really strong.

Autistics (and my undiagnosed potentially borderline self) fall into a deep groove where it is very hard to stop and change direction. Even if the thing you are "stopping" is doing nothing. Even if the thing you are stopping is unpleasant.

It's as if your battery is dead in your car. Your brain is the key, and it turns (ok, I really want to get started on these evaluations) and then "click, click, click" nothing happens. It's not that you are deciding to put the thing off, it's that you are deciding to do the thing but your body just won't do it. You need some kind of external stimulus (jump start) to make yourself go.

It's weird, because sometimes you can use your brain to create the external jump start, which is one of the things I'm trying to learn to do. So you explain to yourself ok, I am going to get up, get my notes, and work on the evaluations as soon as the cuckoo clock cuckoos. That's my transition point. Cuckoo - evaluations. And then you sit there for five more minutes, and the cuckoo pops out, and brrrrmmmm, the key turns, the motor starts, and off you go.

Then, I was writing evaluations and my body hadn't moved for a long time and I thought "my legs are going to sleep. This is uncomfortable. I really need to get up and move." Nope. Ok. 2:00 even if I'm in the middle of a word, I stand up. And I did.

Stress makes the inertia worse.

I'm also trying to enlist Dh "if you get home and I am on my computer not working, please take it away for five minutes."
Posted: 14 January 2023 - 11:37 AM
Hello everyone!

Lila, that is so upsetting. Very upsetting. I would feel invaded. Yes on changing the locks! What a bizarre situation.

Tell me more about stopping and starting, SubC. That is an interesting topic.

I stayed at work past 8 last night. There were fires to be put out and I handled them well.

The person at work being mean apologized in writing (I had called his manager to say that I will not be talked to that way and that his employee is not embodying out core values). I had ignored that aspect of it and sent a new email to everyone just dealing with the issue at hand and not the rudeness. I didn't want the person's nastiness to be part of the email chain. In response, the person sent a sincere thank you. We corresponded quite a bit into the night while I tried to solve the work problem. Yesterday he video called me again to apologize. So I thanked him for being a gentleman and was glad to have that resolved.

I didn't visit my mother yesterday. I ended up taking the subway home and even though I was right there, I decided to just go home.
Posted: 14 January 2023 - 09:05 AM
Lila, Lila, Lila!

I missed you. 🙂

I am so sorry about your home being invaded! I know it can take a long time to feel settled and safe again after something like that!

Excellent job on the living room!

I slept far too late again this morning.

I feel crushed under the weight of the evaluations. I know I have to do them. I know I will feel better when they are done. I am just struggling to find the strength to push through.

I stayed to do them last night and it took me a long time to get set up and started (i procrasticleaned in my classroom) then I got on a roll, but 4 in I looked up and realized the snow was sticking to the roofs outside and it would be dark soon - so home went Subclinical.

Starting and stopping things is really hard for me. I've been reading a really interesting research article on that trait in autistics. It's interesting because I relate to it and it has some possible coping suggestions. It's also long and technical, so I am reading (and rereading) a little at a time.
Posted: 13 January 2023 - 04:20 PM
Well hello friends. A whole new thread - has it been that long? I actually sat here and read it all and caught up on all of your lives. I feel your pains, your sadness, your victories and disappointments. I feel your fears and joys. There is too much to address each one, but know I care and did read and feel like you each shared your lives with me.

I had a very difficult couple of weeks. The summary of difficult is that my ex from decades ago, father of my sons, just showed up IN my house. In. Uninvited, did not knock, brought his kid from his new marriage. I guess he heard about my dh leaving so felt he could just walk right in and no one could stop him. I wish my dog had not been crated in back because he NEVER would have gotten in here. It was terrible. He was abusive when we were married. I felt traumatized. He did not "do" anything but walk in and make himself at home during our adult son's birthday party to which he was NOT invited. I had guests, I was shocked, I was so taken aback I could not speak or put him out. I cried about it for days. I am changing the locks and told all my children he is never to be in my home again. Aside from that, I had cousin here for a week which was a nice visit but crowded. I still have my other two house guests and I adore them as friends. It is just hard having every square inch of space taken up with their things and having very little time alone. But I do enjoy them very much and it is no hardship, but a gift. I will miss them when they go, but will be glad to have room.

The good: I got to have Tot and Acorn over a few times. I went to visit them as well and volunteered in Tot's pre-k. I am excited about the new teeny surprise coming at the end of summer!

Also my tv broke/died a couple weeks ago and I finally found one on clearance and had it delivered today. This meant I did some good things!

- gave the dead tv to Cousin to either fix or dispose of
- took everything off the tv stand (this has not been done in YEARS) and dusted it
- moved the tv stand and vacuumed/dusted behind it. The amount of dust and dog hair was astounding!!
- cleaned the wall behind it
- put it back so it is ready for the new tv to go on it when Son gets home.

I guess this means my living room is the cleanest it has been in years! Behind the tv stand were cords and plugs and wires all coated in hair and dust. I have everything separated out and before anything goes back on the stand, it will be wiped down.

More to come! Looking forward to posting more regularly this year.
Posted: 13 January 2023 - 05:28 AM
Tatoulia, I do not like all these people making you cry! I hope you are feeling better today.

I am crashing a little bit this morning. But not as bad as it has been. I am still trying to hydrate regularly and appreciate not having a headache. I didn't realize how often I was getting headaches until I thought about it Tuesday when I had such a bad one. Rest and water!

I did not do that last evaluation last night. I went to bed. I am trying to be less tired. I thought I might do a couple of evaluations this morning, but instead I have been drinking coffee, eating breakfast, and reading chat boards. I did take my vitamin.

My brain has felt a little less frozen this week.

I don't know if I will stay after today to work on evaluations. It would be a good choice, but also, it is Friday. Dh is working from home today, maybe he will make dinner?
Posted: 12 January 2023 - 10:06 PM
Hello ladies! Thank you for your support I appreciate your kind words. Thank you so much.

Cubic feet! Amazing, CM! SubC you did a good job rolling with the punches and getting things done!

I got upset tonight about work and was crying and plus my sister is making me cry and BF is making me cry and then I thought BF was being mean to me and so I cried and then left my phone off the hook and closed the iPhone and then eventually put it back on and he texted me that he's going to shower and come downtown so we took took bags of donations from my house to the car (yay!) and then we visited mom. So I too gained some space, ladies!

My Christmas stuff is in my dining table. I need to put it away tomorrow.

I cashed in ten vacation days from last year so I'll have a double paycheck tomorrow. Usual two weeks plus the cashed in two weeks. Will put the extra step into savings.

I'm on no spend January btw, and it's going just fine. I never want to buy stuff again.

Thanks for being here for me. I appreciate you all so much.
Posted: 12 January 2023 - 08:01 PM
I did really well today.

This morning before school I finished yesterday's evaluations. I also remembered to put the laundry in the dryer. I brushed my teeth and took my vitamin.

I also dropped off trash and got gas.

My friend stood me up.

I finished checking most of the notebooks.

I stayed after and finished seven and almost an eighth evaluation - (which is not nine but not awful.)

The restaurant was closed due to power outage.

We tried another place, which was meh and kind of expensive. I lost my phone in Dh car (we drove together from one restaurant to the other, then back to my car) realized it was gone after he drove away, went back to the restaurant, didn't panic, came home, called it and found it under his seat.

Did chores. Took shower. Might do another evaluation.

Carry on..
Posted: 12 January 2023 - 03:09 PM

Anything that can be measured in cubic feet is worth bragging about! Nice job!

I'm staying at school and working on evaluations today and then meeting Dh for dinner on the way home.
Posted: 12 January 2023 - 09:34 AM
Mini brag time -

I took the quilting magazines to the library on Tuesday! They amounted to a couple of cubic feet gone. I realize that offloading things like them that were only ever going to be transitory anyway is not as big an accomplishment as getting rid of things that have been around a long time and that I wasn't sure whether or not to keep, sometimes painfully unsure. But it's still an accomplishment. And as always, clearing visual clutter and freeing space, and the satisfaction of ticking it off the list, makes it easier to deal with other stuff.

Tatoulia, I hope you will be able to pass the time and not feel too sad or lonely. I remember when my former boyfriend used to go out of town even for short trips I found it hard. Staying busy helps though, and treating yourself to fun and soothing things, whether it's an afternoon at the art museum or a bubble bath or whatever. And girlfriend time with Emiko. And kitties.

My week has had more things in it than I'd like, though admittedly I prefer a very open calendar so even one obligatory thing per day seems like a lot. Today and tomorrow I wrap up with giving around 30 bunnies their mani pedis at the shelter. Certainly there are worse obligations a person could have. Next week I'm hoping will be more flexible. I've been wanting some more library days. The holiday eliminates one potential day but it's okay, should be others. I'm glad the days themselves are on a lengthening trend.
Posted: 12 January 2023 - 04:53 AM
Good morning.

I am trying very hard not to crash today. I am wishing I had given myself one more hour of sleep though.

Yesterday I did pretty well. For a start I went the whole day without having a headache. I'm trying to pay attention to my water intake. I remembered my vitamin. I taught all day (including adding a new student), loaded the kiln, loaded and ran the dishwasher, cut Dh hair, and ran a load of wash - I put it in the dryer this morning.

I intended to do ten evaluations, but I only made it through six. I currently need to complete nine a day to finish on time - or about 2 hrs and 15 minutes a day. That is too much for school days, so I will have to do more on the weekend. I tried staying late so that I could pop over and look at the shelves while I was writing the pottery ones. That worked pretty well and there are fewer distractions and temptations. I will probably do that again tonight.

I have still not cleaned up the house from the Monday play date. Or made progress on Christmas decorations. I am keeping the house pretty much in balance though. Sometimes holding the line is enough, right?

A former student friend is coming to eat lunch with me at school today.
Posted: 11 January 2023 - 04:49 AM
Tatoulia, that is a good reason to be sad.

You will miss your bf. It is both possible and reasonable to be happy for someone else and sad at the same time. I know. I've got two kids who have good lives in other states.

5 months is a long time, but it will go faster than you think. We will keep you busy taking care of us.

Yesterday was a struggle and I was tired and my head ached, but I got all the wednesday notebooks checked (well, I have six kids who didn't turn them in - so, conversations on that today) and I have most of today's lesson plans done and on the board (a little easy prep to go)

I thought about skipping my own class, but it was the first night, so I decided to push through and go for the intro and demonstrations. I'm glad I did, because once I got to the studio, my headache slowly went away, and I ended up staying and making a little hanging bowl and getting a lot of good ideas.

And I feel better about myself today because I succeeded at some hard things.

I got a catalog in the mail yesterday with some very pretty and absurdly expensive things in it. I'm keeping it for a while for some inspiration for my clay work.
Posted: 10 January 2023 - 09:31 PM
Great work in the magazines and the newspapers, Cm and SubC! Very proud of you,

I have all my Christmas stuff on the dining room table, so that's not actual progress but it is something.

I am overwhelmed with sadness for no good reason. I mean there is a reason but it's not a good one. BF is going to go home for several months. I am so happy for him! He's got a lot of work to do there in his properties and also needs to spend some solid time with his family. He is the only one in the US. I've met two of his sisters and his brother over the years. I am so happy for him and am very excited. But then the sadness creeps in. Right now he's thinking of about five or more months. I can do this, I'm just sad about it. He doesn't have his departure date yet. The only thing I ask is that he come back. He's not selling his place here. I do not want to impose by asking if I can visit. He has not been home in 20 years. Not time for me to make it about me.

He told our friends at Christmas and they were happy for him. He said he's sure they will take care of me on my birthday if he's already left. We discussed whether my cat will still be alive and we decided that if she's still okay, then I will have my friend Emiko go with me if at some point I need to put her to sleep. Weird what the two of us are worried about.

My heart is sad but only for me. I have been sad about how much he has worked and not seen his family in so long. So now my heart doesn't need to feel sad for him. And I'll be fine. I just need to cry a lot.
Posted: 10 January 2023 - 07:17 AM
Lol Tatoulia, I need to sleep more.

CM, nice job on the quilting magazines! Remember my pile of local interest magazines? They are still coming in every month, but my pile is down to ten - including the current month. I have set a goal to clear out at least two each month, so that by fall I will have only the current month.

The play date went great yesterday. I miss having a house full of little kids. It's fun and I'm good at it. The house is a mess though. I am not good at cleaning up. I remember when my kids were little. the thing is, I'm still not good at cleaning up, but before, I was doing a bunch of stuff that was more important, and now I'm just surfing the Internet.

I need to find some way to keep myself accountable and motivated in the little things. I am so frustrated with myself.
Posted: 09 January 2023 - 12:45 PM
Just a few little things...

I'm finding an item here and there that I'll look at and go "Why didn't I get rid of this a long time ago?" Probably just because it camouflaged itself in the other clutter and I stopped seeing it. Now they're jumping out at me, figuratively speaking.

Also, one good consequence of the hand sanitizer spill (and thankfully it no longer reeks like grandpappy's moonshine still in the living room) is that I shifted a stack of quilting magazines I had been wanting to go through. And guess what - I'm going through them! There aren't too many; they were just the last of a bigger bunch that is already in my van ready to be dropped off at the library bookstore.

So far I've flipped through 13 of them and there are maybe a dozen more. I'm kind of reassessing where I want to go with quilting; in another post I'll elaborate on that - basically I want to simplify what quilts I decide to make. So some of the magazines that had patterns that I thought I was interested in, I decided perhaps not after all. And some I think were just loose ones that got in the batch - the ladies in the guild sometimes bring their old ones to the church and I grab a few to look at. Anyhow, made good progress there.

Made pumpkin pies yesterday since our Christmas didn't include them because we were still tired from the Covid. That gets 4 cans off the shelves in the pantry, too - 2 of pumpkin and 2 of evaporated milk. I can use the space.
Posted: 09 January 2023 - 07:12 AM
Road, I'm glad you are feeling better. I've always bought my mattresses by taking my mom. She broke her back 60 years ago and I trust her mattress skills. I hate buying mattresses. I also buy the most expensive I can afford.

SubC you do have a big play date today!

I have started a second bag to goodwill. My challenge to myself is to get these bags to my car. Now that BF's office isn't just up the street, I just don't go to my car anymore. I need to get better about a lot of things in my life. Getting out more and sleeping less are two things I need to concentrate on.
Posted: 09 January 2023 - 04:49 AM
Hi road! Glad you are feeling better!

We just go to the store and lie on them.

CM, glad your unit will be getting the work done and you feel like you are making progress.

The stuff in piles that falls over is the sort of thing I mean by the "high interest" stuff. If we can get rid of the pile, we will gain back so much extra time that we are spending dodging around it and stacking it back up..

I feel like I made some progress this weekend, but it was all temporary progress - rest, laundry, dishes, baked bread. Nothing that will last the week, or possibly even the day.

I pick Bean up this morning and then the farm sitter is dropping her three until lunch time - likely to make a big dent in the bread and the rest. Dishes are actually already piled up, just not as bad as yesterday.

Off to do my chores and pick up the floor a bit before the big play date!
Posted: 08 January 2023 - 01:47 PM
Hi all, just checking in. Have been feeling very good last couple days. Very little pain. No pain meds. Only issue is I am still really tired and not sleeping well. I finally lost the last of the built up fluid and the expected couple pounds from being sick and basically not eating for a week. So now I am officially not worried any more. I was a little sloppier with what I ate yesterday and I did have some stomach or left flank pain so I will try to be careful still.

The H and I tangled a bit today over responsibilities and his feeling overwhelmed. It does not compute for him that one reason he feels overwhelmed is he has been temporarily doing both our jobs because he really does seem to believe I don't do anything. I hear subc's sage advice from long ago Ringing in my ears... how can he believe when up to now there hasn't been a basis for trust (paraphrasing) so I try to be patient because I know there is truth to that. However, as I do progress my suspicion that he has a blind spot to any Progress is proving out. Luckily for me (?) I have photographic proof.

I had intended to take over all the paperwork/process for my sons social security and other adulthood documents and interface with various agencies/entities, but with my ADD that stuff is challenging and It just seemed like I was repeatedly getting knocked down by health issues... but now I am taking it over. I set up a binder, adding pockets and dividers, Started printing and filling out some documents... etc. it's a very complex process so it requires some org. Luckily the social worker At my sons school is great - very knowledgeable and proactive getting everyone where they need to be so I have help.

I am now officially glad the guys are back to school tomorrow.

So - I decided not to keep the foam mattress I was trying out. I want a conventional, firm box spring and mattress. Any recommendations? How do you guys all go about getting new mattresses?
Posted: 07 January 2023 - 12:44 PM
Oh wow, lots of you or family have been sick - hope all will be better soon!

Roommate and I are still having the post Covid dry annoying cough. She has it worse because everything respiratory hits her hard. Otherwise we're doing okay.

I'm trying to regain equilibrium. Wednesday night into Thursday morning I was watching the livestream of Pope Emeritus Benedict XVI's funeral. So I knew I would be jet lagged! Slept till nearly 2:00 p.m. Thursday. Had a small migraine Thursday evening while roommate and I were watching TV. I do believe erratic sleep is one of my migraine triggers. But all they are really anymore is an aura that lasts 45 minutes to an hour, then when the visual weirdness ends, most of the time that's it, no headache.

I got some things done on Tuesday which was payday; spoke to the manager of the storage unit place and she was really nice. They are planning to do some work on the concrete which might also help where the water tends to pool in front of my unit the most of any of them. And the gutters. I had photos of where the rusted out place is that lets water drip on my head. Concrete work won't be able to be done till warmer weather, but at least if I know it's planned. (Wouldn't it be great if I could just win the lottery, buy a house, have my minimalist studio/residence, and never need a storage unit again, lol?)

Meanwhile, until the lottery comes through, I'm making my poco a poco progress. Pulled out another couple of games from storage, and a few more books. The books are ones that I can part with to the senior center. The games may be donated there or carried back and forth (nice Mexican Train domino set I bought a few years ago which is compact enough to live in my van and I could take it there when I want to play).

These things don't sound like much, but are part of an overall shift which is promising. I'm also doing some in my bedroom which has been such a disaster. It's just in the early stages, but I am hoping to deal with several years' worth of entropy and chaos there.

The shift is simply that I feel more like doing it, like I have the mental bandwidth again and a little energy, and that certain possessions have ceased to feel like they belong in the category of "Mine." What I mean by that is, say I have a copy of a certain book. For many years, that was my copy of that book, and my book collection needed to have it in it. But now a lot of them don't feel like they are as relevant to my current life.

For example, when my parents died in the 00s, I bought a slew of books on grief. Well, Mom and Dad have been deceased long enough now that I am really not needing those books - yet for a long time I guess I thought I might want to refer back to them or something? Because they were really well written, etc.? Or perhaps I even had some vague passing notion of ministering to grieving people. But no. It's a different time, I have different concerns, and such books are more available in non-physical formats anyway. So someone else can be blessed with them now. They will do much more good out in the world than bundled away in a dank storage unit.

Growing up, I just looked at all kinds of items as having some sort of, what to call it, "destiny?" to be my or my family's property. Even silly little things like a particular wallet or nail file or set of drink glasses, piece of furniture - it was OUR red wallet, our drink glasses, our green sofa. Although sometimes we did sell the bigger things and get different ones - but then those became ours in the same way. I guess it's just the comforting familiarity? Whatever it was/is, for some reason in my little noggin, that took on too much importance, I guess.

Anyhow, I'm seeing this "importance of ownership" in my attitude to lots of things that I possess, but the good news is that it is undergoing that shift. I don't have to have this copy of this book, or this sweater, or whatever, just because I've had it for X number of years. It's just a thing. I can decide afresh whether it's a thing that I want/need in my life, or whether the space would be nicer to have instead.

Well, I guess that's all for Critical Mass on The Phenomenology of Possessions for one day.

Another thing that I'll just briefly mention, and that is I just want to get to the point where there isn't so much stuff in piles to knock over. Had another crazy time last night, just when things had been going semi-smoothly. A bottle of hand sanitizer from early in the pandemic - remember when companies were scrambling to make it out of whatever alcohol they could find? This stuff was thin, 80% alcohol, very strong smelling - and I had been using it to clean ink, which it did quite well - but then somehow unbeknownst to me the bottle tipped over onto the carpet! IT STUNK TO HIGH HEAVEN and my poor roommate was coughing her lungs out. I felt so bad! Plus of course it had to make a mess in a place on the rug that had junk piled nearby, and was a pain in the butt to clean up.

So that all was not good for my mood at all. I've been aware for quite some time that clutter begets more clutter, and one of the easiest ways it does that is by causing spills and avalanches. Especially in this small overcrowded house. It can get very discouraging, because I can have a success and then bump into something and make twice the mess I had managed to fix. Being an ADHD klutz too doesn't help, nor does the weight I've regained - I have lost a sense of when I have clearance not to bump into furniture. I'm going to be losing that weight though, I mean to do it. It's not that much, but just enough to change my spatial sense if you know what I mean. The exercise to help with the weight will surely also help me be more graceful. One can hope.

So anyway, this post has been another hodgepodge of scattered thoughts, but I just had been meaning to check in, so it'll do for now.

Poco a poco, ladies!
Posted: 06 January 2023 - 06:29 PM

It was ok. I'm just sad for the kid. My boss told me today that my email was "perfect". She is generally supportive, but this may be the first time since high school anyone has referred to any of my work as "perfect" so that was comforting.

I have been doing some reflection and analysis and I have come to the conclusion that I crash on Thursdays. It seems to be a pattern - strong start to the week, crash on Thursday, coast through Friday, recover over the weekend, repeat. I think maybe I need to spend some time working on Thursday and Friday ahead of time so that even if I don't get as many extra things done early in the week, the crash is less hard.

I got a dozen new dish cloths and a box of toys that I bought on clearance after Christmas in the mail today. The toys are to give Bean slowly over time. The dishcloths are definitely a net in though, I need to purge some ratty ones.
Posted: 05 January 2023 - 09:54 PM
That is an upsetting situation, SubC. I'm so sorry you had to do that.

I am more emotional than mathematical which is a hoot because (job hint) I work with math a lot.

So i used to enjoy getting rid of student loans by the numbers rather than by the dollars. But you are correct, in both the short and the king runs!

Cleaners came today. I'm going to clean the cat box, shower and get ready for bed. Back to office tmr. My stomach is somewhat better. I did have a ginger ale tonight. So far so good on the nausea.
Posted: 05 January 2023 - 08:07 PM
Well, I decluttered her.

I tried to send a clear, detailed, but polite explanation of the situation, which also included honest praise for the child where is was deserved and suggestions on making a better fit (than my class)

She told me I'm a horrible person and a lousy teacher (she used more words) and that she is withdrawing him from our school tomorrow.

The email would have been pretty hurtful 30 years ago. Now I'm just tired and sad that she did not advocate for her kid better by communicating before enrolling him.

Set up coffee.
Go to bed.
Posted: 05 January 2023 - 06:13 PM
Tatoulia, a lot of people do it that way.

Anything that motivates you is better than something that doesn't.

It just doesn't make sense to me because it's mathematically irrational - you end up paying more money in total, so it could take longer overall. I am motivated by paying less money over less time.

With the stuff, it's not necessarily the hardest stuff first, it's the stuff that drains my energy the most.

Currently I would like to declutter a parent. She is mad at me. I am possibly more mad at her. We are both mad because we want what is best for her kid. I need to not obsess over this all evening.
Posted: 05 January 2023 - 04:31 PM
Thanks for helping me better understand the credit analogy. Not to muddy the waters but when I had debt, I worked on the lowest amount of debt first, because I enjoy the satisfaction of having the debt extinguished. I think I'm that way with my possessions, too. Working on the easier stuff.

I have at least one bag to go to goodwill. In terms of Christmas gifts, my incoming was one purse, desk items, and perfume and soaps. So nothing that needs any special accommodations. I do, however, have to take a look at my linens including throw blankets and make some decisions.
Posted: 05 January 2023 - 06:11 AM
Serial posting.

I emptied and entire ring binder of old school paper. I did not count the sheets, but I'm calling that enough slack for the rest of the week. It was about 3/8".

Next I need to take care of some insurance paperwork. That would be an example of a high interest item. I know it will only take a few minutes, but the amount of stress and mental energy involved in not having it done is huge and makes it seem like a mountain. So doing it will free up a lot of energy for other stuff.
Posted: 05 January 2023 - 04:50 AM
Good morning.

Once again I watched videos all evening. Once again I am getting up tired. I fell back into my groove like a needle.

I did find 25 pieces of teaching related paper that I could recycle yesterday morning.

I think if I balance my day the next morning I'm going to call it good, because I do better in the mornings.

Yesterday I added 8 more sheets of teaching paper to my life, so I will try to sort the teaching paper pile some more today. Food packaging ebbs and flows like laundry, but it is currently at a manageable place - the scullery has been getting neither notably better nor notably worse. I cleaned my desk at school up a little yesterday and I used the trash can.

Poco a poco.

More about the debt analogy - if you have many credit cards and you are servicing debt, that costs you extra money every month - as you pay them off, you lower the interest and then remove a minimum payment, so you can put more money toward the next one every month and pay off faster. The key is to reduce the total every month.

When I have many many piles and boxes around the house I spend a lot of time and energy moving them and churning through them looking for things. As I reduce them, less time will be needed for churning and moving and so more can be dedicated to reducing. I don't want to spend a bunch of time record keeping, so I am trying to be mindful and reduce the total every day if possible. I know I will have bad days, but if I can do that more often than not, the total should go down every month. And then next year I will have less stuff and more organization and daily life might be less exhausting.
Posted: 04 January 2023 - 04:38 AM

As usual I still have prep work to do for today.

I slept so much during break, and somehow I have already built up a brand new sleep deficit.

I am leaving my Christmas stuff up. I like it. I was going to take it down this weekend after twelfth night, but now we have a concert on Saturday night and dinner with friends on Sunday night and I think I will wait an extra week. Our semester ends on the 13th and I need to get started on evaluations - another thing I didn't do over break. So I will probably be motivated to procrasticlean.

Road - you keep resting! I don't know how old you are, but Dh had his appendix out laparoscopically about 15 years ago and it took him most of the week to recover enough to move around normally. And you don't even use your appendix!

Ok, I'm going to try to address my prep work and see what I can do about those 17 sheets of paper. - most of them were copies to organize records for school.
Posted: 03 January 2023 - 10:23 PM
Road! Be sure to take it easy! Sometimes those shots burn! Truly let yourself heal. Do not push yourself. Do not weigh yourself! You are filled with fluid. Just watch out for your lungs and try to sit up a few hours each day.

You did a good job salvaging your day, SubC. Dear little bean. Glad sil's fever broke!

I did get my wreaths down and out yesterday. It felt really good. I will put some of the Christmas things away soon.

Well dishwasher is ready to be run and I am ready to take my shower. Back to office tmr. I've been worried about my little African violet.
Posted: 03 January 2023 - 08:37 PM
Road, I'm glad you're home and not in too much pain, but that sounds rough! I'm impressed you did anything.

We don't know what sil had. I'm just glad he's getting better.

I went down to the basement and grabbed six old seed catalogs and put them in the recycling. Loose papers are just going to have to float.

I also found a plastic cap in my pocket that I hadn't even remembered picking up. So there's that...
Posted: 03 January 2023 - 07:03 PM
Hi guys!

Subc, will have to give some thought to your debt analogy...

Tatoulia, yes, laparoscopic thank goodness. Pain not too bad except at one of the four sites. Also some "burning" feeling where I got a series of anti blood clot shots in my belly. Shots didn't hurt at all but now the skin is.

Instead of losing 5-10 I ended up gaining 13 (in fluid I assume). Hands feet are puffy, my eyes look bloodshot and puffy... having trouble taking a deep breath but my o2 is fine. Hopefully by tomorrow I will have lost a few in water. Running a little temp but nothing major. Had a little veg & broth, some crackers, half an apple. That's about all I could deal with today. Taking it slow. Just took one pain pill today.

House wise I just cleaned up a couple things in the kitchen. Hope fully I will feel better tomorrow. I did clean up a medical bill mess from august though. That was my big adulting today. Took almost two hours On hold on the phone (not my strong suit) but I think it's done. Big deal for me.

The H has been very tolerant and has tried his best to be helpful which I am grateful for. My son has been alternately angelic and turd like. He helped me put on pajama pants and a sock, and then he would pour ice water in his top hat and dump it over my head. You get the picture.

Sub c what is sil sick with with a high fever? Glad you made it work. Our Christmas is all still up. Gonna be a few days still I think.

I'm gonna sign off. Thanks for the healing wishes. Very hopeful I won't have another attack like the ones I've been dealing with since august. Happy new year everyone! Let's keep moving our feet forward and "KEEP HOPE ALIVE!"
Posted: 03 January 2023 - 05:50 PM
Bean attended my 11:00 class. Then we had lunch. His mommy picked him up at 1:00. Daddy's fever broke, so they kept him.

I got some of what I wanted done today.

My life has increased by two seed catalogs and 17 pages of paper today. I may try to find the energy to address that after dinner. But I am tired and not fully ready for tomorrow. This is how things build up.
Posted: 03 January 2023 - 04:25 AM
Good morning!

I got almost six hours of Broken sleep last night.

We moved Bean up to the office room that opens into our room with no door because Dd was worried that if he got sick during the night we wouldn't hear him.

I got to bed around 11, but my feet and sheets were cold so I couldn't fall asleep. Dh came to bed freezing just as I was drifting off.

Bean woke up and quietly protested something at 1:30. If he had been in his own room, he would probably have just gone back to sleep, but I am hyper vigilant when he is here, and got up, touched him to check for fever, straightened his blankets, reassured him, and sat with my hand on his back for a few minutes before going back to bed.

A storm rolled in around 4 and woke me again.

Now it is a bit past 5, I am very tired, drinking coffee, It is pouring rain, I need to do my chores before Bean wakes up because it is too much to manage (too slow) if I wait for him. I'm trying to get ready to go to school taking Bean along at least to clean up, and I don't know if I'm actually teaching today.

This is not how I planned to start this school year.

Mice and men as the poets says.

I hope road is resting and recovering, Lila is enjoying her cousin, Tatoulia has her wreathes down and still feels better, and CM is still moving forward - poco a poco.
Posted: 02 January 2023 - 05:34 PM
I did not put up Dh paper houses this year because we didn't have a good place to put them away from Bean and dogs.

I still have Bean. His daddy is very sick with a high fever. If his momma doesn't think she can take him back tomorrow, I will need to take the day off. Except I left my room such a mess I think Bean and I will have to go clean it up before the sub takes over.

I made some progress on the house today, but have not been able to get entirely ready for school. I may be up late tonight.
Posted: 02 January 2023 - 03:55 PM
Oh dear Road, I am sorry you had to have surgery! Please write when you can! We care about you and your family a lot. I hole they were able to do the surgery laparoscopically so that your recovery will be somewhat better. But still a recovery to be sure. Please know I am holding you in my thoughts.

SubC, I like the concept of owning down debt. Of course my mind cannot quite grasp it in terms of lower interest rate vs higher interest rate vis a vis spaces but you know,and that's what matters.

It is trash night tonight. I need to shower and look alive. My friend Emiko came by and I was still in my pjs. She didn't mind. It was good to see her.

Bf heading down soon so I need to shower. Back to work tomorrow. No more lounging in bed til noon.

After I shower and get dressed, I will take my wreaths down for pickup tomorrow. I have taken down the Christmas scene in th e common area hallway. . I'm leaving out my paper houses because I love them so. I'll work on some of the other decorations later tonight.

Yes it's 5 PM and I'm just now looking alive.

Oh, I had no ginger ale or crackers the last two days and I do not feel nauseated. I wonder if they were contributing to my nausea.
Posted: 02 January 2023 - 06:20 AM
Good morning!

Road, I am sorry you had to have surgery, but I am hopeful that now the cause of the problem is gone and it will not come back! Rest and recover.

Woke to a note from Bean's mommy that his daddy was up sick all night. Hopefully he caught whatever it was hanging out with his friend on Saturday and Bean is not sick.

Today is baking and playing with Bean, and getting ready for school this week. Should also put the laundry away and keep working on the scullery.

I have been thinking - my spaces are liked debt, except instead of money, it is time and energy I have to pay. The idea is to pay just the minimum (keep up with any new messes and items) on most of them, and then throw any extra at the one with the highest interest rate (most impact on my life)

Only, since I am moving somethings into my basement, it's more like I am still using the lowest interest card so that I can pay as much as possible on the highest interest one.

But the point is, that like ccs, this should get easier with every space I clear and defend.
Posted: 02 January 2023 - 02:31 AM
Hi all,

Ended up getting gall bladder removed today. I had a stone obstructing the pancreas in worst spot. They said that's the most dangerous complication of gb so that's why I was so sick. That resolved itself but had to get gb removed to keep it from happening again . Gall bladder wasn't diagnosed til they did this imaging I guess because pain was referring center left instead of center right. ?? Still not sure why it wasn't even on the radar.

But that's my exciting news.

Will try to catch up when my eyeballs are cooperating again?
Posted: 01 January 2023 - 09:28 PM
Lol Tatoulia, I suppose you read, but then no more post..

Today I did not keep up with the actual food packaging, but I washed or rinsed and set out to dry more food packaging than we created. And I started the fire with a paper egg carton.

I still have too much milk stockpiled in the fridge and am not managing it well (using oldest first) but I used more than I got today - even if I did give some that was sour to the chickens. Not optimal use, but it cuts down on chicken feed.

I found four little toy animals (Bean has nicer ones) and some arts and crafts sponges to add to the donate pile.

The weather didn't turn out as promised, but I got two loads of bedding out of the barn and onto cardboard in the garden. And I cleaned up and organized and worked on some projects in the studio for two hours. So, progress.

I have a big box of things set aside for a one way trip to school.

And Bean tucked in bed and our fruit soaking and squash thawing for tomorrow's baking.
Posted: 01 January 2023 - 06:58 PM
Happy New Year!

Now to read the posts!
Posted: 01 January 2023 - 12:59 PM
So, I have been thinking today - there are 5 ways things leave my possession:

Used up:
Made into something else (which is then kept, given away, or sold)

Given away:
As gifts

Sold (includes returns - which are rare)



I try to pay attention on the front end to minimize that last one.

A lot of those are food and food packaging related. So, my plan is to try to keep on top of the food and food packaging related stuff and net one non-food related out every day. "Made into something else" only counts if it is not a kept thing.

Items will be counted when they are categorized, not dropped off (so I can put something in a donate box and count it but not take the box until it is full. No credit for dropping the box off.)

Report later.
Posted: 01 January 2023 - 11:42 AM
White rabbit, white rabbit, white rabbit! 🐇 (Depending on your browser and which emoji set it uses, the rabbits may be white or they may be brown. In any case, they're cute.)

And Happy New Year. 🎉 🥳 May it bring renewed hope, peace, prosperity, and all those good things. And little beanlets and a peanut or whatever Lila decides to call the successor of Acorn. 😉

Road, I hope and pray that you are already feeling a lot better after your bad spell.

Lila, when I have the newsletter from the senior center in front of me - new one just came last week - I'll see if I can find you some good ideas. I'm pretty new there myself and because of life craziness then catching the Rona, I haven't gotten there much. For me, its role is that of a resource center, a place to go and do things like the open crafting days to catch up on my projects. And some of the quieter interactive things like board games. Fitness too - I am interested in stretching type classes, and casual pickleball (because although I never really got serious about tennis, I used to enjoy whacking a ball with a racket). Not that I don't want to meet people and make friends, I do, but it'll probably happen secondary to doing things that interest me. That's just how I am, as an introvert.

So things like the dances and parties I'm not sure if will be my interest, and the craft classes where a set project is assigned, unless it would be something I've wanted to learn about. I may be more focused on my own agenda, but if I observe something I think might be what you're looking for in terms of ideas I'll pass it on.

Well, a new year stretches ahead, and I sure hope it'll be an improvement on the previous one. I have some optimism. My anxiety seems less, I think I'll be more disciplined in doing fitness which will further calm me, and I feel less intimidated and lost regarding the decluttering. In fact, rather eager to get started.

I hope my roommate will have a much happier and calmer time too; she hasn't gotten to really settle into retirement and enjoy it because of crazy happenings around here - things impacting her directly, and helping me navigate through some of mine (bless her for her willingness - I need to make more of a point of expressing gratitude, and doing something to reciprocate).

Live long and prosper, my friends! 🖖
Posted: 01 January 2023 - 06:13 AM
Happy new year!
White rabbits, white rabbits, white rabbits.

I have almost all of the dishes and most of the laundry done from the Christmas chaos. The laundry is not put away.

I am leaving the decorations up at least this week.

Today I got up at a reasonable hour.

The weather is supposed to be good, so I want to work in my barn.

I have less a plan or even list of goals for this year, and more a random collection of thoughts.

We'll see how that goes.

Keeping road in my thoughts, and hoping everyone else is doing well. Shout out to any lurkers or newbies - come say hi!
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