| Subclinucal | Posted: 26 February 2022 - 04:52 AM |
Ok, hopefully this will make a new thread that Everyone can find easily. If it works, I'll go put a note on the old thread. | |
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| Lila | Posted: 04 September 2022 - 11:17 PM |
Thanks SubC and Tatoulia! Yes, the friends will be fixing the leak. All the wet boxes got disposed of and the things I put in ex's den are in tubs, and dry, so won't be an issue. I do wish he had a deadline, but I am trying VERY hard to be as easy as possible about this because he is the type who would lawyer up and cause me a lot of stress if he felt unduly pressed. So, I do believe he is looking for a new place to live and that once he has established that, he will be in a hurry to come get this hoard and his furniture. He loves his hoard so I don't think I have to worry about him leaving it here. When he moved in with me 20ish years ago, he brought this terrible old couch from the 80s. It has a pull out bed that is all bent and thin and uncomfortable, which makes is super heavy and almost impossible to move. My kid's pet died on it (old age) and now I can't stand to look at it, the pet died right there. And then another pet peed on it (foster long ago). I hate that couch!!! I have begged to get rid of it but it is HIS. But it won't fit in his den. I cannot WAIT for him to take that couch!!!!! When that couch is in the driveway getting loaded into his moving van, it will be the symbol of complete freedom that I need. | |
| Tatoulia | Posted: 04 September 2022 - 08:40 PM |
In favor of wash and donate! Lila, you did great! Also consider if anyone would want the paint cans. Check online (unless you already know) how to dispose of. Some can be opened and once dry, can go in the regular trash, other types need to wait for hazardous material disposal. There may be nothing salvageable in those cans. We did mom's groceries tonight. She's so mixed up, the poor thing. I am still waiting on her bank statements and she said they arrived but then she couldn't find them and then later on she said she found them and then tonight all she had to show for herself was one piece of paper, not from her bank, and she said the statements didn't arrive. Who knows anymore. I slept this afternoon. I haven't done that in a long time. It felt good. Now I'm doing laundry. I did a load earlier today and now I'm on my third. I have a lot of laundry because I had to keep the visiting cat from scratching my furniture. | |
| Subclinical | Posted: 04 September 2022 - 04:28 PM |
Excellent Lila! Does xh have a deadline for coming back? I hope you did not put anything wet that will cause a problem in your house. Is the leak one of the things your friends are fixing? The coffee shop building is cute. The potential coffee shop owners are very excited but uncertain. I attended the first planning analysis meeting in which I tried not to talk, but did offer information I knew from working at the farmers market. Also, at one point I finally interrupted with "I'm going to jump in here. One thing you really have to remember is that you guys are partners. He is not your boss, He doesn't get to tell you what to do." I tried to throw some pots. I am rusty and got frustrated. I am having a really hard time just being today, but I did realize a few minutes ago that my shirt was making me grumpy. Maybe I am catching up to the 2 y.o. Somebody remind me to donate that shirt after I wash it. | |
| Lila | Posted: 04 September 2022 - 04:06 PM |
oh and p.s., THANK YOU SubC for the steps to deal with the bathroom and pathway, kitchen cups etc. That helps a lot! | |
| Lila | Posted: 04 September 2022 - 03:02 PM |
This is an "I am proud of myself" post. Please celebrate with me! I finally felt well enough to do things today. We have a water leak in the storage room so we have to take everything out of there. This storage room is where my ex has thrown everything. It is a hoarder paradise (hell?) combined with tools, parts of things, gardening items and many shelves. Much of it got wet. It has not been gone through in probably 15 years. With ex gone I can! My son and I took 90% of the things out of there. It was thrown, heaped to the ceiling! Broken tools, old junk, cobwebs. We took it all out and it is spread all over the patio. - 3 large rubbedmaid tubs of ex's junk. I just peeked but there are things like 20 year old underwear, clothes with holes, his shoes, old blankets. As I found things of his in the room I added them: books, old sports stuff, tools I know are his, shoes. All 3 are being put into ex's den where all his hoard now lives for him to move when he comes back for it all. - 6 or 7 cardboard boxes of random junk - all flattened and put out - filled a whole yard waste leaf bag with trash and broken items - took one of the very large trash bins (huge city ones) and filled it TO THE RIM with stuff: broken leaf blower, old wires, pieces, parts, boards, an old DIRTY toilet seat from when he replaced one 12 years ago, a tarp that is 75% holes. Totally filled! - consolidated Keep tools and pieces into a bin - Found a huge box full of political signs that won't fit in the trash can so stuck them in his den for him to deal with. It would fill my bin. I have to figure out what to do with about a dozen cans of paint that are really old. Might list them for free online. There is a lot to still go through but it feels SO good to be getting rid of so much crap!! | |
| Lila | Posted: 04 September 2022 - 02:50 PM |
hello everyone! I feel so much better today! Life is so much better when you're not coughing your guts out with a fever. SubC, here is how I feel about the toys. There is something very good and special about being a grandma and having special toys. I myself went overboard saving things, but when I started to declutter, I rated the toys on three things: 1) how much does Tot like this toy (or future grands)? 2) how decent is the quality? and,3) how much space would be created by giving this toy away? To me, 3 was most enlightening. So, I have a little case of "my little pony" toys. I also had a big plastic dinosaur with balls that went in it. I know ffor a fact those ponies will be well loved (and they are) and the big dino only is fun for a very limited age range. But I decided to save the ponies and get rid of the dino because the dino took up so much more space! One Sheep or other animal takes up a tiny amount of space and gives years of imaginative play. So I would get him the sheep. It would be special, and if he asks for any other animals, tell him to shop in the bin, and maybe, just MAYBE he could as for the next special animal for Christmas! A nice, small gift to add to the Grammy toys! TLDR, I tended to get rid of big toys and save the little ones. Hi again Jules, what area of your home would you like mroe space in? Hi Tatoullia, CM, Road, all. This is long and I am going to write a new post with what I did today. | |
| Tatoulia | Posted: 04 September 2022 - 12:46 PM |
SubC, bean puts the proper names on his feelings! Extraordinary. Your children are doing a great job raising him! As are you and your husband. I think we could all learn to stop and label our status. Sometimes I have a headache and it may take me 45 minutes before I realize I have a headache. I'm just miserable and don't know why. Hello, Jules! Whether you are looking for help or just want to say hello, you are always welcome! If you have something particular you'd like to do (like getting started LOL because that can be tough), it's nice to go around and get rid of trash. And define trash for yourself. Empty food wrappers, used paper towels, etc. you'll learn as you go along that trash has a definition that will expand. But start with the easy stuff. You'll build the mental muscle to get rid of the harder stuff. | |
| Jules | Posted: 04 September 2022 - 10:52 AM |
Hi again nice people. Thanks for making me feel welcome and inviting me to tell about what I'm dealing with. I'm retired and live alone. I have too much stuff and not enough storage. My last place was smaller, but had fabulous amount of storage space. Sometimes I feel overwhelmed by the extent of the mess and my physical limitations. At least I can see now which really helps. I get inspired from reading what y'all (yes I'm Southern lol) write about doing. | |
| Subclinical | Posted: 04 September 2022 - 06:08 AM |
Good morning! Tatoulua, I am Lol about "one needs to be an adult". I hope the visiting kitty enjoyed the vacation, and I'm sure your kitty is pleased to see things are back to normal. Mr. kitty would never put up with such a thing! This morning he loves me very much and is back in his rightful place, so whatever I did before must have been forgiven. I was thinking that I would get rid of some *other* toy. I did grab a snake out of the bin while we were looking - it was not the same brand or scale and looked shabby compared to the other animals. The ones available are still just as nice - they are a German company. IMHO, the Germans are quite excellent at toys. It is now the part of the year where I panic. I slept well last night, but woke up this morning from a dream about my first class (which was actually a class that meets Wednesday last period.) my school neighbor for some reason was also teaching in my classroom, and her class was large, took up most of my room, and went well. I was in the back of my room and only had three students and the entire class period was a disaster. As always I feel under prepared and overwhelmed. Bean and family are coming at 4 today - they will eat dinner and Bean will stay the night. Coffee shop tour at 2 which I have asked to be included on. I still have prep to do for school, and today looks like the only day this week I can throw pots (which I need to do for Tuesday's class) and also the only day this week I can can salsa - which I really want to do, but maybe the pots are more important? Except the pots are for fun, and salsa is food and getting expensive these days.. I swear, I watch Bean make decisions (like choosing his animals) and self regulate ("Bean need little rest.") and I think "that is amazing executive function for a 2 y.o." and also I despair that I will never match him. The two year old knows when he is tired and needs to rest, and I, the adult, just get cranky and difficult. | |
| Tatoulia | Posted: 03 September 2022 - 10:48 PM |
Hello everyone! SubC, that is solid advice on cleaning the bathroom. I think most people enjoy a clean bathroom more than anything. Okay my cat is home and the visiting cat left. We went to the Red Sox game tonight, I won the company tickets on Friday for today's afternoon game. I invited a friend who has a husband and two kids. I told her, any two family members are invited to join us but one needs to be an adult. She did admit that for a moment she thought she could go for dinner alone with her husband. So my friend and her 11 year old joined us. Great weather, great game. By the time we walked home from the park, my work friend was here to get the cat. SubC I was going to tell you no, you do not need another zoo toy and the ones made today will not come close to the quality of the ones you have now. But then something tugged at my heartstrings. Yes get the sheep. No you don't need to give a different zoo animal away. | |
| Subclinical | Posted: 03 September 2022 - 07:24 AM |
Good morning! I just noticed that this thread is very long. Is it still loading ok CM? I was pretty tired last night.I'm getting concerned about school starting and the demands on my energy if one two year old is wearing me out this much. Dsil picked some things in my garden and replanted some things that died while we were gone, and moved some "volunteer" trees from my flower bed to the woods. All the ash trees are dying from invasive emerald ash borers, and we try to replant native trees as much as we can. The volunteers were wild cherries and redbuds. Bean played, ate, and napped. We did not try to do any "works" yesterday. As always I have a long list for today that I will not finish. Here is a hoarding/collecting thing I am mulling over. In my basement I have a tub of very nice plastic animals that my kids collected over the years from the zoo gift shop. (We went often, and we had a membership, so the zoo was very cheap per visit and the animals - which we got a discount on - were a nice treat and a way to support the zoo.) I have not counted them, but there are easily over a hundred animals. I had put a few out for Bean, and he loved them, and the other day he looked them over and announced "Grammie need more animals." So, I took him down to the basement with his little basket and let him choose some more to bring up. He was very deliberate about which ones and selected about ten. He was apparently paying close attention because yesterday while he was playing with them, he presented me with the basket and told me "Grammie get blue bucket (bin). Need crocodile and sheep." But he was disappointed the we only have baby sheep. He would like "big daddy sheep." And now I want to buy him a sheep. I have literally cubic yards of toys in my basement, but I don't have a "big daddy sheep". His parents would tell me (and have) "he doesn't always get what he wants" but I feel like as long as it is reasonable and not bad for them, everybody should get what they want. And I'm sure they have sheep at the farm store. I don't know, maybe if I get rid of something bigger than a sheep? The animals are more expensive now, and I'm not going to buy him everything he wants, but they are still a small expense and we do have those two little orphan lambs... (I love that he believes mama goats take care of baby goats and all other creatures (like him) are cared for by their Daddies.) | |
| Subclinical | Posted: 02 September 2022 - 06:48 PM |
First: Deep clean the bathroom your friends are going to use - 1) dust Next grab some rags and dust from the front door to the area where they will be working - top down, then go back and sweep/vacuum. Focus on the path they will take and the closest surfaces, not the whole room. Don't worry about picking up except to create access. Apologize for the house. Mention that you could never do anything with Dh there and you can't wait until all of his stuff is gone so you can get things back in order. Kitchen is 3rd. It won't stay clean, but make sure it is thoroughly dusted and you have clean cups/glasses. Wash the table and wipe off chairs if needed right before they come. | |
| Lila | Posted: 02 September 2022 - 06:14 PM |
oh hey Road! Glad you popped in! We are here when you're ready to chat some more. Hi Tatoulia, CM, SubC, everyone. I am having a thought crisis about how to clean/declutter. Imagine if you will that you live in a 3000 square foot, 2 story home that has not been thoroughly cleaned in decades. Just vacuuming and basics. Imagine you have some friends who are planning to help you with some repair projects around said home, and they ill start coming over in a week and continue coming over periodically to do these projects with and for you. You cannot afford to pay for this kind of help, so it is am amazing blessing that they are willing to come and help! But, the house is in this state of uncleanliness that some might think is just a bit dirty and others might think is disgustingly filthy, and you don't know who thinks what. So you have a drive, now, to DO something about it before these people start showing up to help. That is the state I am in, and if only I was not sick, and without air conditioning, I would be racing around trying to clean to prepare. But I am too sick and too hot, so I am trying to figure out how to handle this when I am better enough. The floors downstairs and tile, and dirty. But can't just be mopped due to huge amounts of clutter, cat litter, dog hair and other debris on the floors. The walls are even dirty. Everything is covered in dust including windowsills, everything. The whole exterior in back is coated in cobwebs, dead bugs, dead leaves. The toilets are gross and the bathroom floors are terrible. The shower stall my kids use is terrible. My upstairs is better, because it gets vacuumed regularly and dusted occasionally, but it is still pretty bad. Stuff on every surface. I have a vague feeling of wanting to just start filling a dumpster, but I don't have one, nor the energy. Where does one even begin? | |
| Subclinical | Posted: 02 September 2022 - 06:26 AM |
Road! So happy to see your name this morning! I'm glad you're doing ok and look forward to hearing more when you feel like it. CM, I don't do custom orders either. Hooray for a crisis averted this time! Things are looking up! Tatoulia, I hope you are enjoying some extra cat snuggles. Mr. kitty is apparently offended about something this morning and has perched at the other end of the couch instead of coming close for his usual morning attention. Lila, keep up with the resting and recovering! And a wave to Jules and any other lurkers. Dsil sent me a note last night asking if he could bring the Bean out today. Apparently my Dd has been working late and Bean has been very "two" and he needs a break and another adult. He offered to help me with "anything". Nothing non-consumable in yesterday since I stayed home, but nothing out either - just rebalancing food and trying to keep up with dishes. No big plans for today. No insights on my dreams either - complete hash. Ddil's cousin stole my Jeep - I don't have a Jeep. I made ds go look for it. Hanging out in a restaurant/bar at a resort with a bunch of young girls. Driving a long way and having car trouble. (Well, that might be because the brakes are broken on my suv again - maybe I subconsciously want to replace it with a Jeep?) Make good choices! | |
| Road | Posted: 02 September 2022 - 05:42 AM |
Hi everyone, didn't intend on being absent for so long. Just laying low. Hope everyone is ok. I am doing fine. Hugs to everyone! | |
| CriticalMass | Posted: 02 September 2022 - 01:16 AM |
SubC, I like that! I can run it by my roommate. Luckily, she will be the one doing the knitting for the foreseeable. My knitting skills are not there. I'll stick to downloading the patterns for her because I know where to find them, and to sewing. LOL! 😅 I may have mentioned this before, too, but I will not be taking custom orders because of how bad I am at deadlines. The closest I might come would be if someone says "I like that ensemble; can you make me one in blue?" I will say that I can't guarantee it but I will consider making it at some point for regular stock, and to check back. I guess a lot of crazy was happening at the house while I was at the library - guy came to inspect AC and furnace, discovered and was able to fix a problem that had it gone unchecked, would've resulted in needing to replace them, a big and costly hassle. | |
| Tatoulia | Posted: 01 September 2022 - 10:35 PM |
SubC those are helpful thought-processes you laid out for us! Thank you all for your kind words! Going to be now. My cat is home and out visitor cat is very sweet, too. | |
| Subclinical | Posted: 01 September 2022 - 04:03 PM |
And Lila, right now it is fresh mozzarella, because I just made it. If you store it in whey, it stays soft like that, but I usually wrap it and freeze it or put it in the fridge, so it gets drier and will slice or grate. So sorry about the corona virus! Almost too bad that you can taste sweet, it would be nice to at least get a diet boost from this. Hopefully your taste comes back quickly! | |
| Subclinical | Posted: 01 September 2022 - 03:58 PM |
Oops CM, I didn't see you when I posted before. It's very hot. I picked the fresh beans snd came back in - there weren't too many this time. But I need some water. My laundry strips arrived while I was in the garden. I have them set to ship automatically every year, with the largest box for the lowest price per load. The box is still smaller than the boxes I used to buy powdered detergent in, but it is too many strips. Eventually I will have to cancel for a year until I run the supply down. I like having it delivered in summer though, because I don't want to worry about the truck getting down our driveway. It was packed in a slightly larger plain cardboard box with some brown paper packing that will be good for Dh to ship coffee in. So perfect for a hoarder - nothing to save, nothing to "waste". CM, I have a thought about your clothes project - this comes from homeschooling my kids. Aside from math, my kids were "unschooled" this means different things to different people, but for us, it meant that the kids were in charge of their own educations (I confess to asking leading questions and throwing random interesting stuff at them) - When my oldest went to high school, I still considered her "unschooled" because we had a clear understanding that she could quit at any time - even in the middle of a class - the high school was simply another resource she had chosen for her education. (Also, when she told me the guidance counselor said she had to take a particular subject to graduate, I asked "do you want to graduate?") I digress... anyway, every fall, we would make a plan for what they wanted to do and how they were going to do it and who was responsible for what (like, if they were going to learn guitar, did that mean lessons? Where? How would they get there? Who would pay? How much would they practice?) we would check in periodically to see if we were meeting our goals and could also ask the people involved to discuss revisions - "I am having a hard time making dinner on the nights I pick you up from lacross. Is there anyone who lives near us and could you arrange a carpool? Alternately, do you have another solution for dinner?" So I was thinking - you and your roommate could have a plan for how many and what kind of doll clothes you want to have ready and when and then set goals for how you will get there and write it out and put it on the wall. Then you could have a weekly check in with tea and cookies or something to see how it is going and decide if it is realistic or needs to be changed or one of you needs to make changes, and then it would just be the list and not anyone nagging. So maybe it says: Next goal: Maybe you need to check in every day, or have gold stars, or whatever, ymmv.. | |
| Lila | Posted: 01 September 2022 - 03:31 PM |
SubC, now I am thinking this must be fresh mozzarella like you buy to slice with tomatoes and basil, am I right? Or is it the harder kind you can shred for pizza? How cool that you can make your own! I just made some seasoned fries but when I tried to eat them I couldn't taste them. So I don't want them. I also cannot taste Doritos or cheese or tomato soup. I can taste fresh fruit though. And sweet things. Coronavirus... I'm running out of steam so taking it easy right now. | |
| Subclinical | Posted: 01 September 2022 - 02:55 PM |
Hi Lila! I am very spoiled with my little tin of coffee on the counter that magically refills itself with a variety of fresh beans. Also sometimes I get invited to fancy tastings where Dh is trying different roasts of new varieties and he puts tiny cups out on the table and asks me to try them and give him feedback without any background information. I made two wheels (a gallon a wheel) of mozzarella. The dishwasher is running for the second time and the kitchen and scullery look a bit better, but not great. I picked some dry beans and some tomatoes, and I cleaned a few things out of the basement fridge that have been there too long and are just chicken food. I try so hard to keep up with the harvest, but there never seems to be enough time - or perhaps enough energy, since just now I have had time to watch a video with a glass of milk and a piece of cake. I'm getting ready to go out and do a bit more picking - yellow beans this time, to dry. I am glad you are feeling better, but sorry about your kitchen. Keep resting as much as you can. Tatoulia, I did not feel that you were chiding us or trying to change us. I was just saying, that while I am glad you have found what works for you (and I wouldn't change you) I am not jealous of that one thing that makes some of this easier for you. Ok, off I go! | |
| CriticalMass | Posted: 01 September 2022 - 02:34 PM |
Tatoulia, I knew what you meant, lol. 😉 In a tiny way I envy you not having the creative monkey on your back! Hi Jules! Nice to meet you. SubC, your daughter's friend sounds like a cool gal. The kind of person I probably would be more if I didn't have anxiety and executive functioning annoyances to deal with. But I have thought about doing small side hustles and may be able to find things that work for me. It was interesting about your hubby's coffee gig too. I'm hoping that this doll clothes thing my roommate wants to do with me will be worth our while. She is very gung-ho, and unlike me is not so scatterbrained. As long as we can avoid getting into the pattern of me dropping the ball and her needing to remind me and me thinking she's nagging, and getting grouchy, we will do fine. At least I see the pitfall to avoid and can be proactive about it. And I need to download some Barbie knitting patterns now, speaking of that. | |
| Lila | Posted: 01 September 2022 - 01:28 PM |
Welcome Jules! When you feel ready, tell us a little about what you're dealing with. SubC, what kind of cheese are you making? I want some of that freshly roasted coffee! I feel unwell still today but better than yesterday. I managed to cut up a cantaloupe (and eat some, so good!) and start to clean up the kitchen. Teen left a HUGE mess. It was so bad it almost felt like a giant "f you." They were angry at me yesterday and yelled and I had to go isolate myself. So yeah, I think the giant mess is on purpose. Wrappers, spills, dirty dishes, food left out, dirty paper towels, stuff burned onto the stove. I was going to leave it until they clean it up, but I know darn well they will not clean it up, they will just shove it over and make bigger mess. So I threw out all the trash, put the dishes in the dishwasher, put food away. I have not cleaned the stove and counters yet but I will. I will say something to Teen about it but I know they will just yell and rant. Austism sucks. I have a lot of paperwork to catch up on, and am so far behind in work, but I don't feel well enough to do a lot. I'm just doing little bits. Today is the first day I feel ok enough to sort of relax and feel like I'm getting a break. It is hard to do that when you are in pain, coughing, super sick. They days just whipped by and I did mostly nothing but sleep and feel sick. | |
| Tatoulia | Posted: 01 September 2022 - 12:32 PM |
Not completely caught up. Hi Jules! Lila I am so sorry you are sick. Cm and SubC I would never take away your creativity! Just an observation that I know I have it easier because I don't need to save anything for a project. I'm all the project I can handle! | |
| Subclinical | Posted: 01 September 2022 - 08:23 AM |
Hello Jules and welcome! Jump in anywhere! | |
| Jules | Posted: 01 September 2022 - 07:35 AM |
Hello nice people. I've been reading the notes here a little while. Makes me feel not quite so alone with my challenges. Just want to say thanks for all you've shared. | |
| Subclinical | Posted: 01 September 2022 - 06:17 AM |
Good morning! Lila, it should be enough for the whole year with some left over. I buy the clay 25 boxes at a time for the discount. If every student used their full amount allowed I would need about 45 boxes, but they usually don't. I have 8 boxes left from last year. I did not do any dishes yesterday and it is a real stumbling block this morning. I want to make cheese this morning, but I need a clean kitchen. I brought home some papers from school also. (In the interest of full disclosure of "in". I need to get serious about detailed planning and prep as far as lesson plans this weekend. Last night I intended to go back and work in the garden, but my evening got derailed. Dh has a side hustle doing small batch coffee roasting. He mostly sells to friends and a few friends of friends. He wants to "retire" and just do coffee. (So far all of the profit has been plowed back into the business - mostly equipment) so last night a friend came to get coffee and stayed talking for a while. Then my farm sitter came by to get paid. The farm sitter is dd2's BFF. She is freshly divorced and "unemployed" with three kids. (She farm sits, babysits odd hours for shift work, does photography, cleans houses, does sewing, mending, and alterations.) seriously, this girl can do anything! She built her first apartment in the hay loft of a barn when she was a teenager. One night she shot a coyote from the bedroom window at 30 yards. There is a coffee shop available for lease in the town between my house and her house. I greeted her with "(Dh) wants to know if you've ever thought about running a coffee shop" her face lit up and a long discussion with Dh occurred while I hung out with her kids. (I love her kids. I joke that the littlest is named after me. He's not, but he has the masculine form of my name. - she did once name a 4h goat after me "because she's stubborn.") anyway, they are going to arrange to tour the place and there went my gardening evening.. Ok, off my butt and to work. Good job on the lawn! | |
| Lila | Posted: 31 August 2022 - 07:02 PM |
That's a lot of clay!! I feel pretty lousy but I did one good thing today. No one has mowed my lawn in two months. Teen won't, son has been busy, I can't. I have been agonizing over it. I saw the neighbor's lawn guy out there working today (our yeards adjoin) and I asked him how much to mow JUST the front on mine? Gave him $20 and he just rode his riding mower over the front, and even trimmed with the weed whacker for me. It only took him 10 minutes so I think we were both quite happy with the deal. I also threw away a few things like tomatoes going bad and junk mail. | |
| Subclinical | Posted: 31 August 2022 - 05:38 PM |
Hi CM, I hope the news from the bank stays good. I don't think I would trade my creative pursuits for order and peace. Lila, I'm sorry you are missing your babes. Keep taking care of yourself. I want to say that from what you have told us, a supported living situation sounds like it might be good for your teen. The basement is not so much "I'm semi ready to let go of this." It's more "this belongs in the basement." Or "this has no other place to go." The number of categories of things that "belong" in the basement is excessive: holiday things, craft things, garden things, food preservation things, books and pottery that don't fit upstairs, clothes that are too small for Bean, toys that are too old or too young for Bean, coolers, suitcases, teacher things, childhood memorabilia saved for my children at their request, old letters, food (pantry, chest freezer and extra fridge are in basement), extra blankets.. Staff meeting was ok. I got to meet new coworkers and technically old coworkers who I never met because of covid and scheduling. I picked up 2,000 lbs if clay and some other teachers helped me unload it. I can't get the printer to work. I feel really good about my room, and my open house kids did a great job decorating my whiteboard (I left them an invitation) I'm hot and sweaty and tired and I should figure out dinner. | |
| Lila | Posted: 31 August 2022 - 02:16 PM |
hi again, feeling rough but then better here and there. SubC, I love reading about your fun with Bean. It also makes me 'homesick' for my little Tot and Acorn who I can't see right now because I'm so sick. I miss them terribly!!! Question: what you said about the basement - when you are decluttering the upstairs, do you move things to the basement? I do that with the garage. It's like an intermediate "I'm ready to move this out of the living area but not quite ready for it to be gone forever." Being this sick, somehow makes me feel like throwing out EVERYTHING because nothing matters. But I dare not do it. I think I would tend ot get rid of things I actually need and would regret, in the state of mind I am in. Like NOTHING matters. Teen has been having meltdowns again (and thank you SubC for the thoughtful response about autism) and I am just at the point of being angry instead of just sad. I already had moved all the regular dishes, glasses, etc into boxes in the garage. Then had to move glass mixing bowls and other things into a box in my bedroom (which I resent having to do). Then had to move most of the plastic plates, bowls, cups into my room because Teen will leave them all dirty in their bedroom. I am seriously considering boxing up all the cookware, ALL of it... casserole dishes, everything... into a far corner of the garage. Teen has started going into the garage and grabbed glasses, mason jars, and mugs that were on shelves but not in boxes and throwing/shattering them. I feel like they might need residential care. I'm trying to find options. They will be 18 next year and I don't plan to take the abuse forever. Anyway, in between migraines and nausea I am going to try and get rid of a few things. How are you all? | |