I weighed this morning and am down a pound this week, so that s all the regained weight gone. -14 from my highest. Happy about that, and need to keep going.

My eating is difficult! I keep wanting junk. I am trying. I have mostly stopped fast food. I am eating vegetarian plus fish and an occasional egg, avoiding dairy.

Today was not great, but I had:
B: coffee/unsweetened oat creamer, 1 egg, 1 whole wheat toast with vegan butter, some cherries.
L: baked vegetable empanadas (from frozen) and iced coffee, no sugar.
Then I got some massive cravings. Ate about 3 spoons of vegan ice cream and one hard candy. I really want more but I will drink water and eat fruit if I am struggling.
I am having my son's family over for dinner and making sloppy joes. I will attempt a vegan joe for myself made from those fake meat crumbles. And some roasted brussel sprouts.

I should take a walk. I have no energy. Maybe I will brew myself a cup of this herbal tea stuff that is supposed to give you energy, called Rasa.

I have been working my way out of the habit of just stuffing myself, which had been a stress symptom during this whole household repair crisis. Finally just psyched myself with the idea "CM, you don't need to do that. Just chill!" Sometimes becoming conscious of a desire to cut back proactively as well, and actually doing so.

My jeans feel slightly looser. I'm not ready to check anything on the scale as yet - haven't for months. I don't want to see numbers that would make me feel depressed. Better simply to do the cutting back on eating and wait till I am truly certain that my clothes are looser.

Exercise is a thing I will see what I can do about. That plan to return to the gym, I need to check omicron levels in my area as perhaps it'd be okay to return. Since I can go at less busy times, it might be. Going with roommate when she walks her dog is another thing. I'd prefer a dogless walk but gotta take what I can get. Since with my weird agoraphobia quirk I no longer venture on foot very far from home, that's the main way I can walk is by going with someone else. Most of the time if there's something that's going to cause drama, like other dogs, I can keep an eye out for it and we can go down another street.

I miss my bicycle - that's another thing that our handyman took to his place a long time ago and was going to fix and then it fell by the wayside. We're talking maybe 3-4 years he's had that bike, and recent inquiries revealed that it got behind some other stuff in his basement and so it'd be a job to dig it out. May just have to write it off as a loss.

Sigh... I really liked everything about that bike, it's red, a women's 10-speed Schwinn that I got for $15 from former neighbors. I probably couldn't find its like for the same price. Back when I entrusted it to him, was when I was dealing with the money pit van, so I couldn't afford to take the bike to a regular bike shop and pay $60-ish for the minor repairs. Kinda wish I'd just gone ahead and borrowed the money from roommate and I'd have the bike. I could go a little farther on a bike knowing that if I got panicky I could get back home more quickly than I could walking.

Too many complications in my brain and life. Bleah.

Time for a big update.

I lost some weight due to treatments and medical stuff and am down about 14 pounds from before my diagnosis, late March. Now I have three different diets from three different doctors to follow. One is for cancer, one is for reflux (causing major esophagus issues), and one is for fatty liver disease.

Combined, my plan loos like this:
1200 calories/day, reduced fat
no red meat, pork, beef, lamb, dark poultry meat
Mediterranean Diet (fish, beans, legumes, vegetables, fruit, whole grains, olive oil)
low acid - no tomatoes, onions, citrus fruits, chocolate, caffeine, carbonated drinks, or alcohol. He did say if I wanted an orange or something like some tomato, to have it as a small part of a meal only occasionally and never on an empty stomach.
Brisk walk/cardio at least 1 hour/day
96 oz+ water/day

Yesterday was my first day counting calories and I was right under 1200. I went out an bought new walking shoes (much needed for comfort) and walked for 20 minutes which was a real stretch for me.

Looking forward to hearing from anyone who wants to work on this together!

Good job Lila!

I hope your tea helps. I am struggling with trying to remember to take my iron again.

Dh made dinner again tonight. He made a boxed rice and beans meal that is spicy and salty. We had a pepper in the fridge that would gave green a nice addition..

Anyway, I came in when it was almost done, so I just treated it like taco filling and had it with a lot of lettuce (but no taco shell) Dh thought that was weird but did not get offended. I also drank a ton of water. My weight will probably be up again tomorrow.

Ask the handyman to dig out the bike. He has it and you can get it back. Do you think that would be a possibility? I hate being in these situations and I do know it's easier to write off than ask, but I wasn't sure if a nudge would help m

I've finally taken my weight seriously again and I feel so relieved. I have a closet full of beautiful clothes, in styles and colors I like, just waiting for me. I don't have a lot of clothes, maybe six dresses, four skirts, and various tops, but they are beautiful and I want to wear them again. I need help to stay on track.

I wrote my update earlier today. Here is my food.

Yesterday:
BR: decaf coffee with unsweetened oat milk
L: flax crackers, hummus, strawberries, carrot, unsweet iced tea
Sn: smoothie of raw cauliflower, bok choy, cranberries, pineapple, mango, banana, flax seeds.
D: 4 oz poached halibut, steamed broccoli, low fat tartar sauce
Sn: 5 corn chips dipped in queso
herbal tea, ginger cookie my friend made

10 cups water
walked 20 minutes

Will update for today later.

CM, I second the ask fir the bike - it is your bike.

What did you find out about the gym?

I don't know when my pool will be open again - they opened briefly, but then closed again. As long as Dh is working from home they will be closed - it's connected to his company..

I started my morning with poundcake and coffee this morning because I was tired. I know I need to treat my body better - especially when I am tired, but it's really hard.

Hey Tatoulia and SubC, let's hear how you are doing!

Tatoulia, I was not able to reign it in, consistently, until it came down to fixing my health. I have a choice to make: the food I want, with a shortened life span, or healthy food that I can learn to like, and the chance at a longer life. No guarantees.

Please read my last posts and share any thoughts. I am trying to eat according to 3 doctors' recommendations but I also would love feedback, as I am not quite there yet.

Today's food was:
Br: decaf coffee with unsweetened oat milk
L: one egg over easy, 1/2 whole wheat English muffin with 1 tsp butter, strawberries, a kiwi. A cup of matcha tea with unsweetened oat milk and a little sugar free vanilla syrup.
Snacks: Smoothie made from red cabbage, whole cranberries, mixed frozen berries, 1 medjool date, chia seeds. Also 5 corn chips dipped in queso. I will eliminate this soon but right now it is helping me not lose my mind and binge on junk.
Dinner: winter squash mashed with 1 oz cheese. Baby carrots.

I have 189 calories left to stay under 1200. I will have herbal tea and a rice cake (45 cal) and that's it. I was just under 1200 yesterday.

10 c water and 20 min walk today.

Yikes, my jeans are a bit snug. And I've been wanting to buy black jeans but I want to wait until the ones I have now fit the way they fit when I got them. At least I haven't outgrown them. But you know how it is, you might be able to wear your broken-in, stretched a bit jeans in a given size, but if you were to go trying on new you probably would need a bigger size.

I buy mine at the Goodwill, so it's potluck whatever's on the rack, rarely do you ever have more than one size of a given style to compare the fit of. Therefore it's not as frustrating in some ways because I can just blame tightness on the style, bwahahaa! 😂 Still, there was a general trend toward a lower size RANGE a few years back when I got the ones I currently have.

The snugness of the jeans is uncomfortable, and I am getting rather tired of how it feels. This is motivating me. I have been eating a lot of baked goods and I'm even getting a bit bored with it, so I feel like I could cut back and it wouldn't even feel like deprivation. Just eat less, and I'm going to check the Covid stats for my area and if they're not bad I think it's back to the gym for me soon.

After bouncing around, I am three whole pounds less than where I started this thread. 🙄

I have dropped my alcohol consumption to sips of Dh beer.

I think I would have to spend a week in isolation to detox and become human again if I had to give up chocolate and caffeine.

There are lettuce and spinach in my garden. One of my goals is to eat them this week. I am trying to eat whole fresh or home canned/frozen foods with simple ingredients.

So, my breakfast was not "diet food" but it was filling and made from scratch. (Some of that scratch was unbleached white flour and butter)

I am going to try to look for places in my life where I can choose move over sit and healthy food over less healthy.

So right now, I'm going to go do some physical work in the barn.

I had today off and it's 50F #9 I went for a walk. It's dark now but I'll have to walk up to mom's in a bit. I'll need to gather up trash etc. but first things first, I need to make dinner. Still debating whether to go into office tomorrow. All signs are positive. He negative is waking up. Plus who knows if I have anything I can even fit into.

It's a process SubC, making small good choices over time yields results! Something homemade is better than fast food or prepackaged.

Today I was sooo tired. Since I walked the last 2 days, I took today off from walking and took a naproxen since everything is sore. I did go out and pick up stray branches and pulled a few weeds.

Food for today:
B: decaf with unsweetened oat milk and a teaspoon of sugar
L: half a whole wheat English muffin, toasted, with half a slice of vegan cheese melted on one side, and a tiny sliver of vegan "butter" on the other side. (I bought these today to try and they are good!). One kiwi, iced green tea, 4 reduced fat triscuits and the other half slice of vegan cheese. And 4 oz poached halibut mashed with light mayo, dill relish, mustard, and seasoning. It was a filling lunch.
D: shared a small mango with son, plus 2 veggie spring rolls cooked in the air fryer and the sauce that came with them.
Snack: Quaker chocolate rice cake, yummy. And one lifesaver.

about 8 c water today. Feel good, but very tired so I am planning to go to bed around 8:30.

I am noticing that my food related "habits" are some of the hardest ones for me to keep up with. I have to remind myself that winter is an especially hard food season - no garden and my body craves carbs.

Also, depending on Dh for yoga is frustrating (the routine is on his phone and won't transfer to my iPad because of the rules around him buying it.) when we started, he was pushing me to do it, but now I gave to push him or ask him to set it up for me - and he has to give up his phone.

My hip hurts from something I did yesterday.

My exercise yesterday was moving feed bags, pushing Bean around the grocery store, lifting tractor implements, and fighting (verbally) with dh (that got my heart rate up).

I made pretty good food choices. I had a great salad for lunch. Bean and I shared a little homemade ice cream after dinner.

This morning I'm going to make hot cereal for breakfast because it's easy and Bean likes it. Exercise will hopefully be carrying Bean/pulling him in the wagon and planting sunflower seeds (squats). Lunch will include more lettuce. Probably a tortilla wrap - Store tortillas are not the best choice, but Bean loves them.

Good morning Lila!

Did you take your vitamins? Checking in here reminded me that I missed mine.

We still have far too much Christmas candy and I need to put it away so I don't keep eating it.

This morning I made biscuits. They're white flour, so not ideal, but definitely better than cookies. I leave the sugar out if the biscuit recipe.

If you can meet your food goals today, you will have met them all year! (Then tomorrow, you can tell yourself the same thing.)

Dh and I did yoga this morning, so we are off to a pretty good start.

hi all,

I ate terribly on my trip - lots of carbs, fat, sugar. I have not changed that yet although I have been home 5 days. I know I feel far better if I just have coffee in the morning and don't eat until after 11, but this morning I made hot cereal and ate that, which made me very sluggish. Then ate 2 chocolates and some crackers with chicken salad. And more coffee. I could take a nap, but I have done nothing and it is only 9:30am!!

What are you all doing for your eating and for exercise? Would you share your goals (pounds to lose or otherwise?)

I know what works best for me, and that's 2 meals around 11-12 and 5-6, plus a snack around 3. Mostly vegetables, fruit, and then a bit of protein (low fat cheese or meats). I have been trying to be vegetarian but it is just very hard for me. We have a big box of fish in the freezer that a friend sent us as a gift. I think I will try having fish for my dinner protein most of that time. "Lower carbs" (not keto or anything, just not eating starchy stuff very much) and watching calories and sugar. I need to lower my cholesterol.

I have started taking short walks most days (it was warm on my trip so it was easy to take a little walk, but it is cold here at home so not very easy for me). I want to start with the stepper too but have not done it. Maybe I can do that on the cold days.

I would say ultimately I need to lose 75 pounds. But, my quality of life would be so, so much better if I can lose 50. Heck even at 35 I would feel a lot better... so I need to work on it.

I just don't feel great so I eat to feel better.

I also started seeing a therapist this week who supposedly specializes in addictive behaviors and improving your life, but she wanted to talk about my trauma history on the first visit. I guess that is standard but I really want her to help me stop eating for comfort.

SubC, good choices! I have a possible help for the tortillas. When I have time, I buy tortillas from the local Mexican restaurant or the Mexican bakery/store. They sell them freshly made for about $3.50/dozen! They have flour or corn. Getting them there, they are soo delicious plus support local folks. And when I happen to get a nice warm one just made, oh my! So amazing. You just have to ask if they make their own tortillas. Bean would love them!

So far this morning I've had a cup of ginger tea and some homemade chai tea (decaf). I have had 3 c water. I made a walking date with a friend who wanted to get together so we will walk outside if it stops raining and inside if it doesn't.

Will report in later. I am down 14 pounds from March.

Today's breakfast - multigrain hot cereal, black coffee, and a banana. I put some maple syrup on my cereal.

I put all my favorite goodies out of sight so I can make a conscious decision to have just one sweet thing. I left the bowl of store candy out because Dh snacks on it and it will keep him from going in search of my treats and I won't feel like I have to eat them quickly in order to get more than one or two.

Dh decided he did not want to do yoga today, but says he will set it up for me later (the routine is on his phone)

I managed to turn around the 4 holiday pounds I had gained and drop them back to two (some of that weight was probably an overly full digestive system)

I have a starting weight I will keep to myself and am going to update about once a week with the total % of goal lost.

Really struggling this morning, mentally.

One part of me wants to go to the deli as soon as it opens, buy fried chicken and coke, come home and eat that. And maybe a pie since it is pi day, after all.

The other part of me wants to take some phentermine right now, get energized and start sorting things and decluttering, have a smoothie for lunch and be productive.

The fried chicken part is probably going to win, but maybe I can still be productive, too.

I always want to start tomorrow.

back again. SubC, what hot cereal do you make? I have been making Oat Bran cereal, but I bought some quinoa to try yesterday. I have not tried it yet.

I thought I would share my general diet here. I am interested to hear what everyone else is doing too, if you have a plan.

I have lists of foods not to eat from the doctors (mainly meat and junk and fatty stuff). I have lists of things to include as well, mainly fruits, veggies, beans and legumes, olive oil, and fish.

Breakfast is usually just decaf coffee with plant milk, and/or tea. I try to wait until 10 or 11 to eat food most days. I feel better.

Lunch or very late breakfast: I choose from oatmeal/hot cereal with fruits and nuts/seeds, or whole grain toast with one egg, or some kind of salad/mix of legumes and veggies. And fruit, and green tea or matcha.

Snack is low cal something... rice cake or fruit/veg.

Dinner is either veggies, salad, and legumes or fish. Sometimes a vegan pre-made meal like the spring rolls or a vegan lasagna or sandwich.

I am learning to cook/prepare more vegan meals so things will get more variety.

Working up to walking an hour a day.

Good evening! Yes, I've been taking my vitamins, yay! I also have been making myself drink more water and eat more vegetables.

I have a hard time forcing healthy food, so one thing I have done is that if I do eat something that is not vegetables/fruit, I make myself eat veggies for the next snack or meal. So breakfast was a spinach smoothie. Then I had a slice of cake @@. I need to get rid of the cake... Then lunch was green bean casserole which was made healthier and was mostly fresh steamed green beans. I am going to look in the freezer to see if there is any leftover soup in there to enjoy. If not, I will be having salad and one bread stick for dinner.

I am easing my way back into the veggies this way and I feel better and not cranky anymore.

Hi Lila.

Was there anything we could have done to help you resist the fried chicken?

I'm not doing anything particular for exercise, but today I did yoga and put out a fire.

My current diet plan is having a very sore throat and eating warm applesauce. I might follow it up with some scrambled eggs.

I was watching a video the other day and the guy said "my love language is bread." I think that is most of my issue.

I hope that your therapist can help you.

Monday intake:

B: homemade chai tea made with whole spices and oat milk
L: iced green tea with frozen kiwi and pineapple (which I then ate), cold bean salad with chopped zucchini, black beans, corn, green pepper and avocado, eaten with 6 corn chips.
Sn: half of a 100% whole wheat English muffin with a little vegan butter, one half slice of vegan cheese, and strawberries
D: frozen dinner (not ideal but hey, it's a process) - Vegan pad thai

I am staying under 1200 calories a day.
8 cups water
walked 25 minutes

hi SubC! Thank you for making this thread. I need a little accountability.

Have you ever tried "nice cream" that you make out of frozen fruit? I got into the habit of having that instead of ice cream when I want a treat. NO sugar or fat - just frozen banana chunks blended with any other fruits you like. Strawberries are good. A little cocoa powder for chocolate nice cream. There are a lot of recipes online for flavors. I use unsweetened almond milk, just a splash as needed to get it blended to the right texture.

The tea sounds good too and better for winter IMO. I don't eat a lot of cold things in winter. You have a solid plan and the mindfulness component is great!

Today my eating is terrible but I will make a plan for tomorrow to start eating better again for weight loss. Green smoothie, at least 1/day. More veggies, some fruit. I am trying to be mostly vegetarian so no meat except about twice a month. I also will start exercising again tomorrow. Today's exercise is cleaning. My feet hurt already from that.

I have about 70 pounds to lose I guess but I would be fine if I lost 60. Even 30 would give me so many more clothes to wear.

I hope we can encourage each other and maybe more people will come post too!

So I didn't manage to avoid the surfing and snacking last night - I got home and I was just wiped out from my week. I had healthy food that Dh made me with a small glass of wine, and then a handful of chocolate almonds, but then later I had a bunch of salted almonds - but at least it wasn't ice cream.

This morning I had bran cereal, then a few handfuls of pita chips midday, and pizza. I tried to eat a reasonable amount of pizza. For dessert I shared a small dish of ice cream and two cookies with Bean.

My exercise today has been cutting evergreens and playing with Bean.

I'm having water now instead of joining the whiskey drinkers.

I make my ice cream from eggs and milk from my barn. I'm not really interested in replacing it.

Good morning.

Today I am being mindful of everything that goes into my body. Not perfect but better than the junk I've been eating.

Breakfast was oat bran hot cereal with blueberries and pecans and almond milk, and half an apple. Coffee with almond milk.

Lunch so far was just a toasted English muffin. Buttered. Cranberry juice and coffee.

I have a party tonight and they will have salad and pizza so I will stick to one small slice with no meat on it. Plus salad and water.

I can't exercise yet. I got put on a 5 day restriction for medical reasons.

Lila, those sound like great choices! How did you do with the pizza?

I didn't snack last night after dinner.

I am embarrassed to post what I've been eating - not well balanced at all. But I've been working on eating less. My weight has moved down on average - slowly but pretty steadily. I'm almost 2/3 of the way from my high point to my goal, which is good. But I think I have lost muscle mass, which is not.

Today is a "no time for lunch" day, but I will make an effort to eat a healthy breakfast. I need to increase my fruit and veggie intake. I am also drinking too much diet soda and not sleeping enough.

hi SubC. Wow, you are doing good with your weight loss! I am about at my top weight in over 10 years. I am down about 2 pounds from a week ago. At the party I had one small slice of pizza, a bread stick, and lots of salad. And water.

Today I had
toast with butter and coffee
a McMuffin and coffee
1.5 slices of cheese pizza and juice
a few pieces of candy and a Christmas cookie

Not great at all... need fruit and veggies so will focus on those tomorrow.

Lila, that is a very long term change. I am counting from my high point last year.

What made you get the McMuffin? Was it planned or an "I am really hungry right now" or an "oh, McDonald's! I want a McMuffin"? Knowing what triggers decisions like that can help you make better ones.

Stay focused on those veggies today!

I had a partial fast day yesterday. I was still too upset about things with Dh to eat breakfast or any lunch before I left for school. After school a student gave me a sugar cookie. Then I got home late and ate about a square foot of veggie heavy pizza Dh had bought and left out for me (he went to bed early before I got home. 🙁 ) and a handful of chocolate almonds.
So, not great nutrition, but not too much quantity. I will try to be more balanced today, but honestly my stomach is still indifferent about food. I could have gone to bed without the pizza, but I know better.

It's funny, small stress makes me want sugar, but big stress makes me want nothing. I had a really stressful event about four years ago and after four days Dh realized I basically wasn't eating and sat me down and spent over an hour watching me eat little spoonfuls of pumpkin soup.

Oh! I should make a batch of butternut squash soup this weekend! I bet Bean would like that too, and it would be an easy, healthy meal choice that I could keep on hand in the freezer to help me make good choices.

hi SubC, sorry for the abandonment! I've been stressed. And I eat. Did you make the butternut squash soup? That sounds so good.

McMuffins. Ah. I love them for some weird reason. Whenever I am out and get hungry I want that. Cheap, easy, salty, greasy because I get the sausage one. And a coke. I'm like, addicted. I crave them. Why? How to knock it off?

Today I had oat bran hot cereal for breakfast but no fruit. Also coffee. I think I will probably not be eating super healthy today due to the event. My weight is not moving. I know the key for me is to get moving and exercise even a little bit, but I am so tired when I get home I don't. Maybe I can start doing a little in the mornings.

I keep thinking, when the stressful stuff stops, THEN I will focus on weight loss. But it never ends. So I need to figure out how to do this while I am stressed.