...♡...but i want to add that i realize not all illnesses can be healed naturally, but my friend who did get ovarian cancer last year, is going to be a guest on a radio talk today about healing cancer naturally. She did do it! ~♡~

~♡~Coffee clinks!~♡~
Tillie, im so sorry. I went through something similar a few years ago when i thought i had uterine or ovarian cancer. Ive never had insurance & it was a huge challenge just to find a Dr. i could pay! And their whole office freaked out on me, too! I took tests, but needed more & could not afford more, so i decided to just do what id do if i was diagnosed with cancer & went raw vegan & did healing imagery, etc. I felt a new boldness that my days were numbered. My story turned out better, because my problem was menopause related. The doctor should have known, but i found out online. I still worry if anything else comes up. More doctors are fed up with insurance companies around here & are going back to regular payments from customers. I hope in your situation that you can get yourself the help you need. Most times the doctor will charge a paying customer a fraction of what theyll charge an insurance company. The GoFundMe system is a great way to invite people that want to & can help with things?! ~♡~
Im not sure if my efforts under this trailer are doing any good. There is so much insulation buried in the sand, that pulling it all up is making more of a mess?!? I have a sand pile i can add back to keep the level high under there, but what a mess to dig up? Also, there is more that is ready to fall off....i keep telling myself to just make it better, but...?!?

Porter, we crossed and I didn't see the part about your daughter. I'm sorry that part is hard.

Tillie, I want to pick at the problem until it goes away, but I will just send you a big hug. I think it's horrible that we are one of the richest countries in the world and people don't have food and health care!

I don't know how old you are. (I feel like you are a little older than me because you are Mothery/big sistery) maybe you will be able to get help from Medicare? So awful to have to wait though.

Update on me later.

Hi Tatoulia 🙂
(((HUGS)))

Fingers crossed your tests come back A.O.K. ;D
So sorry about all the snow when you are ready for Spring weather.
But it looks like Winter just doesn't want to stop.

Was worried about my gladiolas maybe being dead from being walked on in the garden when we buried Marty.
But I can now see the first sign of their leaves starting to poke up around the bare/disturbed area.

Been a good relaxing day today.
Washed my hair, laundry dried wonderfully.
The wind didn't rage with gusts up to 80/90 MPH like it did the other day.
Got the ceiling all vacuumed up off the floor.
Straightened my underwear drawer, did inventory.
Watched "The Walking Dead" on my tablet.
Ate potato salad, took a nap. 😀
Got some things out and put some things away.

Oh Tillie it is so awful to be without health insurance. Just so terrible. I'm so sorry. I'll talk to you tomorrow. We are expecting snow. Nothing that will stick. It might even be pretty.

My dr appiintment went well. Waiting for blood results--hopefully ok.

Hi Tatoulia 🙂
So sorry Spring is taking it's own sweet time coming to many places this year.
Crocus will even break through the snow and ice but they are a sure sign that Spring is here.
WAY TO GO! keeping up with laundry! 😀

Hi Anonymoniker 🙂
OK, didn't know you had so many huge speakers at your disposal. ;D
WTG! keeping up with that task of clearing out under your place!
To get disability I would need a doctor's approval.
Without any insurance there are NO doctors who will see me, except in the emergency room or urgent care clinic, and they don't do that kind of paperwork.
Plus there would need to be test results and those places would not help me without having any insurance.
Last time I went to a doctor was in 1989 and the receptionist screamed at me across a crowded waiting room that they do not take uninsured deadbeats.
I had money that day to pay, my entire last paycheck since I was told not to return to work until I was well again.
I was so mortified and decided that I would just rather crawl into a corner and die rather than seek medical help.
The doctor saw me anyways, examined me for free because he was upset with how I was treated.
Ordered some tests that I paid for because the lab was not as generous, and when the results came back he told me some of what was wrong and that more tests were needed to figure out other more serious issues but I had no more money.
He told me he would do my surgery for free but the hospital would not even schedule me without any insurance and I did not have 30,000.00+ to pay for it.
I did keep looking everywhere for some kind of help and nobody would help me.

Quick check in. Tillie I am sure you've looked at your situation from all angles--what a shame. You've got us to vent to! You are not alone.

I am finishing up laundry. Have dr appt this afternoon. I got two big loads of laundry done yesterday and two today. Will work on kitty cat laundry on Wednesday.

Tillie it is so cold here! Not spring at all! I have seen some crocuses in bloom and of course being light out later give me hope.

SubC great job getting donating some clothing!

CM we are thinking about you!!!

Tillie, all 6 of my Bose speakers are hung from the ceiling where the skunks live! A few years ago i chased a full sized skunk out of a clothes drawer with rap music from a boom box facing towards it...ha ha...i gotta laugh...i could really freak out, but id rather see the humor in it
Porter, it is wonderful to hear about what a wonderful world you have created! You have worked really hard & done really well & deserve the bliss you are in! ...i just read about your daughter's visit. Im sorry. You are the right path with it all, tho! 😀
Tillie, i know that stuff us complicated. Id think disability would cover basic shelter expenses? It certainly should? Have you considered doing a GoFundMe? ~♡~
Yesterday i got a little derailed, but im really feeling like getting the underneath of the trailer cleaned up, will on some level, heal almost any other problem i have. And amazingly, so far, it is not as gross as id expected....or had prepared myself for...♡

Tillie, all 6 of my Bose speakers are hung from the ceiling where the skunks live! A few years ago i chased a full sized skunk out of a clothes drawer with rap music from a boom box facing towards it...ha ha...i gotta laugh...i could really freak out, but id rather see the humor in it
Porter, it is wonderful to hear about what a wonderful world you have created! You have worked really hard & done really well & deserve the bliss you are in! ...i just read about your daughter's visit. Im sorry. You are the right path with it all, tho! 😀
Tillie, i know that stuff us complicated. Id think disability would cover basic shelter expenses? It certainly should? Have you considered doing a GoFundMe? ~♡~
Yesterday i got a little derailed, but im really feeling like getting the underneath of the trailer cleaned up, will on some level, heal almost any other problem i have. And amazingly, so far, it is not as gross as id expected....or had prepared myself for...♡

Good Morning Everybody 🙂
"Clink!"

Hi Porter 🙂
Sorry your daughter has issues.
Nothing you can do about that except to keep the door open and maybe some day she will understand.

Hi Subclinical 🙂
YEA! for finding clothes that can go away! 😀
The whole application process is extremely invasive.
When you list your income as zero, they then demand to know who is paying the electric bill & etc...
Taxes? I don't pay income tax or file.

Supposed to be sunny with a high of 70 degrees today so I am doing some laundry.
Tomorrow it might rain again.
Other than 2 loads of laundry, I plan to take today off and just putter around and rest up from the weekend.
So pleasant to look outside and see all the pretty new green leaves sprouting. 🙂

Porter, I am very glad things are go8ng so well for you both!

Tillie, it just doesn't seem right that they can count steven's income against you! Why do you even have to tell them Steven's income? What do your taxes say?

I want you to have a new roof too.

Tatoulia, it is great that you are keeping up with things, and that your mom is joining the clean out!

Yesterday I identified three blouses and a skirt that can leave.

It felt like the end of the world when my life changed.
not only lost my wife, but daughter too. Like the only family i would ever have hated me because I was so harsh about the constant messes. Not just a little but at least an hour of mess left behind with no regard to organization or allowing tools and supplies to be ruined. Frustrating that I felt like nomatter how much I try they just keep bring Iin more, .

with very little money after they were gone.
slowly packed away their things they left behind.

Weeks of throwing out stuff they couldnt part with but now they cant keep. I will not keep it for them.

I was about to walk out this morning. When I was struck by how unhappy I was. I loved my family . But we were all unhappy with eachother. The hoarding and nagging.
the filth.

Slowly I clear each area till I feel a love for it.
I found a friend to love and took her into my fantasy room.
It surley feels like a dream.

my daughter visited Marcie and I last night.
it didnt go well . Almost all my daughters stuff is boxed up in her room . About 90% purged. There was a fit .
and marcie saw how much I was trying to stay positive.
.

after the intial response time. My daughter just eanted to leave. Its likw my daughter just doesnt remember how depressing it all was for me . To be the only one trying to live in a normal house.
After she left marcie just kept thanking me .
saying she wants me to keep doing whatever I want to do.
just kept saying it to me over and over.

It felt like I was in bliss then my daughter sounded just like wife. So hostile and unreasonable relentless verbal abuse .

tillie.
thank you!
And the rest of you too!

I get inspired reading and posting.
Ive got to go to work . Ill be thinking about all this all day.
I wish wish I could help yall as much as youve helped me.
marcie told me this morning she understands why I cleared her place now after seeing me with my daughter.

I just cant live with the hoarding in my living space.

THANK YOU Tatoulia (((((HUGS)))))

Hi Porter 🙂
Happy things are going so well for you two! 😀

We all need this safe place to "get it all out".
Air our dirty secrets.
Get things off our chests.
A place to share our joys and sorrows.
Speak out loud about our phobias and fears.
Celebrate our victories and happy times.
We are ALL so much more than people digging out from hoarding, squalor and derelict homes & vehicles.
Love you all. (((HUGS)))

Oh Tillie. I am so very sorry. About all of it. I am so sorry. The only positive is that you were able to rant--you certainly have the love, admiration and good wishes of everyone here. Yes, I feel confident that in this regard, I speak for everyone.

What can I say? Nothing, but I can listen. I hear you dear Tillie. And I know the cats love you.

Anony
I knew I would fall in love. Just as soon as an attractive woman gave me attention. I was right , I'm just one of those people that fall in love very fast.
When I first came into her house I was so in love with her non a single thing mattered. But as soon as saw her sleeping area. , my love for her was nit strong enough.

Luckily she just let me take over , , I did bring people In and when she found out I could tell it hurt her trust in me.
I won't ever bring in cameras she's very shy almost timid.
Very attractive , but very low self esteem I'm sure her hoarding ran off almost everyone , because it was trashy hoarding similar to wife.
I think of you guys as blessing , because you're guidance help my wife , and the experience helped me just right down to business complete purge and clean. With zero drama as the goal .

This week , I went one closet at time. Through the house in clockwise order. Never working on it at night.

She gave me a key to her house . I gave her a key to mine.
When I told her about my health concerns and that I fast.
She finally realized I wasn't trying to lose weight , but live longer , But she likes my menu , I stay home on the fasting days. All week I chopped wood and created a fire pit on her property. It's been cold , but I explained it's my way of staying out of a clean kitchen keeps the kitchen clean..
Were getting along in so any ways . .
I don't think I've ever enjoyed anyone's company this much.

Shopping, fire, dinner, bath , relax , and then off to bed.
I told her I felt like I don't deserve her , and she said she felt the same. I'm just not used to that being said to me is like a dream. .
But there's something else ,
It's like I didn't really notice it , but I'm in love with the minimalist lifestyle too. Each of my rooms is like looking in a magazine. Most of my damaged furniture was thrown away.
Replaced by furniture that fits the rooms perfectly , as everything matched . I dontblove my body , but I do love my house , so I spend time with it.
When Marcie is in my house.I feel like I just want to near her , like the house doesn't even matter. I know I'm over thinking it.
Like I know my house doesnt matter because were going to merge into one. I know were supposed to go slow , But every time I try to slow down she's pulling me into her life further. And I want to be.

So I asked if we can ave another dinner party . Invite 8 friends .and keys do it once every three months.

In the past with my first wife , I would have dinner parties just to keep us on our toes about a clean house .
I'll not be inviting my poker friends , but mostly the singles and church couples . I think I would love to have a bible study At my house , as it's geared for bigger groups .

Back again 🙂

Went outside with all the cats.
Got those evergreen tree food stakes all pounded into the ground around the 4 Juniper trees.
Don't need to feed the 5 cedar trees because they are indigenous and doing very well all on their own.
Spent time appreciating how well the plants in my garden are going.
Honeysuckle and Lilac bushes are getting all green and leafy.
Iris are growing nice long leaves.
Over night the grass has gone from brown to green.
Came back inside and started making my potato salad.
Have all celery, scallions & dill pickle cut up.
Potatoes are done cooking and cooling so I am taking a break, eating a donut, have to share the donut with my cat.
It's only 2:15pm so at 2:30pm I will finish making potato salad then clean the kitchen again.

Steven came home this morning with an itty bitty teeny weeny tiny little cheap can of roofing tar.
He did not go up on the roof.
Guess just having bought that useless stuff is good enough.
Job done...

Good Morning Everybody 🙂
"Clink!"

Hi Anonymoniker 🙂
I'm sure the skunks are sleeping just fine.
The cats and other animals around here can sleep through Led Zeppelin, The Who and whatever else I play. 😉
WAY TO GO! with the clean out!
Yes, even though it's a dirty nasty job to do
it is made easier by not being something you have to think about and make decisions on what to toss or keep.

Hi Subclinical 🙂
Your fund raiser sounds like it was fun.
YEA! for your DH winning the prize he wanted and
WTG! for all your recycling/repurposing of everything that comes into your possession. (((hugs)))

Hi Tatoulia 🙂
WAY TO GO! Tatoulia's Mom!!! 😀
It's wonderful to hear that you are getting back to automatic general tidying up and maintenance!
(((HUGS)))
You have worked so hard to get to where you are today and I am so very, very proud of you. 🙂

Warning... Rant ahead!

Well yesterday all my plans never happened.
A great deep depression set in and paralyzed me.
Periodically the last few years I have been telling Steven that the roof is leaking.
He responds with a lot of hostility, yelling and swearing at me.
All this beautiful rain made it so I had to bring up the subject once again.
A large portion of the ceiling in my little room broke away and fell in.
This little room is the only space I have that is just mine, my own personal place where I keep all my things.
Grandma's dresser and Great Grandma's dresser, all my clothes, my dollhouse, everything.
The ceiling in the hallway is water damaged and part of the bathroom ceiling is falling away too.
Steven re-shingled the roof maybe ten years ago all by himself to save money.
He resents spending any money on anything that is not directly for his own personal acquisitions to add to his hoard.
Why haven't I just left?
Because for many years my lower abdomen is full of cysts and tumors that cause me to be constantly unwell and cause me great pain at times, making holding any job impossible.
The heart defect I got when I had measles at age five has gotten worse over time, making me tired and dizzy.
There are other health issues which might be considered TMI, so I will spare you.
I applied for Obama care and was told insurance would cost me 1200.00 a month.
They base that on "household" income.
Steven makes money, I have NO money or income.
Steven is in no way obligated to pay for my medical.
We are not married or even romantically involved, just two people sharing the same residence.
I have spent days and hours over the years on the phone trying to get medical help.
I was told that I would need to sell my share in the property which would amount to about 15K, spend that and when I am a homeless bag lady living out on the street then maybe, just maybe they would help me.

Rant over...

Thank you all for allowing me this opportunity to get this all off my chest.
(((HUGS)))

Good morning! Happy to read everyone's posts!

I am getting back to my old self--it's taking a while but I'm starting to just clean things automatically. Yesterday I changed my sheets, started to dust in the bedroom, scrubbed bathroom sink and toilet, kept dishes where they belong, and scrubbed down one of my kitchen counters. This is merely maintenance, but it's something I used to do regularly and without thinking. And that's how those things were for me yesterday. I had 15 minutes before BF was picking me up and I thought, quick, do bathroom sink, vanity. It's good to feel like I'll be back to where I can just have people in. STILL A WAYS TO GO but I feel much more hopeful and positive.

Getting mom out today. She has three bags for goodwill which is something of a miracle because she is resistant to getting rid of things. She's still in the "but I love that" stage, even with things that have long outgrown their use. She did this on her own.

We went to an empty bowls fundraiser for my food bank. We brought home two handmade bowls (I love mine and was very happy to spot it in the options - dh, as usual, picked one that made me roll my eyes) also I brought home my plastic spoon and I brought home my paper cup - which is already rinsed and in the recycling. Dh threw away his spoon and the fork he also used and the plastic cup he got his drink in.

Dh bid on a bag of goodies from the music studio where he takes lessons (he wanted the gift certificate) and he won. Besides the gift certificate it included: a clip he is using to keep his music secure on his stand, a piano Christmas ornament which I will put aside for dil's stocking, the cloth bag which I will take to the food bank so they can give it out with food in it, and a religious birthday card with music references which he says I should recycle.

Anony, they are just the little plastic seed starter greenhouse, so 180 plants if they all sprout.

I don't think it's disrespectful to reflect on Jesus to find strength for anything you need to do.

Tillie, We get to choose our trees from a list. I have native redbuds and dogwoods, Cyprus for boggy areas, and evergreens for wind break, plus some kind of wild life friendly nut, but I forget what it is.

Our ash trees are all dying from beetles, so they don't have those anymore. I could choose oaks, but we have enough mature ones that the squirrels take care of planting those.

I love wind chimes!

~♡~Greetings to all!~♡~
Tillie, im so glad your food shopping trip was fun, & getting wet from the rain is a wonderful thing to enjoy! 😀
SubC, Wow! 5 greenhouses?! Im always amazed at all of the projects you do! 😀
Im on a roll with the down under clean up. It is kinda weird the yuckiness under my trailer bothers me more than the yuck inside of it?! Maybe its just easier with no decisions to make. Ive still been playing full volume the song, 'Gethsemane' while i clean & it has helped inspire me cuz i figure if Jesus went through all of that, the least i can do is clean up the trash under my own home! I hope that doesnt sound bad or disrespectful...♡...i do get an extra chuckle imagining the mini skunks in the ceiling trying to sleep through the loud music..HA HA HA ~♡~

Good Morning Everyone 🙂
"Clink!"
STILL raining here! 😀

Hi Subclinical 🙂
WTG! YEA!!! for a big clean freezer to fill with all your lovely homemade cheese & ice cream! 😀
Any progress you make with the feed bags is great!
You probably go through a LOT of feed every week, so those bags will all add up.
What kinds of trees did they give you?
They gave me ash trees and mountain laurels for my land.
That was a bad choice on their part because they do not do well here due to bugs (boring beetles) trying to always kill them and it takes chemical pesticides to keep them healthy and I hate using that stuff.

Here is something you all may not know...
When it comes to hoarded houses and fires,
the fire departments will not be able to extinguish the fire
so they will focus their efforts on keeping the flames from spreading to nearby structures.
There is no way to fight a fire when it happens in a building as tightly packed full of combustibles as the garage and carport here are.
They will risk their lives entering the hoarded building to rescue any people who may be trapped in the hoard. Many times becoming trapped themselves and die in there.
Since the garage and house meet at the corners of the roof and the carport runs all along the south wall of my house, I stand no chance of them saving anything.
Also, many items give off toxic fumes when burned.
Like those plastic shopping bags, furniture made of composite board and other plastics.
The fumes from them are so deadly that just one breath of them renders you unconscious and then dead.
Most all people are killed by the smoke long before the flames ever reach them.
And that happens in homes that are not hoarded too.
Keep smoke alarms around and check them often.

Everything here is very saturated today and it's still raining.
So welcome in this drought stricken area. ;D
Have some tree food spikes to drive into the ground around the evergreens so it should be easy to do now that the ground is all soggy.
There are a few sunny days coming up before the next storm system arrives here.
Today my plan is to make potato salad then clean the kitchen, again.
Have all that I need to make another wind chime.
I pick up pieces of thinly sliced and highly polished agate at the thrift shop.
Glue on attachments so they can be hung, find something attractive to hang them from.
They make the most beautiful sound tinkling in the breeze. 😀

Hello everyone!

I've been reading along but not posting. I had a very demanding week at school.

There is snow here again! I wonder if spring will ever come? I picked up our trees from the soil and water conservation department on Thursday, but planting them this weekend appears out of the question.

Plenty of other things to play catch up on.

I emptied my chest freezer and defrosted it so I can start stocking it with yummy cheese and ice cream.

I have made some very small progress on the feed bag accumulation. I am down to one big tack box full of bags.

I bought 5 disposable plastic greenhouses for seed starting this year. They generally last several years, but I want to figure out a solution so that I don't do that again.

I am cheering for trailer clean up and hoping for the van!
I am also worried about flammables and gunpowder. It is too bad you can't just clear a firebreak around the hoard and let it burn.... I love a good bonfire for clean up. There are probably lots of scared toxic bad to burn things in there though. 🙁 plus, not enough space to create safety.

There was a man near here some years ago who had a house fire. He had accumulated a large collection of ammunition. Emergency personnel evacuated the neighborhood and let his property burn clean. Fortunately we are spread out and wet enough around here that that was an option. (We have had roads closed for flooding off and on all week, and the water level inside my barn is hovering around "wet, with occasional puddles")

Hi Again 🙂

Anonymoniker,
WAY TO GO! for cleaning out the grossness under your home. 😀
I live in the desert and also grew up in Tucson Arizona.
Loose flowy type sleeves work well to cover the upper arms and also allow airflow.

Well, I don't know why I get so anxious about grocery shopping.
All the people were in good moods and being extra polite today.
I think it's because of this beautiful rain we are having today.
Still raining, constantly raining since last night.
No wind and it's not cold out there.
Had to change my socks when I got home cause my feet got wet.
My hair got wet and my coat is wet too.
LOVE IT! ;D

~♡~Love & coffee clinks!~♡~
CM, yes, i think you should do a GoFundMe! It could shift things in many ways, for many reasons?! ~♡~
Well, i thought that first end of under the trailer was the grossest, but i was wrong...the next section is the most disgusting...i hope...ha ha...if i get through this, nothing else here will seem gross...ha ha
As far as old lady arms, now i understand why women in India wear those tight, hot, uncomfortable 3/4 length sleeves under their saris in the summer...ha ha...i am horrified at what happened to my arms this past year...im in the hot desert...i cant keep my bat wings covered all summer?!! This is not funny...(ha ha) 😀

Good Morning Everyone 🙂
"Clink!"

Hi Anonymoniker 🙂
You oiled yourself up and then crawler around in the dirt and got all covered in stuff.
WAY TO GO! though getting back under there and making a difference!

Hi CriticalMass 🙂
Yes, go ahead and try that "GO Fund Me".
It's worth a try and may turn out to be the boost you need to change things around.
I've noticed that just holding and petting a bunny for a little while does wonders for me.
Unfortunately, I can only hold my wild Cottontail bunnies when they are tiny babies just out of the nest before they become old enough to know better than to be caught. 😀

Hi Tatoulia 🙂
Hope the coffee didn't keep you up too late.
The only "cure" I know of to fix all our old lady arms is to always wear clothes with sleeves. ;D

Started to rain last night, rained all night and is still raining this morning.
Didn't get groceries yesterday. Was too afraid to go out.
Maybe sometime today I will be able to force myself to go. ?
Hate, hate, hate always being so scared of the big spooky world and all those humans running around out there.
I know exactly why I am this way and it is all so very logical. ;P
Anyways, my garden is enjoying this rain and so am I.
Another good day to stay home. 😀

Hi CM! I am so glad to hear from you. That is a shame about the van. I'm glad you have good company in your bunnies. There is always a brighter day ahead, dear friend.

I don't have any experience with go fund me but I say, why not? You may find that people want to help you and don't know how to approach you. You may find that your campaign builds no traction. But why nit? There may be a kind soul or souls out there who would love to help you get a reliable vehicle. A lot of people use it and there may be a sense of "go fund me fatigue" but if you don't pin your hopes and dreams on it, I say why not give it a whirl.

Goodnight everyone. I've had a cup of coffee so there's no telling when I will fall asleep.

Anony I think Tillie was referring to your coconut oiled arms with all the debris--also let me know if the oil did anything for you. I looked at my arms the other day and someone had replaced mine with an old lady's arms.

Hi everyone, just a fly by. Sounds like lots of exciting things. My post is going to sound like Debbie Downer at least somewhat by comparison. But maybe there'll be some hopeful in it too.

The van - the old one - finally got towed to the mechanic's a little while ago. Part of the holdup was the weather, part my sinus infection (it's almost gone), and part to do with crates of books I wish I'd gone ahead and gotten out of the van last fall. They are now cooling their heels at my storage unit, the books. I even plucked out a few to rehome.

I'm not going to be able to afford a new-to-me van yet after all. My roommate was going to lend me the money. Then she had a dentist visit and some repairs on her car. It's okay for the moment. I do wonder if God was saying wait CM, don't overextend yourself just yet.

So the big clunker gets fixed again. I've paid for the parts, and for last month's repairs. Hoping the labor for this won't be bad.

I'm hoping that when it runs, I can try to figure out what I can do to bring in money some way that is legal and won't jeopardize my disability.

Just to clarify and sum up - I'm on disability due to a combination of psych stuff. ADHD, OCD, PTSD, depression, anxiety, panic, and agoraphobia. All the years I did work I hopped from job to job mostly.

The last full time job I had ended a decade ago. I quit because the stresses were mounting and I was in the doghouse despite my best efforts not to be. I had had high hopes that I was doing okay, it was two months after my mom had died, and I was keeping the panic attacks at bay. But the management was putting ridiculous pressures on us, we were short staffed, and it was just a train wreck.

Two months after leaving I had seen doctors and was set up for my hysterectomy. I often wonder if I hadn't been thinking of blowing out my COBRA insurance and seeing a doctor for my lady issues, they might not have caught the tumor that, though not the aggressive type, might have led to cancer.

So I guess I'm saying, God has mysterious plans and ways and even the things that seem horrible at the time they happen, are for a reason.

I'm pretty wiped out at the moment. Going to have my prayer time and play with my bunnies and this evening roommate and I go run a few errands. Then Doctor Who and chill time, and tomorrow I can wake up and see what's what. I'm trying to discern whether to do a Go Fund Me or something.

.......and Tille, i still havent figured out the tar & feathering joke...? 😀

.......and Tille, i still havent figured out the tar & feathering joke...? 😀