Gail,

I can hear your struggle. You are not alone in what you are facing.

If you go to the "Welcome to the New Board" section and find and read in

"New" started by Courtney

and

"Hoarder or Married to Hoarder" started by Grace

You will see others in your situation.

Make some posts in the daily chat section if you want to talk to others.

There is also a Sunday night chat room and I think some folks may help each other with short cleaning projects at other times through the chat room, but don't know specifics about that.

You need to talk with others in some way about what is happening to you so you can get the pressure levels reduced in your head and get some vision of how you need to deal with self care for yourself.