I'm sorry for not responding sooner but I've had a really busy week with appointments and keeping up with phone calls and taking notes for interviews.

We had to get the furnace motor repaired as well so had to make time for that as well.

I would like advise Dianne.

I write to myself to just vent or just to write just because.

Oh, Dianne,
I didn't mean quite mean blackmailing, for I know that it quite bad in itself. I'm not still trying to prove anything. I know she's a control freak and will do anything to get her way. Sometimes I just need to write out loud. (like thinking out loud)
It's being forced to do something that should be an option to go is the big deal. No one should be forced to go somewhere if they don't really don't want to go. Being forced to go takes the joy out of it, or at least for me it does.

I can check out a lot of books at the library from a lot of topics on the subject matter. I didn't quite finish reading "Stuff" by Frost because I started to feel quite scared of what I was reading. But I got the general idea. One woman's story was exactly like mine of what we had to do for lack of sleeping space with her. (ugh)(shudder)

But there are quite a few books I can do more research on at the library.

Dianne,
I just found out today that my sister is being blackmailed into going to church with mother. She said that if she doesn't go with her she will start taking her Hello Kitty things away.
My sister collects Hello Kitty.

I asked her (Katie) "What is the most valuable thing of Hello Kitty things that you want"? And she told me of just a few things but she wants to keep the rest of the things too because she said they are hard to find..

I told her that somehow for the things that you really want, you can get later. (She really lacks space for them now)
But I also told her that she should be able to do what she wants.
This is another of "her" (hoarder's) "need to control" something to still feel in quite control.
She has a very strong need to have complete control of anything and everything still, and it's showing she's grasping straws to get it and will do anything to get it.

(WOW) :0

I still have to find out some more details from sis yet but will post.

I can only have half of the room because it's packed with stuff I can't do anything about.
Trust me sleeping on a half futon is not good for the back if you desperately now need to change the bedding but can't get a new one upstairs now due to the cluttered stuff on stairs, and the path to get it upstairs. It hurts my back.

From the wall of the bed to the foot of my bed, there is the closet door and from there is a built-in huge cabinet that is stuffed with her fabrics so that takes away a full wall for me. The top of the dresser is with her stuff because I claimed the dresser and put what was in it in a small cardboard two draw dresser.
She is the one with over 5 dressers packed with clothes. I found out yesterday that when I asked her if I could get rid of the stuffed toys that are in my full walk in closet she asked "Do you want any of "auntie's"(my late aunt) toys she got me?" I told her I don't want any of it. She said though that I could dump the toys in her room so that she'd put them some where or get rid of them (somehow I doubt). I told her I'd like to first clean them by putting them in a dryer for 20min to kill the dustmites then they would be ok to donate to kids with no toys. She is still very very strongly attatched and sentimantally attached with the feelings for her late sister. She passed on Feb 11,2000. due to ovarian cancer.
For me it's just a sad memory. Yes I do miss her but not to the extent that she does.
It seems as for the toys, It is like you give a toy to someone and you control what they do with it as long as they don't give it away or if they don't want it anymore to give it back to you is a must.
But as for trying to throw things away that you don't want, with a hoarder, that is next to impossible. Remember she'll go in the garbage and bring it back into the house. It doesn't matter if what I'm throwing away works or not as for things I bought and don't want anymore.
It would be a nice feeling to actually throw away something electrical and it never finds its way back into the house. working or not.
When she was working she would bring home a file cart that they were throwing away at her work, so she brought it home because it is "still functional, not broken".

Dianne,
I swore that I couldn't be more grateful than now to walk on both feet without crutches. Since I broke my ankle badly now 4yrs ago I am so blessed to walk on my own. Never looked back. I just pray that it never happens again so that walking will be hindered due to inability to get around in this place I reside in which is worse than hell if you can't walk. As painful as bone breaks are, they are much better from the waist up than from the waist down. Timing for getting from one place to another and much planning on how do I get to in a very cluttered place and trying not to knock down stuff, drag stuff along which can/could get caught with feet dragging,
but
For now I embrace every single day I wake up and have both feet to stand on, on my own.
It's still hard to think positive but still have the strong desire to be neat when given the chance to be.

I forgot about these questions, truly sorry, but will respond now.

Before the 17th I was uninsured for health insurance now will be covered starting March 1st:)

But the top 3 now are:
employment, money for car insurance, clutter I can't let go of because of her.
The little living space I have right now is half of a bedroom. I only have 3 dresser draws for clothes. For the functional space and things I do have it is cluttered because of lack of space. No shelves to save space. I sleep on a futon that is in the couch position because it is a full size bed unfolded and if unfolded I lose any walking space I have. From the wall the space would be about 5'x maybe 15'lengthwise to door from window.
The back of the door has an over-the-door hanger which holds up to six hooks for a bag for some medical equipment such as a heating pad, braces and other medical supplies, robe, jacket and a couple of hats.
I wouldn't change anything about my personal appearance except for losing weight if I could only walk somewhere safe outside.

What do you think are your top 3 most pressing problems right now? What does your little area of living space look like right now; the one where you sleep and keep some clothes and personal possessions? If you could change 2 things about your personal appearance what would they be?

Dianne,
Sorry for the confusion, I'll try to re-explain.

For the Saturday call for an interview she did say the date, day and time to be at the restaurant. My only fault was not asking to whom I was talking to at the time nor with whom I'd be interviewing with. I found the manager's name online and the address of the location. She did tell me the city and street it was on but that was it. The one who called me on Sat for an interview said that she didn't know the address but named a few landmarks across the street and next to the restaurant of where I would supposedly meet for an interview. After I talked briefly with the manager there is when she told me there was no interviews. She asked who told me who told me there would be an interview and that's when I told her I didn't get the name of her. I told her the number who called and she said that number wasn't from her restaurant.


For the second one,(from another company) I did receive an email on Tues for a phone interview for that day or for on Wed between 12p-4p (same time for both days). I emailed her back stating which day and time would be most convenient. I never received another email nor a phone call after that. I honestly don't think the second one was intended to follow through due to a very short notice. I received the email in the 12o'clock hour on Tues.

I was hoping to have a couple of interviews but I've been stood up. I got a call on Sat for an interview at a fast food place and when I went there to possibly meet up with the manager, she said there wasn't any meetings for today. I was told that I was the second one that day. I told her the number that called me and when I called the number back, it was a fax number. The other one was from an email reply but she never called me for a phone interview.
What was odd for the fast food restaurant was that she couldn't give me an address but places across the street to identify where the place was. I found the place online with full address but that was besides the point. Being stood up for interviews is not a good thing.