Congratulations SubC! Your art is being appreciated! And great work at the thrift store!!! Anony I like your thought-process regarding your mother. Thank you for that. Tillie you've done a lot! Time to relax!

I still have piles of sh&t and other things to deal with. I still have more to get rid of. I may take up Mar's suggestion and lost a before picture. As long as everyone understands it used to be significantly worse.

Back from weight loss appt. it went well.

....im still having test after test on my new phone, but at least all the squares show up & they arent blinking like before, so its much easier!
Tatoulia, im so glad your place is steadily progressing! Im also glad there havent been any family drama problems! :D
The peroxide worked wonders on the porch rot smell! I love peroxide!
Ive been reading about how to let go & immersing myself in that idea & prayers towards it & using it as my 'tapping' theme phrase & i think it might be starting to shift & sink in for me. My Mom responded to my email in a way that made no sense at all, and i need to accept that i will never be heard, understood, believed, or accepted. Period. Let it go & know she loves me anyway, Theres a play i saw on DVD called, 'Passing Strange' of the life story of a musician that could not accept his Mom didnt understand him. Once she died he had regrets that he stayed angry at her for that. A person can love, without understanding or agreeing with a person, especially their child~♡~

~☆~Ice coffee clinks!~☆~
Tillie, does that SCRAM PATROL make a high pitch noise, that only certain critters can hear? Cuz my cats would hear it too, if i set it on 'cats'. Even the one for mice sent one of my cats fleeing, years ago, even tho she wasnt supposed to be able to hear it. Im also gonna get big rat traps for the skunks & put them under the sink, after i undo the duct tape over the plumbing hole. Im glad you got things done & can enjoy the day, guilt free! You soooo deserve that!
When i had money, i went on extreme shopping binges. Much of that stuff was like a savings account to sell & barter, when i was desperate poor. Now i dont have much, but cant afford much, so im not really a 'hoarder' in the classic sense, but between economic concerns & sentimental value, im afraid to just toss most thjngs..
SubC, Congratulations on the pottery being appreciated & valued like that! I hope today is fantastic! :D
I love mosaic & have thought of using my old broken things, as well as 'dust collecting, table & shelf taking up trinkets', into some sort of mosaic wall or something. Even buying thrift shop dishes, etc. to create some beauty for cheap & incorporate my old things, too~
....im gonna post this & then continue...

Tatoulia, what are you trying to finish? You finished the table with the lamps, didn't you?

Tillie, enjoy your resting day.

I took two boxes of samples to the store today, and instead of choosing, they asked to just keep all the samples and see which ones sell! PLUS they picked out three things they definitely want me to bring more of.

I stopped at a new thrift store while I was out and found 3 games for my classes and 5 pairs of jeans- total $23 and I am set for jeans for the next school year. (I was going to have to buy some new. Now I just need shoes.) the jeans are in the wash.

Good Morning Everybody :)
Iced tea "Clink!"

Hi Anonymoniker :)
The lack of money is a big factor for a lot of people who's homes are deteriorating.
Steven got me one of these things
SCRAM PATROL
and it really works to make ALL critters run away quickly.
Maybe this would make the mean cat learn to stay away and it might possibly work on the skunks too.


Hi Mar :)

Good luck finding a way to get recyclables out.
Since the big bag is too big maybe take a smaller amount out of the big bag when you know you will be going near a drop off spot?

Lots of the time when decluttering, the place doesn't look like much progress has been made but in reality things are starting to improve and it takes a little while before you see the good results. :)

Hi Subclinical :)
Wishing you a fantastic day today!
No matter what you are doing (((hugs)))

Hi Tatoulia :)
WAY TO GO!!! YOOHOO!!!
You got the bathroom done!!! ;D
Great that you like the function of the new trash can.
Hope it makes life in your kitchen much more enjoyable and easier.
WTG! for keeping up with the floor challenge.
Learning new habits takes time and practice. ;)

All this work & cleaning the last several days has me feeling wrung out.
Happy today I am all caught up and can take it easy.

Bathroom sink, vanity & toilet clean. It's something, but doesn't qualify as finishing something. But it's something and for that I am glad.

Keeping up with kitchen. I'm feeling pretty pleased with the new trash/recycling combo.

I need to do some floor work. Sweeping the cleared areas. Leaving ning a new habit.

Good morning! Iced tea clinks! I have weight loss/nutritionist appt today.

Good to hear from everyone! Mar keep moving forward! And I always think an extra glass of water helps! I'm glad you are posting and I am glad you are here. Good work getting your things recycled at university! I am lucky in that my city has a robust recycling program so I can mix and match things in the bins.

SubC so good to hear from you! We will get through these terrible days together. . Anony, I do wish you had the funds to get your place fixed! I know that getting it to a more habitable condition would naturally lead to a better life for you.

For me, the money cuts both ways. The money got me in this position of owning too much, then the monetary value kept me from getting rid of it, and now it takes time and money to get rid of it and clean. That said, with everyone's help and Tillie's consistent and wise guidance, I have no compunction when getting rid of things. None. The money is wasted money. So I donate or try to sell. But I don't try to sell by keeping it here. The one piece I've listed on Craig's list is out in the common area hallway. (And no one here minds and in fact, it's beautiful. One of the people here thought long and hard when I offered it to him. Now if he wanted it, he could take it. No $ need be exchanged). So I've gotten over my wasted money in large part. I try not to ruminate. But then I live on the flip side: I have a tired, broken down kitchen and I don't have the funds to repair. Every time I buy something, I hold my breath if I'm using a credit card, that sort of stuff.

So money got me into this. But I (I should say we) will get me out if this.

Tillie all that fresh laundry! Hard work but worth it!

I just need to finish something. I just need to finish something.

Oh dear, the "yesterday was bad" comment was about me, the packing comment was for mar! I don't know how I got them out of order.

Anony, i'm Glad your kitty doesn't have a tumor! Cat bites are the worst. Mine had an abscess on his head from a cat bite once and it was awful. He had to be anesthetized and have a drain put in. I'm glad yours just needs abx.

I think money is a big one. If you can afford to buy stuff, you don't worry so much about holding on to things that might be useful. If you can afford to make things in good condition, it is less overwhelming to clean them. If you can afford a larger space, you have to make fewer hard decisions about what to keep. (If you could afford to hire someone to come build you a cute little house, I bet you could clean out the trailer lickety-spit.

Mar, can you get those bags into the recycling containers today? Can you make a plan to eat mostly unpackaged food for one day to help more go out than in? (You can buy fruits and vegetables without putting them in plastic produce bags - I do it all the time.)

Yesterday was bad. Today will be better.

You have packed things up! Progress!

~Ice water clinks!~
Mar, its good to hear you sounding in good spirits! Even if you havent made any headway on your room, at least it hasnt gotten any worse? :D
I just managed to get my kitty's antibiotic medicine in him by further betrayal. I hope he will let me near him again...twice a day...?!?
Im feeling better. Knowing my cat is basically ok is a big help!
Im worried about money & i realize how big of a factor money is in every part of my situation concerning my place. I noticed it wasnt a category in the Buried In Treasures workbook & i wonder how much of a part it is in other people's situations? I feel its more than 50% of mine? ~☆~♡~☆~

~☆~Good evening!~☆~
Tillie, YEA, for getting all that landry done! Its funny, cuz i had an ipad that almost became a frisbee over the river And i detest computers just as much! Most of us older folks seem to do better with them than cell phones, but im a rare exception?! My kitty is amazingly not mad at me, hes actually being very clingy, after my betrayal earlier today. Im surprised he doesnt have kitty larengitis(sp?) Hes already come tell me the bad guy neighbor cat was out there again! Its going to be very difficult to get that cat to leave. I still have scars from his bully dad cat when attacked him for this same thing years ago.
My screen porch smells horrid from rot in all the rain. I poured a bottle of peroxide on it. The overall deterioration is overwhelming...another panel fell off the front today....there are at least 2 ceiling skunks....but i do have a roof over my head & basic comforts~

Good Evening Everyone :)

Hi Anonymoniker :)
So the kitty has a bad injury that is abscessing?
Has it been drained and cleaned, did he get medicine?
((((HUGS)))) Poor Kitty :(
I'm glad that you can now worry a little less about your cat (((HUGS)))
I have never used a cell phone so I have no idea how to work them.
I hate telephones with a red hot passion so I refuse to have one.
This message board works fine on my laptop PC and tiny Android tablet.

Hi Tatoulia :)
YEA!!! for low humidity!!! :D
Wishing you all of whatever you need to push on through and finish something! (((HUGS)))

Hi Subclinical :)

Hi CriticalMass :)

Hi Porter :)

Been busy ALL day today.
Did 5 loads of laundry.
Two loads of regularly washed stuff and 3 loads of stuff only washed sometimes.
Did a bunch of other this & that too.
Also watered a lot outside. Supposed to be HOT tomorrow.
It's after 8:00pm and I need to get to bed.
Good night :)

~Thank you, Tatoulia!~
My cat was badly bitten, likely, by the neighbor cat. Im so releived its not a tumor! ~♡~

Hi Anony. Sending you strength. Some days I'm like that, where I can't stop crying and all my worries have piled up. Please know that you are not alone.

I will email Cory now about the website. It's still not mobile for me, either.

I am home from work. Today is humidity free! I once again was nice and early for work so I left by 4:45. I walked to our halfway point and BF picked me up from there.

My to do list includes Finish Something. All I want to do is finish. I am so close.

~♡~Good morning & coffee clinks!~♡~
I was hoping the format on here would be better on this new phone, but its not. There may be some way to change the setting for mobile. The phone store has a service where i can pay them to teach me how to use it. Im so neurotic about this new technology. I dont like the world being like it is now. Just being in that high tech store really freaks me out. I cant stop crying. Im worried about money. Im worried about my cat. I cant eat or sleep. Im a wreck. I can usually make myself feel better, but i cant seem to stop crying...

~♡~Greetings, with my new phone~♡~
The letter to my sister is on paper somewhere in a big baggie. Its very strange that its not in the plastic bin id've sworn on my life it was in! It came up missing that bizarre week i got so sick, missed the earthbag building workshop, pulled muscles in my back & had that bad reaction to the curcumim. It coming up missing fit right into that week! The effort & obstacles involving that letter were quite extreme! I feel like after all that, i definitely wanted to send it?!
Its typical of how things have always been with my birth family. Things always look worse than they are, like im lying, they never hear me, understand me, believe me or accept me.
Im worried about my cat. Hes had something going on with his tail & it could be a tumor. Im hoping for an appointment tomorrow, if they can fit me in. Its so strange how cats get suspicous with no knowledge, like they can read our minds?!!
....well, here goes the anti-spam test....

Hi Subclinical :)
Happy to see you doing better (((HUGS)))
Good luck and best wishes for the possible pottery outlet.
WAY TO GO! for laundry & dishes and inviting a friend over!
I hope they accept the invite and you both have a relaxing and enjoyable time. ;)

Hi Anonymoniker :)
About the lost letter...
Could it possibly be a Freudian slip?
Meaning that you wanted to write the letter to get it all out and said
but not send it because it was just something you needed to do just for you.
Like that line in the Moody Blues "Knights In White Satin".


Hi Tatoulia :)
You may not have done the bathroom, yet
but you did do so much this last month!

I still haven't cleaned the pantry.
It's not messy or cluttered, just dusty.
Very dusty.
But tomorrow I have other things that I must do.
Laundry, water stuff in the yard and wash my hair.

Hello SubC! I've been thinking about you!!! That is a bit scary to take your wares to be shown! I'm proud of you and pleased that your talents are appreciated!

Tillie you did so much! And I've done so little! But forge ahead!

Anony congrats for getting your cans off the floor! Good work! I figured the mask idea wasn't a solution yet was hoping it would offer some help.

I can hear the boxer and thank you Tillie for your interpretation. It is a favorite song.

Ok Anony If you were writing a letter to your sister on your phone, did you check your "drafts" folder in your email app? If you were writing it someplace else, do you know where? Meaning where were you writing it? Perhaps I can help.

I did not accomplish the bathroom. But I still had a good day.

~♡~SubC, YEA!!!~♡~The pottery store offer sounds so exciting!~♡~You are so multi-talented!~♡~
~♡~♡~♡~♡~♡~♡~♡~

Hi all.

Doing much better today.

Load of laundry, load of dishes, bought and put away groceries, and invited a friend over for next week. No reply yet and am trying not to obsess. It will be the first time I have gotten together with this friend outside work if she comes.

I also followed up on a possible opportunity to sell pottery at a new shop. Someone Dd kind of knows received one of my pieces as a gift, and when she heard that this store is looking for a potter, she sent Dd a note, and Dd said it was a compliment and I had to follow up, so I made the call, and I have an appointment to show my stuff on Wednesday, which is very scary to me.

And I didn't sleep well tonight, so now I am exhausted.

But I am cheering for Tillie's clean house, and tatoulia - enjoying your successes, and Anony, also happy to hear your progress, but putting energy into wishing you better and better things! - clean air and no skunks!

I hope porter had a good Father's Day.

~Ice coffee clinks & good afternoon to all!~
Tatoulia, yes, cats laying on their backs ive seen. I didnt know thats what you meant! Wearing a mask will help a certain amount, but not enough, unless i live with it on while inside. The amount of stuff thatd get stirred up is not gonna just settle back down after working on it every time. Im not saying a mask would not help, but its a bit like a bandaid on a major wound...except the wound doesnt necessarily need to even be opened up...
I just finally got the boxes of canned foods on the kitchen floor put away. Things have been easier lately to find space for & make decisions on where & how to store, etc....im still very confused about that letter to my sister. It makes no sense its gone....unless i just shouldnt even send it, anyway....?

OOPS
Bathroom
you are thinking of doing the bathroom. ;P

Hi Tatoulia :)
We cross posted!
YEA! for new double kitchen can!!!
Good luck doing the kitchen & WTG! for litter box doing. ;D

Good afternoon :)
Just 12:30 here and I just finished lunch.
Cleaned the heck out of the bathroom
even washed the cupboard under the bathroom sink and did under the kitchen sink too.
The floors are all washed to perfection even though the floors themselves are far from being perfect.
Washed off all remote controls, light switches, door knobs, top and sides of fridge, window sills and every other surface that I could use my scrub water with Pine sol disinfectant cleaner.
Washed kitchen trash can too.
Still have more vacuuming and dusting to do but right now I am taking a break before I continue. :D

Hi Anonymoniker :)
To me it means someone who has been all alone, on their own with no support of family or friends all of their life.
They have been severely abused verbally, emotionally and physically.
They do whatever they can to support themselves but never been lucky enough or educated well enough to earn a proper living wage.
One of those shabbily dressed people you often see walking along the side of the highway and wonder what their story is.
They want to die but they also do NOT want to die.
"I am leaving, I am leaving, but the fighter still remains".
Because their spirit is a fighter and will continue living their life the best as they can.
Even though people will still continue to hurt them and poverty is a hard life
there is something in their character that keeps them trying to make a go of it.

Hi Tatoulia :)
WTG! for keeping on with it all! :D

Hi Subclinical :)
Thinking of you (((HUG)))

My new dual recycle/garbage can is here it's looking okay. It's about the size I pictured it. I'm going to break down box it came in and take to outdoor recycling. My goodness it is hot and sticky out.

I cleaned kitty's litter box and I have my garbage waiting for 5 o'clock. My friend loves my new hallway table/lamp set up. I sent her the picture today. I'm glad she likes the lamps as much as I do. I'll get photo link put up at some point. I have to remember how I did it.

I haven't yet cleaned the bathroom sink and toilet. But I must.

Tillie that is a long list! Keep us posted on how you are doing.

Anony, when cats get hot, they lay on their backs, spread eagle. It's hysterical.

Anony I think you should consider wearing a mask. I have some here that I purchased at the pharmacy. I wear them in extreme circumstances.

So far all I've done is run the dishwasher and did a few small loads of laundry. I've shredded a paper or two. I'm closer.

Need to keep up with doing things.

~♡~Good morning!~♡~Coffee clinks!~♡~
Tillie, i cried when i read the lyrics to 'The Boxer'. To me, it meant he had held on to the pain, anger & defensiveness, then i read what it is supposed to mean & there were all different interpretations, but none like what id thought?!?
What do you think it means?
Tatoulia, your house must be simply spectacular with all youre doing?! You are on such a wonderful roll! I didnt understand the kitty airing out her privates, which is odd, cuz i generally understand all kitty jokes & behavior?
I had a great day yesterday! I got clearer on many things! The monsoon season does always 'highlight' how ragged & disgusting my trailer is, with rain leaks, bugs, musty smells & more deterioration from the scorching sun season. My 'letting go' issues with family need to extend to my place, too. One thing ive noticed recently is most times i move stuff around, i feel my throat being irritaed. Im concerned a full out sorting, tossing & cleaning of this place, would not only take a good bit of what time is left of my life, but very possibly make me ill, too~

Good Morning Everybody :)
"Iced Tea Clinks!"

Hi Tatoulia :)
WAY TO GO! for keeping up with Maintenance and for continuing to decrease the pile of clutter!

Today I will be cleaning the bathroom, washing the kitchen & bathroom floors & vacuuming the carpet.
Also plan to wipe, wash & dust surfaces, as needed.
It's another cool day today but will be heating up by tomorrow.

Iced tea clinks!

Will do a few small loads of laundry today. I am keeping up with kitchen and dining room. I think I should do bathroom sink, vanity and toilet today.

The pile of clutter has decreased. I will continue to move forward with it. Tonight is trash night, so I'll try to use that as a motivator.

Heading into bed. Made more room in a different closet and got more things put away. Made a pitcher of freshly brewed ice tea. Should be tasty in the AM.

Goodnight dear friends.

Good Afternoon :)

Hi Anonymoniker :)
WTG! for telling that "friend" his services would no longer be required.
That's a good plan to move the cat food dishes and putting down the skunk trap where that skunk is used to getting food.
WOO HOO! that your weather proofing efforts have paid off!
Another song is "The Boxer" by Simon & Garfunkel.
(((HUG)))

Hi Tatoulia :)
You made me LOL about Miss Kitty airing out her privates! ;D
Not crude at all, just life with a cat. LOL
WAY TO GO!!! for all you have been doing!!!
Tomorrow if you start to get frustrated with that humidity
just position yourself to where the bay window dining area and hallway are all you see.
(((HUG)))

I washed dishes and cleaned the kitchen.
Been looking at this pile of castoff clothing and feeling extremely pleased with myself. ;D
Guess I should put it out in the car now.
The winds are starting to rage but overall it's been a lovely cool day with a chance of rain between the sunshine.

....i barely passed those tests....one was a government office, NOT a 'store', but it thought it was a store....but my phone is needing replacing, clearly!
I sent an email to the 'friend' that was gonna put the panels on & it was soooo easy! I made it like he was off the hook for a hard job, but i know in his mind it was a chance to milk me for more money, errands, meals etc. I feel a huge sense of relief & burden lifted! I told him i could not afford what he did to me with those signs. (which he dragged out, even tho i told him to quit doing extra stuff that i do not need, so he could pay his property taxes, and when i was desperately impoverished!) Whew!
The mini-skunk didnt like the rain in his ceiling nest last night, so he pushed a bunch more of insulation out into the hall & made all kinds of noise! I have a plan. Im gonna clear the porch table off, put the cat food up there & his peanut butter trap on the floor. That may work! I also have a plan how to catch my kitty with the tail thing, for a vet appointment. It may be cactus needles, or even a tumor. ~☆♡☆~

~♡~Happy Greetings to my internet loved ones!~♡~
Tillie, you are so right about everything you said! ~♡~
I spoke with my friend who helped me get my truck & he is really good at knowing how to 'let go' & other pisces issues...ha ha...and he helped me see it all in a different light & suggested i listen to the classic song, 'Teach Your Children'by CSN & Y, and it is so true! Ive heard that song a hundred times but never so deeply!~ I do feel i need to learn & practice letting go of it all~ My trailer is musty & filled with bugs after the storm, but all my weatherproofing held up! (Im gonna post smaller ones at a time, in case it wont work)

Hello everybody!

Well I did more than I felt like and I am grateful for that. I took my recycling out. I got my car, found a parking spot, and put the framed drawing in my car. I also took a big bag of donations, which had greatly increased as I cleaned out the linen closet Not completely organized but good enough! The donation bag has been dropped off, the drawing was taken to the shop, and I stopped for kitty food and a sandwich on my way home.

I changed my sheets, did two loads of laundry, put fresh linens on my bed and I put my white bedspread on the bed. I unloaded dishwasher and generally kept up here.

BF picking me up later so I can get my computer from the office. Frequently I prefer to not carry it home Friday nights because I like to be able to wander around and not worry about it.

Ok I will feed kitty and see if I can muster enough to do a little more around here. Tmr is our hot day, Tillie, and I so don't want to be hating my home. Today is hot but without humidity. Tmr will include the blood curdling humidity. Kitty is gearing up, I saw her airing out her privates earlier. Cracks me up. (Sorry to be crude).

Good Morning Everybody :)
Not yet noon here.

((((Anonymoniker-HUG-Tatoulia))))

Sweet little exchange there :D

Anonymoniker :)
So sorry you are feeling like a Red Headed stepchild (((HUGS)))
The one best life lesson I have learned is to not depend on any other person to validate me, my thoughts, achievements, emotions or abilities.
And that no other person can make me happy.
Happiness comes from inside whether or not life's roadblocks are in my way.
We make the decision whether or not we will find happiness in the world we build around us, regardless of what others are doing.
My muther decided that she would never be happy.
Nothing I could ever do would please her because she made the decision that she would never be pleased.
Not even when I promised to hang her with a brand new rope. ;P

Hi Tatoulia :)
WAY TO GO!!! for having that wonderfully cleaned hallway and dining area!!! :D
How wonderful and refreshing!
And now you also have a proper place to store your comforter! ;D


Hi Porter :)
HAPPY FATHER"S DAY (((HUG)))

Hi Subclinical :)
Hi Everybody else reading :D

Been up and running since my feet hit the ground.
A million and one miscellaneous little tiny tasks to complete to bring the place back to "normal".
OH WOW! I just had a brilliantly orange Oriole in the tree outside my window!!! :D
I am psyching myself up to do my plan for tomorrow.
It will be generally cleaning...
Clean bathroom, wash floors, dust, vacuum etc...

And here I was, thinking I hadn't ignored you but realizing that your perception was all that mattered! And I also thought, I'm glad we are all good enough friends to bring my things up.

So all around EXCEPT FOR YOUR PROBLEMS WITH THE SITE, a very positive experience for us both.

I'm leaving to get my car now. Need to take stuff out of my house. Donation and consignment.

Oh! I cleared off a linen closet shelf and got my freshly washed comforter a new home.

~♡~Tatoulia, you are such a dear & i know what you mean about preferring to apologize when one isnt in order, than not!~♡~Ive always preferred being in the wrong, cuz then at least i can apologize & try to rectify it, whereas if the other person is wrong, i cant fix it?~♡~The tiny blinking boxes are harder to see when im crying, so that is a factor, too!~♡~
~♡~Happy Fathers Day, Porter!~♡~Youre an amazing Dad!~♡~

Tatoulia, when i said i hadnt gotten any response from the problems with the wesite, i meant from the website people, in that thread, not you? It has been flickering with blocks missing, test after test for ages. I wrote about it several times, but never got any response from them. Its ok, anyway. Maybe its my phone. It just echoed what im going through with my family so i over-reacted. Im so sorry if you thought i meant you? You are a dear, wonderful friend & i love & appreciate you!!! ~♡~♡~♡~

Oh my goodness. Well clearly I misunderstood. I'd rather apologize when one is not in order than fail to. Anyway, please take my words to heart and know that you are an important part of my life.

You too, SubC. And Tillie. And CM. and friends here who've come and gone. I'm leaving a light on for each of you.

Tatoulia, i am totally confused by your apology? You have never made me feel bad, or less than?!? Im sorry if i seemed to imply that. Ive never even thought that at all. Youve been wonderful to me!

Coffee clinks Anony.

I am sorry I made you feel "less than". And I hope you will forgive me. That's it; plain and simple, no excuses.

The family situation is tough. I try so hard to be able to be comfortable with my choices. And I've met resistance from a lot of forces but in the end, I must be comfortable with me. Please try to do the same with yourself.

I believe strongly that each day is a new day. But for some people, it is not. Your family's refusal to see your growth must be spirit crushing. It breaks my heart that you are ignored and with God as my witness, I didn't realize I'm doing that to you too.

Please forgive me. You are a bright light and a dear soul.

~♡~Love to all!~♡~
SubC, im so sorry you feel depressed. That is a horrid feeling. Just know that that you are an amazing force on our planet & we love you!~♡~
Tatoulia, youve done so much for everyone & yourself! It is so inspirational!~♡~
Tillie, im glad youre just letting yourself rest aka procrastinate! With all ive gone through not being accepted by my family lately, i keep thinking what you have dealt with growing up & how much better i had it & that you still have thrived into such a beautiful being!~♡~
The long post i lost from not passing the tests kinda echoed losing the letter to my sister & no response from my problems with the site, like how its been with my family. Ive left plenty of posts about it. Everyone else's got responses. Im not gonna push anyone. It must just be a theme in this life. There is something im supposed to learn & i havent yet, but i will. Im barely hanging on. I know that sounds overly dramatic, but often it does seem to work that way. ~♡~♡~♡~♡~♡~♡~♡~

That is hard decision making, Tillie, or maybe I should say, advanced decision making. Those are the skills I'm developing right now. I'll use the Ho Hum Standard to help me along!

I knew the table would be bad and it's actually hideous. I've put together a lot of furniture for my brother over the years, IKEA mainly, until I bought him furniture from a furniture store. This will be fine until I find something. It is as extremely inexpensive and it was from amazon so free shipping. I know the lamps aren't quite right but my goodness they are beautiful. They look very nice as I glance down the hallway and see my dining area with the beautiful drapes.

I can live with this for now as it really looks nice.

I have much more to do here. I would so love to start a laundry now but whether it's psychological or something else, it will stop me from doing other stuff. It's as though my brain says, hey good job on the laundry accomplishment and then I don't make any progress anywhere else.

It is lovely having the hallway swept and mopped.

Hi Tatoulia :)

WAY TO GO! for that one purse purge! :D
So sorry that table is hideous. :(

The furniture we have to assemble ourselves usually isn't the greatest.

Keep looking for the perfect table and perfect lamps.
It may take a very long time to find them so be patient. (((HUG)))

Great that you decided on another painting to consign. ;)

I'm still procrastinating on the pantry so today I did a vicious purge on my clothing.
Have a heap of stuff that can go.
So tired of these things.
They have been in my wardrobe for way too many years.
Yes, I do wear them. Maybe just out of habit, I dunno.
But I still have enough clothes. Newer, not so Ho-Hum.
;P

Memories of the sandwich are killing me too, Tillie. So delicious.

Well I just spent over an hour putting the table together and it is hideous. Really terrible. But I forged ahead and I swept and cleaned the hallway floor and I put the table there. We went antiquing today and I found two beautiful lamps. They are absolutely beautiful. They do have the candlesticks up top, Tillie. The shades (appropriate for the lamps) are larger than I had anticipated. They are ivory shantung silk. They are only 24" high. I really need closer to 32". They are silver plated if you can believe it. BF said he'll take them if I decide they don't work.

I really need to find a beautiful, thin console table. I did see one today that was very nice and had a few thoughts my drawers but at 14" wife, it was too wide. I'll find something. For now, kitty and I will get used to this development. I haven't hung the etching yet. Too tired and I'll likely need help.

I took the box from the table and used part of it to box up a painting I don't want. I'll take to consignor tomorrow or at least to car.

I'm hungry, tired and sweaty. I'll go take care of that.

Tillie I got rid of one purse. The box of purses only had two in it. Then I cleaned out two purses and I'll put in there. I have to vacuum one first.

Good Morning Everyone :)
"Clink!"

Anonymoniker
I have no problems with the squares.
Sometimes I don't have to do the test for my post to post.
Since others here don't have the same problems as you have I do believe it's a malfunction on your end.
(((HUGS)))

Hi Subclinical :)
Take care of yourself and do whatever you need to do to help yourself.
The worst thing a person with depression can do is to ignore it. ((((HUGS))))

Hi Tatoulia :)
Good luck making progress finding places to put stuff away.
You're killing me with the in-depth description of that Po'boy! ;D
Wishing you strength and perseverance getting your home to a state where you are not hot and frazzled by the level of openness and cleanliness. (((HUGS)))

Nice quiet cool morning.
Yesterday while procrastinating doing the pantry cleaning I did a lot of straightening in my closet.
Have a pile of donation made up of jeans & sheets.
That tiny closet is looking so neat and tidy!!!

SubC, we cross-posted.

I think your plan is a good one. Depression is not to be trifled with. Your husband is so dear. The shower and the ride! Very sweet and very loving. Reading your description of your husband's and your mother's loving care took me back to being a child, and having my mother take care of me. just like that, I was in my bedroom in Illinois. You have a wonderful way with words.

If you need anything at all, you know we are here. And brighter days are ahead.

Anony I also use my phone. I do get the squares with no issues. Not all of my posts require verification. Could you email Cory? I once called and got him on the phone! I tried not to fan girl but it was tough. Please call him or email him. He wants us all to have access.

Tillie the shrimp po' boy was so yummy. It was large grilled shrimp, big beautiful tomato slices, romaine lettuce, lemon wedges and some sort of tomato mayo on the Portuguese roll. So good. Grilled to order. So delicious. Come to Boston and it's my treat!

Up early. Definitely need to make space today. I need to find a way to force myself to do something.

Monday will be 99 and you know how I hate a dirty house in the heat. I don't have much to put away but until I make the space, it's all here and it's all too much.

Sometimes I get the test and it is fine, sometimes I get no test at all. Rarely I have your to it twice. I am on an iPad.

I lost yesterday to depression.

Dh came home, pulled me out of bed, made me take a shower and eat some healthy food, and took me for a drive in the fresh air.

I slept ten hours. I am feeling better this morning, but very raw and fragile. My goal for today is not to set any. I am going to do my chores (critters just be fed, watered, and milked) and then I am going to just let everything else hold. The dishes and laundry will get worse. It's ok.

If I feel like doing something, I will, but I am working really hard to remind myself that I am sick. And when I was a kid and I was really sick, my mom would put me to bed and bring me food and only let me have quiet toys or crafts or books if I got bored, and I would get better.

So now, I need to do that for me. I don't have to stay in bed, but I do need to rest. Dh had to leave at 7:30. He left me with a cup of coffee. He promised to be home by 2.