Insomnia post

I don't want to make it official that I may be in winter depression - and I'm not even 100% sure I am. But something is "off."

Did get some sleep till maybe 3:30, then it was worry time. Prayed about the most troubling things, and got up and went clear to the other end of the house to hug bunnies. I miss living on my own for many reasons, and one is that I used to not have to be so far from my babies. Hearing their little rustlings in the night was comforting for so many years.

Things I buy, like dolls or creative supplies, I buy because I like, of course, but then that goes against my goal of simplifying. The spending over time adds up, but every time I've had larger amounts of money these past few years it quickly gets siphoned off by some car repair or other crisis. It thus feels futile to even try to have a long term financial plan.

This all sounds awful but I'm trying to keep my finger in the dam holding back despair over that. It's because I've little to no belief I could support or better myself through a job, because the anxiety and ADHD and other crap have always ruined that, and having no husband or other next of kin I feel like I'm dangling over a scary abyss.

How can I be intelligent yet so disempowered...? Ugh.

Also trying not to catch my roommate's depression about her work struggles because she us so dutiful and gets dumped on, expected to do the work of approximately 3 people. Winter doldrums for her as well.

The creativity and the decluttering mojo are still present, but need to be fanned into flame. The afternoon is supposed to be 54 degrees and sunny. I pray it helps shift my mental outlook. I know this grey time of year won't last forever.

I appreciate you all being acknowledging of me despite the fact that I have mostly just dropped in and blathered about me then flown off. I do want to read what is going on with you when my concentration is better, and I will. I've skimmed a bit, so I know some. Take care.

Okay. I self medicated with mini powdered sugar donuts and am going to try to relax even though I'll be getting up officially in an hour or two.

Good Evening Everybody

WOW! Subclinical
WAY TO GO!
Your home is fantastic for your nonjudgmental friend's visit! :D
So, no Valentine's day tree.
YEA! for the goat treat though!
You did good working on those evaluations too and there is still time to finish the rest tomorrow.


Hi Tatoulia
So, did you take Mom grocery shopping?
If anybody notices the expired card and sees your Mom I'm sure they would not quibble with you.
Less is more... ;)


Hi CriticalMass
Glad you have the library to escape to when you need it.
That time you need after doing a BIG PUSH is important.
We all get that way and need time to catch our breath and regroup.
If we push on we will get burn out and totally lose our mojo.
Wishing you a bright sunny tomorrow. :D


Might rain/snow tomorrow so I won't be doing laundry but Monday is supposed to be nice so I might do it then.
Did some mending today.
My biggest problem is him staying up till 12:00 midnight or 1:00am or 2:00am and sometimes even 3:00am or 4:00am and even 5:00am.
Then coming in from the garage where he spends all his time and then sleeping until well after noon.
I can't do much until he gets up and leaves.
By the time he does leave I have no motivation to start anything since it's so late in the day.
I like to get up and get going in the morning.

Hi CM, sorry you are draggy.

Yes, I definitely get that letdown feeling after a big push. I think it's normal, like being tired after exercise. But like exercise, I think the more you do it, the more you can do.

Glad you feel safe at the library.

I have been amazingly productive. The tree has been taken down, ornaments packed away and tree taken to the goats. All the Christmas stuff is taken down to the basement and some of it is put away properly.

I have one more big load of laundry to do tomorrow. Plus two to put away.

The main room is mostly clean (mostly thanks to dh), just some school stuff to clear away.

Two loads of dishes washed (scullery is still a mess)

And I have 8 evaluations left. Very doable tomorrow afternoon.

My friends are not judgey, so I just need to clean the bathroom in the morning.

Still a bit draggy. Thursday night I had insomnia due to caffeine, I believe, plus my shoulder was achy and it was making all kinds of little referred twinges here and there. So last night I slept on the sofa just for a change. It was better.

Winter inertia sort of has a hold on me, though I think I can break it. Tomorrow is supposed to be sunny.

When my roommate and I made that big push earlier in the month, it's kind of like my mind had all it could absorb and needs a rest and regrouping period? Anyone else get that? I mean, part of me wants to really keep going, and another part of me ...can't just yet.

I'll try to do a little thing here and there. And I'll let y'all know if it gets to be time to call in the Badger.

My roommate's car is needing more repairs and though it's driveable she is not driving it more than necessary. Which means there is more time when she goes with me places, and is home. I felt the need for more alone time so I came to the library.

This is the library where that guy was playing his music too loudly that one day. The manager had contacted me to make sure I was okay since the guy was sketchy. He has been banned from the library. I'm not scared, though, because the grass fire that day and the presence of first responders made me feel more secure. It sounds like they know what to do about him and I would assume the police are aware.

The city is kind of crazy though - I had someone almost rear-end me the other day, and I was a bit reactive, though not my worst road rage-y like I used to be. Trying to learn how to do even better on keeping calm. It's not easy when I'm startled. I flip into fear which can turn into anger (which can lead to the Dark Side, says Yoda). But already being agoraphobic, I don't want to avoid going out too much; that could backfire.

Just kind of at sixes and sevens these days. Keep telling myself things will pick up.

Good afternoon!

Dark and dreary here. I'm working on evaluations and doing some procrasticleaning because we have friends coming for brunch tomorrow.

16 evaluations left to do, and then I have to proofread and upload all of them. Just discouraged myself by realizing that will literally take hours.

Good morning!

I have to get mom out today. She wants to go groceries. We have a few problems with that. She insists on staying in the car, and I won't leave it idling. She'll get cold. And if I can convince her to come in and sit down, we'll our handicap placard expired on the 15th. It is a lot of work and trouble to get her in and out of the car. But take her, I will.

SubC yay for a good day!

Tillie I am working to continue to simplify. It really is true that you can enjoy the important things once the unimportant are gone.

Good Morning

Thinking I should dust today.

Good Evening
6:35pm.
Had a good day hanging out with the cats.
Did some beading.
Ate a bunch.
Twinkles and Scooter were snuggling together on the couch quilt.
So cute ;)
Didn't rain or snow :(
Just cold and dark all day.

Good Morning

YEA! Subclinical
for a good day ;D

Still feeling alright, must have been an eight hour bug???

Slept in this morning till 8am.
All caught up on housework, kitchen, laundry, bathroom, etc.
Overcast with a chance of rain/snow today.
Planning on playing with beads and generally just hanging out.
Will do cat related stuff and brush Twinkles again too.

Just have a second. Thanks for all the news!

Today was a good day.

Good Evening Everyone

Hi CriticalMass
Thank you for that update :D
Happy the bunny club meeting ended on a positive note!
You are such a sweetheart with the lady you sit with (((HUG)))
Stay well, get enough sleep, eat well
when Spring comes you will be ready to conquer the world.

Hi Tatoulia
Get all the sleep your body is craving (((HUG)))
Good luck getting that meds snafu all sorted out.

My mantra is simplify. ;)


Felt fine all day today.
Did a bunch of little chores around here so now I'm all caught up on things.
5:30pm now and I plan to be showered and in my bed by 8pm.


Everybody stay well and healthy.
So many nasty viruses out there right now.
Stay hydrated, eat nutritious food, no junk
and most of all get all the rest your body needs.
Love, Tillie

Oh boy Tillie I hope you've fought off whatever it is that is trying to make you sick! I'm still feeling iffy myself and I'm off to bed.

CM you sound excellent! Two months til spring! I spend my time praying for Feb 1 when it will be light out til 5.

I worked and was BF for a minute and mom for a minute and now I'm heading to bed.

I'm having issues getting my meds from my new plan but I'm trying not to stress about it. It will figure itself out.

Thank you for the constant support on the cleaning fairies. Having my home completely cleaned every two weeks is remarkable.

I still have to reduce. I say this a lot and I chip away but it's really important to me to keep repeating it.

Just a few things...

We've had off and on spells of cold weather with precipitation in liquid or solid form. It was sunny this morning but is overcast this afternoon, with rain. Supposed to be in the 40s tomorrow and Saturday, but then in the 50s Sunday and Monday. Then back to the cold and wet, looks like. Of course, those 7-day forecasts change before 7 days are up!

Would love me some 50s weather, though.

This weekend we had the board meeting for the bunny club. We went into it semi-discouraged, because we've had so many expenses and difficulty making progress on planning fundraisers and keeping track of things.

But then we did finally manage to get hold of our graphic design guy from the university! So now I have the computer files for our new logo. We'd like to get some items to sell, and we need the logo for all manner of things such as letterhead to look professional.

So we all left the meeting feeling upbeat and hopeful.

I got called to sit with my lady yesterday. We had a good time. Later she got a little tired and started fussing with some old mail about life insurance policies and asking repeated questions in a loop. But finally we got onto some other subject. I was tired when I got home, not just from that, from just general tiredness and some nights of staying up later than I should.

This week it's been a little harder to get traction on my projects, but I've done a bit here and there. Just picking at this and that.

This is definitely deep winter, but I'm managing to avoid the doldrums for the most part. Really do think we were meant to hibernate quite a bit during this time of the solar cycle, but modern civilization seems to think otherwise.

I constantly think "Only two months or so until Spring!" to keep my attitude positive.

I'll get more done soon, and tell about it. And read back through posts I've missed.

Good Morning Everybody

Hi Subclinical
Hope your predicted work schedule changes to a more favorable arrangement over the next months.
WAY TO GO! for what you have done, especially the swimming. :)
Many people lose energy and motivation during January and February.
I have too.
Just keep on keeping on doing the basics till your mojo returns. (((HUG)))


Hi Tatoulia
A place that only dries people's hair...
I miss those old soda fountains and can dry my own hair. ;p

YEA! for Cleaning Fairies!!!
So happy you have them. They help keep you honest about taking care of your home and free you up to do other things without dreading a messy home.

So true about the older glass baking dishes being the real treasures.


Yesterday I went to CVS and walked down every aisle looking at all the stuff.
Found nothing to buy.
Then went to the thrift shop and all but one person there was out sick with something horrid.
Then I went to Walgreens and walked down every aisle.
Actually found something there to buy! Thought I would have to order it online to ever get it again.
Then I came home because I was struck down with fevers & chills, sore eyes and terrible lethargy.
Drank lots of water and slept fitfully for hours.
By late last night it seemed to have passed and I feel alright this morning.
Going out in a few minutes to hang linens on the clothesline.
:)

SubC, you are doing an amazing job! And you are working through your grief and I admire you. You and I will disagree on the justice system and I'm good with that if you are! I am so proud of you for accomplishing so much when I know you are suffering and worried. The swimming sounds so nice

Tillie, I miss the mom and pop stores. When I first moved to my street, we had Braddock Drug, a corner pharmacy. He still had the soda fountain counter. Nothing finer than getting a malt after a dentist appointment. He's been gone a long time and now it's an obnoxious hair drying place. Not a salon, just a place called Blo. I kid you not.

I ended up having a busy couple of days. On Tuesday, one of my dearest friends from a different office was in. Around the end of the workday, she asked if I had time after work so we went for a long, leisurely dinner and then I walked home in the frigid cold. Yesterday I went to office for a party for someone then I came home and visited with mom. She was able to get her walker replaced on Tuesday so she's mobile! She was particularly adorable last night, wanting to show me that the seat portion (which can also store stuff) is completely empty and clean. That is a constant source of annoyance for me.

I came home to the cleanest house ever last night. It looks so great! My BF said they were here for a couple of hours but they may have been cleaning upstairs, too. They have to drop by his office to get the keys. I don't want my keys floating around for a lot of reasons but the main one is that the alarm has to be off for them to come in and then someone has to re-set it if I'm not coming home immediately.

So I'm working from home today and need to work on my laundry.

Tillie I'm glad you have a good thrift shop because that's where the treasures are. Even out large goodwill here has some nice old Pyrex and Corningware and Anchor Hocking pieces. Good, solid pieces.

Tillie, I'm sorry you are bored. Hopefully a trip to town will give you a boost.

I like to go into CVS now and then. I find the things on their shelves so astonishing. It is especially fun at Christmas time.

They are going to trial at the end of March.

It looks like I will get my least favorite choice for my teaching schedule next year - two full days and two half days. Nothing is certain yet.

I am not keeping up and I can't figure out if it's energy or willpower. Some of each?

Yesterday I finally turned in my receipts for the first semester - the check will be almost enough to buy Dd and dsil a crib - "saved" a few dollars at a time by buying things for my classroom that are covered by my class supply budget.

I picked up feed - which is still in my car.

I swam.

I took out the compost.

I taught three classes.

I did some of the finishing work on my project from the class I am taking.

Today I have 5 classes. I am prepared for three. I leave in two hours.

Good Morning Everybody

Hi Subclinical
Sending lots of positive vibes for that hearing (((HUG)))

In 10 more days you can start saying that it's a Valentine's day tree. ;)

WAY TO GO! For swimming and having some evaluations done!!!

Cluttered counters and floor piles will be conquered just as soon as you have the time to address them.
But for now you have other issues on your plate. ;)


Hi Tatoulia
That's upsetting that she fell AND the walker is broken, :(
A walker should be sturdy enough not to break, ever.
Well, at least she listens to BF. ;D

YEA! I saw your table is free of holiday decorations!!!

WTG! for all you did even on a bitterly cold day with no credit or debit machines working!

Was a most beautiful and unique sunrise this morning.
The sky was dark charcoal grey but the sun made everything like looking through pink tinted lenses.
Been using the neti pot morning and evening and the pain behind my right eye has greatly eased and the headache is almost just a sad memory.
Diagnosis... yep, sinus infection. :p

I definitely do not trust the system. I've seen how the sausage is made.

"Never confuse ?the law' with justice; The law represents authority and the system Justice represents integrity and the Truth." Gavin Nascimento ...

Ok SubC just breathe on the final pre-trial today. They will probably set the trial date. I don't know if they've offered him a plea or if he'd accept one. Just breathe and trust the legal system.

SubC you are overwhelmed. Make your bed today. Then your bed is made. It's the one thing that makes me feel okay. I think I've mentioned this before, but even at my worst, my bed was made and I had clean sheets once a week. I may have had piles of God Knows What on my floor and chair and dresser, but my bed was made and the sheets were clean. It made it more livable for me. Do you have something like that? If not, try the bed.

Okay got to continue getting ready for work. Another cold day.

I hope your mom is ok!

My tree is not supposed to be still up. It's ridiculous.

I didn't take any ornaments off.

My weight is right back up. My counter is buried. There are piles on my floors.

Some evaluations are done.

"Final pretrial hearing" scheduled for today.

And swimming with dd.

Twice today we've cross-posted, Tillie. Oh, check my Instagram. You'll see I did clear my table. It felt great. And I wrapped a small gift for a co-worker's birthday.

Sorry the headache is creeping back up, Tillie. That is no fair.

SubC I didn't know your tree was still up. While walking home from the store tonight, I saw two different houses with their trees up and lighted. So you are not alone!!!

So yes I stared at my tiny pile of Christmas things a lot and eventually put them away. I also added to my donation bag and that felt good.

I fed the neighbor's cats which included cleaning up cat diarrhea so that was pretty awful. Then I took a walk and eventually ended up at the grocery store. All of their credit/debit machines were down-IT problem so I just got the basics for mom, since I was paying cash. Then I went to her house and she'd had a bad day including a fall and breaking her rollator walker. I don't know if it broke and she fell or if she fell and it broke. She was giving me a hard time about using her regular walker if the wheelchair, insisting on using a cane. I got home, told BD, and eventually went back up and forced her to use the wheelchair. It's freezing cold out and as I left, she said, thank BF for me. Hysterical. I'm the one back up there at 9:45 PM but he's the hero. And you know what, he probably is the hero of this story.

My garbage is out, I cleaned the cat's box, and I need to steel myself to go to work tmr. I've been sleeping lots late.

So I did some things on my list but not all. And I still feel terrific. So there's that.

Good Evening

Well???
Did any ornaments get removed from the tree?
LOL ;D

WTG! Tatoulia for putting away your ornaments!!!

He finally got out of the way and I was able to take a shower & wash my hair in peace.
At 2:20pm today the sun showed up for about 5 minutes then went back into hiding.

Did diddly squat today. :/

Hi.

Dh said "do you think maybe you could take some ornaments off the tree this evening?"

Ok got the Christmas stuff put away. I've showered and am going to head out. Feeling a bit shaky so I may eat first.
This was not the all day process I turned it into. Very embarrassing.

Good Afternoon Everybody

Thanks for the drive by CriticalMass :D


Thanks Tatoulia
The headache is trying to slowly cheep back up on me.
Think I may have a sinus infection. :(

Good Luck with your list for today.
WTG! for letting the sunshine in and making your bed!

Thanks for the drive-by, CM!

I am putting my pile of Christmas away. I know it's just a small pile but it still needs a home. In the process, I found a stocking that I don't need anymore, so it's in the donation bag. BF was teasing me, asking if I was putting the Christ stuff away by staring at it. Sometimes.

I sent him a picture of the dining room table and I'll do it again in a bit.

Hi ladies - I'm still alive - busy days - more later.

Have a good one yourselves! :)

Ooh Tillie I'm sorry about the headaches! I am so sorry! Not good and there's not much that can be done.

I'm just up. All of these weekend days I've been getting up around 11AM. Tomorrow will be brutal.

I've made my bed and drawn the draperies si the sunlight is shining through. I started a quick load of laundry because I can't help myself. I have a purring kitty standing on me and I'm enjoying my first cup of coffee.

I'm taking time off in March for my birthday. I'll go to the museum then. I need to do my badger tasks.

Christmas stuff away
Papers shredded
Sweater returned to the store
Put laundry detergent away
Wrangle the reusable bags. They are greatly out of control
Walk!
Mom's groceries!

That's it. Whether I bake or make a lasagna doesn't mayter to me. I want to get some spring feelings (and colors) in here.

Tillie, my mom's a pink person. Pink and blue. So I have her bathroom in pinks and would like to find some pretty, bright things for her linen closet.

I'll get back to you soon. The list has been made!!!

Good Morning Everyone

Hi Tatoulia
WTG! for all that you did get done!
Sorry those lobster rolls weren't tasting as fantastic as they should have.
Hope you do get to see that museum exhibit!
I hate the way the current "IN" colors dominate, especially when they are not MY color preferences.
Way too much black white and gray right now and I want reds blues and greens.
YEA! for having 2 more bags filling up with decluttering!!!
Hope you have another clean air day :)

Very dark cloudy cold day here, might rain or snow.
Last 4 days I had a nauseating sick headache.
This morning it was finally gone and I hope it never returns.
Brushed Twinkles yesterday and promised him more brushing today.

Hello everyone!

Tillie, I always feel better once I've shopped on line and haven't bought anything!

I made some small progress at mom's today. Got rid of a few things that she doesn't need. We talked a lot about having stuff that's meaningful around. Truly meaningful, not done made-up thing. I'm also trying to get her to give me a vase she bought overseas many, many years ago. I have the plates and they are hanging in my dining area. I'd really love the vase too.

I don't have much to show for my day. I bought lobster rolls for lunch and they weren't as tasty as I wanted them to be. Big price tag, too. But I got to spend time with mom and her kitty was an angel.

BF and I did a few errands tonight but I still haven't done mom's groceries. I did get lasagne fixings (minus the meat) so I could make a lasagna tomorrow. I have the day off in honor of MLK Jr day. I'd also like to go to the Museam of African American History on Beacon Hill tomorrow. I'll see how the day shapes up.

I need the badger to stop by and take care of my Christmas stuff.

Tillie the sheets don't seem to bother me. I'll do my sheets as the real test. The cleaners come on Wednesday but I'll be at office that day.

I may be able to move some things around in my linen closet and put the detergent sheets on the top shelf.

I still haven't found the pretty baskets and buns I'd like for mom's linen area. Right now there's a lot of silver, which I'm afraid she'll perceive as black or blue. I've gotten a bit used to her color shifts. Some greys look blue to get and others look black.

It was warm and beautiful and fresh (for the city) air today. Pretty nice.

I want to get rid of more things. I have two bags started here.

Good Morning Everybody
"Clink!"

Another cold day but no rain or snow.

Spent time this morning perusing amazon but found nothing to put in my cart.
Was looking at all their 1:24 inch scale dollhouse items.
Promised Twinkles I would brush him today.
Have an overwhelming urge (itch) to declutter/minimize my things.
Steven's clutter is creeping farther out from the carport/yard area, encroaching on the back porch, back yard and small path through the driveway area and making me want to declutter.
But I can only toss out MY things and I am running low on possessions.
Will find something to distract myself.
Play with the dollhouse, beads, pencil puzzles???

Good Afternoon
Just a bit after 3pm here.

Hi Tatoulia
Do the laundry sheets make you sneeze any when you sniff at the package?
I only ask since powder detergent always makes me sneeze.

Are any of your spooky kitchen drawers empty?
That seems like a good place to store the packets.

Haven't done much today.
Watching videos and playing with beads.

Hello from extremely cold Boston! So cold. My house is full of drafts. But kitty has her blanket and for that, I am grateful.

My year's worth of laundry detergent is here. Lovely little sheets. They did a mix up and sent me the scented. I've done two loads and the scent is indiscernible. So I don't think I'll need to send them back for the unscented. I have two packets of unscented.

The box isn't very big, either. I'll put my thinking cap in for the place to store the box. The open packets fit in the linen closet.

I'm dressed and not sure if I'll head out. BF is at work so I thought maybe I'd venture out to see him. I just had a hot chocolate so I'm warm.

Ok glad the doll's head was output, SubC.

I am so sorry about the drills. Believe it or not, a few of us used to drill at my old work because we had someone cuckoo working there. And at night, after people had gone home, three of us would practice drills. It was tough because the lights were on motion detectors. But we were terrified. I wasn't working there when he was eventually fired. He called my house a few times, saying we could make millions of dollars together, which really scares me. Someone whose dad was in law enforcement was able to look up his gun permit, I think. Something like that. Everyone was afraid but only three of us did the nighttime drills. Isn't that weird?

But thinking about kids sickens me. But it's important.

I'm doing nothing today. Including all the stuff that needs to be done. I'm dressed yet ready for a nap. I've done nothing all day.

Good Morning

Other than cat tasks
there is nothing needing done here today.
Time to play! :)

Good Evening Anybody ;)

Was a good day.
Just took my sweet time doing some of this & that here & there.
Took a lot of time watching the birds enjoy their snacks.
Talked to, played with and petted cats.
Did one load of laundry, the kitchen is spotless.

Good Morning Everybody

Sorry that practice drill was nauseating to participate in Subclinical.
As upsetting as that subject is it is better still to have a plan in place. (((HUG)))


Today the forecast is for cold, just very cold.
No wind or precipitation predicted.
Plan to do a little tidying/cleaning up today.
Have some scraps to put out for the birds.
Need to keep a schedule of starting up the car at least once every week because the other day the battery was low due to the cold and not being used for 2 weeks.

It's ok Tatoulia,

I didn't buy the doll head, I donated it. They put it in the "bin of weird things".

Today was a little bad - Small group staff lockdown drill training at lunch which made me very sick to my stomach.

But then good with my kids.

Still behind.

Good Afternoon Everybody! :D

Hi CriticalMass :)
Kitty is still feeling betrayed by the vet appointment.
Hope he soon forgives you for everything he is pouting about.

Setting some dolls aside for the rummage sale is a good plan and no big rush since it's not till June.

Wish we could think of a solution that would give you sweet happy dreams. (((HUG)))

Hi Subclinical
Good boy Mr. Kitty. Sit inside and growl at them. ;)

YEA! for the resale store!
You got some great deals and gave more than you took too.

Thank you, Scooter has kept his food down so far today.


Hi Tatoulia
King Tut's stuff is going to be exhibited in Boston.
Closest it ever got to where I live was San Francisco when I lived in Tucson. :P

I am allergic to cats too.
But if I live with one I only have mild symptoms. If I spend just 3 months in a cat free environment when I am exposed to one again I have a major asthma attack.
So, living with cats is healthy. :D

Such a truism is that "less IS more". (((HUG)))


Baked my cookies.
They are loaded with pecans, have whole wheat flour, fresh eggs & butter, no preservatives.
The chocolate chips are 80% cacao dark chocolate.
Feels good to be using up pantry supplies and still have plenty to get me through the rest of Winter.
Such a miserable day out there with all the wind and blowing dust.
Great day to putter inside and warm the house by baking cookies. :D

Quick drive by while I rest my aching back.
Up and running since I woke up.
Wind is RAGING out there. Huge billowing dust/dirt clouds reducing visibility.
Decided to use up some random pantry leftover ingredients while they are still fresh so I stirred up a big batch of chocolate chip pecan cookies.
Will start baking them in a while, then freeze them.
Did a bunch of other this&that too. :D

Very good solution to clean up after animals, SubC! Good work on buying things. I'm afraid, largely, of dolls so when you said you bought a doll's head I almost died! Thought that would give you a chuckle!

Cm your cat is so beautiful! Wow! I'm actually allergic to cats but am dedicated to working on allergies one cat at a time. Your dear Percy is absolutely stunning!

I am so sorry about your nightmares and bad dreams. When u was in grad school and studying late into the night, my therapist suggested that I watch a mindless TV show before bed instead of reading. So back then, St Elsewhere (not mindless) was in syndication and on at Midnight. So I'd watch it each night before going to bed.

Tillie I am feeling better with walking. It's clearing out my brain and my body feels good. I'm making excellent food choices and I'm going in the right direction.

I have not put away my Christmas things. They are still grouped on my table. I will take care of today.

My house seems clearer these days and I'm enjoying it. I'll get to the Christmas items and then it'll feel even clearer.

Tillie it's absolutely amazing that the idea that you only have what you love is enough. I'm amazed that you can name the things I love and that they are here and on display.

Still here, still falling behind.

I hope scooter is all better.

I use very few paper towels - I pick up cat vomit with the plastic dust pan and a bit of food packaging trash and wash the dustpan in the utility sink. I use a cleaning rag on the floor, use that to wash the dust pan, and then just launder it with barn clothes or dog towels.

The coyotes are howling. My. Kitty is standing next to me on the couch growling at them.

Tatoulia I also hope your cleaning fairy is better soon.

CM thank you for the pictures.

I went to the resale store yesterday to buy some more materials for my class. (Spent almost $3!) they had sealed large sterile syringes that are expensive at the feed store, so I bought two to put in the vet kit for Justin at 15 cents each. I did not buy him the whole box. I also bought four pretty beads. I took them a small paper bag with six corks, a plastic scoop and a doll head.

Night Owl Time

I don't like to be in very tall buildings anymore myself. Buildings in general feature frequently in my crazy dreams. Tedious buildings, full of tedious stuff and some tedious goal to accomplish on my tedious treks through the tedious buildings.

Hoping kitty will forgive me and come sleep with me. He became more his normal self yesterday evening after spending quite a while Monday and early yesterday under my roommate's bed.

But tonight I was trying to smooth down my blanket and somehow grabbed his paw, startling him. He hissed and jumped up on the sofa arm to glare, then took off. Of all the times to commit such a blunder. I know how you felt when the mouse smacked Scooter, Tillie.

I put more things away in the bedroom today, and sorted Barbies. Thinking of giving some extras to my church garage sale. It won't be till June, but I can keep one box going for that.

I'm sleepy enough now, I think. I fight nighttime sleep because of the dreams. Usually I read, but the book series I'm on is getting suspenseful so I thought I'd try to think only of calmer things. Going to try to go to my happy place - nite-nite...

Hi Tatoulia
The office building I worked in in Reno would sway like that when there was even a tiny earthquake.
Made you feel like you were tipsy. ;)

Sad to hear the cleaning lady was injured and hope she feels better real soon.

Did you get the holiday decorations all packed away and off the table?

YEA! for walking and getting back into all your healthy habits & routines!!! :D
Everything seemed to be so much better for you when you were able to take regular walks.

Sleep well in your freshly made bed. ;)

Scooter hasn't vomited again but I also have not allowed him any food.
Did give him the hairball remedy snack and he's kept that down.
I buy the big pack of cheap thin paper napkins at Dollar Tree instead of paper towels.
As long as there is a cat in the house I will always have to buy them. ;p

Since today I stocked up so well on cat food and litter I think I won't have to buy any more for them until Spring.

We cross-posted! That does sound like a lot of heavy things. I'm not surprised that your back hurts, Tillie.

Poor Scooter! Poor you! I'd love to go completely paper towel free here but cat vomit keeps the paper towel companies in business.

Scooter!!!

Tillie I hope you were able to go into town today! When it gets windy here, my office tower creaks and sways (as designed) and sometimes I get seasick. I generally sit near the core of the building and I've found if I move out, toward the windows, I feel better.

My cleaners did not come today. One of them injured herself before she got here. She said she could come tmr or next Wednesday and I told her Wednesday is fine. From the picture, she must be in terrible pain. I only glanced at it bf side it's really awful. My house is fairly picked up but I'll have time to do more with getting things put away. I'll be in my office next week so she can get keys from BF's office.

Mentally I'm doing well. I'm listening to my CDs and I'm paying attn to my eating. I walked tonight around the Christian Science Center and it was lovely.

I have clean sheets so I'll shower now and get ready for bed.

I feel clearer in my head. I feel ready to shed some things and some weight.

Good Evening Everybody

I am exhausted.
Went into town.
Got a big bag of kibble and a case of 40 cat cans and kitty litter.
My back is aching from schlepping them in.
Filled 2 water bottles.
Got some fresh fruit & veg for me too.
Got everything put away and soon I want to go to bed but it's only 5:10pm.

Scooter threw up twice this morning and again while I was gone and then again after I came back home.
Will give him hairball snacks to see if that helps him.
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Good Evening

Winds been blowing all day.
The kind of wind that scrambles your brain even if you are inside away from it.
Scooter decided to pick at the plastic sheeting/insulation I have covering the dining area window to allow that cold wind inside.
Had to re-tape it, hope it holds.
Plan is to go into town tomorrow.
Will get cat food.

Removed mousie from the water bowl and did not wring it out as usual.
Just tossed it near by Scooter but accidentally hit him smack dab right in the middle of his face.
He said that was repulsive. :D

Good Morning

Hi Tatoulia
YEA! for shopping, cat box and trash out!
Good plan gathering up all the decorations in one spot.
Good luck getting them stored away neat & safely. :)


5:10am
Been awake for over an hour.
Hate this waking up so early and not being sleepy & falling back to sleep.
Scooter hates it too because he wants to cuddle and sleep.