Yay the baby is here! And CM! You are doing GREAT!

Still here. Haven't read a thing. Don't forget me!

Good morning!

Lila, I hope you feel better.

Bean is here. I let him stay up really late last night (8:45) so he will probably sleep in. Dd said he was excited to come, but then changed his mind when he found out buddy wasn't coming too. He asked Dd who would hold buddy's hand if he cried when he got his diaper changed? They decided Bean could show daddy how to do it and then mommy could change the diapers and daddy could fill in for bean.

When he went to bed he wanted to work in in the garden (there are dry beans to pick) and go to the apple orchard today. He has a soccer game at 6, but Dd says it's fine if he misses it, so I'm just going to roll with him all day.

I got a second load of dishes done yesterday, and my house is in pretty good shape. I'm basically ready for school tomorrow (some materials to set up at school) and I have a plan to be ready for Wednesday. Still quite a bit of work to check tonight and tomorrow, and content to review and prep but I have a prioritized checklist and an orderly folder of materials.

The scullery counter is getting completely buried again though. It is the parking lot of unfinished tasks.

that should have been dried plums, not fried, although, hmm....

hello SubC, I enjoy your Bean and Buddy stories. It sounds like you are getting lots done, too.

Still no baby here but I am fine with that. I spent yesterday making plum cake, plum jam, and fried plums. I also froze some fresh herbs and put some in paper bags to dry. Today I am roasting tomatoes to make sauce and will bake a yellow squash casserole. I woke up with a cold, so am staying home chilling out which is nice but also means I am missing things I was looking forward to.

Meh, I feel sick, so hopefully I can just rest.

Ok.

It's about 12:30.

I've got three clean, dry loads of laundry to put away, two loaves of bread cooling, 5 pints of frozen custard in the freezer, and the 4th wheel of cheese draining in the colander. When it's done, I'll throw the cheesecloth in and start the 4th and final load of laundry for today.

My dishwasher is full and running, my scullery sink is completely full of dishes, and I need to wash the ice cream maker. All the milk in my fridge has a September date, and none of it was sour.

I did yoga, remembered to take my vitamins, and cleaned up about half of the toys in the great room. I'm going to take a lunch break and then deal with lesson plans, the rest of the laundry, and whatever other cleaning up I have time for.

Good morning!

Happy equinox!

Balance.

I am staying home today and picking Bean up this evening to spend the night. I'm starting by taking a slow morning, but I do have a list of important things to accomplish before I go in order to make my week functional. Starting with resetting the great room, making bread, and dealing with my dairy glut. Plus grading and lesson plans.

Tomorrow is supposed to be a nice day, so I'm going to insist that Bean spend some time outside. He definitely stays inside too much at his own house.

Lila, good job on the food!

I am very behind on milk again. My garden just died in the drought, so that hasn't been an issue (eyeroll)

I used to get angry when Dh, who was a good dad, would just step in on the weekends for the fun stuff, so I can imagine how aggravating your ex must be. Kids remember though. Dh commented on how much more work two was going to be than one, and when he was out of the room, Dd looked at me and said "I don't know why dad is so focused on the work. He never did any of it."

Bean was glad to get home yesterday after school. I stayed until bedtime and got to spend some time with Buddy who is just a dear, while mom and dad focused on the big brother. They asked Bean if he wanted to hold his brother and he said "I'll hold him when he's toilet trained." - lol!

Got home late, chores, bed.

I kept up with dishes and laundry all week, but nothing else. Toys all over, no yoga, forgot my vitamins yesterday, a pile of stuff to catch up on for school.

Gotta go to the feed store as soon as it opens and then straight to DD's house. Dsil is taking Bean to soccer this morning and she's not ready to be alone with the baby yet. The timing will give her about half an hour by herself, but heartdaughter is right down the street if she needs her. Otherwise I'll run out of feed.

Then I stay and watch Bean in the afternoon while they take Buddy back to the hospital for more tests. At some point I need to stay home without Bean and catch up on school and the house, but we'll see. Hopefully tomorrow.

Ok, going to try to get yoga, chores, and a shower in before I go!

Congratulations SubC!!! I am so excited to hear about the new baby, doing well and dark hair. How fun it will be for Bean to have him to play with when he is older!

TotsMom is due soon and already to 3cm so I don't think it will be long. It is exciting. Tot, Acorn, and Star will get a real surprise when he is here competing for time and attention.

I think I feel better for the most part and was recovering well and starting to almost feel normal, although I am very concerned about Teen (there is nothing I can do, though). Then my ex, TotsDad's dad, showed up in town unannounced and it really annoyed me because when my kids were little he hardly ever came to spend time with them but now he gets to be the carnival granddad and no one but me seems to remember how awful and abusive he was when they were little. I think, "it must be nice to spend your whole life ignoring your kids and then come back when they have kids and get credit for being such a cool and fun person." But I know it isn't nice, or fun, and I have to set my feelings aside and just stay out of the way of whatever he is doing.

Rather than decluttering, I am spending every weekend processing free food I am given, and I am thankful. Today I made a jar of refrigerator pickles and froze some fresh herbs and hung others to dry. I re-dried some cherry tomatoes that were still a little tacky. I sorted a couple boxes of plums I picked from a friend's yard the other day and am thinking about making jam, and dehydrating some. I am thankful and enjoy it but also will not be sad when tomato season is over.

Not much else to report. Will be reading through bit by bit to catch up.

Good luck on the craft swap Goodwin, the not taking things home can be really hard.

CM, I'm glad you have the energy to attack your layers!

Bean didn't want to go to the apple orchard anymore when he woke up. He just wanted to play with toys all day and never get dressed. So we did that plus meals, some stories, some FaceTime calls to his mommy, his aunt and baby cousin, and my mom. Bubble bath and stories to finish it off.

I'm taking him home after school tomorrow and staying until his bedtime.

The kids have buddy at home alone tonight. He has to sleep with an oxygen monitor, so handling that without Bean at home the first night seemed like a good idea.

My house is covered with toys. Now to get ready for tomorrow.

Hello all! Long time, no "see". I've not been extremely productive on the house as of late. I do have plans for tomorrow to go through some unused crafting items to take to a craft swap at the library on Saturday. My goal is to take a lot more items that I'm never going to use and take home very little. There are not many things I would want anyway. Wish me luck. I'm trying hard not to acquire things, but it seems as though I'm struggling in that area.

Almost all of my time has been filled with doctor's appointments, exercise, and trip planning (which includes learning some of the German language). I just had my 7th MS infusion this morning. They gave me some steroids in the IV before the infusion because I had such bad side effects last time (flu-like symptoms). So far, since it finished at 8:30, I haven't been hurting as much and feel like I will be able to go to a ladies' meetup group at a nature trail this evening.

Congrats SubC on the new little one in the family! I'm glad to hear all is going well.

Lila: I'm so glad to hear that you have been given the green light on your health/healing. I hope that you will be able to get some emotional healing too.

Tatoulia: Congrats on your weight loss! It always feels so good to see that number coming down. I have 5 pounds to go to get to my first goal. I'm not sure if I'll make it by the time I leave for my trip on Oct 8. I had a birthday on Tuesday and I didn't eat great. I'm going Sunday to my mom's and will probably eat a slice of cake there. Keep up the awesome work.

CM: It sounds like you are doing awesome in accomplishing your cleaning goals!

I hope to continue with my progress as much as I can before the trip. I haven't been able to do any of the 15-minute sessions, but I'm hoping for some progress next week and the week before we go. After we return, it's going to be all hands on deck to get started on the hard work it will take to make these goals a reality. Thank you all for your inspiration and support!!

P.S. Today I am poking through the layers in my room, something I haven't done for ages (which is why there are layers in the first place, lol). Exercise seems to be really helping my executive functioning. I would have been too intimidated by this when I was not exercising as much or at all. We are going this afternoon. I'll probably emphasize cardio since my muscles got a lot of the strenuous work yesterday.

Awwww... that's all so sweet, SubC, and I even have lil happy tears in my eyes reading it. Great name - Bud can mean a buddy or a tiny thing that will bloom. Excellent choice! And I am thrilled that he is doing well health wise and that Bean is being so sweet - like you said, big feelings he has but I'm sure mostly excited and happy ones. Bean & Buddy/Bud. Here's to a great new team!

Good morning.

CM, there are a lot of things I don't finish also. Unfinished projects are the bane of my existence. If they suddenly disappeared from my studio, I would have a good deal of free space. Whatever you're making with your fabric, the important thing is that you enjoy it and feel like it is worthwhile.

Excellent job on the decluttering and exercise!

I think we're going to call the new fellow Buddy. Might get shorted to Bud.

Yesterday was a lot. The hardest part was driving into the city to the hospital, on streets I am unfamiliar with, with Bean chattering excitedly in my ear, during the evening commute hours. - low narrow parking garage, confusing signs, elevators, the only things that would have made the trip worse are darkness and parallel parking.

It was a big day for Bean too. He is having a lot of big feelings. He insisted on making a card for Buddy before we left my classroom and told him "welcome to Earth." He told his parents he doesn't want to come home tonight (they get discharged this afternoon, Buddy is doing great! Passed all his tests!), he wants to stay with me and have daddy pick him up from school tomorrow. He told me he wants to give Buddy a chance to "get settled in".

Anyway, today will be less a reset day and more a "try to get things in order enough to survive tomorrow" day. Bean wants to go to the apple orchard.

Oh SubC, that's great that things seem to be proceeding as they should - and that Bean is pleased with baby brother (you'll need a nickname for him - whatever suggests itself to you and fits him - you'll know).

Things have been busy here, when are they not haha. Got some fabric sorting and organizing done for several hours today and am generally pleased with the results. My body is telling me how much I did, because there was a fair amount of lifting, bending, squatting, getting up and down involved. A couple cubic feet worth of trash gotten rid of, and a cubic foot of donation items in a box which I shall take asap.

I'm still re-prioritizing and shifting my approach to creative pastimes. As much as I loved the dopamine I'd get from coming up with a Big Concept for an artsy quilt, it was a trap, because then I'd never finish the darn things. Now the goal is simpler - to efficiently move supplies through the pipeline, make units (which I may not even assemble into entire quilts myself; someone else may do it and I'm fine with that, and they will be out of my space in any case). And at any point, if things change at church or I just get tired of doing quilt piecing, I reserve the right to go through and donate a bunch of the remaining fabric and only do doll sewing with a much smaller curated batch of tiny prints that look good on dolls.

You may have gone through some sort of process with your pottery, I'm guessing, since you do actually finish things and get them sold. Some of that cubic foot that's going to donation also includes a few more pieces of sad, ugly fabric that I realized I have no obligation to keep. I'd gotten rid of other ugly fabric before, so there wasn't that much left to give me that icky uncertainty like well... maybe I'll use it... nope. Out it goes. Buh-bye. Good riddance.

I miss doing things like painting too, and a longer term goal is to get more space reclaimed for that. It's ongoing...

Good morning!

Bean and I have school today. Might get to meet the little one after. Dd told me to plan on keeping Bean at least tomorrow. He's handling the transition great. We did have a small meltdown at bathtime last night, but I had deliberately exhausted him and wasn't planning a bath (he always wants to stay in the tub for a really long time) Dh decided to wash him while I was doing chores.

My house is a mess, and I skipped yoga yesterday and today, but my lesson plans are ready. I have a planning period to make print outs after I drop Bean at preschool.

Bean is quite pleased that the little brother has dark hair like mommy. (His is sandy like daddy.)

They brought him back, he's a little purplish at the fingertips, but rosey cheeked and has eaten. Dsil says Dd is doing great - much better than last time.

We took Bean out to his favorite fast food and bought some treats for his lunchbox.

Baby is here. Dark hair.

Being monitored for breathing.

All I know.

Just thought earlier I should check in and see if there is baby news. Just now settled enough to follow up on that thought. So will be praying and thinking good thoughts for all.

Went swimming today, and right now I'm having my evening sit out on the screen porch which is something I have made quite a habit of throughout the summer unless it was excessively hot, and hope to continue up until such time as it is excessively cold. It's very relaxing. I love to follow the moon phases. I understand tomorrow night there is to be a partial eclipse, which will be fun. Saw late fireflies in the neighbors' yard.

Will check in tomorrow.

Bean tucked in,

Dd on the way to the hospital to be induced.

Good morning.

Yesterday was fairly difficult. I got stuck in puttering mode and didn't finish the tasks I need to do - like lesson plans and making milk into other food.

Related to the food thing - Dd posted on our family discussion last night that she "blames" me for "making" her cook everything from ingredients. Apparently she was making a clicklist for this week, and in anticipation of the baby was trying to order some prepared/easy meals and had to ask her Dh "what can we buy at the grocery store that is ready to eat and not fruit or donuts?

Anyway, yesterday. I have filled 3/4 of the new shelf. I found a dozen books I am planning to get rid of (including two very large coffee table books) and put two decorative items in the donate bin. Both came from Dh family and have associated stress and negative feelings. Dh told me to just stop thinking about it and donate them.

I got some more of my things out of the basement, including my cookie jars. My grandmother had a large collection of cookie jars. My mom also had a less large collection of cookie jars. They were always full of cookies. After my grandmother's death, my mom was sad that so few of the cookie jars were being claimed and asked me "don't you want any of these cookie jars?" I pointed out that the cookie jars I was fond of were the ones from her house that related to my childhood (and two that had been claimed by my aunt and cousin, which I didn't say, because I wasn't upset by it and my mom would have felt bad about not claiming them first so I could have them). To which she replied "oh, that makes sense. You take the ones you want now and I'll replace them with some of these!" So, I have five cookie jars. Three of them were packed away. Also, I need to make cookies more often!

The one bad thing is that in the course of rummaging around and moving things on and off of shelves, I have buried the scullery counter again. It is obvious that I have a terrible habit of mindlessly leaving things on the edges of shelves and tucked between and behind the things that are already there (and even on top of rows of books) instead of dealing with them properly at the moment (and often because the items have no actual place to go.)

I did yoga late in the day yesterday, which helped reset me a little, but it is clear that the routine of yoga is important to help me wake up and get going with my day. So, since I do not have Bean today and I do have a large, unfinished task list from yesterday, I need to get moving.

Good morning!

Tatoulia, I was rushing out the door and forgot to tell you good job making progress on your weight!

Dh has the shelf together and it is beautiful. I started putting things on it - so far a few pieces of pottery, a small stack of coffee table sized books, and my grandmother's antique knitting basket. (My mom has the matching basket - which belonged to HER grandmother - both purchased together when mine was still a girl - it is close to 100 years old.) the basket is pretty and sentimental but too fragile now to use. It is tall and narrow, so I had no good place to display it out of harms way, but these shelves are widely spaced and have black metal supports that frame rectangular open "boxes", and so it is now safely on view instead of tucked away in the basement!

I am already thinking about "thinning" some books. Starting by wandering through the house asking "what do I really love" seems to be more effective than looking at a small space and asking "what do I want to keep" or "what can I get rid of". Like, if it is an item that does not have a practical use - if it is not "shelf worthy" why am I keeping it?

Bean is not coming tomorrow unless his mother is having a baby because she is home on maternity leave now and wants to spend some time making him feel special before the baby comes. Also because he will have to spend at least two days with us very soon and she doesn't want to make it longer by starting on Monday. He has never been away from them for two nights. I will try to make good use of the time.

I just got home from a workshop.

Really amazing. We got to try out a bunch of new products, and they gave us all the leftovers. I spent $20 and came home with about $50 worth of free (consumable) products and got to make three mugs and a bowl (I need to fire them.) if I don't like how they come out I can easily sell them and get my $20 back! Plus I had fun with pottery friends.

Dh has been redoing the den as a music room, and back in the summer we ordered a shelf to go in it. The shelf is for me! The store just called and the shelf is ready, so we are going to pick it up. I get to arrange things on the shelf, and hopefully this will also help me find some more things to purge as I move stuff around.

No baby yet.

Lila, I'm glad to hear you have fresh vegetables! Eagerly awaiting the arrival of the babies for you and SubC.

I've done the dishes this AM, I've weighed myself for th first time in a long time (down 12 pounds from the last time I weighed myself). So that's a relief. Last weigh in was June I believe. I'd like to drop another 20 before leaving to see BF in December. . From a clothing, health, and visual perspective. I was at least 30 lbs thinner when he left a year ago.

Okay I'm going to start walking down to my pedicure now. I have an hour and it's probably only a half hour walk but this way I can take my time. Plus I'll bring my kindle and it never hurts to sit in the beautiful spa and just read. Will give me a change of scenery.

Hi Tatoulia!

Good luck with the badger!

Lila, you could put them in the fridge, but I think they taste less good that way.

I'm glad you're feeling better.

Our baby is due either Monday (according to the doctor) or Friday (according to the momma) they will discuss scheduling an induction at her appointment on Monday if he doesn't arrive before that, because they want her neonatal team on hand. Possibly they could even send her straight over.

I'm pretty wiped out this evening. Dh shared half his beer with me and l'll be happy if I manage chores and unloading the car tonight.

Tatoulia, I think the badger has been living under my bed, so I am sending him off to you!

SubC, when do you expect the new baby? Ours is due next month, but we all think he will make his appearance sooner. Hoping all goes well for everyone.

I have a headache but aside from that, I am feeling much better emotionally and physically. I saw the specialist for hopefully the final time and was told all is healed. Now that I have that year long order, I am starting to relax, although I still have times of deep sadness, missing my daughter, worrying about her etc. But I think this is for the best. I worked a lot this week and did a good job and felt happy working.

I continue to be blessed by people giving me excess from their gardens, from friends to strangers to people dropping things off at work. I am thankful but it is a lot of work keeping up with it. I do give some away too. I have more tomatoes than I can handle and already froze some, made soup, and made sauce. I dehydrated the cherry tomatoes. I am putting a lot in soup tonight.

Does anyone have a suggestion for keeping fresh tomatoes longer, when they are not totally bright red and are pretty firm?

I am also dehydrating squash today and cooking some corn and made smoothies with cucumbers in them. You would think I would be skinny by now, but nope.

I have been working on cleaning the play room and got it mostly done. A few things I think the kids no longer play with are going in the donate box and some other pieces that go to nothing are going in the trash.

How is everyone else doing today? I will do some catching up after I go and process the last few of my peaches (just slice/freeze).

Hello everybody! Great work keeping up with yoga and the house, SubC. Hoping the baby comes smoothly for your dear daughter.

Some easy reset things that I like to do are making sure the cabinets are closed in the kitchen, making sure the bathroom towels are folded neatly and the shower curtain is closed, and any little bits of cat litter are swept. Small things that make a big difference for me. My bed is always made and my dishes are done nightly; strictly habit.

I must deal with the remaining mom stuff. I leave for my short trip in two weeks and my sister will be here. I dont know how to force myself to do it. Will need the badger.

WHO IS THE BADGER? We talk about having to badger ourselves to do stuff and we used to talk about sending the badger to each other's homes. So whoever has the badger, please release.

Good morning!

I got the reset done on my house yesterday - living room completely picked up, table, entry bench, island and kitchen counters cleared, sinks empty in kitchen and scullery - two loads of dishes done, laundry down to no full loads left and all dried and put away, nothing on the floor or seating in the main living area or scullery, and the scullery counter back plus one thing.

I also added to my weekly reset list and accomplished - change sheets, towels, and bathmat.

Plus, I cleaned out the vegetable crispers and washed them - used some things to cook myself dinner and unfortunately gave the chickens a lot of zucchini that came from my garden, made hot fudge sauce, froze the custard, and finished cleaning off the top of the shelf in the scullery.

I did not do any school prep or planning, but I know what I'm doing in all my classes today, and worst case I will just pull out the copies for my first afternoon class one stack at a time, hand them to the kid closest to me and say "everybody take one and pass it on" and then repeat until they are all out and have them check the order and staple. Best case I'll get the packets done during lunch. I'll do next week tonight or this weekend and hopefully not need copies for Tuesday.

I got to bed a lot later than I wanted.

Dd had an appointment yesterday and it is likely but not yet planned that she will have the baby on Monday. (She will find out on Monday morning - or earlier if she goes into labor) I would much prefer Wednesday, but shockingly (lol) nobody cares.

Yoga time (I am currently experiencing very little knee or hip pain - even with the stairs at school!)

Good morning!

Goodwin, your trip sounds really exciting! Coming back from a trip always helps me see my place with new eyes. I bet traveling with so much less stuff will help you think about which things you really want to hold on to and which can go.

Let us know how the timer goes. I am more of a "focus deeply on one area, pull it all apart, ignore that everything else is getting worse, run out of time and leave a mess" kind of person. Although I do alternate with "decide to clear shelf, pick up an item to put it where it goes and then wander around for an hour being derailed by a chain of distractions"

Today I am back at my reset day (the weeks fly by!) the house is not too bad, but I do have a lot of laundry to catch up on, and I have not been keeping up with the scullery counter. Still, I only have to clean up one week worth of mess plus one thing. (And do prep for Friday/Tuesday/Wednesday of school.) I will update later.

Hey everyone! Sorry to have been quiet lately. I have been busy getting ready for DH and my trip overseas. My living room is a disaster as I have all the travel supplies dumped into a big pile that I've been sorting through to put into the correct bags. I'm running out of steam during the day to get all the things I'm trying to accomplish done. I've been making walking on the treadmill a priority lately. I'm walking 2 miles a day 6 days a week.

When I'm tired from running around, I try to spend some time reading the Buried in Treasures book and doing the exercises. I am hoping to get started by setting a timer for 15 minutes a day and focusing on one area at a time. I have picked the area in front of my television to start first. I'll have a box for donations, a box for stuff to keep and categorize later, and a trash bag. I'm going to pick up each and everything to see what needs to be done with it. I will continue to work on this area until it is clear, and then I'll move on to the next area. I find it hard to not just move from area to area working on things. I tend to lose concentration so easily. Does anyone else have trouble focusing on just one area at a time?

Take care everyone. I'll try to make sure to keep coming here to get inspiration and report my progress. I'll be leaving on October 8 for my trip and won't return until the 17th. I'm really hoping after that to make the home my sole focus.

Good morning!

Hi CM! We are in the "too cold in the morning,too hot in the afternoon" days here.

I hope things turn out well for the bunnies.

Good job taking donations!

Bean and I picked the popcorn yesterday. His Daddy sent a packed bag so that if I have to come get Bean in the middle of the night, all I have to get is Bean. When Dd goes to her appointment on Thursday they are going to discuss wether or not to schedule an induction. (They think she is due the 16th, she thinks it's the 20th.)

I found the materials I need today, the studio definitely needs major work again. I didn't do the reading. Instead I spent an hour filling out student assessment forms requested by an organization on behalf of a parent. I'm still not done with them, because I had to send an email to the guidance counselor because I've lost track of how many years I've taught this kid. I hate these forms. On a scale of 1-4 ...
I wrote all over it.

They wanted to know if the kid has difficulty standing in line. I have never asked the kid to stand in line. I wrote that. What I want to write - to somebody somewhere - is "maybe the problem is your stupid lines and not the kids! Ask Costco if the kid can stand in line!" I will have to do the reading on my lunch.

My house is still a bit of a mess from yesterday, but not too much worse. I think it's going to get worse on the Monday-Wednesday stretch every week but I'm going to try to minimize that and keep resetting on Thursdays. Hopefully while still picking away at the backlog.

Yoga time!

I don't have a ton of energy right now - but I think it will return soon. The last three weeks or so have been pretty full. When it gets to be a flurry of activity I can't remember what I did a day or week previously without looking back at the calendar to jog my memory.

Bunnies were involved in the busyness, both my own with health concerns (positive outcomes) and the rescue organization's events keeping us busy. Please those who pray for such things, send up some for the rescue. It's too early and too delicate a topic to go into detail about at present, but they face some serious crossroads. It could turn out to be a blessing in disguise, but it could also have painful stages first. That's all I can say for now.

It's changed here from late summer feeling to "still summerlike temperatures yet it feels more like fall at times." I think it is the cooler mornings, and the days are getting noticeably shorter though not depressingly so yet. It is helpful to be able to do more things without the extreme heat. We are still under drought watering restrictions.

Decluttering projects will go easier with the milder weather. I took some donations on Saturday. Also, those small household miscellaneous projects, repairs, things needing a battery replaced, dumb stuff that's not difficult really but annoying... there are so many of them and they cause a sort of mental clutter. Trying to work through the backlog from the aforementioned busy days. Sure can pile up quickly.

Good morning!

I made cheese and replaced the burned custard yesterday. I also cleaned up after it all, and ran a load of laundry (but I currently have three clean loads in baskets) and I cleared off and washed one shelf from my refrigerator and worked on the scullery shelf a bit.

I did the prep work for two classes, but when I went out to the studio to get materials for the 4th I got distracted and ended up making things, so I have prep work to do after Bean leaves tonight. - getting those materials together and reading and taking notes on some things the kids turned in the first day.

So today my ambition is that, having a good day with Bean, and cleaning up after myself.

I shall now go do yoga for the 9th day in a row!

Good morning!

Goodwin, I think tillie used to recommend that book. I wish this site was searchable, because she is not here any longer, but her posts are very worth reading.

I think 15 minutes a day sounds like a good goal. It will add up.

Also the not acquiring things. Not acquiring things is surprisingly hard.

Tatoulia, I forgot to refresh the page again and I missed you yesterday. But wow - you have two boxes. TWO boxes. Everything else in your life is deliberately stored in your home. Even if you decide you need to clean out a drawer or cupboard or whatever later, that is what "normal" people do. You don't have piles! You have two boxes!

I have multiple things I want todo today, but I am focusing on two goals that will help make my life less overwhelming and more functional:

Make cheese
Prep for Tuesday and Wednesday classes.

Those first. Other things if those get done. Some of the things I need for Tuesday are in my studio, so that might get a bit more organized. Low chance of discarded items. Probably just consumables if that. It's also possible I will make a bigger mess looking for them.

Hey everyone! Sorry for not checking in with the site in a couple of days. I've been keeping busy. I have been really working on the book Buried in Treasures. I'm making plans and actions to stop acquiring things and sorting the things that I have scattered and piled all over the place. I haven't made a ton of progress at actually cleaning for the past few days, but I have made a contract with myself to start out with 15 minutes a day in one section at a time. I think that this book may be very beneficial in helping me get to where I want to be. I have been spending a lot of time practicing some German for my trip in October. I like to learn a little of the language where I'm going. It just seems polite.

My goal is to start tomorrow with the area around the couch. I will sort and discard items, and then put those items in the correct places where they belong. One step at a time is how I'm hoping to attack it.

I want to thank everyone for the encouragement and responses.

I think everyone is doing the very best that they can (I have been slack at getting things cleaned up this week though). I am hoping very much that tomorrow I can start getting on top of things.

I will catch up with everyone more tomorrow!

I think you showed good restraint today, SubC!

I have now done three loads of laundry. Two folded and put away. The last is hanging to dry.

I did get through one of the car boxes. Some to donate, some are gifts for our friends with kids.

Now to find what it takes to get through the other two boxes.

Good evening again!

Lila, I hope the year is healing for both of you.

Now, pick a toaster oven. Any toaster oven. Don't worry about choosing the best one, just pick one you like and let the rest go. (Your son's family's doesn't count because you are planning to move out. Use theirs, keep yours packed for later.)

Totsdad is definitely a good son!

Can you focus on setting up your bedroom or the playroom now that there is space, before you get bogged down in sorting? Once you have them nice, you may find that you don't want as much of the packed up stuff. Or, you may find packed stuff that you want to trade for what you already have and can easily find.

Otoh, if you're in the mood for sorting bins - just keep going!

But do get the dust bunnies out of your room - for your health.

I went to an art show and a yard sale today and didn't do much else. I did make custard, but then I left it cooling on the stove and Dh turned the wrong burner on and burned it.

At the art show I got a reusable "swag bag". I recycled all the ads, tossed the pen in my teacher bag to leave in the office at school, and put the vinyl bee sticker in my student prize collection. I am keeping the little watercolor set for Bean, but that counts as a consumable (so does the pen)

At the yard sale I got two toys and a thing for Dh (he snatched it as soon as I walked in the door, so that definitely does not count in my total.) I'm not sure about counting one toy - it's just a piece of brio track with a water tower attached - it went straight in the brio bin and doesn't feel like a separate toy. But the magnetic maze game is definitely a thing.

And do I need to count the reusable bag?

What I should do is fill the reusable bag with other stuff and give it away. But I won't. Not now anyway. I'm still making slow progress working on areas with trash and recyclables and consumables (mostly paper and craft bits and potentially useful bits and bobs) but those are impossibly to count meaningfully.

I ran across a September cleaning challenge of "30 drawers in 30 days" and I laughed. But I thought - maybe I could clear off the messy shelf in the scullery in September. I'll try that.

Okay I feel caught up. Good work, Lila, hard work, Lila. SubC, glad the school year is shaping up and you have four days of yoga under your belt! Amazing!

I've been a giant slug. One of my lamps got knocked over and broke and so I took the subway over to a very charming lamp restorer today. He's also going to retire it, find some crystals where one is missing, and put a more appropriate socket on it. And put it back together. I'll take the lamp's mate up to see him so they will match.

Okay, music going on. I'm going to force myself to do things. On laundry load #2 as we speak.

Glad you had a good time at rendest with Bean, SubC! Goodwin, your grandmother loved that piece of art and she loved you more. She wouldn't want you to feel burdened by it. OK going back to read.

I started to get caught up on the posts and read the fist couple of sentences from Lila's second post and felt obligated to write now. Lila, you are NOT a drag. You are an important part of our community. I feel your support by just hearing about your day. I often feel unsupportive here and guess what, we are a group of friends getting caught up on things. That's all. And so by checking in, even with just a hello, our little community is well-supported!

Okay back to the posts. Also, Lila, please remind me of your Instagram so I can check in on you!

follow-up post, for my own sanity.

TotsDad came up and in a flurry of activity, carried probably 30 trips of totes, boxes, and piles from upstairs to my new office space downstairs. Wow, I didn't really comprehend how much stuff I still had. It really "fluffs up" as someone here once said, as it decompressed from being piled and shoved into every available corner. I just kept pulling out box after box and TotsDad looked like he wanted to as me why I was keeping all this crap, but to his credit, he said nothing. I did say "I'm going to wort through all this stuff down there and get rid of some of it" and he said "okay." What a good son.

As I was giving him boxes and totes I was thinking, wow. This really is a hoard. Just a neat one. I would guess 70% of it came from my bedroom. He was carrying stacks, so 30 trips is probably 60+ boxes and totes. It is astounding, considering how much stuff I have already gotten rid of and how often I have already sorted all of this stuff.

About 6 totes came from the playroom (not toys, just stuff) and about 10 came from the storage bedroom, plus a bookshelf, an end table, and another shelf (to be used for sorting). Probably 10 boxes from the living room and dining room and a toaster oven. TotsDad did say "why are you hoarding toaster ovens all of a sudden?" in kind of a joking manner. I had one myself, had a newer one in the garage, TotsFam brought theirs so mine went into the garage, and 2 people gave me brand new ones. I was gonna pick the best one to keep...

All the rooms are now in a state of disarray. Every room with random things, stuff I did not send downstairs, clutter, and in my bedroom a massive amount of dust bunnies. It does not look neat whatsoever and in fact does not look like I took so much out. Maybe new photos on ig are in order. If any of you are on ig and not connected, let me know your handle and I will try to invite you.

I am exhausted but after lunch I will vacuum.

Thank you for the kind words, friends. I skimmed posts today and think things will settle out now, so I have the time and peace to come and be more part of this little community that I love. I too, have a sense of who you each are, and enjoy getting to know you all, and really appreciate the support.

Good news is, this week I had court and it went in my favor, which is good but sad, as there is now an order that Teen can't contact me for one year. I still sent boxes of food over to her and some more of her things, through one of the boys, but that's really the end of it. I have to let it go and let her find her way. I will no longer be subject of the abuse, assaults, and broken things, and for that I am grateful. And I feel some relief about that.

Today TotsDad is home and will help me move heavy things.

Youngest son moved out of his room into Teen's old room, which is twice as big and has a closet. Son's old, smaller room used to be exDH's room, and before that, was my office. I am reclaiming it as a sorting grounds. It only has a twin bed in there right now (was Son's) and I will use it to sit on and sort things on for now. Very soon TotsDad will come up and help me.

Goals - put a thing or two in the garage from upstairs. Put things from the small storage bedroom and from my bedroom and the playroom and the living/dining room all into that office for sorting. This should make my bedroom the emptiest it has been in 20+ years.

I will report back.

Good evening!

I did get my house reset yesterday and start out prepared today. I did not make custard.

It was a long day though. I'm tired.

Dh ordered new work shirts, and they came in the mail today, so I have all of those piled up in the laundry for tomorrow.

Not sure how the paper content of the house is shaking out this week, except that I am sure I have fewer random loose papers and most of the new ones are neatly contained in binders and folders and being used for classes - so that's something?

Good morning all!

Coming by a bit late today. I don't teach on Thursdays, but I do have a bunch of beginning of the year admin type stuff to do (I stayed up until ten last night responding to parent emails!)

My goals for today are:
To reset the house (reset means back to the best it has been since we visited Birdy, which from now on will be today I hope, so I shall refer to it as a "September reset" until I have a day in October or later that is an improvement.)
And
To get everything prepped and ready for tomorrow with my admin work caught up.

I may also make some custard to freeze or some cheese, and I'll let you know if I manage to downsize anything that isn't consumable.

I have handed out a LOT of partly used spiral notebooks to kids who came to class unprepared so far this year. My remaining supply now not only fits in the crate designated for their storage, it fails to fill it.

Good morning!

Lila, I also wanted to say, please don't worry about commenting on other people's stuff right now (or even reading it) this is a time for you to let other people hold you up. We just want to know how you are, and to help if we can.

Goodwin, yay for graduating from physical therapy! And for donating things! You may feel sad when you think about your grandmas picture for a while. That's ok. Try to remember that the picture was not bringing anyone joy stashed away. Now it is out where it can be found by someone who loves it and be enjoyed. Like a gift from your grandma you are sharing with the world.

I got through the first day of school. It went fairly smoothly. Two of my classes finished everything on the lesson plan, but nobody ran out of stuff to do. I had a small logistical bump when a kid thought he was signed up for my class, but he wasn't. Admin sent him to study hall and called mom, and he appeared on my list and joined us halfway through. I'm glad - I like the kid.

I stayed pretty late getting everything squared away and prepping some handouts for today. Today is "walk in ready" though - I even left my class notebook on the desk.

Ok, time to do yoga - this will be 4 days in a row!

So far there is only one word on my spelling list - "terracotta" I left out a "t"

Hi Everyone. I hope everyone's Tuesday is going ok. I am set for another busy week. I graduated from some physical therapy today.

Lila: You are so brave, and I'm proud of you for posting. I cannot imagine how hard it is for you and I hope like SubC said, that Teen will find her way back to you. I know there must be so much to process on so many levels as you try to navigate this thing called life. Life, of course, is rarely easy, but for some, it is harder than most. I am so glad you are not walking this path alone and have people who love you. From what little I've read from you, I can tell you are a very loving person. As someone who suffers from mental illness, I can tell you that you have nothing to feel guilty for. I can literally feel the love coming out of you as you write the words I'm reading. Those words could never come from a mother who isn't good. You, my new friend, are enough!

Things are moving along slowly but surely with me. I started reading a book I heard about somewhere called "Buried in Treasure". I have been reading as often as I can. I know there is a lot of hard work ahead, but it can be done. This cycle I'm a part of can and will be broken. It won't happen as fast as I'd like, but it will happen. Yesterday I took quite a few pictures of the different rooms of my house. I put them on my computer in a secure file and deleted them off of my phone. I don't know of any way to share them anonymously. Today I took a box of things to the thrift store to donate, as well as a print that hung in my grandmother's house when she was still alive. I was extremely close to my grandma and getting rid of anything that was hers was hard, but I had nowhere to hang the picture and it didn't fit in with my "style". I didn't feel too sad about it until I got home after donating it. I know, in the end, that I will need to get rid of other things that will be emotional. Some things I'm fairly certain I won't ever be able to part with, but I'm going to process each and every item I can in my house. That may take months, it may take years. I honestly don't know, but I know that after generations of family doing this and decades of me acquiring stuff I'm ready to make significant changes. Sorry to ramble on. My goal for today is to start filling up a new box of items to donate.

I hope everyone has a great day, and I'll check back in later.

Good morning!

I'm all caught up on reading and so glad to hear from everyone, even if I'm obviously not glad for what Lila is going through, but I'm going to have to post quick and run - first day of school.

I had a long post yesterday, but it disappeared into th3 white screen of death right before I left for renfest with bean (that was good)

Lila, my heart breaks for you. Whatever choices you make, treat yourself kindly. I pray that someday teen will find her way back to herself and to you. I know I don't know you, but from the things you post I have a sense of you, and I truly believe you did the best for teen that you could. I said in my other post that I am glad you have your friends and your boys. When you have people who love you, you will always have enough.

post 2 today -

I promise I will get to a point of being more of a support to you friends and less of a drag. Right now I am rather empty with little to offer but my prayers for you as we all navigate our stuff.

I did want to come and say, there is a bright spot. I went into that storage bedroom numerous times today with lots of staring and little done. However I came to tell you, if I can get through this - and I will - you can get through it too, whoever you are, whoever happens upon this board in the future and wonders how you can sort years of grief and loss - you can do it. My inner self shouted today at the closet stacked with my little girl's big puffy black cat cushion and her pink teddy bear, her soft pastel blanket that she loved and the black suede boot she HAD to have when she was 11, the sheets she picked out that are pink with black kitties on them and the keyboard she used to tap out Taylor Swift tunes by ear on; the beige cushion and the teal sequined pillow that used to adorn her little girl bed, the scarves and hats and little girl necklaces in a box... the clear plastic packet of the fancy ruffled blanket and flowered sheet set that was in her crib as a baby adored among older brothers... all her storybooks and art sets, and the tote of American Girl dolls that she played with for hours (which reminds me of the times we drove all the way to Seattle to go eat at the AG cafe and shop for little things for her AG dolls and even got one of her AG doll's ears pierced and how happy she was)... my inner self shouted at those stacks in the closet, "WHY IS THIS SO HARD?" and then I turned away, left and shut the door and sat down to eat ice cream instead.

It's hard because we loved. It's hard because time is a merciless killer of dreams, sometimes... it's hard because that little girl is gone, maybe buried inside of the adult who hates me, I don't know... something killed her inside... maybe drugs, maybe mental health, maybe trauma from "friends" she trusted, maybe me (so she says - I can't believe it - if anything I was guilty of loving and spoiling her too much). I don't know if I will ever see her as an adult again, and I don't know how to process all those memories, or be happy in them, or be nostalgic in them, when all I have left is an empty room and a bunch of totes in the storage room outside, full of fragile bits of the life she used to have with me.

We will get through it, it just will take awhile.

I have today as a paid day off. I also am sick, but not super sick, just a miserable head cold. I am going to try and sort some totes and stuff today. The state of my house:

My bedroom is a giant thrift shop basically. I put a pic of it on my IG before, if you saw that. It is worse now with piles on top of the piles.

The play room is strewn with toys, bins stacked on bins. The bed in there is piled with boxes and bins that were moved from the little storage bedroom so it could have walls repairs. I mean there is so much stuff in that play room.

The little storage bedroom is emptier, but still has a lot of things. And, when we were moving things so it could be repaired, I shoved a ton of stuff into the closet. It is packed to the ceiling in there. A lot of the things in that room are from when Teen was little, or grade school, when things were better and before she was so sick, before she was mentally ill, when we were happy. It is VERY hard for me to go in there, and nearly impossible to get rid of anything. But, some of it I can get out for the grandkids to play with, and some of it maybe I can box up and put in the closet in a neater way. I think I have to get rid of some of the stuff though. It is so hard, but everything is so hard and sad right now that I may as well just get it over with, because my emotional pain level is already really high, so why not. Then I won't have to deal with it later.

The kitchen bar/counter is full. The dining room table is 50% full. The living room has bins and boxes and stuff from the storage bedroom and playroom.

This is all not to mention the downstairs which is in an interesting state, and the garage which is literally piled with totes to the ceiling, but 75% of it is TotsFam's.

Wish me luck, I will try and do something today, even just a little bit.

White rabbit, white rabbit, white rabbit - hopping by before September 1st is over.

Last 2-3 weeks have been a whirlwind and I can't even remember all the things. One of these days I may start keeping a small diary (electronically, so as to avoid physical clutter) simply for the purpose of remembering. I do have a paper month-at-a-glance calendar, which sometimes helps me reconstruct what has happened. Otherwise it becomes a blur. This will just be rather random.

Had to take my 7-1/2 year old female bunny to the vet a couple times these past few weeks. She has arthritis, but with the mobility assist from cotton rugs on the floor is perking up quite a bit. She also had some fleas, but we got those on the run. My male just turned 12 yesterday and is still going strong. The bunny rescue organization is going through some changes which I have prayed about for quite awhile - they wanted so badly to grow bigger but it just hasn't happened. I worried about them being overwhelmed. Now it looks like perhaps they will allow it to become smaller, be able to play to their strengths better and not be stretched too thin. It'll take time but seems hopeful. We had a fundraiser in August, that was some of my busy time.

I mentioned going to the water park the previous weekend, which was fun and I got some good exercise in there. We didn't get a swim in this past week but hopefully will in a few days. I want to do more walking even if it's not very far. This evening an ambulance went down our street and I had been going to walk down to the end of the block anyway. The neighbor gal came out to walk and see where the ambulance went, so we chatted. That was nice. So hard to get to know neighbors these days until something provides an opportunity for it - and of course I hope whoever needed the ambulance will be okay.

Was wishing my group that had Bible study and faith sharing back in the spring would be starting up again for fall. Found out they are, but this time for some reason they're having it at a different parish, one that's further away than I feel comfortable driving to. I'm going to try and find something - even online if need be, but I'd prefer in person. Very much want fellowship. Covid time has dwindled down so many such opportunities for those of us who don't belong to big suburban congregations and don't wish to do a lot of driving.

Signed up for a few short tech classes at the library again here and there over the next months, and need to pick a project to get my 3D printing certification. I'd like to make something Doctor Who themed for roommate for Christmas. The thing I'd really like to make is probably too advanced for a first project, so I'm looking for a simple item - there are websites you go to that have the items shown and you download the instructions to tell the printer to make it. You can design your own, too, but that is complicated to do as a beginner. I'd get bogged down attempting that at this stage.

This week has some busyness in it too, and I'm hoping after that it'll be easier to pick back up on goal oriented things like sorting stuff for donation or whatever other end goal I have for it.

SubC, it is indeed new grandbaby month for you - and I'm still hoping and praying for the very best. And for everyone else and family.