| Mirror | Posted: 22 April 2014 - 03:41 PM |
It felt like just one day I woke up and things were a mess. A big mess Because I have been working at this for awhile now, closing in on a year, I have had a chance to really think about the things that brought me to this state. Really distill it down to the real issues I have come to the conclusion it is because I am not emotionally able to enter a relationship. I know that sounds weird and there's a lot of things that lead to that, but in my case the hoard was more of a symptom, a solution of a way to justify not becoming involved a wall of sorts to keep things out or more properly feelings or people. I find as I am getting to the point where things are now more normal I wrestle with the emotional part more. It is funny because I was told the therapist helps you cognitively deal with the letting go- that was actually not that hard. Not as hard as the letting in will be. Just thought I would share that in case someone went thru the same thing | |
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| Dianne | Posted: 26 December 2014 - 09:31 AM |
{{{{{Stephanie}}}}} We all make mistakes we deeply, deeply regret. But don't confuse the regret about your baby with regret for discarding material things that have no life. I firmly believe your baby is with Jesus in heaven. He knows your circumstances at the time, He knows your pain and regret and He has forgiven you. And your sweet child is safe and happy and waiting for you in heaven. I say this as someone who had to make peace with my own decision. | |
| Stephanie | Posted: 24 December 2014 - 01:38 AM |
I just realized tonight that the reason I am a hoarder is because I had an abortion. I "threw my baby away" when I was 17 years old and I deeply regret it. Now I am afraid to throw anything away in case I'll regret it later. | |
| Tillie | Posted: 23 April 2014 - 12:30 PM |
Some people's motivation to declutter & clean is so they can have friends and family in their homes. Just because our homes are clean and uncluttered does not mean that just because someone knocks on our door or calls on the phone telling us they are coming over that we have to/must let them in. We are allowed to decide for ourselves if, when and who we will allow inside. The inside of my house is clear & clean even though I live with a hoarder. Please do not use the clutter to keep people out of your home. | |