I've been so paralyzed not knowing where to start...the task seems overwhelming and I am on my own, with no one to help and I work full time job plus overtime...but I've been reading some helpful stuff on here and motivated me to get started on SOMETHING rather than just put my head in my hands in dispair, guilt and misery.
I just finished cleaning the bathroom. Took me a whole day and a half and took out 11 big bags of trash. There was mold and mildew and wet rugs and trash piled on top of that which is what I would walk on. Now I can see the floor, which has been scrubbed clean and thankfully has suffered no structural damage. Toilet and tub have been scrubbed and sanitized. Sink is no longer full of crap and is actually clean and usable. The counter tops have been cleared with just the essentials I need for every day.
It was a horrible, disgusing job. This room has not been cleaned for at years. I was sweaty, dirty, and disgusted and almost puked a few times. But I persevered, kept telling myself it doesn't need to be PERFECT. It just needs to be clean and functional.
But for only a day and a half of work, I can walk easily in the bathroom, get in and out of a clean shower, brush my teeth in the sink. It feels amazing.
Now I feel tired, sore and overwhelmed, knowing that was a drop in the bucket and there is still so much more to do in bigger rooms. BUT...I keep going back to this room and looking around and thinking YOU did this. It is possible. Just tackle one thing at a time. Small steps are better than no steps at all.
There are some on here who have made amazing progress. This is a small victory, but thought I would share for those who feel completely paralyzed. Start. Just start somewhere.
And a sincere thanks to those who have put up, maintained and contributed to this message board. Hoarding is a lonely, scary thing. This has been so much help just knowing I'm not the only one.
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