Omg I'm in the exact same situation. I'm desperate for help. I'm so depressed and overwhelmed by all this I've had continuous thoughts of suicide just to escape the crushing depression and the disappointment in the eyes of my loved ones when they see how out of control it's all gotten.

Hi, I'm new here so please forgive me if I should have put this under one of the other topics.

I am in a desperate situation - my small apartment is crammed full with garbage, literally, in bags, as well as empty Amazon boxes, etc. How did this come to be? COVID.

The pandemic totally messed up an already messed up life, coming on the heels of losing a parent and being shunned by my sister and my job. The idea of catching COVID scared me so much I wouldn't leave the house, had food brought in (fast food and groceries) and my already naturally depressive state just plunged to new depths.

Before I knew it, the apartment was filled with all of this crap (I never ever was like this before) and I had also fallen several times. I should have, but didn't, seek care for myself (too afraid to leave the house for even medical appointments) and as a result I now can barely walk with a cane and my head meds and thyroid meds are gone and I feel like I'm spiraling out of control.

I'm on Social Security Disability and so have very little to fund a cleaning service (I've been calling around, pricing, as I've been trying to pull myself out of this) and am at wits end. I have received few call backs and responses, and the one I did get from a service that sounded really amazing, was way out of my price range. Do you have any suggestions on what I can do to keep from being evicted? I'm amazed my landlord hasn't tossed me out yet, but I live every day with that hanging over my head and the smell of the place permeating the building. It's unfair to others, it's unfair to me, and I just don't know how to tackle this on my budget with my disabilities.