It sounds like you're trying to find solid ground, but it keeps turning to jello. I know that feeling.
I've tried all kinds of things to cure my hoarding, my depression, my anger, everything. The best thing I've found is psychic (intuitive) healing. It's not free, but it's the most effective thing I've found. I hope you can find a good healer in your area. You'll be able to tell during the first session whether it's helping or not.