Hello :)

From what you wrote, it sounds like you are just plain tired, over worked and exhausted.
Try to find ways to lessen your load, find someone to help you with necessary chores, like animal care.
Try to find some time just for yourself to relax, rest and recuperate.

Best wishes

I'm not going to kid myself; I'm a hoarder. But, is it ok to be more complicated than that? I have rescued animals for twenty years or more. On the other hand, the house hasn't been in this kind of shape that long - just since I started working all the time. I had to have the money; I was trying to pay my mom's and aunt's living expenses, because they couldn't. Why doesn't matter; if I made the list, you would agree. But working 16 hrs a day, 7 days a week, doesn't leave a lot of home time, and it makes one a little crazy. And now I can't break the cycle. I have no idea where to start, in cleaning. I'm hoping that a young girl who wants to use my pasture will help me in getting my own life together. If all else fails, she is, at least, an example for me. I just don't have any energy, to do anything, including work my dogs or ride my horses. I feel terrible; I just want to sleep, all of the time. I never cook, which I love to do. I also don't eat, because my stomach is constantly upset. I'm on an anti-depressant and an anti-anxiety medication, which I take regularly and properly, and I stay in touch with my doctor. I've just left a message to re-connect with my therapist. I just don't have any energy to do anything. I'm a mess, and I'm sure it's my fault.