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Thank you, Tillie. Wishing you all good in the New Year as well.
Yesterday I had to go to my storage unit in search of a copy of last year's paperwork for my food stamps and Medicaid. It had bothered me that in the move in May I hadn't been able to bring over my important papers files. That, and the fact that the move was so frenzied I'm not even sure the papers I needed would have been filed in the first place!
So anyway, I found part of what I needed. Looking around the storage unit, and looking around my room here where I'm staying, looking at the contents of my van - and thinking about all the stuff...it's hard to imagine I'll ever get through it all. New stuff keeps coming in via the mail or other means, new crises keep popping up - I feel like I get further and further behind. :(
I'm still going to keep trying but I just hope somehow I catch a break time wise or money wise or SOMETHING wise that will allow me to stand a fighting chance against the never-ending influx.
What's most painful a lot of the time is that I spend so much time treading water and I'm a person who has so much creativity and so many interests and good things I would like to do, yet I can't even get TO those most of the time. Or stay focused if I do long enough to really accomplish anything. Sure, I have ADD, but that's not the only reason I'm so behind. I've just been slammed by life so many times in the last few years with precious few resources to push back. It feels like things are about to collapse on top of me sometimes.
I could go on - and on - but I'll make myself stop for now. I have to do that paperwork, whether I like it or not, it has to be done, and it'll be a relief when it's over. Hopefully it's not too complicated. I just have this knee-jerk resistance to paperwork of that sort. It irritates me too, that the agencies that send it out - at the end of the year - want it back in a short time frame, during the holidays, when my area is due for a winter storm... AARGH!
*sigh*
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