~♡~Love & coffee clinks!~♡~
CM, yes, i think you should do a GoFundMe! It could shift things in many ways, for many reasons?! ~♡~
Well, i thought that first end of under the trailer was the grossest, but i was wrong...the next section is the most disgusting...i hope...ha ha...if i get through this, nothing else here will seem gross...ha ha
As far as old lady arms, now i understand why women in India wear those tight, hot, uncomfortable 3/4 length sleeves under their saris in the summer...ha ha...i am horrified at what happened to my arms this past year...im in the hot desert...i cant keep my bat wings covered all summer?!! This is not funny...(ha ha) :D

Good Morning Everyone :)
"Clink!"

Hi Anonymoniker :)
You oiled yourself up and then crawler around in the dirt and got all covered in stuff.
WAY TO GO! though getting back under there and making a difference!

Hi CriticalMass :)
Yes, go ahead and try that "GO Fund Me".
It's worth a try and may turn out to be the boost you need to change things around.
I've noticed that just holding and petting a bunny for a little while does wonders for me.
Unfortunately, I can only hold my wild Cottontail bunnies when they are tiny babies just out of the nest before they become old enough to know better than to be caught. :D

Hi Tatoulia :)
Hope the coffee didn't keep you up too late.
The only "cure" I know of to fix all our old lady arms is to always wear clothes with sleeves. ;D

Started to rain last night, rained all night and is still raining this morning.
Didn't get groceries yesterday. Was too afraid to go out.
Maybe sometime today I will be able to force myself to go. ?
Hate, hate, hate always being so scared of the big spooky world and all those humans running around out there.
I know exactly why I am this way and it is all so very logical. ;P
Anyways, my garden is enjoying this rain and so am I.
Another good day to stay home. :D

Hi CM! I am so glad to hear from you. That is a shame about the van. I'm glad you have good company in your bunnies. There is always a brighter day ahead, dear friend.

I don't have any experience with go fund me but I say, why not? You may find that people want to help you and don't know how to approach you. You may find that your campaign builds no traction. But why nit? There may be a kind soul or souls out there who would love to help you get a reliable vehicle. A lot of people use it and there may be a sense of "go fund me fatigue" but if you don't pin your hopes and dreams on it, I say why not give it a whirl.

Goodnight everyone. I've had a cup of coffee so there's no telling when I will fall asleep.

Anony I think Tillie was referring to your coconut oiled arms with all the debris--also let me know if the oil did anything for you. I looked at my arms the other day and someone had replaced mine with an old lady's arms.

Hi everyone, just a fly by. Sounds like lots of exciting things. My post is going to sound like Debbie Downer at least somewhat by comparison. But maybe there'll be some hopeful in it too.

The van - the old one - finally got towed to the mechanic's a little while ago. Part of the holdup was the weather, part my sinus infection (it's almost gone), and part to do with crates of books I wish I'd gone ahead and gotten out of the van last fall. They are now cooling their heels at my storage unit, the books. I even plucked out a few to rehome.

I'm not going to be able to afford a new-to-me van yet after all. My roommate was going to lend me the money. Then she had a dentist visit and some repairs on her car. It's okay for the moment. I do wonder if God was saying wait CM, don't overextend yourself just yet.

So the big clunker gets fixed again. I've paid for the parts, and for last month's repairs. Hoping the labor for this won't be bad.

I'm hoping that when it runs, I can try to figure out what I can do to bring in money some way that is legal and won't jeopardize my disability.

Just to clarify and sum up - I'm on disability due to a combination of psych stuff. ADHD, OCD, PTSD, depression, anxiety, panic, and agoraphobia. All the years I did work I hopped from job to job mostly.

The last full time job I had ended a decade ago. I quit because the stresses were mounting and I was in the doghouse despite my best efforts not to be. I had had high hopes that I was doing okay, it was two months after my mom had died, and I was keeping the panic attacks at bay. But the management was putting ridiculous pressures on us, we were short staffed, and it was just a train wreck.

Two months after leaving I had seen doctors and was set up for my hysterectomy. I often wonder if I hadn't been thinking of blowing out my COBRA insurance and seeing a doctor for my lady issues, they might not have caught the tumor that, though not the aggressive type, might have led to cancer.

So I guess I'm saying, God has mysterious plans and ways and even the things that seem horrible at the time they happen, are for a reason.

I'm pretty wiped out at the moment. Going to have my prayer time and play with my bunnies and this evening roommate and I go run a few errands. Then Doctor Who and chill time, and tomorrow I can wake up and see what's what. I'm trying to discern whether to do a Go Fund Me or something.

.......and Tille, i still havent figured out the tar & feathering joke...? :D

.......and Tille, i still havent figured out the tar & feathering joke...? :D

...♡...and Porter, there is hopeless romantic in me that wants you & your new love to be a ~♡~Happy Horders Love & Success Story~♡~ maybe even featured on the TV show(ive never actually seen the show, but what a happy tale it could be?) ~♡~Tho its just in real life that matters!~♡~

~♡~Good Morning!~♡~Clink!~♡~
Tillie, our posts mustve crossed?!? Please be careful moving/storing that gunpowder?! I hope you feel better soon?
Tatoulia, i could not agree more about prefering alone & happy, over together & unhappy! Yall have done it right! :D
Yesterday i started in the grossest spot at one end of under my trailer. It was mainly filthy, fiberglass insulation that had fallen out & been pulled out by animals. My concern is getting it up without the dirt level lowering enough to collect rainwater. I have a big pile of sand, if i need to i can use to fill it back up. I did at least get a system started! YEA!!!
Im also thinking of maybe using my beloved car as a microgreenhouse? ha ha or maybe park it in the shade as a mushroomobile...? ;D
~☆♡☆~☆♡☆~☆♡☆~☆♡☆~☆♡☆~

Good Morning Everybody :)
"Clink!"

Hi Anonymoniker :)
LOL. Sorry, but LOL :D
Sort of like you tarred and feathered yourself.
Good luck clearing out under there today. :)

Hi Tatoulia :)
I'm happy you are able to have pleasant evenings out with friends and do enjoyable activities together.
WTG! for dishes and Kitty clean up. :D

Yesterday the cats & I went outside and I watered everything (except the 6 trees) for the first time this year.
Marty would always follow me around when I was watering and keep me company, the other cats all run off and do other things.
Thinking about driving into town today. Need to refill a couple of water bottles.
Also, there is only 4 lemons and one piece of fresh ginger root in the veggie bins.
I want/need more fresh produce.
The fridge veggie bins are so empty that I took the time to wash them.
Dark cloudy day with a 60% chance of rain but will get up to 70 degrees.
Yesterday while I had the sprinkler on for the grass a whole flock of Sparrows came by and were taking showers in the water.
They were all so cute and happy. :D

I will be happy when you are able to get rid of the linseed oil & other flammables, Tillie. Hope your puttering day went well.

Anony, let me tell you, I do feel very fortunate to have found my BF. I think that having the same values and being able to laugh at just about anything have been really helpful. I also think that by not living together and by not being married, we avoid some of the day-to-day stresses that enter into a lot of relationships. We are calm and steady, and it suits me. I think you'll meet many nice people and I hope you find what will make you happy. And if you don't, I know for me I'd rather be alone and happy than together and unhappy.

I am back from mani/pedi and dinner with a girlfriend. Will go to bed soon as I have another event tomorrow.

I just did the dishes and cleaned up kitty's mess.

~☆~Good Morning!~
Tatoulia, i still have hope of someday having a relationship like yours! You have set a goal & a realistic ideal for me to hold. Thank you! And that is of course, in addition to all of your encouragement & support! ~♡~
Yesterday my plan was to collect yuck from under my trailer & what happened instead was i got a peek at my saggy, creped skin upper arms in a sleeveless top & freaked & in an old lady panic, slathered coconut oil all over my arms, not realizing the oil would make all the fiberglass dust & other yucky dust pieces stick to me, so instead i played the song, 'Gethsemane' from the concert for 12 hours at full volume & made a variety of healthy soups! ~Vegan Vital Vichyssoise~ ...and a few others, that still need work...ha ha
Today i will collect my first big bag of yuck from down under...ha ha....♡

Good Morning Everyone! :D
"Clink!"

Hi Anonymoniker :)
WAY TO GO! for trying to keep the "new" vehicle clean! :D
The most important thing I do for the car is every time I come home I make sure to get out every and anything. Never leave anything sit in there or eventually it all starts to build up and become cluttered.
About the sentimental dashboard things...
this is a new vehicle and over time you will find the exact right things to keep there. (((hugs)))

Hi Tatoulia :)
Thank you! (((HUGS)))
I've been eating mostly healthy, a little too much chocolate over last weekend.
Been resting and taking naps and sleeping well at night.
Just tired, think it's allergies. They always make me sleepy.
Hope your hands warm up and stay warm!
But "They say" cold hands means a warm heart. (((HUGS)))
From watching the weather reports it looks like another storm on the East.
Sorry. :(

Today my plan is to just putter around here.
Do a little of this & that.
Washed my heavy down jacket yesterday and got out the medium weight coat to wear.
Also cleaned & put away the heavy down comforter and am using the lighter fiber filled comforter.
I go through three different degrees of Winter, Spring/Autumn and Summer weight bedding and clothes & footwear.
I also have to stow away the space heaters somewhere where they will be safe.
Makes it hard to keep the off season stuff organized and neatly put away.
Especially since this house is so small without any proper closets & storage spaces.
And anything I may put into the garage is not safe from being swallowed up forever in the hoard, that's if I could even find a space to put it out there. ;P

Slowly but surely I have been reclaiming space in the very small room called the "pump house" because that's where the well pump is located.
Last Summer I removed all of his 5 gallon buckets of paint.
Last week I removed the many dozen spray cans of XMas snow and glow in the dark green wash off Halloween paints.
Now I am using the shelf where they were to keep necessary and well used gardening things.
Still lots more ignored and useless things he has in there but doing it little by little is the best way around him.
There are still some dangerous things in there that I will work on getting out the next few weeks, like black gun powder and linseed oil.
Both very explosive & flammable.

12 noon here without a lot to show for myself. I have plans again tonight and tomorrow night. At least Friday night I'll be home.

Am going to make a cup of tea and scrub kitchen counter. What are you doing today??

Means the world to me to hear you so happy, Anony. I would suggest going just a bit longer without the sentimental things on your dashboard. You'll know what's best in another day or two! I wasn't able to watch the concert but it is available for replay on Hulu. I did catch the last fifteen minutes and it was really great.

Tillie I have been freezing cold. Tomorrow is supposed to be warm but grey. Tonight is rainy and raw--the rain is really coming down. I generally love a night like this but I have been having trouble with my hands and the cold has made it hard to do much. I'm waiting to see if I have something wrong or if it's just the cold. Waiting for spring. It isn't here right now. I hope you are feeling okay, Tillie. And I hope you are eating right. Sorry that I am such a worrier but you do such a good job of looking after me I hope you don't mind that I'm checking in on your health.

Very tired tonight. Had a wonderful meal with a wonderful friend tonight. I seem to have a good group of girlfriends right now. What a pleasure.

Goodnight dear hearts. I'll ttyl.

~Greetings & coffee clinks!~
SubC, the hearts are on my phone symbols. And, i agree with Tatoulia about the teacher's pic in the historical settings is hilarious, yet harmless!
Tillie, kitties are so joyous & mysterious!
~♡~I had the most wonderful Easter celebration watching that spectacular TV concert!~♡~
Im facing a bit of a good challenge in not trashing out my new truck. Just driving home from getting groceries, i usually eat berries driving home, since they go bad often even the next day, but i didnt want the seat to get berry stains, then i ate some pocorn & it was nearly impossible to stop the popcorn crumbs from falling on the floor, etc. Just dealing with that was kind of exhausting?!! ha ha Part of me wants to put my sentimental rocks & feathers, etc. on the dashboard, that are from my car, but...?!?
Today i plan to collect one big garbage bag of yuck from under this trailer! :D
~☆~Love & Best Wishes to all, in all of your endeavors!~☆~

~Greetings & coffee clinks!~
SubC, the hearts are on my phone symbols. And, i agree with Tatoulia about the teacher's pic in the historical settings is hilarious, yet harmless!
Tillie, kitties are so joyous & mysterious!
~♡~I had the most wonderful Easter celebration watching that spectacular TV concert!~♡~
Im facing a bit of a good challenge in not trashing out my new truck. Just driving home from getting groceries, i usually eat berries driving home, since they go bad often even the next day, but i didnt want the seat to get berry stains, then i ate some pocorn & it was nearly impossible to stop the popcorn crumbs from falling on the floor, etc. Just dealing with that was kind of exhausting?!! ha ha Part of me wants to put my sentimental rocks & feathers, etc. on the dashboard, that are from my car, but...?!?
Today i plan to collect one big garbage bag of yuck from under this trailer! :D
~☆~Love & Best Wishes to all, in all of your endeavors!~☆~

Good Morning Everyone :)
"Clink!"

Hi Subclinical :)


Hi Tatoulia :)

You both have been doing FANTASTIC! with not acquiring any more than you need at the moment! :D

WAY TO GO!!! for keeping up with maintenance and not falling behind or going backwards! ;D

Yesterday there was a sprinkling of rain even though no rain had been predicted in the morning when I hung out a bunch of laundry.
Slowly but surely I've been getting Winter drapes & bedding & misc. etc. washed and stowed away until next Winter.
It still gets cold over night but not too bad any more.
Haven't tackled the cat's bedding yet, they like being overly warm, except in Summer when they constantly complain about being too hot as they lay in the sun. ;P

Good morning, everyone! SubC, I admire your work at the food bank! I bet the fresh eggs you brought will be greatly appreciated by the recipients.

A few weeks ago I was getting things ready to make Easter baskets and when I bought ribbon there were a number of cute designs to choose from and I only bought one. I stood there and thought of everyone's hard work here, and thought of the lessons I've learned (and am still learning) and I made a choice instead of buying two or three.

Need to finish getting ready for work. Have a great day, everyone!

Tatoulia, yay for pjs!

Tillie, I am sorry about your antenna and your yard. I watch "tv" on my iPad.

Today I stopped at goodwill but didn't buy anything. I was looking for ideas for my box project for class - interesting shapes and textures, but I didn't find any of those either.

I did buy some Easter candy at the grocery store. I brought home six breads from the food bank - one for me and 5 for me if I eat them or the chickens if they get stale. I took eggs to the food bank.

I cleaned bathroom sink, vanity & toilet. I'm making this into a routine. I now notice each week that I should do a quick bathroom cleanup. This makes me happier. I will work in a few more things but I am so cold and my poor hands are so cold. I cannot get them warmed up at all.

What a shame about the antenna Tillie. I don't have cable and rely on an antenna, but mine is an indoor one that isn't very good. I'm sorry you are so worn out. What a terrible thing to see more stuff coming into your yard.

All laundry done, folded, put away. I have added more things to my donation pile. I've been to pharmacy to get my rx. Dishwasher unloaded. Can take trash out starting st 5:00. I'm enjoying a cup of soup. Enjoy is a big word. It's low sodium lentil. It's okay but nothing you'd ever crave. It's very low calorie and is very filling so ultimately it's a good choice. I'm not a fan of salt and this still probably has way more than I need.

Good Morning :)
"Clink!"

Wonderful to read all the posts!
WAY TO GO! ;D

Moving slow this morning.
Feeling all worn out from the weekend.
Steven brought home a large truck load of "new treasures" this weekend.
He spent a LOT of money on some of the stuff too.
Watching him just wears me out.

The garage here is large, tall and barn like with a peaked roof.
My TV antenna was mounted up atop this high roof.
The winds were blowing hard and now the TV antenna is missing.
I think it landed on top of the carport roof?
Funny thing is that I still get all the channels except channel 5 PBS.
Of course that is the only channel I would ever regularly watch. ;P

That is priceless, SubC!

We are having snow today. It's very pretty.

I did most of my laundry Saturday. However when cleaning out my drawers I found a bunch of pjs that I can probably wear now that I've lost weight. I'm running the laundry now and will try them on & make decisions once they are laundered.

I am grateful to be working from home today. I will report back later.

I have a student who was born on April fool's day. She was two months early. Her aunt was visiting and called her dad at work "the baby is coming! Meet us at the hospital!"

Her dad said "ok." Hung up and went back to working.

An hour later the aunt called again "where the h*// are you?!" And he said "you were serious?"

SubC that is very funny about the kids putting the teacher's pictures in historical settings. That is very funny and quite clever. It's the other things I don't like, prank phone calls, pretending to be pregnant, the type of stuff that plays with someone's emotions. Tickling funny bones is always appreciated!

I worked on getting rid of more clothes today. I have a bag for a woman who wants my casual things. I also have a bag of donation clothes. This all started because I was looking for something that I still haven't found. I also shredded papers and have the dishes ready to go.

Easter dinner was very, very good. We all had a nice time and everyone liked their Easter baskets.

I am now home/going to wild off kitchen counter then get ready to relax. Already out of my dress and in the pjs. Dear little cat sleeping next to me. We are supposed to get some snow so I'll close my window--reluctantly.

Goodnight everyone. Oh! Anony! I forgot to tell you how pleased I am that you've been going to that class!

I don't know how Anony makes all those hearts or I would fill a page. That was so wonderful to read!

Porter, that is sooo beautiful and i am sooo glad! I have always loved all of your ideas, plans & perspectives on everything, but imagining myself in Marcia's position was kinda unsettling, but at the same time, i have wanted a savior boyfriend to help me for years! It sounds like, even tho it was a bit extreme, that it will be a wonderful shift & opportunity for her, and you!!! Congratulations on your bold efforts & all the best to you both!!! ~♡~
Im at the motel & it took me an hour to figure out what time & channel this movie is on, even with the desk lady helping me. This TV has 10,000 channels!!!
~♡~Love to all of you & Jesus's Spirit on this day!~♡~♡~♡~♡~♡~♡~♡~♡~♡~♡~

I took no offense. In fact im very open to youre opinions negative or positive.

I mean of wasnt for this peer group . I would not have persevered and hold my high onow I did everything I could instead of being bitter .

I met her at church she was with her sister.
we sat next to eachother holding hands.
after services we went to dinner with her family.

everything was very polite. Her sister cornered me in thw lobby and thanked me for the clear out. She started to pour her heart out qnd I just grabbed her hands qnd started praying thanking the lord for so many blessings.

marcie saw us praying and she came and leaned on me.
Marcies family heard about it and wanted to come see.
we met up at her place. Her mom and dad, an aunt 2 sisters and nephews. I brought plastic eggs and hid them . But non of the kids were young. So I felt a bit akward. But marcie called some friends her niegh ors and they hunted the eggs.
The was alot pies qnd desserts.
I overheard marcie talking as I came in the back door I heard her say she loved me for the first time. Even though I dont think she meant me to hear it. I stepped out from the back of hall and my eye teared up. I couldnt help it.
I said nothing qnd started hugging again.
I waw thanked by everyone like I had their damsel in distress.

Everyone left. We just snuggled on the couch .
I asked of the fire place worked she said not in years. But yes.
I cleaned it out and gathered wood for about 20minutes .
and started a warm fire . The rest is private.
I left with her asking me not to go.
I cleared out my own house and stopped by my moms. To check on her. Got a change of clothes . I asked if I cohld come back. So thats where im going.
So far so good. Its all so Intoxicating.

Porter, that sounds better. I also hope you weren't upset by Anony, or by me. We just would have very different reactions to what you did. But Corey goes in and cleans out people's houses in two days, and he doesn't even use a storage unit. And a lot of them aren't excited about the idea at the beginning, and a lot of them get better. So, maybe you are just what she needs. Just remember, she is going to need a lot of support and aftercare. I hope you are perfect for each other.

Happy all the everything! I did not observe anything because i stayed home with dh and made cheese and ice cream, and he doesn't like holidays.

Since the kids didn't come this year, I also didn't get the Easter decorations out, so they have not been sorted. I did find some lovely colored eggs in the chicken coop. ;)

I do like pranks if they are fun and not mean. Some of my students pranked the history teacher by printing out many copies of his face and inserting them into all of the historical pictures in his room. So now he is crossing the Delaware, etc. I love that!

....i re-read my.post & i hope its not offensive...♡...if it is, i am sorry~♡~

....i re-read my.post & i hope its not offensive...♡...if it is, i am sorry~♡~

~♡~Happy Pagan New Year!~♡~(April Fools Day)~♡~Happy Easter!~♡~Coffee clinks!~♡~
Tatoulia, i feel the same way about 'pranks.' Ive never heard anyone else say that. Im horrified what people do that is considered 'funny'. The origin of the day is the early Christians called Pagans fools for celebrating their New Year.
Porter, i really hope all this works out ok, but i must say, i would be livid if a new guy tried doing that to me. Im really glad she does at least have the keys, etc., to her things. ~♡~
Yesterday at the plastering part of the workshop, the people learning are trying to organize helping each other & doing trades for needed types of earth(clay, sand, topsoil, etc.). All that would be great if i had a decent, presentable place....(sigh)
~♡~Love & Light To All!~♡~
~☆♡☆~

~♡~Happy Pagan New Year!~♡~(April Fools Day)~♡~Happy Easter!~♡~Coffee clinks!~♡~
Tatoulia, i feel the same way about 'pranks.' Ive never heard anyone else say that. Im horrified what people do that is considered 'funny'. The origin of the day is the early Christians called Pagans fools for celebrating their New Year.
Porter, i really hope all this works out ok, but i must say, i would be livid if a new guy tried doing that to me. Im really glad she does at least have the keys, etc., to her things. ~♡~
Yesterday at the plastering part of the workshop, the people learning are trying to organize helping each other & doing trades for needed types of earth(clay, sand, topsoil, etc.). All that would be great if i had a decent, presentable place....(sigh)
~♡~Love & Light To All!~♡~
~☆♡☆~

Good morning! Happy Easter, Happy Passover--I do not observe April Fool's Day as I do not like pranks at all. I find them very upsetting. But for those who enjoy pranks--I wish you a fun-filled day!

Laundry done last night--everyone is out of town. I made mom's Easter basket as well as one for a shut-in. Ive finished BF's and I just have to assemble my brother's. I sent a meal to a woman who has no resources and I have already heard from her, so that is good.

We are going out to eat later on. BF will take mom, my brother and me. BF's family is the overseas so it is just us.

I'm going to work on living room now, specifically the area that collects stuff.

Kitties love the special foods, Tillie.

Good Morning Everybody :)
"Clink!"

Hi Tatoulia :)
So glad you had a good visit with family! :D
Still a little too chilly here at night to have the window open, but soon we'll get to enjoy that night air too. :)
WTG! for one lamp less!!!

Hi Subclinical :)
WAY TO GO! for getting outside!
No store brand of ice cream can ever taste as good as home made ice cream does. ;D
Yes, those long, dark, cold, dreary days of February do make us despair.
(((HUGS)))

Hi Porter :)
Hope everything works out alright for you and her both.

6:30am now, I've been up since 4:00am.
Was just laying there awake & unable to fall asleep so I got up.
April 1st. already!
After Steven gets up I will do some laundry.
Then I need to figure out what else I will do today.
But first I will give the cats all some canned food just because I am nice. ;P

The total overall cost was $ 3,264.73
If she walks away from me today, I'll not reget it.

Thanks
Yes I paid it in full for 1 year.
I gave her the keys , and it's in her name, my name isn't on it.
I also gave her the receipts to the new furniture. She can exchange it , return it ,or do what she wants with it . It is all a gift with no expectations or strings.
Frankly her old sofa is so old and dead mice in it . If she decide to bring that old sofa back , I'll know I can't be at her home. I didn't choose the furniture either . Sectional is imitation leather so that it can be easily washed.

I could see she relaxed when I explained how the storage works. It's less than three blocks from her house . Close enough to walk which is a lucky blessing. She can view everything the totes on her phone or on her tv.
My phone has speech recognition so I was able to manifest her entire hoard I to the totes 1 tote at time with nothing overlaping. She could see that nothing was Missing , just removed from the living space. I did promise I was not going to another ssssingle thing unless she asks me to do it. .

Before I left , I showed the pictures of my house with the hoarding even the ones where my was sleeping in bed with decomposed rats. . and scanned through some of the texts sherry sending me venting hate mail for moving insignificant items. I reassured her that what happens from here on is all in her control. But I cannot tolerate hoarding and neglect in the remainder my life.

I didn't come on to her romantically yesterday, yesterday was yesterday. Today I'm just eager to be near her. I know that sometimes when falling in the love the emotion can be so strong that you do things you normally do because you may become afraid of losing those feelings.
For me it's so strong I feel like drank a million energy drinks.
Yesterday was huge risk for me and her both. How we work together from here will determine a lot of things. My opinion is that we wouldn't have been able to do it together. I was harsh, but decisive, not leaving room for there to be on going issues.
I know how I feel about her, and she's indicated she has similar feelings for me, I made the decision to eliminate the hoarding issue from the get go. Because I know it would not be a match if we become hoarders together.
I made a swift move , now I'll to see if she accepts my roll in our relationship as defending against hoarding.

It's up to her now .

Porter, I hope for you both.

But I don't know. You would have lost me. It sounds like you didn't really listen to her, you forced her. And that isn't a good basis for a relationship. But maybe you really convinced her and she just trusts you, i can't tell from here.

I do know that all of her stuff is now in a storage area and she has new stuff she didn't choose.

I hope that you understand and communicate that she has the right to return the new stuff if it isn't what she wants.

Also, the storage unit needs to be in her name, and you need to give her enough money to pay to have all the stuff moved back professionally. Because right now you have her stuff hostage. If things don't work out between you, how does she get it back?

Now with hoarding out, I can take the rest as it comes slow or not slow.

I just back home.
I was at Marcies all day.
She made the same statements , that I'm taking over and it too much too soon.
I was ready for what I was going to say.

In my heart I know I love this woman in way that's not just a mere spark of passion , but like someone I would die for iif it was nessasary . I see her. She fills my senses in a way that no one else does.

I took a deep breath and started to speak , and my eyes teared up.

I said .
I know I already love you, but I will pull away if you continue your life as a hoarder.
I'm with you all the way on this !
I'm asking for just the one day to let me into your life.
I won't throw anything away, not one thing! I just want to reorganize it . I want to know that you trust me!

She didn't say anything for about ten seconds .
I started speaking again.
I said.
Think of me like the trading spaces guy Ty Pennington . Allow me to give your space a make over , for just this one day.

Marcie said ok.
I asked if she could spend the day at her sisters , because I would be like moth to her.and I can make a difference if I'm not distracted.
She agreed. I could hear in her voice she was crying too.

I sent out a call for help on my family only Facebook .
Only men showed up. I pleaded fir strong guys hungry fir beer and chilli.

We removed everything lime a moving company .
Gave my brother my credit card , and sent him to pick up a new bed , couch and dinning table .
I sent his wife with him to shop for lamps and antiques .
About five o'clock I talked to Marcie again
She asked to come see, but I said come at 11oclock.
With pizza. She agreed.
I left the kitchen and bathrooms the way they are.
The rest of the house is clear of every last thing,
Everythings in storage in easy access totes , all photographed in labeled order. And the storage bin is large with enough Space to sort out everything.

I called at ten o'clock and said " its done " Im ready for you.

She came promptly at 11pm with pizza.
She was stunned , not happy. But not mad.
Lisa my sister in law knocked on the door. With some more antiques from her house . It was a good exchange between them.
After Lisa left , we just hugged alot as she walked from room to room . At 1am I left as I know Ive went farther than she expected. I know she needs time to process it.

My experience with my sherry my deceasesed wife showed me that trauma of having someone come into your Soave and remove everything was very unsettling , but with sherry it took more than a month. And we lived through that trama day after day.
With Marcie I decided I was not going to go this a third time.
It's all done except retrieving the sentimental items and throwing out 70% of what's in that storage.

I'm very tired , my hope s that tomorrow when we meet at church that we just hold hands , and that she trusts me.
Friends
I honestly think I couldn't put her out of my life.
But I just can't go through another relationship like i had with sherry.
I'm 49 , I know what it's like to live a life just tolerating the hoarding . I couldn't respect Marcie in the long run , if she wouldn't let me do what's in my heart.

What matters now is how she feels about it.

SubC, I will be there for you, dear heart.

So glad things are going well for everyone.

Anony, I am super glad that you will get at least part of your workshop.

Tatoulia, happy news about your family. And good job purging the lamp!

Tillie, I love reading about your spring garden.

I think it is finally spring here. I got outside for almost six hours and started clearing weeds and working on reclaiming my garden from the ravages of neglect. It started raining so I had to come in, but the fire is going and the dishwasher and washing machine are running. I am eating, and then I will cook some ice cream to go in the ice cream maker tomorrow.

I am solar powered. I know that, but I somehow forget it when it is dark and cold and I am depressed and exhausted. Or, I remember it, but I forget what it really means. Will you remind me? When I come here in February and I say I have accomplished nothing and I am tired and discouraged? Somebody tell me it's ok, and this is just the downtime when I am resting because soon It will be spring, and then summer, and I will be up late at night folding laundry because I have had so much sun I can't sleep, but worked so hard I can barely move.

Anony congratulations on the new truck! SubC I'm excited about your son's new home. Sounds like Spring has Sprung Tillie.

So much to catch up on--great to read so many posts! I know I've forgotten some of it already and I'm leaving people out--nit intentional!

My sister came into town today and it went well. I got together with brother early then went to mom's to see sister. I made her an easter basket and she had done the same for me! And mom! I was really touched. She also had once admired one of my lamps so I brought it to her. Goodbye, lamp!

I'm meeting BF for a chowder in a few minutes.

Thinking of you all and hoping to get some work done today.

Oh! Even though still cool here I slept with window open last night--just one. So cool and fresh.

Good Afternoon Everybody :)

Hi Anonymoniker :)
Hoping you are having a wonderful time at that workshop! :D

Been busy doing stuff all morning.
Tired out now, taking a break.
It's only 1:20pm right now, had lunch.
Another beautiful day today but with a bit more cloud cover & breezier than yesterday.
Got two loads of laundry done.
Been switching out Winter stuff for Spring/Summer stuff slowly but surely.
Still have to find the magical time when there aren't any cats in the cat beds so I can wash those things.
Took the winterizing plastic off the dining room window. So nice now to be able to open that window again.
The tiny Grape Hyacinth is blooming. ;)

~♡~Coffee clinks & love to all!~♡~
Tillie, YEA, for going barefoot!!!
SubC, YEA, for stuff going to your son's new house!
Porter, WOW!!! Congrats on new love, but Please, SLOW DOWN?! Part of me fantasizes about meeting a guy that will save me, but id freak if he took over! I would!! Even as helpful as you are being, please dont push ! Remember it is her issue, be very gentle. Ok? :D ~♡~
I realized yesterday my new truck is clean & simple & i dont want to trash it out like my car. Also, i think part of why i didnt want a full sized truck is cuz i think i associate that with hoarding, cuz in my serial shopping days, id come home with a packed full truck & get home & want to vomit, like a bulimic!
Im going to the rescheduled part of the earthbag workshop today, which then ill at least get to see the structure, especially the window arches, before we plaster over the earthbags! And i wont get stuck in the sand driving to her place, like i did last time in my car!
~☆~Happy Day to you all!~☆~

Good Afternoon Peoples :D
Weak lemonade "Clink!"

Hi Tatoulia :)
WTG! for being on time all week!
Such a busy girl you are. ;)

Hi Anonymoniker :)
YOU GOT A "NEW" TRUCK!!!!! WOOHOO!!!
Have a wonderful time on your mini vacation, enjoy every minute of it. :D

Hi CriticalMass :)
We all have our fingers crossed that very soon you will have a new or improved vehicle too. (((HUGS)))

Hi Porter :)
So wonderful that you found someone special.
Take your time, she needs time to adjust to any new changes you are making.
Slow, slow, slow, little by little.
Moving too fast is painful for her.
I think this could really work out for the both of you. (((HUGS)))

Hi Subclinical :)
WONDERFUL that your Son bought a house!
Yes! pack that car full of stuff for him! ;D

Had a great day today.
Two loads of laundry got done.
Then I straightened & organized the pump house where I keep yard/garden stuff stored.
Got out the 3 hoses and have them unrolled, stretched out straight in the sunshine to get the curl out of them.
Unwrapped the outdoor faucet since it won't get down too cold again.
Could smell the hyacinth as I worked out there.
Now I need to try to get Steven to attach the hose to the faucet for me because I do not have enough strength in my hands to get it on tight.
Sprinkled around some plant food pellets for some flowering type plants.
Took inventory of just what I have on hand to use in the yard this Spring. Should be enough. :)
Also, I walked for the first time since last Autumn in the yard BAREFOOT!

Wow porter, that is amazing that you have found each other! I am really happy for you! I am happy for her, but two weeks is really fast!

Maybe slow down a little, spend more time at your house? Don't stop keeping it up?

Be careful to talk with her before involving your friends.

You want this to be sustainable for both of you.

Anony, great news on the truck! CM, you are next! I think you both have great Easter plans.

Yay for clean teeth and getting to work!

I was amazing at work this week. But I barely made it through today.

My son bought a house. He invited us to come visit in May - carload of stuff going west!

Hi everyone.
Guess what?
I found a girlfriend my age.
We really hit it off.

But when I went to her house , she's a hoarder. Ugh huh!

I offered to help and she was so embarrassed she didn't talk to me for 6 days days. I was sad not hearing from her. I just can't stop thinking about her .
So I just went over there and kept knocking on the door until she answered . I simply just asked her to keep going out with me.
We went to a waffle house. She's been ti my house many times and I explained that I've lived as hoarder for many years with my former wife. But now I maintain it on my own and I'm nearly obsessed with keeping it clear and organized.

I didn't push to go to her house again . For a week she just came to my house , last Sunday I told I wanted her to trust me coming into her house. . She agreed , when I got I to her room I nearly welled with tears. As I was flooded with memories of how my Wife lived in her unhealthy room.

I went straight into the the bathroom and started cleaning . Marcie kept asking me to stop , but when unlocked the door.
I smiled real big at her with the biggest fake smile I could keep straight and invited her to a bath with me. I gave her time to look at what I had done as removed the bags. I had lit some vanilla candles . It wasn't to bad , but it was my move . I think I love this woman . Not her hoarding !

Later when I at my house alone I began to comp template what's happening. I'm falling in love. I'm not accepting her as a hoarder.
I went back on this last Wednesday and cleared her kitchen , she was ok with me helping her , because the bathroom was such a good experience as I regained her living space without saying word. At least what it seems lime.

So I purchased a small storage very near her house , she let me in. I asked her to leave. I explained I was not going through out anything. Not one thing. But was going to take the entire kitchen to storage and sort it out there , meanwhile her and I can beautify her kitchen. I asked if she buy new kitchen towels drapes and matching accessories like art candles , place mats . While she was out I got my brothers van , got my huge rolling conai ers and just scooped out the entirety of all things in the kitchen. There was alot of disgusting things I gagged and wretched on. But I just kept going.

In two hours it was all in the van , I left for the storage, I got a call from her , she was weepy about clearing her kitchen.
I asked her if I could make dinner as she put out the decor.
I made steaks with yams and green peas . Blueberry dessert.

The room smelled like bleach, After dinner we were intamate in the shower again. We just keep hugging eachother alot.
Sorry if it's too much Info tmi.

Today I asked if I could bring back the kitchen appliances and pans , and help her with either her bedroom or living room. She agreed to let me try in bedroom, she got upset .
Very upset. So I left . Leaving a text message that I'm not giving up just taking a break.
I'm about to go back over , and start on her living room .
It's really not that bad in the living room. And I did manage to trash bag 99% of her trash. I think as long as I keep on reclaiming room by room . I will be done in 2weeks if she let's me. But Im ready to give her space at a moments notice.
Friends it's like dejavue . I know she feels hopeless about her hoarding, and i feel so empowered . I can take hours not weeks. So it's like a sudden change , but also lime ripping off a bandaid.

I think I'll approach it going forward that won't do anything after sundown. So that I can seperate the hoarding focus and relaxation time. And not spending everyday at her house .

I've talked to my brother about her hoarding. He said run Porter. But I assured him I'm so in love with her I just can't do that!
I've secretly set a group of people , that help my wife and I last year, and have suggested another chili party. I've got 6peope willing to help. And two more people with vans , that are willing to only load and unload any containers.

I'm hoping she agrees to this. Because it can be done in a day, and I can reorganize her things in the storage in just one more day, and start to bring things back 1 day per room.

By next week. Her whole will have been sorted and cleaned.

I know I seem obssed with reclaiming her living space.
But I really want to get back to what it was like at my house where there was no obvious hoarding in the living space .
I think , I can't get past her hoarding, I need to see she's willing to let me have control over the living space as far as clutter is concerenerd .
I know I love her, at least unable to think of anyone else,
But to be honest I can't live with active hoarding in the living space again.
I need to just go slow , but I just can't seem to pull back .

I mean there's people you go on a dates with and then there's someone you feel like wanting to be with all the time. Super attracted can't get enough with, same Intrests and music and social events. A match, in everything but be hoarding. I try to explain that I'm hoarder too, but I'm just organized right now, she says I'm not a hoarder.

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I'm now down 2 215lbs
My stamina at the gyms stronger than I can ever remember.
And I know what energy drinks to use on days when I'm not motivatied. So I'm either with Marcie or the gym.

I'm noticing I'm not at my house as much , not keeping it spotless, but think as soon as i stop my work at marcies I will return to keeping up on my house.I'm not concerned just aware.
I feel that way .

~♡~Love & coffee clinks to all!~♡~
CM, im so glad youre going to avoid blowing up & that the bunnies are becoming friends! :D
Tillie, that is great that your dental appointment went well & its over & that youre ok with the new dentist! How fun to have a new nightgown & sandals! :D
Tatoulia, all the best to you in your new leaf turning! :D
I found a truck yesterday & it is perfect for me & i love it!!! ~YEA!!!~ And my Mom donated towards it & my friend helped me sooo much more by just going with me & knowing all he knows! ....a funny thing was after we got back, since i let him in my house, he remembers my place being so interesting with my collages everywhere & when i was complaining about it, he told me how neat it really was back then....i really wasnt sure?!
I have a neat & unusual plan for Easter. Since i dont have TV, im gonna get a cheap motel room & watch Jesus Christ Superstar, while eating junk food from the truck stop! Im gonna also do a baking soda & epsoms salt soak in the bathtub while i have the chance! The original Jesus Christ Superstar movie made an enormous impact on me as a young teen & Alice Cooper is playing King Herod!!! Im so excited!!! ~☆♡☆~

Quick shout out! To everyone including you, Joan.

Have been at work T, W & Th and again tmr plus I've had something T & W nights. I came home tonight and fell asleep (after washing face and putting pjs on). That felt really good. I've been on time for work each day this week. I'm trying to turn over a new leaf.

I will talk to you all tmr.