I need to go to doctor and after reading your posts, I will make an appointment Monday to see PCP. Thanks for all the posts, gives me insight and clarity.

Hi Dianne,

I am the exact same way when it comes to going to the doctors also. I very rarely go to the doctors office. I hate going to the doctor. :(

I remember back when I first met my boyfriend after I had a seizure at work, and when we were in the back of the ambulance I asked him if he and his best friend Kevin, who is also a paramedic, could just take me home instead of taking me to the hospital; and after i asked him that he was like, "No we have to take you to the hospital." And after he said that I jokingly told him that I hated him. Lol.

At that time I thought that I would never see him again; but I was wrong.

Good morning :)

Nate called this morning & they will be dropping by today. :D

My To-Dos for today are...
Cook some foods and freeze them so I have easy ready to eat meals for this week.
Clean the kitchen.
Do cat related tasks.

Get all items needed for tomorrow lined up & ready.
Tomorrow I plan to wash down the outside walls and remove window screens & wash them and the windows.

Not really such a hard task.
The south and east sides of the house are all hoarded up and I can't clean there.
North and West sides each have 2 windows.
Then I will clean the 5 inside windows that I can get to.

Now I am off to cook, clean the kitchen and wait for my company. :D

WTG Dianne, I procrastinate on medical care for me and my dog. Happy you are hanging in and making progress. I too, love that last line in your post tillie, don't have a printer, but will write it down, thanks. sunny here too, spring has sprung this week. See you tomorrow in group.
Hugs

Dianne :D

(((HUGS)))

Good morning :)

Dianne WTG! on animal care! :D

Lovely day here. Sunshine, light breeze.

Today I need to...
Do cat stuff
Clean the kitchen
Run the vacuum
Sweep floor & porches

Taking it easy & resting up. Hoping to wash windows, screens and back porch this coming week.
Boy! Do they ever need it! :(

I'm waiting to see if he will do anything this weekend. Not holding my breath. ;)

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Remember, we can be stern, tough and strict with ourselves but never be cruel, mean or heartless.
(((hugs)))

Yes MayMay,
My sister is still working at the place that I was let go from.
I did find out from another cleaning company that I applied at that BP had asked him for a quote which means that BP isn't happy with Aztec. Yippee!!

I have been watching the news literally ALL DAY today.

I started watching CNN at 10:00 in the morning and I am still watching it right now.

They have been showing the search for the suspect in the Boston bombings all day today.

They finally caught him a little over 10 minutes ago. :)

He was hiding in a boat.

Hi Lynn,

Sorry to hear that you got fired from your last job. :(

Is your sister still working at the place that you got fired from?

Tillie
I did go to the place for a job but it turned out to be a place for networking.

I did get some advise on my resume though even though she said it was a good resume.
I asked if it would be a good idea to go to any place and ask to volunteer to clean and the one person said yes.
I decided to go to the animal hospital and apply there. I also want to go to the animal shelter to see if I can volunteer there too. I might as well do some time cleaning if I can rather than do nothing being bored out of my skull looking for jobs online that are not hiring.

As long as employers see that volunteer time counts, I'm all for it. I'm trying to look for places that people might not consider to work.
I love cats and dogs and am a great animal lover.
I'm sure that the animal shelter would take volunteers without a doubt. I'll check with them on Mon or Tues. Still waiting and hoping for a call for the other place I applied for though.

Everyone I've talked to said that it's not right that I was let go because I referred my sister to work at the place that I got let go from.
Also with the reasons that I told them. (the truth). The more I ask others about their work places the more I see that at the Refinery something is wrong.

For anybody that is working, is it always ok to refer someone that is a good candidate and you don't get fired? If you report something is broken or a safety hazard how soon does it get fixed or repaired?

Lynn,
Did you get to go to the job fair? :)

I'm feeling better today but still a bit weak.

Spent all yesterday laying down.

Not doing much today...
Cat related tasks
Take a shower.
Eat some toast.

Everybody have some fun today. Even if that is just singing out loud or dancing with the cat or telling yourself a good joke. :D

Hello gals, hope your day improved. I had a good day and enjoyed reading all your posts, stuff happens to all of us. Sorry you are sick Tillie, good you got to be with your plants today, always makes me feel better.

Hello everyone,

Today we are in the flood watch. Bad weather in Northwest Indiana and a lot of roads closed due to flooding. Bad news for me in hopes I can get to the job fair to go job hunting. :(

I just hope the event can take place or I have to wait until next month on the 3rd Thurs for the event again.

Hope everyone else is in a better condition than me.
More mold will be in the basement due to a little flooding from the basement walls.
I have a severe mold allergy and the basement does't help. I'm so grateful I have a gas mask for mold to help me breathe without getting toxic mold to my health as I can help it.

Good day to all.

Good morning :)

I fed the cats their breakfast.
Have a load of laundry washing.

Need to water my trees and bushes.
Clean the kitchen.

But was up most all last night ill and if I even get dressed today I will consider the world lucky.
Might brush my hair.

Should fold up my bed. I sleep on the sofa hide-a-bed in the livingroom area.

Just going to lay here though and will probably sleep.

Have a good day everyone. :)

Dianne,

Take your time with the cleaning.

No one is ever in a rush/race to get done first...
Just take your time with a little time per day and it will get done. :)

The greatest accomplishment is getting any cleaning done and overcoming mental obsstacles.
I'm so glad to hear those wonderful accomplishments. It just takes a little at a time. :)

Hi Dianne :)

We can only do just so much in a day.
Consider it a great success when we get the number one priority things accomplished. The other stuff will just have to keep till we have the time and energy to get to them.

Thanks Dianne,
Don't get discouraged,
please keep up the good work.

I know you can do this. :)

Some newbies may also see this so please keep up the good work :)
Stay positive!

Thanks MayMay,
I made her promise to not do something so stupid again. So far I have to check her arm and see but I think that she learned her lesson but I still sense some doubt in honesty. She has a long way to earn our trust again.
I'll check out that site but am afraid to since I've seen some clean up site links on this website of what Cory does. I can only hope that I've gotten through to her emotionally of how much she means to me.

It's thundering now, wow the thunder does not scare, only lightning.

Hi Lynn,

I'm glad your sister was finally able to get home safely. :)

I hope your sister will be able to stop cutting herself.

I have suffered from depression and anxiety since I was 19 years old; because of it I also have a lot of suicidal ideations and I used to cut myself a lot. I stopped cutting myself a little over a year and a half ago after I discovered a new less painful way of dealing with my suicidal ideations; which is to look at pictures of suicide scenes. I discovered this new way of dealing with my suicidal ideations after I visited www.crimecleaners.com and saw some pictures of suicide scenes that Cory cleaned up. The pictures scared me out of wanting to kill myself.

Today I'm writing about what had happened on Fri night to Sat morning with my sister.

Before my sister had clocked out at work she called me and said that she was going to a former co-worker's house with a co-worker from work then come home. Then she called me a little later after she was on the road and I convinced her not to go with her friend and that it's not so trusting that late at night (around 11:30p/12:00a)around our neighborhoods. She then called me and said with her co-worker in the car (my mother's car) that she was going out for pizza. That was a lie. She then had her phone on silent so that she couldn't hear the phone. After I told mother she too had gotten worried that I couldn't reach my sister. My mother had then gone out to the pizza place which at the time we didn't know was closed for the night and my mom had called the police to fill out a missing persons report and sadly came home this happened around 1:30a. I had tried numerous times to reach my sister but still no answer. I was then buzzed on total adrelanine and feeling like a knife was in my stomach. I had called everybody on my former employee card with all numbers to try and reach somebody at Aztec but had known that everyone had left for the night. Then I had called BP Security which is the emergency number and he said that she had clocked out at 11:30p and had left the area and they could not do anything. I was trying to find out who my sister let in the car with her.
Finally after 3:30a or so my sister came in the door. We had asked her trageically where she had been and why did she lie to us.
She said that 4 people were with her at a bar and that she wanted to leave but her friend didn't and that she knew that she should've called. She said that she did hear the voices in her head but she didn't listen to them (the instincitive red flags). That night because of the pain that my sister was feeling she decided to start cutting herself with sissors on her arm length wise.

She is bipolar and suffers from depression and anxiety and is on medications for that.
We still believe that she probably is still willing to give her co-worker a ride in the car which she isn't supposed to, hence it's my mother's car. I personally own my own car, she doesn't. I only let people that I trust in my car and no one else.

She has to learn how to really listen to those voices in her head that say HALT, STOP, THIS IS NOT RIGHT,DANGER!! those ('red flag instincits'). I listen to those when they come up and never look back. I wonder how can she ignore those voices that cloud any thought in your head and you can't do anything else but get away.

I have never been on such a adreline rush for that many hours. That is why it took me so long to recover from the aftermath.

Of course when she came home my mom had to tell the police to cancel the car search in the couple of neighborhoods that were suspicious of where she could have been.

We are 34 but she still has to be responsibe for her actions and it isn't worth lying for.
I would like to get ebooks if they are availalble not just for hoarding but also to help those who are bipolar. I don't want to get a book that will take up space, I'd honestly prefer an ebook that way I can store it and read it anytime I can get on a computer.

OMG! Right now it's HAILING at my house!

The last time it hailed at my house was in back in the spring of 2011.

I doubt that anybody slept well last night. :(

Right after I saw the news I walked over to my neighbor's house.
Times like that it really is best not to be alone.

Another snow day here.

This is a good day to be especially kind to ourselves.
Reflect, meditate and heal our spirits.

(((HUGS))) :)

Well Tillie, good to hear you are feeling more positive today.
I spent all day with a friend going to all the adult foster homes in my area looking for a good place to move her aunt. We had a good day, just a long day, didn't get much done today other than that. Since focusing on friends instead of stuff, I did make progress today, very helpful to her. then I hear about the Boston Marathon bombs, and feel very sad. At one foster home I saw a nurse I know casually, she is my age and has always been really outgoing and robust, now with a brain tumor, she is skinny, and frail, didn't recognize her until introduced. Made me realize how short life can be and we really should enjoy each day, really shook me to the core seeing her dramatic decline in health. I am tired and emotional so will take a break and baby myself tonight, remind myself how well I did today, be kind to myself.

Well so much for getting out in the sunshine today.
Been snowing off & on all day!
LOL :D

Good morning :)

The wind has finally quit blowing and then it sprinkled and washed some of that dust out of the air.
I am feeling much better and more positive today.

Have lots of dust to clean up in here. Then we will all be able to breathe a lot better.

I will get to go out and enjoy my blooming lilac hedge today! :D

My To-Dos...
Cat stuff
Vacuum, vacuum, vacuum
Sweep sand dunes off porches
Get outside in the fresh air & sunshine

TTYL :D

Dianne thanks for sharing your life challenges with us on message board, sounds like you are being overwhelmed with responsibilities and a bit critical of yourself, take good care of yourself.
Yes Tillie, I had a great time at the Craft faire, met a friend there and we were both inspired to start creating again. Then to Costco, bought more than I should have since I haven't been in over a month, got home and thought, "you really messed up" then said, lets make this a challenge to find a home for all items, it took some rearranging, but mission accoplished, didn't want to mess ;up my clean kitchen with excess, so now all tucked away. I did buy a few craft items after being inspired at craft faire, didn't really need items, so was struggling "failure" thoughts" then I said lets just put these items with similar items, they will fit in their new home. Don't relish the idea of shopping again any time soon, it is truly my drug of choice.
Started on pile of clothes and crafts at end of living room,---finally----made progress, not finished, just took a break. It is definitely not as bad as I thought while procrastinating. This week is free debris pick up in my city so my focus this week will be to maintain progress I have made and look for items for debris pickup in yard and garage. It can be as much as would fit in a pickup bed, so should be able to find lots of stuff to unload. See you at 5, hugs

Mary-Ohio :)
Sorry that you have to take that not working advil. :(

Buying nothing is a success. WTG! :D

This morning JAVA popped up to tell me there is a new update to install and I have installed it.
Went to the chatroom site and it appears to be working fine. We'll see how it does when I am not all alone in there. ;)


Dianne,
(((HUGS)))
Let go of the guilt and be gentle with yourself.

Please allow the repairman in to fix that air conditioner.
Without it it will soon be too hot to do anything inside.
Do not worry about what some stranger thinks.
We know how hard you are working to get things straight and we know how very difficult this is when doing it all on your own.

Yes, chat does move very quickly. By the time it's over I am exhausted just from trying to keep up.
We all honestly do not mind when someone is a slow typer. But we do tend to chat a bit while waiting for the posts.

I really like this messageboard.
Here we can take our time and share our emotions too.
Sharing like this helps. We are not alone.

(((HUGS)))

Physically doing ok. New regulations in our state mandate drug testing for drug levels. Insurance won't pay the $600 and doctor won't prescribe without them. So been taking Advil not working as we'll.
haven't been shopping so thought I would browse. Went to three of my favorite stores and boughtNOTHING. Success or depression.
Hubby leaving for out of country for a month. Hoped to declutter while he was gone. Life getting in the way. Went house hunting with son and DIL and saw nice staged homes and a very clen but clutterd. That started to motivate but right now depression sinking my mind. Not acting on other thoughts at all but really debated purpose for holding on to things and life. Hope Java works tonight. Helping to support others helps me.

Diane,
Hope to hear that you had a wonderful time yesterday. :D

Hello everybody,

I must shake this terrible depression.
He has not done any decluttering AND he brought home MORE stuff yesterday.

I can't do the things I was planning to do around here because his stuff is in the way.

Anyways...
Today I will give the cats food & fresh water.
Scrub, scour, sanitize & refill the litter boxes.

Cook food.
I have this idea and ingredients all ready & now just need to assemble the dish & bake it.

Washed all his clothes in his hamper last night. They are still out on the clothes line.

The grocery store was completely out of many of the food items that are a staple of my diet. Like almond milk. We only have one grocery store now in the small town that I live near.
Oh well :(

The wind was blowing about 30mph yesterday so the house is totally covered with thick dust.
I will wait to see if it will be windy again today before I bother to undust this place.

This is Sunday so remember the ONLINE SUPPORT GROUP is tonight at 5:00pm PST.

OK everybody lets get some "happy" today. :D

MayMay
Quit making excuses and clean your closet!

Today I told my boyfriend about how my boss told me that if I don't have my closet and room clean by the time I leave for Hawaii then him and a bunch of his firefighter buddies are going to come in and clean it while I'm gone, and my boyfriend totally agreed with my boss.

Even though after he told me that he agrees with my boss, he also said that he kind of hopes that I won't have my closet and room clean before I leave for Hawaii; because he thinks that if I don't clean my closet and room and the firefighters do, then my closet and room will finally really get cleaned.

Dianne, hope you enjoy putting things back in order today, so great you are able to take the time today to put your progress back on track. You have made so much progress, and have to deal with other things during the week, just don't want you to feel discouraged, you really are doing great.
Tillie, so happy lilacs are blooming, mine have buds but have had temps in mid 20's at night so not sure if they will bloom, I am hopeful. I can visualize your your hubby out there moving his junk and you cleaning deck, hope you don't wear yourself out.
I am in slow motion today after my 3 week marathon of cleaning. Going to Spring art fair, supposed to rain this afternoon, so need to go soon to avoid bad weather, wind is picking up.
Yesterday finally took paint in to recycle, went to bank, took stuff to thrift store and went to a class on communication, and bought some groceries.
Tomorrow at 5 is what I am looking forward to as well as reading this board daily.

Good morning :)

Yesterday afternoon my lilac bushes started to bloom! :D

My To-Dos for today...
feed & water cats
scoop litter boxes

Try to motivate my hoarder to move his stuff away from the back porch.

That porch needs a good scrubbing after the winter and I want to hose it down.
All his stuff will get wet.
Hope the fear of it getting all wet motivates him to move it, preferably to a thrift shop or the dump.

Planning to wash windows and screens this coming week and want to tackle that porch then to.
Unless we are still getting snow and rain. ;P

It's Saturday! YEAH! :D

Hi Dianne :)

That happens to all of us.
Outside forces taking up all our time and our home maintenance being neglected.

Clean when you can and remember that even doing just 5, 10 or 15 minutes of maintenance here & there will help.

Decluttering is very hard work and takes all our physical & mental energy.
That is why it is important to schedule in days or times for catching up on maintenance.

We also need to be kind to ourselves, we can't all be perfect like the people in the magazines and those mothers in situation comedies from the 1950s. :)

Sounds like everybody had a busy day. :D

MayMay,
They will keep what they want and toss what they don't like. You may not like the results. ;)
Clean your closet! Pretend you are helping out a hoarder clean her closet.

Diane,
My house gets dirty very quickly. The "man" is a very dirty messy person who does not tidy up after himself at all and can trash a room in minutes.
Plus my house is very small.
The main room consists of the kitchen, living room and dining room.
This room measures 33 feet by 16 feet.
When any one area is messy the whole place looks messy.
Also, I live in the desert where the wind blows a lot and our road is dirt. So dust and sand are constantly getting in here and that makes the place very dirty.
Then there are the cats. They shed and vomit and their toys get scattered all around.
I grow cat mint (cat nip) and they beg for fresh sprigs of leaves and that gets scattered all over the floor and beds.
When I have any of my items out like my sewing box or papers or whatever, I have to put them away when I'm finished because anything left out looks like clutter.
When I am unable to do my daily maintenance this place goes to heck very quickly. :D

Dianne,
Sleep well. :)

I just got home from work and am really really tired. So I think I am just going to go to bed now. :)

Tomorrow I am supposed to start cleaning my level 3 hoarded walk-in closet; but now I'm kind of thinking about not cleaning it. Because today my boss told me that if I don't have my closet and bedroom clean by the time that I am supposed to leave for Hawaii, then him and a bunch of his firefighter buddies are going to come in and clean it while I'm in Hawaii. And I'm not going to lie; the thought of a bunch of firefighters cleaning my bedroom and closet while I'm gone is kind of sexy. Lol. :)

diane,
It sounds like you got your decluttering muscles nice and strong...
It gets easier as time goes on. :) Great job!
Keep up the good work :)


I can't wait until next week or so to get a call for an interview. I hope all goes well.

Maymay one of my least favorite things is washing dogs, good for you to take on washing 2 dogs. What else do you have planned for the day?

hello everyone. Tillie when you do your tasks regularly, is it really a mess today or just a few things out of order. You took needed days off, hopefully you won't work too hard today.
Today I did 3 loads of laundry including rugs. Cleaned the floor in front of washer and dryer before putting rug back. Did dishes, felted sweaters that have been sitting there for over a month. Cleaned dog food out of recliner that the mice hid there, it has months since I discovered but thought it was too disgusting to deal with. When I cleaned it out today, I laughed, it is like a declutterer has taken over my body since being on this website. I am grateful every for what you are teaching me. Thank you to each of you. Hugs