Good morning Decided to take the day off from life. Not going to do anything today. Maybe tomorrow. ?
TTYL :)
Karl
Posted: 03 October 2013 - 02:34 AM
Hi Tillie,
I can sympathize with your hoarder, too. The book "Stuff" used the term "anxiety avoidance", which must not be an official psych term since it seems to have no Web presence. On the plus side, if you can steer one of us into a new pattern that has better results, then we're more likely to stay in the new "rut" than revert to the old one.
Btw, try to avoid backing him into a corner -- always leave a way for him to do a graceful retreat that will preserve his ego. Otherwise he might feel that he has no choice but to fight you.
Karl
Posted: 03 October 2013 - 02:33 AM
Hi Dianne, Karl, those are good, logical thoughts untainted by fear or panic. I admire you so much! Thanks -- I guess listing my options comes easy to me, just not acting on them.
What do you mean by *voluntarily homeless*? Staying with friends til you get settled in a new place? What would you do with your possessions? It might be possible for me to rotate through several different friends or relatives, staying with each for just a few days to avoid wearing out my welcome. I could keep my possessions in a storage unit for a fraction of what I'm spending on rent.
Have you spoken to the landlords about any change of mind? Not yet, but when I think about it, it seems to me that they'd probably want me to stay, if I finish decluttering and then maintain it adequately. But maybe that's wishful thinking -- I don't know.
diane
Posted: 02 October 2013 - 09:07 PM
another mostly cloudy day, enough already did the dishes, cleaned off all the crap off the dryer started sorting clothes next to bed, did pretty well did 2 loads of laundry then made a list of neglected tasks, like change oil in car, get tire with nail fixed, have to fill it with air every other day long line at oil place so went on to tire place, 1 hour wait, then decided to skip both for today went grocery shopping, looked for parts I need to fix dripping faucet, apparently have to take it apart to find correct size to buy. My knee still hurts like heck, painful to walk, from tripping on plantar and falling on large rocks Tried to make appt. with dermatologist to have growth cut off leg, no appt until the 29th so will call a different place tomorrow. Made 3 business calls to confirm things. Went through paperwork for clinics. Feel like I didn't get anything accomplished, thus, I wrote everything I did today so maybe I would be happy with what I did get done today, and quit criticizing myself for not getting car done. I think the clouds and rain are getting to me. Hopefully sun tomorrow. Dianne I can relate to all that you said.
Tillie
Posted: 02 October 2013 - 08:27 PM
;)
Dianne
Posted: 02 October 2013 - 02:33 PM
Tillie, it scares me to see that your husband and I share some of the same bad qualities.
Both can waste a lot of time on computer games. Both hate any change, good or bad. I too do the same things over and over knowing the results will be the same. I have stayed in unbearable work conditions for far too long. Even with piles of clothes I wear the same ones day after day til they get holes ~ then they become sleeping clothes.
And sometimes, maybe saddest of all, as I lay in bed at night and am being completely honest with myself, I kind of like my little rut. It feels safe.
I like your last sentence a lot ~ same old, same old, 24/7/365 that makes us grow old in our spirits. That's a fresh perspective that just lit a little light. :)
Tillie
Posted: 02 October 2013 - 09:43 AM
Good morning :)
Internet was off line yesterday morning so I started doing all the little tasks on my To-Do list. As usual in real life, other things came up that needed my attention. So was running at full speed all day. Fell into bed by 7pm totally exhausted. It was a good day. :D
Looks like everybody has a lot to do too.
Karl, I did voluntary homelessness. It was wonderful and very freeing. Lived for a year in a camper shell on a truck. Traveled around till we ran out of money. Had put all my stuff into a storage locker, including my car. Life was good. ;)
I think one of the biggest obstacles in my hoarder's thinking is that he prefers living in a rut. Hates any kind of change, good or bad. He will stay in his rut being miserable about everything rather than make any kind of change. When I decluttered inside the house and painted he just hated hated hated it. But it was so much nicer then. So much more relaxing and enjoyable to be in here. He wears the same clothes till they are too ragged and ratty to be decent. He will stay at a terrible work place till he gets fired & forced to leave. He will continue to do the same things the same way even though he always gets the same bad results. I like changes for the better and like working toward a goal to achieve these changes. I feel that it is the "same old, same old" day after day, year after year, 24/7/365, that makes us grow old in our spirits.
Dianne
Posted: 02 October 2013 - 08:59 AM
Today will be minimum upkeep with daily chores. I really want to spend a big chunk of time cleaning all around my bed. The hallway to get to my bedroom still needs work but that's coming along. Laura got so much done in her room yesterday while I was riding around. She was able to throw out a lot of paper trash, college papers, magazines.
The new mattresses are coming next week. It's been much, much more change than I'm used to in the past few weeks around here. Even though it's all for the good I just don't do well with change. Last night I ate a whole pizza. That may have been a first.
Dianne
Posted: 02 October 2013 - 08:50 AM
Karl, those are good, logical thoughts untainted by fear or panic. I admire you so much!
What do you mean by *voluntarily homeless*? Staying with friends til you get settled in a new place? What would you do with your possessions?
You're right in that any of those choices require a clean-up and purging of too much stuff.
Have you spoken to the landlords about any change of mind?
Dianne
Posted: 02 October 2013 - 08:41 AM
Roxie, decompression was exactly what I was thinking of too. I'm trying to give myself a day afterwards where I can huddle or take a long drive. Just not have to deal with people too much.
Yesterday I passed a new Petsmart and went in to check it out. Got some dog treats and saw 2 orange kittens in the adoption center. Laura has been dreaming or adopting 2 orange brothers for years now. She has the names picked out. The group really wanted this pair adopted together as they were well bonded at 5 months. I struggled with that for 10 minutes before finally leaving the store. I also put back a Maine Coon calendar. Since my commitment not to take in any more animals had been so strong I was surprised at how I was actually considering more cats just because I was stressed.
But I got thru another 24 hours without any real damage and today feel fresh. My solution for the future will be to make sure repair appts are well spaced and have a plan for stress release lined up.
As much as I had been looking forward to a good, strong, hot shower I haven't done it yet. Bad habits maybe?
Your plan to allow an extra day to recover from travelling sounds like a good one. It will be wonderful for you to reconnect with people you love. You know we love you here too but I know it isn't the same as real people.
And good for you for getting back up from the backslide! Part of what's great about this group is that we are not only learning to clean our hoards but we are learning the life skills needed to cope with daily living. Some time to lick our wounds or tuck in and hide a bit and then instead of continuing a downward spiral we have the strength to pull up again. That's a whole lot better than where any of us were a year ago.
Karl
Posted: 02 October 2013 - 05:49 AM
Thoughts so far:
I need to find out what the rent is like in other homes in this area.
I need to decide how I feel about staying here, vs finding another home in the area, vs moving to another part of the country, vs living a "voluntarily homeless" lifestyle.
Since all options require me to complete the cleanup anyway, I should continue working on it.
MayMay
Posted: 02 October 2013 - 01:17 AM
Thanks Dianne, Matt, Cory, and Snuggles are adjusting really well. They've actually always loved it at my boyfriend's house; even before I moved in. :)
Roxie
Posted: 01 October 2013 - 06:33 AM
Another strange array of sleep and wake hours, but here I am. Better today.
Yesterday, I did get some garbage out and did a sink full of dishes, and ran an errand. More to do today. Also need to go to the grocery store. I seem to have a sudden craving for honey glazed peanuts. LOL
Ali, so good to see you posting again. Missed you. What are you able to get done? What can we do to keep encouraging you?
Karl, another wacky sleep bro, huh? Thinking of you and proud of you for getting done what you have already. Any thoughts on moving?
Tillie, tell him NOW on the computer. hehe Stomp stomp stomp.
Diane, where are you? You okay?
Dianne, I understand how you can feel like you need to hunch your shoulders, curl in a ball and bat away intruders. I get it. But, you are getting some GREAT stuff done that needs to get done. Go outside for a little while. The change of venue can help you decompress. Figure something else that can help sooth you and do it. A massage? Maybe buy yourself some speakers? :D
I'm wondering if you've been able to take a strong shower yet. Laughed at your brother's description of your shower. Having been without a shower for years, I'd love a really good one. I just now at this point need to clean out that bathroom again and I can have one.
I've been on a bad slide back downward, but am determined to wipe myself off and get back in gear. I have a reunion October 18-20 and I have lots to do before going. I'm also worried about how I will handle traveling but I'll deal with that at the time. I'm going a day early so I can recover from travel if needed, or explore Albuquerque if not. These are people from my overseas high school that I love and who love me back. Thank God there is still someone left who does.
Dianne
Posted: 01 October 2013 - 04:55 AM
Congratulations, MayMay! Taking it to the next level is a big step. How are your fur babies adjusting to their new home?
MayMay
Posted: 01 October 2013 - 12:14 AM
Hi everyone! :D
Sorry I haven't been posting a lot lately. :(
I just recently moved in with my boyfriend. So I've been super busy with packing all my stuff up from the apartment and moving it all to my boyfriend's house; and then unpacking all my stuff after I moved it there. :)
Mariana
Posted: 30 September 2013 - 05:31 PM
Sort of missing MayMay's fun posts. Anybody hear from her since she got back from her adventure/project in LA?
Karl
Posted: 30 September 2013 - 03:54 PM
I needed a bit more sleep than I'd thought. I'm now awake and fed, and I'll probably be keeping an eye on the chat room all day, so feel free to join me there.
Dianne
Posted: 30 September 2013 - 11:01 AM
I'm holed up with the computer right now. The guys are working in the basement. I had to run out and buy a power strip/surge protector. I know there's one around here somewhere. Buying 2, 3, 4 times.......one of the bummers of hoarding.
There's not enough outlets or whatever they need for all the equipment in that room. I'm terrified of fires; the next door neighbor's house burned to the ground years ago.
Because not all of our outlets in the house work I knew I needed to get an electrician in and do some work. We have two of those boxes the electrical stuff works from and I know nothing. I checked on Angie's list and will get someone out in Oct.
The Chemlawn guys came today unexpectedly and the dogs are going nuts. The mattress guy called and wanted to deliver the beds tomorrow. I said wait til next week. The washer is supposed to be fixed again on Thursday. The water treatment person wants to come back and check the system at the end of the week. Although on one level I am thankful it's getting done on another level it's too many people.
Roxie, I don't know how you did it when the cleaning crew worked on your house for days at a time. Big high fives to you!!
Tillie
Posted: 30 September 2013 - 09:31 AM
Good morning Ya'll :D
So nice to catch up with so many of you today! :D
Hi Roxie :) He knows I want/need a new computer but he hasn't found one he likes yet at a price he is willing to pay. When he does it should be a good one because he has several degrees in computer technology. Before this laptop here, he always made me a computer out of pieces parts. LOL Hope you feel better soon. Rest, drink lots of water and try to eat well. (((hugs)))
Hi Ali :) OHIO like the state. Only Handle It Once.
When I wonder what to do in situations I always think "what would Granma do?" ;)
Hi Dianne :) YAAHOO!!! for getting good water pressure! :D I hate taking showers where it feels like you are just standing around in fog. Plus good water pressure where you let the hot water hit your neck & shoulders & back really helps to relax the muscles and easy stiffness. :)
Have lots of plans for today but don't know what I will be able to accomplish. Cats have been fed. Want to get out there & hose down the outside walls, wash screens & windows and hose off the porches. Waiting to see how well the ibuprofen works this morning. If I can get this done today then I can just slide the rest of the week.
Happy Monday & keep posting! :D
Dianne
Posted: 30 September 2013 - 07:41 AM
Ali, good to see you back on the boards. I miss a lot by not going to chat. Please post here more often. {{{hugs}}}
Roxie, I get totally mixed up on my days too. My dad used to keep a big calendar on his dining room table and write on it everyday. That was his way of keeping track of days since he didn't use a computer.
It sounds like you might be getting the flu. Whatever it is be sure and listen to your body. Get all the rest you need and keep plenty of soup in the house. Can anyone help you feed the kitties?
take good care {{{hugs}}}
Dianne
Posted: 30 September 2013 - 07:31 AM
Getting ready for another invasion.
Water treatment guys are coming today to install a pressure pump. I think that's what it is. But I'll have them use the basement entrance and that whole area is good. Well, not behind some closed doors but anywhere they need to go. I already cleaned the furnace room area where the water treatment system went and this will be an addition to that.
I'm really looking forward to a shower with good pressure. My brother who passed away stayed with me when he was visiting years ago. Actually after the first night he preferred to stay in his RV in my driveway. He said taking a shower here was like having somebody piss on him. Tonight I'm gonna stand there for 10 minutes and let the whole bathroom steam up. :)
ali
Posted: 30 September 2013 - 12:25 AM
Karl, Just checking on to see if you might be around to meet in the chat room. I'll sign into chat & if you are around hope you will join me. You have inspired me because you are able to reach out to friends for help as well as have social events in your home. Most of us don't let anyone inside. Please take care of yourself & try to keep your spirits up. This is a chance for a brand new start in a new place. Also I hope you know how many people on these boards care about you. You have inspired us with more than Ice Cream.
Roxie- I call that feeling after over sleeping a "sleep hangover". My sleep patterns are messed up also. I can fall asleep instantly when sitting in a chair and purring cats in my lap are just like a sleeping pill. Then I get up and move to the bed & I'm wide awake.
Tillie - What were the initials you mentioned in Chat for only touching something once. OTIO ???? I am trying to TLT (Think Like Tillie) & ask myself WWTD ? (What Would TIllie Do) when I struggle with decisions.
And I feel like I am making a speech at an award show but I really do appreciate all the work you all are doing and all the support from you to inspire me to make my life better. We are always works in progress. Thank goodness for a chance at a Do Over. Please everyone, be kind to yourselves. "May your own thoughts be gentle upon yourself." (Jonathan Lockwood Huie)
Roxie
Posted: 29 September 2013 - 10:35 PM
Karl, I am sorry to hear about the notice from the LL, especially after all your work. On the other hand, could this be an opportunity for you? I mean, a new place, the moving process, could that be impetus to purge and clean even more and start fresh?
Tillie, I am laughing out loud to hear how you are kicking butt with your hoarder. Next I'd like you to tell him you need and want and are going to have a new computer NOW. If he can play all day on his computer, you are equally entitled to be able to do so on your NEW one. He could even help you pick one out (and wake up to costs) but you WILL get one. Kick butt. I'm so proud of you. And I think he did learn something on cleaning out that computer. He doesn't have to hoard food in order to have enough to eat! Now send him a link to Suze Orman and he can learn about finances.
Diane, I am happy to read that you keep on doing repairs and purging. You are even feeling good about some of the changes. That is so great to hear!
Dianne, I give you permission to buy yourself a couple of inexpensive speakers for your computer now. I bought a pair of Logitech ones that work just fine and were under $30. I had gone YEARS without speakers, silly me.
Today I woke up after 15 hours of sleep, completely befuddled and feeling awful. It has taken me over an hour to feel even remotely human or to function. UGH. I did take meds and brush teeth late as it is. I've had to check online to see what day it even was. The cats tried to dive bomb me awake or scratch-poke at my face to get up sooner but I wasn't having any of that. I even sat upright on my bed, leaning on my arms and coughing, and feeling I could fall asleep again just like that. I had to keep bending over to breathe in order to stagger into the kitchen to fix coffee and feed the cats. Another UGH. I'm better now but still having vertigo and fatigue. Guess today is a waste. There's tomorrow.
Hugs to all. Love you.
Dianne
Posted: 29 September 2013 - 08:47 PM
hey Karl, looked for you in chat but have to get to bed early here.
Let me know if you get be in chat sometime on Monday.
Tillie
Posted: 29 September 2013 - 05:45 PM
HI Diane :D Great to hear from you. WAY TO GO! on what you did do. "See" you soon in chat. :D
diane
Posted: 29 September 2013 - 05:43 PM
Sounds like you are motivated Dianne, hooray for you. Tillie your persistence is paying off. We have too many grey days with rain, I am laying around playing dumb computer games. Need to do dishes at least. I did get tarps over all fire wood, bought brown tarps so don't look too bad. Picked up all the blue spruce tiny cones and put them along the steps in back yard, mud slide zone, looks better with cones and needles. worked in garage a few hours yesterday, did some yard work. Planned to work in here all day, and have done not one thing, boo, hiss. Yesterday did go through lots of old papers, and burned all the ones that were to be tossed, fun having fire in yard, burn season started since so much rain. We have had heavy winds, oone piece of roof blew off, so will fix it tomorrow. Put all yard decor in shed yesterday. Guess I will get off my butt and do dishes before chat.
Tillie
Posted: 29 September 2013 - 05:42 PM
WAY TO GO! Dianne :D
I give all my excess bags, both plastic & paper, to the charity thrift shop. They use them to bag the shopper's purchases. ;)
Finally convinced my hoarder to take a big bunch there too. Really helps reduce a lot of clutter and they really appreciate them.
Dianne
Posted: 29 September 2013 - 03:23 PM
I am officially a major bag hoarder. At least it's somewhat neat now. Brown paper bags folded nicely inside others. Piles of plastic bags are in boxes. Organizing the hoard. I hope by seeing so much of one thing together it will be incentive to say, I have more than enough, I can let some go. And if it needs a little more thought at least they're cleaned up. I'm seeing parts of the familyroom floor for the first time in years. Some of the bags were from stores that have since closed.
Found a lot of textbooks that are in the garage now. I'll be taking those to the community college and leave them in a box with a FREE sign on it.
Tillie
Posted: 29 September 2013 - 11:25 AM
Good morning :)
Cats have been fed. I think my plan to keep making him toss all the spoiled food he has in the fridge just may be working, finally. Yesterday at the grocery store he put very little in the cart. Usually he has it over flowing with stuff. On the way to the truck he said to me "I can just come back here if I run out of food this week and get some more." I said "yes, you can always come back and get more food when you run out." I think he may finally be starting to understand that he does not need to have so much food at home that he can't eat it all before it goes bad. :)
My plans for today... Try to get him to keep working on decluttering the carport. Also need to drain and cover the evaporative cooler.
Hoping to see you ALL in chat today at 5:00pm PST
:D
Tillie
Posted: 29 September 2013 - 10:46 AM
O.K. Karl :)
Please take care and keep in touch with us here. (((hugs)))
Karl
Posted: 29 September 2013 - 08:37 AM
On second thought -- seeing as how I'm still awake, and my suggested time is only 5h 20m away -- I think I'd better sleep through. I'll be back sometime Sunday night, and I'll either get on chat at that time, or I'll post a note saying when I will be on.
Karl
Posted: 28 September 2013 - 09:51 PM
I'm about to leave for the evening, and I've also got plans for tomorrow, so I'll be missing the regular Sunday chat. But I'll try to stop in at noon PDT (3pm EDT), if possible.
Dianne
Posted: 28 September 2013 - 03:53 PM
Karl, I have to leave chat. I'll stop in late tonight ~ like 11:30 pm EST or later.
I'd really like to talk to you. If you read this can you leave a message here about what time you can chat?
Thanks ~~ Dianne
Tillie
Posted: 28 September 2013 - 10:33 AM
Hi Dianne :) (((HUGS))) I'm sure that Karl knows that we do love him. That he is an important part of our little online family. (((hugs))) I am hoping with all my heart that the LLs have a change of heart.
Dianne
Posted: 28 September 2013 - 10:32 AM
Tillie looks like you're on. Can you come into chat now?
Dianne
Posted: 28 September 2013 - 10:31 AM
I just did something with Java to get into chat. I'm going to leave myself in today and will be checking the computer. Karl will you join me there when you read this?
Tillie
Posted: 28 September 2013 - 10:30 AM
Mornin ;Z
This old laptop computer is crashing. I keep trying to keep it running with duct tape, hot glue gun and chewing gum. ;P
Wanted/needed to wipe out the inside of the fridge yesterday. His shelf was stuffed full of mystery food. Made him remove it all and evaluate it. By the time he was finished there was only a very few items fit to eat returned to the fridge. Making him take all that wasted food out to the garbage can and tossing it might let him know how much food & money he wastes.
Need to go into town today. Have my grocery shopping list all made. :D
Have two bags of DVDs to sell to the pawn shop too. Now the shelf where I store my movies is looking neat & tidy and there's now room for any new movies I may get. I can also trade my movies at the pawn shop for ones there I haven't seen yet. Most all my DVDs & Blurays come from there. It's a real sweet deal :) And I don't end up trying to organize and store a hoard of movies in my room.
The cats have been fed. Now time to get me dressed & out the door. TTYL :D
Dianne
Posted: 28 September 2013 - 10:27 AM
Oh No, Karl, why??!!
She told you at the last check that you were doing so well! What else did she want you to have done? Didn't she even offer to help? Do you think asking for the extension made her flip?
60 days is a long time. Can you get so much done that she will cancel the notice?
I know we're just an online group but is there anything at all we can do to help?
I hope it doesn't sound stupid to say we love you.
Tillie
Posted: 28 September 2013 - 09:26 AM
NO!!!! Karl :( (((HUGS)))
Karl
Posted: 28 September 2013 - 12:25 AM
I just heard back from Mrs Landlord. Not only is the request for extension denied, but she says her husband will be serving me with a 60-day notice to terminate tenancy.
Roxie
Posted: 27 September 2013 - 12:23 PM
Hi, all. Dianne, I have not found the videos referenced earlier, but I'll keep looking.
where she talks about letting go of sentimental items. Figured some folks here might enjoy the blog.
This morning I dropped off two bags of clothes at my hairdresser's place for her church closet, plus made an appointment for next week.
Then I took two bags of recycle materials to the recycle center.
Then I dropped off some cat tests at the vet's office that I'd ordered for the cat shelter.
Then I stopped at a store I'd never gone to before and did some grocery shopping. It is enough shopping to get me by a few more days and was interesting just as a change. Not the place for "real" grocery shopping though.
I put away all the items I'd purchased.
My sleep has been crazy like Kar''s. Sometimes up all night, sleeping days. Or splitting sleep time into chunks of time. I think it's the season change doing it.
Did my usual teeth, meds, and took out a bag of garbage to the bin.
Little by little.
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Tillie
Posted: 27 September 2013 - 11:43 AM
Good morning :) TGIF!
Hi Dianne :) WAY TO GO! on another load to the dump! :D Please accept that this will be a stressful time for you. The more that you feel this stress and accept it as a normal part of your decluttering the easier it will become for you. Keep your main goal in mind. Breathe. Take breaks when you reach your physical or emotional limit. But most of all don't give up. Once you have your home clean and clear you will soon begin to experience a peace of mind, an inner calm when you are relaxing at home. This is all a big major change for you but the rewards will be so very well worth it. ;) (((HUGS)))
Hi Karl :) The best way to get the sleep you need to function properly is to set a firm bed time and force yourself to obey it. WTG! on the things you have accomplished! :D Since you seem to get a lot of "HAVE-TOs accomplished when you do chat challenges, get into this chatroom and see if this helps you get more accomplished. takeonestepatatime The chat link is in the top blue bar.
Today I will be doing a few things to get ready for the weekend. Hoping I don't have to be nasty again just to get him away from his computer. :(
Have a fantastic Friday everybody :D
Karl
Posted: 27 September 2013 - 04:25 AM
I never made it to bed -- I ended up staying up all night. I read a few more sections in the book "Stuff", but I was having trouble keeping focused. Now I've been up for 34h and I feel like I've gotten my second wind, but I'm going to go to bed soon anyway.
I got some outdoor chores done, and cleaned up about 600 files on my hard drive, though that's not relevant to my deadline. I also moved some magazines to a better "home" location, and freed up a box which I'm now using for paper to be recycled. I need another container for the papers that I want to save; just stacking them will lead to problems.
Dianne
Posted: 26 September 2013 - 07:56 PM
My brother came today and he and I and Laura got two truckloads to storage. I already had ready what I wanted to take but it was stressful to have his help.
He brought a dust mask and although he didn't wear it the mask was on his head. He used the front door and I was a little worried that neighbors would see stuff getting hauled out. Because he has more energy he was ready to work fast and non-stop. I finally said I have to sit. I was grateful for his help but by the time we got it all in the unit I said thanks we can handle it from here. I gave him a load of books and a loaf of bread.
I was stressed with Laura sorting and packing books and said let's leave, I'm cooked for today.
Earlier I had made another run to the dump.
My feelings are mixed. Good to have stuff out but the physical push past my usual pace and stress at having someone else work alongside wasn't good.
Hi Karl :) Good idea asking for an extension. Maybe a little more time will help with the motivation.
Been awake since 5:00am. Not my idea. Anyways... It has finally warmed up a little this morning. Now it's 40 degrees. Have no real plans for today. Need to do some tidying up around here but will find something to do to keep myself amused. I think I am bored & lonely. ?
Talk to ya all later. :D
Karl
Posted: 26 September 2013 - 05:52 AM
I got 50m of sorting done tonight, plus taking the trash and recycling out to the curb. It's not nearly a good enough rate, though. I'll probably have to ask for an extension.
