you have two choices.

Continue to hide till the plumbing fails and then you will really be in the ditch.

Take the bull by the horns and get some help from the experts who understand why you suffer from Disposophohbia and how to lead you out of the problem you have made.

I am so scared right now. I don't know what to do. My apartment is unlivable. I'm currently staying at my parents. I don't know how to get my place cleaned up without my landlord finding out. Does anyone have any experience in this area?