Thank you, Tillie! Yes, it is a vicious circle! And depending how depressed i am.when looking at things to possibly throw out, my 'good - bad feeling' from them vary, which makes me not trust my mood to decide.
I usually dont feel depressed when.im.out, which makes me feel.much of my depression is frommy place being so aweful. I keep trying to weigh out hiring my neighbor, but getting help...itd be a trade off of stresses.
This morning i read a.list of 10 things not to say to a depressed person. She said each of them.and more very cruelly. It has really knocked me down. Her sister commited suicide a coupke years ago. It surprises me she is still so harsh with me after what her family members had happen. Sorry to keep harping on her, but i should have known.not to continue to explain.and defend myself...it just gave her more ammo towards me.
Im contemplating going on drugs just to focus on my place. I am terrified of these dangerous new drug side effects and dont really want to illegal drugs...i need to do something different, cuz im.not getting anywhere.sorry again for the typos...