I'm new to this forum but I am desperate to vent.
My partner is a hoarder, clutterer, and shopping addict and it's making me miserable. Her nine year old child is developing cluttering behaviors too. I pay all the household bills and without my support, they'd be living on the street.
We all know the behaviors, so I won't go into details about the hoarding or cluttering.
I've tried to address the issue in every sort of way from constructive and supporting, to being the maid, to being angry, to making ultimatums. But the result is always the same- they curse at me, call me names, mock me, and gaslight me. The mocking hurts the most. I am allowed no space in our home to be just mine except for a few square feet where I have a small fish aquarium.
It makes me want to die. I don't mean hurt myself. I mean just be dead inside so I can tune it all out.
I just needed to say that to someone because I feel so alone and sad.